Ready for the Burden to Be Lifted.

so i know i have completely neglected this and i am so upset about it. Since going back to school in january, i have been going nonstop. i guess ill try and update as much as i can. in december i started to have some complications. i believe a stitch spit out in a bad way on the seam of my scar. it created and open wound. it was not comfortable or pretty. thankfully it wasn't anything out of the ordinary. it did slow down my healing process a bit. i was keeping gauze on it everyday and cleaning it with a saline solution everyday. btw always get non stick gauze. its wayyyyyy better on open wounds. regular gauze sticks. BAD. and it hurts to pull it off. anyways i had to wear a sports bra for a little while longer. also when i first got back to school, it was so difficult trying to do things for myself and asking help. I'm very independent in most parts of my life, so i hated being limited on what i could do. slowly i started to heal even though the scar didn't heal very pretty. it still bothers me a bit today. I'm wearing underwire so i imagine that it irritates it a bit. also i tried using me derma scar gel on it and it made my scar feel like the skin was pulling at the scar site. it was also, i don't recommend it. but other than that I am absolutely 100% happier. i am so much more comfortable. I feel normal and proportionate lol i will say i am guilty of becoming a little obsessed with crop tops now. ha my friends say i still have big boobs but they are small to me! ha right now i believe i am a 34 DD. its only been about 6 months, so I'm pretty sure ill still go down a little not too much though. i know it take at least a year. i still also get a little sting now and then. i think its the nerves. but other than that i feel wonderful! hope this helps all you ladies planning on getting one soon. i was nervous i would be too small or i would just look worse. but that is nothing to worry about. as long as you trust your doctor and feel comfortable with them, they will make you look like a million bucks!

if any questions I'm happy to answer them!

so if any of you remember i was having a stitch that was trying to push itself out. well on christmas day i felt a pulling of some sort under my left breast and just thought it was the surgical glue. so i just too that off and it felt a little better. well after i did that the drainage for worse and i started bleeding more and more. i finally went to the doctor yesterday and he got out the stitch. now there is this gross hole that just keeps on bleeding. he says that is normal because that is just the new skin trying to heal now. but I'm super nervous because its a good amount of blood and I'm not okay around blood at all. this all happened yesterday so i don't expect to heal in a day, but i have this pain in the area that i just want to go away. my right breast seems to be fine. just a little sore since i think its dropping more. its just frustrating this is happening because i start school on jan 6th and its in another city. i mean 21/2 hours away isn't bad, but i can't come up every weekend for a doctor's appointment. i don't know I'm just a bit worried, that i won't have access to my doctor when i really need him. I'm just praying everything will go smoothly after this.

if you have had any kind of experience with this, please reassure me that it'll will be okay.

oh and happy new year everyone!

found this article! remember ladies, you are making this choice for yourself! if anyone says anything negative, screw them!
http://www.cosmopolitan.com/advice/health/breast-reduction-worst-decision