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Impulsive Ink in So Much Regret - Asheville, NC
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I am 32 and am going through a divorce. I...
brandon52May 27, 2014
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I am 32 and am going through a divorce. I impulsively went and got tattoos 2 months after she left me. I have been going everyday without a second of not thinking about it. I am in so much depression that I just don't know what to do. I've been to doctors, I'm on depression medication. I'm just lost, I feel that I'm ruined for life and not to mention I have a twelve year old daughter that lives with me and I really need something to change, I just feel I'm getting worse. The only laser treatment around here is the revlite si. Which I don't have a lot of hope in with all my colors.
UPDATED FROM brandon52
still in despair
brandon52June 9, 2014
Still can't decide what to do. I try so hard to go without thinking about it, I just can't stop. I'm so sick inside and every time I think about it I just go in to a panic. I feel like this thing is controlling who I am and how I act. I would do anything for my skin back. My mind is all over the place, I'm already insecure and this definitely didn't help with that and my situation. I guess I'm just looking for guidance. I just feel like I'm so unwanted..
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June 10, 2014
Brandon- go get part if it lasered. Not the whole thing. See how it faded and see what you think. If you change your mind and want to keep it you can always get it touched up. If not slowly work away at it. I'm telling you, you'll feel better man.
June 10, 2014
I just don't know. With all these colors. I don't want to make a mess of it. I'm trying so hard to accept it and maybe in a few years technology will be that much better at least I hope.

June 10, 2014
If you don't know, that's okay. Waiting will not affect any future laser removal. If you're trying to accept it, give yourself some time. Yes, technology is always changing. I've spoken with people who started removing their tattoos 20 years ago and have scars. People who have done laser tattoo removal recently, report much better healing. You have a lot on your plate, and if you want to wait, then wait. Good luck, keep us posted, updates (even if just to say "I'm still waiting") are always welcomed. Support is key, and we're here for you. aloha...k

June 10, 2014
Best advice I got - then you do not know what to do - don't do anything. Just wait and see. You have to be 100% sure of your decision. Then I was thinking about tattoo removal, I was 100% sure I want to go through this and I want it. You have time to decide and you have options. As many other said, you can start removing black ink and then remove color part. Just give yourself a time. You need to find peace first.
June 10, 2014
Yeah I definitely haven't found peace. I just feel ruined and I know that sounds crazy but its real to me. I just don't have a whole lot of confidence in removal from what I've seen. I don't want to end up with a mess bc all of my colors, especially all the green. Im just a mess right now. I know for a fact that I would've never done this if my life hadn't went thru a drastic change but I know I can't go back. What's done is done..

June 10, 2014
Well, no one can tell you for sure how it will go. I feel pretty confident with my removal as my tattoo is on wrist and it is only black, though it will take up to 2 years to remove it, but it is worth it! For now I would suggest just to take a deep breath and concentrate on positive things in your life. It is easier said than done, but I really hope that tattoo is the worst challenge you will have in your life, because then you think about it - it is not a big deal. It is a big deal to you, but I know it can be solved.
I know how depressing it can be! Few weeks I was in total shock. I could never imagine I would ever feel this way! I couldn't sleep or eat or work! I was so broken. After getting a tattoo, I was so stressed that I even got sick and I realized that this is affecting my health now. So what did I do? I decided to search for places and went to see few doctors and tattoo artists to talk about removal and I fould a nice place with a nice doctor. I am very early on (3rd treatment next week), the process is super slow, but I am not letting this to affect me or my life. Lesson learnt for sure!
All I can tell now - you will get used to it and things won't look so bad after few weeks! I also was so angry at people telling me this, but humans are really fantastic creatures, they are getting used to so many things! Your future life and mental health now depen on your choice. In few years, looking back, you do not want to remember yourself as a total failure. How we react on such things is making us who we are!
Good luck to you and this all will be solved! One way or another! You will be happy again!
June 10, 2014
I have a question. What SPECIFICALLY about your tattoo do you not like? You have vague reasons, like I wouldn't have done it normally, or it changed me. You said it was longer, that is a better detail, but still you have a forearm tattoo so is exposure the real reason or just ink regret pushing through? Detail what you don't like. Is it one part? Is it the colors? The length of sleeve? It's ok to have multiple reasons, but only if you identify those specific detailed reasons for not liking it, will you or anyone else begin to know some of the options you have to start possibly making things better.
June 10, 2014
Basically, the entire tattoo is what bothers me. The life change that I am going thru has messed me up. Wife cheating and leaving.etc.. I haven't got a tattoo in 14 years and didn't plan on getting another one especially this large. I wasn't thinking clearly. I don't even like color..
June 10, 2014
Ok. Then please keep seeking professional mental advice, because there are a lot of things tied into this besides a tattoo. In the mean time, just remember that it could be removable at some point, but for right now it is a symbol of providing more for your child. So when you look at and wish it was gone think about how some day it might be, but for now it's a difficult badge of selflessness to wear to provide more your child. Sometimes when something becomes a sacrifice for us, it can fuel us in a very positive way. All the best and make sure to stay in contact with a counselor/professional.
June 10, 2014
I will. Its just really hard right now. I got this about 3 months ago and it just seems to be getting worse. Thank you..

