38yo 3 Kids, 50# Weight Loss 3 Years After Last Child! 150lbs, 5'7", Crossfit Junkie! Albany, NY

Bathing suit weather has arrived and the pool is open! How nice it is to get into a bikini and feel "somewhat" normal. I am super unhappy with my huge love handles, muffin top...and can't seem to get over it. My husband says I'm being crazy, but I can grab a whole handful of fat as it hangs over my pants, bikini bottoms...everything. I just seem "half" finished. I don't know, maybe it is me. Also, I still am wondering how much lipo was done? Again, I had NO MARKS. Did anyone else wake up with no marks? I do love my surgeon, and I know when I see her we'll discuss it. I'm not sure what can be done now anyway. Live with it I guess...I exercise like crazy, but love handles that are from excess skin from weightloss do not disappear :-( Here are some updated pictures. I still get really swollen at night, tonight doesn't seem too bad, but I look down and can only see my lower abd. (If you know what I mean lol)

Things are going great. I'm a little bummed I have such large love handles, not sure if you can see them in the picture or not. I am definitely "fluffy" which gives me a muffin top...yes still! I love my stomach being flat, I just wish it was all the way around!! I guess not enough lipo...must be why I had no lipo marks :-(. I'll mention it to her when I see her on June 23rd.
I'm back at crossfit fully. I am able to heavy lift with no problems. I can do almost every move except strict pullups is a bit different. I need to build the strength up that I lost and get use to my pecs being in a different position, making push ups a bit funny too, but those are easier. I am still numb in most of the triangle area around my belly button down...yet I woke up one morning with some ab pain, and realized...I have worked them haha. Literally nothing seems to be bothering me in regards to working out. This was my biggest worry!!! I'm am still getting use to my boobs haha. I went back to VS to get measured again...and well..I'm still a 32 DDD and even a 34 DDD!! I have very little fat around my boobs, so you can feel the impants, and I have no swelling anymore there. They look good though...even though I can feel the impant, no one else seems to feel them (yes...everyone wants a touch ????). I have zero pain...zero!! Not even a twinge! I did a crossfit throwdown and came in 3rd...and nailed myself with the bar...I did feel that...as I would anyway!!

My scar is fading...slowly, but fading. I was putting mederma scar treatment on my abd inc. But decided to go back to straight paper tape...which I think actually works better. I am still using it on my breast though...and they are so faded now. The pictures make them look redder than they are. You literally can't see the ones around my nipples really. My belly button is my problem child. My scar is red and a bit raised. I'm going to start keeping paper tape on it. It's in such a hard area to cover. Any suggestions???

Swelling: well, I have swelling in my lower abd still. I look a but bloated...feel a bit bloated! Worse by the end of the day. Doesn't matter if I work out or not. I know this will improve...just takes time I guess.

Hope your journeys have been good. This is the best thing I have done, and I will continue to update.

I have been use to this body for 6 weeks I forgot where I came from!! Look at this comparison. Man...i hope my abs get even better....i just want to look good...not perfect, but good and comfortable in my skin. Getting there. Looking at this was a wakeup call for me. I DO look better. I WILL NOT be depressed that I'm not perfect!! Lol