I Have Been Waiting for This my Whole Life!! :) - Atlanta, GA

Hi, my name is Michelle :)

I am 31 yrs old and I live in Atlanta, Georgia. I am scheduled for 375cc silicone, under the chest muscle this coming Wednesday and I could NOT be more excited! I am married for ten years with a nine yr old daughter.

I am 5 feet tall and 120 lbs and I am not honestly sure what my bra size is. My guess would be an A cup but a 12 yr old boy kind of A cup lol they are THERE just not much.

I have been self conscious about my breasts all my life. Not just bc they are small but I always knew the way they were shaped was off too. All my friends had rounder breasts, even the small ones. Mine were round too but not AS round, they seemed to be a little - pointier, for lack of better words. But I just figured they come in all shapes and sizes and wrote it off as bad luck.

I got pregnant and gained about 50 lbs, topped off at 180 lbs in a size 14 jeans. The ONLY good thing about being fat was that my [RS bleep] looked a LOT nicer! lol They were bigger and rounder and just looked better in general.

A couple years ago, I made a commitment to lose the weight and I did (I attached a before and after) but boyyyy did my [RS bleep] suffer lol one is clearly bigger and higher than the other and they are both just plain small.

When I went for my consult, my dr informed my that my breast were ever SO SLIGHTLY tuberous (google that if that is foreign to you) and then it all made sense to me. Why they always seemed to be shaped differently than all my friends'.

Anyway, as my title says - I feel like I have been waiting for this day my whole life and I can't believe it's nearly here!

I filled all my RX's today - here is the list:

TRANSDERM-SCOP 1.5 MG/72HR - Nausea patch before surgery
KETOROLAC 10 MG TABLET - NSAID for pain (anti-inflammatory)
CEPHALEXIN 250 MG CAPSULE - Antibiotic for after the surgery
DIAZEPAM 5 MG TABLET - Valium for anxiety on the day of surgery
RANITIDINE 150 MG TABLET - Zantac to reduce chances of reflux during intabation
METOCLOPRAMIDE 10 MG TABLET - Also used to reduce gastroesophageal reflux
PROMETHAZINE 25 MG TABLET - Nausea for after the surgery
HYDROCODON-ACETAMINOPH 7.5-500 - Vicodin for after the surgery

And I also got one of those back pillow things with arms. I also bought some canned soup and jello and bottled water. I stopped by Goodwill and bought a few XL button up shirts because I am told trying to put a shirt on over your head is NOT fun. I was also told to buy one additional bra aside from the one they give me bc it's really painful to not have any support for them when you're in the shower but you obviously don't want to get the bra wet and be stuck having to wear a wet bra. So I was told to get a spare I could kinda hang in the shower and switch in and out of.

I guess that is why I am posting here - of course we all obsessively google when we start this whole process and the more details and pics and advice we can find to comfort our doubts and anxieties and answer our many questions, the better!

I do have some concerns, but I am way more excited than nervous but there are a few...

1) The recovery process - How badly will it actually hurt? How LONG will I be in real pain? I am a runner and I work out a couple times a week in the gym, the thought of being on the bench a few weeks terrifies me!

2) There is a settling period. They aren't going to look "right" for a couple months at least and even though I know that, I just know I am going to freak out when I look at them for the first time and they are all mis-shapen and swollen and all "Frankenstein-ish" I know every day I will take pics and obsess over whether they look better or worse than the day before etc

3) Double bubble - they are going to have to lower my inframammary crease (the crease below your breasts) and so it's very possible I will have a double bubble for at least a short time while my old crease loses it memory and the implants settle. They said it should go away within 6 months but secretly I am hoping to god I don't have them at all.

4) One of my breasts is bigger than they other but the dr didn't seem concerned. I don't know if that's because he doesn't see it as being prevalent or bc he is going to address that in surgery. I hope the latter! I hope they aren't obviously different sizes post surgery!

5) My nipples tend to kind of slightly point outward (toward my arm pits) and I worry some that they will STILL look that way after my surgery.

I guess that is all I can think of to tell y'all right now. I know this post was long but when I was researching, I REALLY could not get enough information. I wanted to be as knowledgeable as I could prior to the surgery and there are somethings that dr's just won't take them time to tell you, things that only women who have been through the whole experience can tell you.

Like I said, my surgery is Wed and I will definitely continue to update! :)

I am SO nervous and excited I can hardly stand it! I think I am going with 400 cc and tonight I am going home to clean the CRAP out of my house so I can heal in a nice, clean, organized environment. I am going to stop by Blockbuster tomorrow night and get a few movies in case what's on TV or the DVR bores me. I am also gonna get a big cooler to keep next to the bed so I can have access to drinks and stuff without getting up. My husband is going to make me sandwiches and cut of fruit and stuff to keep in there also for me to snack on. This SOUNDS sweet and it is, but really he is just trying to minimize the hundereds of times I ask him for help lol :) I am all geared up and ready to do this thing!!!

Sigh, I am packing my gym bag for the last time for a while. The surgery is tomorrow and I won't be able to go back to the gym for at LEAST a couple weeks and even then I will be limited to light leg work; SLOW elliptical or recumbent bike. At three weeks at the EARLIEST I may be able to run lightly and go back to light weights. I am going to back slide in my running and gain ten lbs! I am going to start trying to incorporate short (5 min or less) daily walks outside on Friday. Both to get outside and to get some exercise.

Not being able to get into the gym has honestly been my worst fear. NOT bc I love it so much but because I worked REALLY hard to get down to this size and I am terrified sitting around like a lump on a log and having nothing to do but eat and watch TV is going to set me back; both in weight and in running. I can't even weigh myself for like two weeks because the fluids from surgery bloat you up so much that the number would be so inaccurate.

I cleaned the HELL out of the bathroom and bedroom last night. I absolutely cannot stand the idea of trying to heal in a disgusting mess. I even washed the sheets and made hubby take the comforter to the fire station to wash; I can't wash it here bc it's a king and my washer can't handle that, but they have an industrial sized one at the station. I need for everything to be clean and to smell good lol

My daughter is going to spend the night at a friends tonight so we don't have to worry about what to do with her the morning of surgery and hubby doesn't have to deal with her while trying to get me home and settled. She will not come home until late Wed.

I have frozen peas on stand by to shove inside my giant non sexy surgical bra they send you home in and I am gonna call directv today and add every single movie channel there is (which will of course be canceled as soon as I go back to work next Tuesday lol)

I have filled all my RX's and aside from all that, I am not sure what else I can do now but wait 24 hours for the fun to begin. :o/