Team Salzhauer!!!!! Surgery Day!!

Hi Ladies. Well, here is my journey. A mother of three, have been raising my babies myself for a long time. I am 40 now. Just re-married two weeks ago and my girls minus my 8 year old are big now. Man, I never thought that doing something for myself would carry so many damn demons. By that I mean I have been excited and scared since I made up my mind in Dec. 2012 to just do this...Well really my sister wanted to and I just thought hold up!!! This has been my thing since I read about it in 1998!!! She can't get this done and me not do it b/c of FEARS, FEARS - oh yea and more FEARS. I have anxiety. Real anxiety it's a disorder. To look at me nobody would ever know - I am always laughing joking and showing the world that life is silly but inside I am always having irrational fears of dying and not being here for my kids that I love so much. And now I am just going to do it. I have researched so much I just can't anymore...true fact things can happen but for all of us getting this done NOTHING WILL NOT HAPPEN.

So, some basics - I am 5'1, 150lbs and I am puerto rican and colombian born and raised in NYC. I have a decent shape but no ass what so ever. At least not in my eyes. My husband says I do but I have no idea what the hell he is looking at!!! When I showed him my wish pics he said: OMG DAMN and I said that is exactly what I want you to do when you see me LOL he said I do. You are all of these great things but I don't remember all that excitement over my ass!!!!! LMAO

In my culture you know booty, breast and curves is huge. I know we shouldn't go altering stuff but I have always felt insecure about my BUTT. I hate it. Seriously. So, I have found my doctor and he is Dr. Salzhauer. I believe him to be the greatest for me. Why? Because he's not just interested in selling me some [RS bleep] story about looking incredible. He was more concerned with my Anxiety and how to treat that so I can have a good quality of life minus all these fears. And then we spoke about embolisims, punctured organs, life threating mishaps and anesthia! LOL Once, we got over that hump we discussed the surgery.

He told me it will depend on the amount of fat he can get, how much my skin can handle so he can inject for a nice BIG BOOTY, he will even out my hips and he explained what's to be expected after. I believe he has done Stephanie Santiago's booty and few others that have come out looking AMAZING. I want something sexy, coke bottle but I am trying to also be realistic just in case. I won't be doing this again. I cannot deal with all these crazy fears all over again. So, God will make sure it happens once and excellent!!

I have not bought anything. I am wondering how I will drive to and from work because I am only taking off a week from work and I will have to get it cracking and I don't know how to pull that off!!! So, I have seen how wonderful the girls have been on here and supportive including myself b/c I will make myself available for anyone at any time of the day. If I can comfort anyone I will.

So, guys, here goes. Come take this journey with me please!!! All advice is needed and please stick with me b/c the closer the day I will get crazier!!

Love you ladies,

XOXOXOXOXXO

Me!

Ps. Dr. Salzhauer's staff is the bomb. You have to be when dealing with me. I have questions by the damn minute!! UGH. :/