I am sorry you have suffered so much. Unfortunately, no treatment will get rid of these scars. If they are red, you can improve them with KTP or pulsed dye laser treatments. Fractional resurfacing with Fraxel 1550 can help the texture and apperance, but can be pricy and take multiple treatments. I would suggested stopping any further harm to yourself, and applying a silicone based topical gel like Biocorneum a few times a day. Seek consultation from a cosmetic dermatologist with expertise in laser treatments. I wish you the best of luck, Dr. Emer.