Worst Thing I've Ever Done - Adelaide, AU

I made a horrible mistake a few years ago to get tattoo eyeliner and eyebrows with a girl named Aleisha Gannon. Back then she advertised to do people's makeup and body tattoos so I figured she would know how to do a nice permanent makeup look. I was very very naive... She refused to draw it on or measure it first and insisted "I normally just do it". When she began tattooing it was so painful because she was pushing the needle so deep into the skin. I had thick scabs form over my eyelids and they took out all of my eyelashes. Thankfully some grew back. I went back for the touch up session because of all the white uneven spots and expressed that I wasn't happy, and at this point she became aggressive and hostile towards me saying how I "wasn't worth" her time and that I wasn't paying her enough, and that I'm lucky that she was even helping me. I found her intimidating because she had a confrontational attitude and was covered in body tattoos, and I was very young and quiet at that time. There were so many things that were scary and traumatic about the experience. She expressed anger when my eye naturally twitched and would aggressively say "you're annoying me" and at one point her friend came and watched her tattoo me, and when I glanced at her in between writhing around in pain she actually looked amused.

The end result is that the tattoos were uneven and dark, and after a year started to show a blue tinge. It looked disgusting and dirty on my porcelain skin, like I was wearing smudged makeup from 4 days earlier. Once a guy saw me without concealer and exclaimed "that's going to be on your skin forever??!" I was ashamed of my face and had to cover it in corrective makeup all the time.

I began having laser tattoo removal and have spent over $12,000 on this. It's really expensive because only a few doctors in Australia will perform this procedure on the eyes. And even after all of the pain and money it has only faded them because she tattooed the skin too deep, and it has cheap chemicals in it which oxidise and turn the brown pigment black. I'm happy to say it is less intense now but I also lost more eyelashes.

Last week I had parts of my eyebrows cut out by a plastic surgeon. I think the scars will heal quite nicely and I'm hoping to finally fix my eyebrows after so many years. This was honestly one of the worst things I have ever done to myself and I often feel intense regret for being so stupid to trust this person with my face. I had beautiful eyes and porcelain skin and she left me with grey tattoos, scars and missing eyelashes. I'm still trying to fix things and get my confidence back.