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Happy New Year (Happy Old Boobies) -Barcelona, Spain
UPDATED FROM 325cc
1 year post
2 years after BA surgery and almost 2 years after breast removal
$2,300
I know it's been a long time since I posted here but I really didn't feel brave enough to do it. My mother passed away like 2 months after my last update and everyday since then everything has been a nightmare for me.
Now, I don't feel any better, as my life has totally changed for the worst. But I decided I had to do an update.
My breasts are ok. I definetly feel that they are not the same as before the surgery, but they were not really beautiful to begin with. But luckily they are the same size as they were and there is no skin rippling or anything like that. They just look good :)
My muscle is another story. The distortion that I once felt is still there, but I have to say it is waaaay better than it was recently after the surgery. Nowadays I can only feel it in my left breast, and only if I do strange movements I can feel like my breast tissue is somehow adhered with the muscle and it moves with it. It's annoying but it's not a really big deal for me anymore.
My scars look really good. One of them is definetly more visible (right side), but the other is almost invisible. I was treating them with "Trofolastin", which are like some kind of bandaids that helps with scarring, and they have improved a lot. I keep wearing short sleeves anyway because I don't feel confident enough to show them off.
I had my 1 year post explantation visit with my surgeon. She said that everything looks fine to her and she was really kind to me. But, however, that day was really hard for me and I ended up feeling really bad. But sometimes I feel like that because of all that I have been through lately.
Overall, I'm glad I removed the implants; but somehow I have not been able to embrace my body again. I don't know if time will help me, but I feel I have to tell the truth here, because I always did. Honestly, sometimes I think "why did I have to remove the implants? Why can't I feel happy with them? There is a lot of people with implants who look and feel good, why can't I just be like them?". But then I remember how odd I felt with them, and how strange and unnatural they look... and I understand that implants were not the answer for me. And this makes me feel a lot worse, because then there's not another answer for me but to learn to love myself the way I am. And I find it really difficult.
I feel I have a lot more to tell than this. But for today I'll end up here. I hope my review was helpful and, maybe I'll post some recent pictures later on.
Now, I don't feel any better, as my life has totally changed for the worst. But I decided I had to do an update.
My breasts are ok. I definetly feel that they are not the same as before the surgery, but they were not really beautiful to begin with. But luckily they are the same size as they were and there is no skin rippling or anything like that. They just look good :)
My muscle is another story. The distortion that I once felt is still there, but I have to say it is waaaay better than it was recently after the surgery. Nowadays I can only feel it in my left breast, and only if I do strange movements I can feel like my breast tissue is somehow adhered with the muscle and it moves with it. It's annoying but it's not a really big deal for me anymore.
My scars look really good. One of them is definetly more visible (right side), but the other is almost invisible. I was treating them with "Trofolastin", which are like some kind of bandaids that helps with scarring, and they have improved a lot. I keep wearing short sleeves anyway because I don't feel confident enough to show them off.
I had my 1 year post explantation visit with my surgeon. She said that everything looks fine to her and she was really kind to me. But, however, that day was really hard for me and I ended up feeling really bad. But sometimes I feel like that because of all that I have been through lately.
Overall, I'm glad I removed the implants; but somehow I have not been able to embrace my body again. I don't know if time will help me, but I feel I have to tell the truth here, because I always did. Honestly, sometimes I think "why did I have to remove the implants? Why can't I feel happy with them? There is a lot of people with implants who look and feel good, why can't I just be like them?". But then I remember how odd I felt with them, and how strange and unnatural they look... and I understand that implants were not the answer for me. And this makes me feel a lot worse, because then there's not another answer for me but to learn to love myself the way I am. And I find it really difficult.
I feel I have a lot more to tell than this. But for today I'll end up here. I hope my review was helpful and, maybe I'll post some recent pictures later on.
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Replies (5)
November 18, 2015
Thank you for updating! I'm glad you are doing okay. Sorry that you have questions and doubts, I think that is common though. I hated my implants the entire time I had them (9 months) and recently explanted. It is easy to beat yourself up about it. There were times where I felt abnormal for not liking them and my body not being able to adapt to them. But the beauty in that is that we are all different and unique. Sending you blessings dear! Best of wishes on your road to self love
November 20, 2015
I'm sorry that you also had to pass through all of this, but at the same time I'm glad that you have realised quite early that implants were not for you. Thanks for writing and I hope you have a smooth recovery.
