Nervous Gastric Sleeve Mama - NZ

After months of research I nervously approached my husband to float the idea of having a gastric sleeve. He (skinny man) didn't understand and told me he loves me the way l am. I explained to him that this has been a burden for me since I was a small child and reminded him that my whole family have major weight problems. My personal motivation is that I do t want to pass on the food battles to my beautiful three year old daughter. So I asked my dr who he would recommend and he said Richard Babor. I went to his rooms, weighed in and was JUST on the right side of insurance contributing towards my surgery. I found his manner pleasant and he was very informative. I have also me with the dietician who was AWESOME. She was not judgmental in any way and so supportive and realistic. I'm now on the presurgery diet of Optifast. I've lost 6kg in 6 days. Pretty ridiculous. I'm down with flu but sticking to it. Today I could have hoed into the meaty stew my husband was eating but that's been about it (meaty stew wouldn't normally get me so excited...) will keep you updated and post pics.
All time high weight (3mths after giving birth to son): 128kg
Pre-Optifast: 119.8kg
Today 113.8kg
Height: 172cm

Wow. In one weeks time I'll be checking in to hospital for my sleeve. I'm really excited but truthfully feeling scared to leave my 3 year old daughter. She really needs her Mummy at the moment and the thought of something going wrong and me not being here for her anymore is unbearable. She has verbal dyspraxia and I'm one of few people who can understand her. My 9 month old son? He's fine!
So far since being on the presurgery diet I've lost 8 kg which is nearly 18 pounds. I've found optifast is awesome and quite easy once you get past day 4. I have cheated twice over the past month. We had family lunch after church on Sunday and one Friday night I had one piece of my husbands pizza. WAS SO GOOD. I'm enjoying my slimmer self and beginning to get back into more of my wardrobe.
I'm praying for my surgery for a great result, quick recovery and no leakage. I just want to be the best Mum I can for my two babies.

Oh dear it seems I'm very good at dodging the camera bc there aren't many photos of me around! I've found some shockers from work that will suitably supply dramatic before shots!