33 Years Young, 5'3", 125 Lbs, and a Deflated 34A. Anchorage, AK

I have been a petite girl, in every way, my entire life. I am now 33, 5'3 and 125 lbs. Pre pregnancies I was 100 lbs and a 34B. I WAS between a 34/36 full B cup after my first two children, but after nursing my third baby (and losing much needed weight), I am now a deflated 34 A!

My ex husband and I were teenagers when we had our first child. You can just imagine what having a baby at 17 will do to a little body! My breasts were sad little deflated water balloons afterward! When we were having our second child at 19, I cried and was terrified at the thought of what this pregnancy would do to my body as well. (I know, it's very superficial but I was young and shallow!)
My mother-in-law (at the time) suggested that I didn't breastfeed my second child. She claimed to have not breastfed her second saying that "her breasts regained some fullness and normalcy". Being the shallow person I was, I took her advice! Would you believe it actually worked?! It was great at the time, but now I live with the guilt of not nursing my child for a selfish reason. :( ANYWAY...
My plan was to NOT have anymore children! Well...
After my divorce I met my current husband and we got pregnant almost instantly! My baby is now 13 months and I DID in fact breastfeed her for 12 of those months. I now have a 15, 13, and 1 year old, along with the 10 and 5 year old stepchildren. I am a very busy mommy! After having my baby girl I decided to quit my job of 7 years to stay home with her.

Pre (final) pregnancy I weighed 145-150 lbs and was a 34/36 full B. Now I am 125 lbs and shriveled up to a 34 A! It is disappointing and discouraging. :(
It is hard to feel sexy or much like a woman at this point.
I feel like it is MY TIME to do something for myself. What better gift for me than a new and improved set? Haha!
As of right now I am leaning toward 425 CC silicone gel implants over the muscle. I have made and worn homemade rice sizers (even in public as recommended by my PS and her team) and I am torn between 425 and 450 CC. My sizer appointment is tomorrow so we shall see!
I have already scheduled my surgery appointment for November 11th!
So much excitement!!! :D

Funny story...
After my consultation (about a week ago) I made some rice sizers at home and wore them around. I felt like the 400ml was too small, the 425 was pretty spot on, and the 450 was almost too big! So when I brought the sizers into my sizing appointment today I found out that the 450ml was actually 500ml! Hahaha! No wonder it seemed so big! Lol
The rice sizers are very different than the actual implants themselves! I mean, that's a given, but when I stuffed my 34D bra with a 500cc implant...
I was very pleased! I was initially torn between 475cc and 500cc (both moderate plus, round, smooth silicone gel) but after a lot of wardrobe changing, implant swapping, and talking to the amazing staff, I decided to stay with the 500cc. I will get used to bigger boobs, but if I go too small I know I will always wish I had gone bigger. That's my point of view anyway! ;) I can't believe I am going to have boobs in three weeks!!! :D Soooooo exciting!

I have been taking as many photos as I can because in two weeks it will be out with the old and in with the new! :D
However, I never want to forget my old tired boobies...
They have been through a lot and are still a part of me! Haha!