36yrs old, 3 kids with Breast Fat Transfer, Dr. Bednar

Here are a few more pics for comparison. It helps to remind myself of what I had (or didn’t have) before so I don’t get too depressed about what I lose over this recovery period.

So ever time I look at my review, it seems the pictures I loaded to my reviews get increasingly out of order and they don’t even stay in the same out-of-order positions. It changes each time I look through them. So I just want to put out there that I did not load my pictures in the most crazy, jumbled, ass-backwards out of sequence stream of right side then left side at random dates. Real self did that all on its own.

I meant to post a 1 month update about how well everything was going but I couldn’t because of my schedule that day. The next morning I woke up and my breasts seemed to have lost a noticeable amount swelling/volume that I didn’t expect so I thought “glad I didn’t speak too soon” and I’ve been holding off until I felt they stabilized. Well, that seems to be the problem. Every time I think “ok, I’m a little smaller than last week but this surely is my permanent size now” it seems they decrease yet again. Basically, I’ve gone from 37” over bust measurement to 36” in a month. Also, my right breast is significantly smaller than my left breast (this asymmetry showed up around 10-12 days post op) and that seems to have remained the case even though I was holding out hope that the right was just de-swelling faster than the left and that the right would stop decreasing and the left would catch up. Basically, both breasts seem to be steadily decreasing at the same rate, with the right side staying consistently smaller than the left. I don’t think it is a full cup size difference but I can definitely tell the size difference in a sport bra which bums me out since I really hate padding and never wore it before even when I was completely flat. Now I think I’ll need light padding on my left breast and heavier padding on my right breast to look even from this point forward.

With all of that said, I still have a lot more breast tissue than before the surgery and I AM grateful I have something up top to work with versus having zero breasts before. But I have to be honest that I am becoming increasingly nervous I won’t keep much by the end of the three months. And whatever I do keep I may not have once I get back to my work out routine. And not being able to work out this whole time is another thing completely weighing on me. My overall weight has not changed but my body composition has. My body loses muscle mass FAST (always has) and I feel like I’ve lost all the strength and tone I gained before the surgery. And going this long without wine just plain sucks. I might be outing a drinking problem and I know how cliche “wine moms” are but...parenting three kids aged seven and under requires at least occasional alcohol intake and I am [RS bleep] dying over here.

Alright, I’ve complained enough. I am pretty darn happy with the lipo areas and this was a huge reason why I picked Bednar. I didn’t want to risk being butchered somewhere else on my body just to get breasts and I think my flanks and butt are going to look better than before once I can start truly working out again. I just wonder if my hectic schedule and my complete inability to stop and slow down EVER has impacted my recovery/retention. I haven’t been working out but I practically never sit down since my two year old is a legit Tasmanian devil (I just had a toddler gymnastics instructor look at me empathetically after dealing with my daughter during her first class last Saturday and tell me “Wow, you are BUSY!” And this woman works with toddlers all day! Ugh.) This surgery is the first thing I have done for just myself and it is by far the most money I’ve spent on me and I pray it will be worth it. My husband had such a hard time accepting this whole thing, particularly the cost, and I hate to even think of the results just disappearing.