November 19, 2015
Thanks for the update. You look great!! At least now you can wear cute strappy bralettes and all the sexy lingere there is now a days for smaller chested chicks! I hope that you can learn to love yourself. I'm learning the same. I have read this book called "Shadows Before Dawn-Finding Self Love In Your Darkest Times" by Teal Swan. It has helped me a lot maybe it can help you!!
November 20, 2015
Thank you! And about the sexy lingerie... I'm not that confident with my body, and my breasts don't look good unless I wear push up or padded bras. But I have some that are quite cute :) and moreover I think I've learnt how to dress myself to look best with my small breast. Thanks for the book recommendation, I will check it out!
November 19, 2015
I also wondered why I couldn't get used to my implants like so many other women out there. I knew they weren't for me right away but I waited it out. For 4 years!!! And I beat myself about them the whole time. You made the right decision! Is sounds like you have some soul searching to do. Just remember you are beautiful inside and out!!
November 20, 2015
4 years is a pretty long period of time for having something inside you and not liking it! I can't imagine how you must had felt during all those years. I hope you're feeling and looking good now :) thank you for the sweet words
November 19, 2015
Please keep posting, your thoughts , pictures, ect.. You have no idea how many girls are living the same thing...
November 20, 2015
Thank you! I will keep doing it, and I hope I can help someone, as many other ladies here helped me during the tougher moments of my recovery.
UPDATED FROM 325cc
13 days post
13 days post-explant
Here I go! I'm 13 days post-op today and I feel great. Yeah, I had really bad days lately, due to the muscle distortion... but my best friend REALLY had helped me. She suggested me that I should not look my boobs or my "muscular distortion" until a day we previously decided - the day of the consultation with my surgeon. And I did. It really helped me a lot, I was able to do a lot of things without feeling so worried about the muscle thing.
The consultation was very disappointing; she was not clear at all, she didn't really say if it will improve or not... She only kept saying they'll look as they did before, so... I only wish they'll do some day (as well do the muscle).
A few days after the consultation, I looked at the "distortion" again and... yeah, it has changed. I don't know if it does for the worst or better, but it definetly changed. And for my breats, they look great! It's like I've never had surgery, except for the scars! I'm really impressed with the body's ability of healing.
Anyway, I'm again not looking at their "distortion" until the consultation with my psychiatrist (29th January), who wants to see me and talk to me about my feelings after explant. I don't know if I'll be capable of doing it, but I'm doing my best!
PS: And, as an anecdote. A part of my tongue had not recovered sensitivity since I woke up from anesthesia. I was also really upset with that, because it had been bothering me while eating, kissing or even talking. But, yesterday, my tongue suddenly woke up! Happy tongueeee now!!! yayyy
The consultation was very disappointing; she was not clear at all, she didn't really say if it will improve or not... She only kept saying they'll look as they did before, so... I only wish they'll do some day (as well do the muscle).
A few days after the consultation, I looked at the "distortion" again and... yeah, it has changed. I don't know if it does for the worst or better, but it definetly changed. And for my breats, they look great! It's like I've never had surgery, except for the scars! I'm really impressed with the body's ability of healing.
Anyway, I'm again not looking at their "distortion" until the consultation with my psychiatrist (29th January), who wants to see me and talk to me about my feelings after explant. I don't know if I'll be capable of doing it, but I'm doing my best!
PS: And, as an anecdote. A part of my tongue had not recovered sensitivity since I woke up from anesthesia. I was also really upset with that, because it had been bothering me while eating, kissing or even talking. But, yesterday, my tongue suddenly woke up! Happy tongueeee now!!! yayyy
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April 29, 2016
Gracias por compartir tu experiencia, me alegro mucho de que tu problema muscular mejorase tanto, y que hayas recuperado la forma y el volumen de tu pecho. Enhorabona!!
Has sido muy inteligente de explantarte tan pronto las prótesis!.
A disfrutar de tus pechos, a seguir cuidándote y amándote!
Saludos desde el sur! ;)
Has sido muy inteligente de explantarte tan pronto las prótesis!.
A disfrutar de tus pechos, a seguir cuidándote y amándote!
Saludos desde el sur! ;)
But I have to tell you that I think your breasts look soooo good. Anyone would be lucky to have them. I've had similar thoughts to you. It's hard to remember what the implants felt like, but I do remember how uncomfortable they were to sleep on or lay on the floor and do yoga. Laying back naked was also gross because they looked messed up. It is just so unhealthy to have an expiring plastic bag filled with crap under your muscle. You did the right thing!
I still can remember well how it felt to have the implants inside and, as you say, it's uncomfortable and disgusting... so I also think that I did the right thing for my breasts, for my body... and in the end, also for my mind (despite having really bad days).