19 Years Old, 98lb, 5'3", 28I

Hello, everyone, I'm Alice.

You all know the story... in 6th grade, my first bra was a C-cup; I grew, and, in 9th grade, I was a 32DDD. I played sports, but reluctantly. Running, gymnastics, and dance are all hobbies I dreamed of starting, but couldn't. My waist and hips fit size 0 dresses, but my bust barely squeezed into a size 6. Any non-clinging tops added 5 imaginary inches to my waist, and bikinis? Forget it. Finally, in 11th grade, I got properly fitted when the strapless bras at Victoria's Secret weren't supportive enough, and I needed one for my prom dress. I went to a specialty shop... turns out I was/am a 28I in US sizing for the Freya brand. (28G, in UK sizing.)

Here's what you don't know; AKA, why I've decided to document my journey.

1) I am much younger and smaller than the average BR candidate. I am 19, 5'3", and 98 lbs, with two 28I cantaloupes attached to my chest. (To put the sizing in more recognizable terms, I'm about the equivalent cup size of a 32 G or 34F, but on a much smaller frame.) Because of this, I had trouble finding others' stories which would hint at what my recovery and final results would be like. I hope my story will help others in this way.

2) I'm hesitant to state this next point, because it's not something I've said aloud, nor is it something I wish to "flaunt." But I did not see any blogs mentioning this, so I will. I have always had a tomboyish personality and do not think of myself as feminine or strictly aligned with the female gender. In the past, I'd even considered transitioning, but I've since decided against it. However, in this way, my large breasts affect me in relation to my self-image, beyond the toll on my confidence, back and neck, etc. I don't want them completely removed, but I'd like as much as possible removed, so that I'm more androgynous.


My surgery is tomorrow morning, and my only concerns are tissue death and that I'll remain "too large," in my mind, post-recovery. Best case, I'd like to be a 28C... More realistically, a 28D.

If tissue cannot be removed due to biological limitations (e.g., maintaining blood flow to the pedicle), I understand. My concern is my suregon will not remove tissue due to a difference in opinion of /cosmetic/ appeal. Tomorrow, before the procedure, I am going to clarify my preferences once again.

Well, that's a weight off my chest. (Haha, not quite yet, eh?)


Alice

I figure I'll update on each day the first week, then weekly until one-month, then monthly.

Surgery went smoothly, my PS hasn't told me the gram amount but I know it's upwards of 324g, since that was the minimum for my insurance. I also know she took more from the left than the right. Lastly, she told me she took out as much as she could while maintaining shape and blood flow, so... fingers crossed. From what I've seen with the nurses checking dressings, they're a little bigger than I would have liked, but with swelling, etc., it's way too early to tell. Patience.

I stayed overnight in the hospital. Glad I did. Nothing went wrong, but it was easier than coming back the next morning, plus the compression anklets prevented blot clots and the anti-bacterial IV probably reduced the chance of infection. The "bad" is that nurses will wake you every few hours to check your vitals, and the IV limits your hand movement. (Just a little uncomfortable, nothing major.) They kept checking my blood pressure because it hoovered around 80/40~45 the entire time, which, apparently, is low. I blame not eating, which was the hardest part of surgery thus far. I love food, especially breakfast, so not eating or drinking aftet midnight was a struggle. I brought books and a GameBoy but I didn't end up using them much; mainly slept.

Pain has been between a 5 and 6, with meds bringing it down to a 2. I think taking Arnica Montana in the days leading up to the surgery helped. The pain is either a general swelling/bruising achy feeling all over the breast area (probably from the compression bra), or little zapping feelings along the horizontal incisions (probably nerves regenerating.) If you draw a line along the verticak incision and along the horizontal incision coming inwards towards the center, that triangle is where I feel it the most, probably because the tension's tightest there. Sometimes I feel it along the outer edges of the horizontal incisions, though. But I don't have any nausea, nor did I coming out of anesthesia.

Mostly I'm tired and a little mentally foggy, but my range of arm motion is good, and I've had no trouble walking to the bathroom or peeing. No trouble eating, either, but I'm taking it slow. Softer foods and vitamin C. Since yesterday... soup, orange juice, yogurt, pudding, fruit, boiled egg, mashed potatos, green beans. Non-greasy, non-dairy (those tend to upset my stomach.)

Drains came out this morning. It didn't hurt, but it does feel strange. The most accurate way I can describe it is someone pulling a tampon out of your boob - you feel a foreign object that's slightly too big being pulled out of you.

My chest area feels completely fine, but I've had one hell of a throbbing migraine all morning. Threw up a little, too. Does anyone know if this is common, what could be causing it, or how to fix it? Took some Tylenol, which helped a little, and I've definately been getting enough rest. I personally think it has something to do with constipation.

Plan to shower for the first time this afternoon. We'll see how it goes.