June 12, 2014
aloha jfromPA: I couldn't say it better about professional mental advice. This forum is amazingly supportive, but it can never replace professional counseling. That is professional in person counseling. A counselor has the knowledge, the training to be able to help people through difficult times. More importantly, a professional counselor is there, in person. A counselor knows the ethical standards that help people, rather than hurt them. Online support groups are amazing, they can motivate us, but motivating is not counseling. Online support groups can be limiting, because as we each read my post, we read the post in our own voice. You do not hear my voice, and hearing a professional's voice is part of the therapeutic experience. As for removing the tattoo, to provide a better role model for children. There is one thing that as parents, we need to know, we need to remember. We make mistakes, we are human, we are not perfect. How we deal with mistakes, is how we teach our children. Good luck Brandon52, you seem to be an amazing person, devoted to your child, please don't let a mistake ruin your self-esteem. aloha...k
June 11, 2014
A lot of your misery seems to come from being under the impression that you are "unwanted" and will never be again. In part because of this tattoo. But most of us in here had tattoos. We liked them -- and more often than not still like them -- but on other persons. So most people in here wouldn't judge a person by the tattoos s/he has. Of course, this doesn't mean that this will make *you* appreciate it more, but maybe if you can just realize that it isn't a tattoo that will turn you into someone who isn't desirable to anyone, maybe it will help you get better. I wouldn't judge someone just because of a tattoo, that's for sure.
June 11, 2014
Thanks mpq, I think it is me more than anything. I just can't get over the fact that I did this to myself and when I got it just kinda went with the flow. I wasn't even thinking , definitely a dark time for me.
June 11, 2014
I understand this. I felt like I was making a decision for myself and that I was thinking clearly, and still, my own tattoo is causing me problems as well, and I don't feel good with it on my skin at all. So even when we believe that we are thinking clearly, at times, we are truly more "going with the flow" and when we realize that we ought to have stopped, it's too late to go back. There will be a silver lining to this. Sometimes it's just long to wait for it. I hope you are able to work on yourself to feel better and find some peace. Hugs.

June 12, 2014
Just know that you are not alone. Almost 1 in 3 americans have ink, so it's not a rare sight anymore at all. And as you can see in this forum, you are not the first, and unfortunately not the last to regret ink either. Remember, that if ink is the worst of your problems, then you have a darn good life! Use this opportunity to guide your child in the right direction, and tell her why she shouldnt get ink done. I found that being honest about ink regret helps a lot, and also helps people around you to understand how you feel, and thereby makes you feel better about showing it. The only one who really judges us, is ourself im afraid, and i know first hand that it can be tough!! Whatever you decide to do, i wish you the best of luck! Hang in there, try to be positive and honest! The road goes ever on and on, the story doesn't end here! :-)
UPDATED FROM brandon52
1rst session of picosure
brandon52October 4, 2014
I started picosure on Thursday. Keeping fingers crossed, kinda down whether I made the right decision or not. My arm looks like I have the plague.
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October 5, 2014
man, really reminds of my story. i was in a mania stage after breaking up with my gf for the last 3 years and finishing first degree...
got a pretty big and dark cover up tattoo on my shoulder/ back which was at a bad artist. the idiot didn't even did what i asked and he probably knew he is not good enough to do that but still he left me with this crappy art.
I just wanted to erase the old one since it reminded me times i wanted to forget, but in matter affect i really liked him and this stupid impulse has got the situation far far worst and caused me a huge depression for the last two months. It even effected my work... couldn't look at it since every time i have a peek i feel the anxiety comes again.. this is a pretty horrible situation especially to know that you the one caused it...
But there is hope, i see the pico is giving amazing results for you. lucky you have one close to you, i only have old generation Q-Switch in my country so i have to travel to europe for pico. first treatment scheduled soon and when i see your amazing results i can just wish i'll be as lucky as you with mine...
BTW i know you hate your piece but this is actually a really sweet art. I would take this art insteat of the disaster i have with no hesitation! LOL
October 6, 2014
Oh wow, I can't wait to see the results - looks like the blue and green are blown right out. Please update with photos once healed. Chin up, you did what you thought was the right thing - don't look back ;)
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