27 years old, 5,4, 140lbs, 38a/36b.. Natrelle silicone 371cc style 15

i've toyed with the idea of getting breast implants for the past 8 years but never put any serious thought toward it until recently. i'm finally fed up with not being able to find a bra or bikini top that fits. i feel like i have more fat under my arms than boobs.. so here i am... really torn on sizes! at first i was hell bent on staying SMALL. thinking, i just want SOMETHING and i never want to be looked at like someone with big boobs. my PS says it wouldn't be worth it for me to go any smaller than 339. i'm worried about going too small and having it not even be worth it vs going too big and making myself look broader. i can't really find anyone on here with my measurements so i hope my journey helps guide someone! i put a deposit down two weeks ago and scheduled my surgery for january 4th, 2016. i'm a hair stylist so i'm waiting until my slow season when i'll be able to take some time off work. that being said, if any hair stylists have any advice on scheduling and time off work post surgery, i'd love to hear about it.. :)

Okay! Downloaded an app to blur out my tattoos so I can post these photos. I need some help! Will 339cc make me look broad?

I know there aren't many roller derby players or hair stylists on this website so I hope my reviews help some people!! So I had about a solid month of panicking over size. We had originally planned on doing Inspira implants 339cc but after seeing a bunch of girls on here with similar starts and bigger implants I knew I would want to change my size. I still wanted to fit in all my shirts and be able to work out and continue to play roller derby. so i wanted to stay somewhat modest. So anyway, at my pre op appointment with nurse I asked to see some larger implants on my vectra. She talked me off a ledge a little and said she would have the ps bring in 339 and 371. I know it's not much of a difference but it did look to me in the imaging software that the 371 with give me sliiiighly more upper fullness and while I didn't want to go up the the high profile, I thought that was a good compromise. I never really hated my boobs. I thought they were perky and cute but they just didn't fit my frame unless I was like 115 pounds and I have a very straight build and it would just be nice to have some type of curve somewhere! Also, bathing suit shopping with small boobs is the worst. I know bigger ones will have their own set of issues but I am sure I'll like them better!

So here is my day one experience..
I've never been under serious anesthesia. Just whatever they use to get rid of wisdom teeth so I was freaking out about it. I was worried I would whine a lot or annoy the nurses or even cry. I didn't know if I would wake up clothed or remember anything or panic or something. So for these reasons, I opted to have my mom take me instead of my boyfriend. I feel bad for him because all I had been talking about was boobs and I'm sure he was sick of my meltdowns so I do think he was relieved to get out of that job!

I arrived at the hospital an hour early, around 8am. Checked in and met with the nurse who face me warm blankets and set me up in recliner. She gave me Tylenol and some water to wash it down with. I just really wanted to chug the whole thing! They gave me a scop patch to wear behind my ear for nausea and told to keep it on for a day. I don't think I'll feel sick when I take it off though. I think I'll feel like a million bucks because between the dry mouth from the patch and the sore throat, I've had to have 5 Gatorades, two Apple juices, three bottles of water. And still so thirsty! Anyway then met with the anesthesiaologist who was an ok guy. Not the warmest dude in the world. He told me to enjoy the nervousness because nest time I'm alert I'll be in pain. That sort of annoyed me. Doc came in; marked me up. Then 5 minutes later i walked in to the OR. Not gonna lie, that was freaky. The nurses got me on the table and put some compression things on my legs and some meds to make me loopy. I remember taking to the nurses about their hair and then closing my eyes cause i started to get dizzy. That's my last memory. I don't remember anyone trying to wake me up so I forced myself to do it. The nurse told me a few hours ago she gave me some pain killers and muscle relaxers. To be honest I had absolutely zero pain when i came to. She wheeled me from the bed to the recovery room and gave me crackers and apple juice. The crackers tasted like sand and I remember saying "this must be what the cinnamon challenge is like!" So the nurse dressed me (poor lady that sound like a rough job) and then she wheeled me to the car. Getting on of the chair was uncomfortable so she told me if I squeeze my boobs when I sit and stand it helps a lot and she was totally right. Got home around and was sort of in and out until about 6.

Some friends stopped by and made me grilled cheese and soup. My pain during all this was honestly around a 3. Not bad at all. Although I play roller derby, i really do have a low pain tolerance so I was pleasantly surprised. So I slept from about 11 until 6am. I got up to pee but it took like 5 mins. They're definitely more sore than yesterday. I'd put my pain when im sitting at like a 3-4 and when I'm getting up like a 7. And when I'm standing it's probably a 5. I was honestly expecting 9s so I'm happy.

My set up on the couch is three pillows long the arm which is pretty tall. And a wedge pillow with more pillows on it for bed. Near the couch I have all my pills in sun-sat pill boxes. Like my arnica and tissue support vitamins and anti biotics. I put my pain killers and muscle relaxers in Monday's slot because that's when I had the surgery so I didn't any that day. This way I can stay independent.

So. I really hate this surgical bra thing. The material is actually pretty comfortable but omg is it tight or what! My right side feels great but my left side not so much. The pain I have right now is in the cleavage area. Feels like a bruise that someone keeps poking at. My left side hurts on the entire perimeter: I'm wondering if it's because the PS said he had to "fix the crease" and I have absolutely no clue what that means. That boob is very slightly bigger than the other so i assume that has to do with the extra pain.

I really wanna take this bra off and see them!! But I know that's a bad idea. But I am TOTALLY freaking our that i went to big. They look enormous and I can't wrap my hand around them! I mean I hope I wouldn't be able to.. It's just strange. Anyway I'm dreading laying back down in this bed because of how hard it is to get up and I've been peeing every half hour! Hopefully I'm able to sleep until my boyfriend wakes up so he can help me out of bed! I'll try to continue to update regularly !