40yo Gal Getting a MOMMY MAKEOVER! - Austin, TX

I was hesitant to ever do this surgery because it felt like a voluntary risk which just felt selfish to do as a mother. What if I died during surgery? What if there are complications and I end up unable to care for my kids for months!? What if I am unable to go back to work due to complications and I lose my job? I'm the primary bread winner!! We will have to sell the house, move into an apartment!!! Do I want to do this to my husband? Should I update my life insurance policy just to be safe?? What will they say at my funeral? "She died on the table getting her [RS bleep] done." This is a preview into what I like to think of as my snowball thinking, "what if" scenarios.
My husband was not thrilled at the idea of me doing this- he tried to talk me out of it. He loved me like I was and WHY spend all that money for something he deemed as unnecessary? But the fact of the matter is that us ladies still want to feel good about ourselves, even with a supportive spouse who loves us just as we are. I don't care about looking hot in a stupid bikini. I have worked hard my whole life to stay fit. I'm 5'3 and 128 lbs and I just want to feel good when I look in the mirror. That's it. After having a child, I lost all the weight but my skin hung off a bit and my boobs were tired and fell off the sides when I was on my back. It bothered me but I put up with it for 7 years after my baby was born. On my 40th birthday, I decided that if I wanted to do this surgery- then I would do it now while I'm still young and healthy. I decided right there on a mountain in Sedona on my 40th birthday that the time was NOW. I told the hubby it was happening. He hated it and was angry at first but eventually came around. I'm now almost 3 weeks out. He has still yet to see the new me. I choose to keep things covered until I'm a little less Frankenstein-like. I'm progressing well but still in recovery mode. I write this because I want any guilt-ridden mommies to know that you are not alone- there is NOTHING wrong with giving yourself this gift! You are not selfish. Oh and I have a little girl. I didn't want to lie and I didn't want to alarm her. Here is what I told her, "Mommy had some stuff move around in her body when she was big and pregnant and the doctor fixed it. I have stitches and ouchies on my belly but I will be all better real soon." Her response? "Okay, I'll take care of you mommy- can I play with your cane?"

Feeling good-slept great for the first time last night. One drain down and one to go. Hopefully it comes out Friday! Boobs still super tight first thing in the morning and swelling at the end of the day along with a sore back. I'm hoping the 4lbs I've gained isn't permanent?!