Dr. Benjamin Boudreaux and Dr. Claiborne in Mandeville, LA, has earned a reputation for providing outstanding results through breast augmentation, face lift, liposuction, and more. As a patient of Northshore Plastic Surgery, you can expect natural-looking cosmetic enhancements performed with compassion and exceptional attention to detail. Whether you desire dramatic rejuvenation or a subtle nonsurgical enhancement, Dr. Boudreaux and Dr. Claiborne can recommend the right procedure for you.
Surgery Day- Got my breast augmentation done yesterday morning. I felt tired and sore but everything was well all around. Didn’t sleep much, but I did sleep okay. Day 1- Still sore, but again, doing okay! I went to Dr. Benjamin Boudreaux at Northshore Plastic Surgery in Mandeville, LA. Amazing staff, amazing doctor. I couldn’t be more happy. Can’t wait to see results a few months from now! Updated on 28 Jul 2018: Sill sore. More towards the outside and between the breasts. Stitches are pretty itchy. Just waiting for my post op for Friday morning. Trying to ween off pain pills. Got 800 mg ibuprofen. And will continue to ice down. Updated on 29 Jul 2018: Stopped taking pain pills last night. Only issues I am having are soreness on the outside towards armpits, I’m the middle crease area... my main concern is the itchy feeling of my sutures which are inframammary incisions. They are not bleeding, they are not leaking, not red. I will be calling Monday just to see if it is normal or not for the sutures to itch bc there was no information about it. Another issue I am having is that I am SEVERELY bloated and cannot use the bathroom. I’ve been trying everything from enemas to magnesium citrate and everything in between. Still have not had a BM since a day or two before the surgery. I know constipation and bloating is a common symptom after these surgeries. But I am looking 5 months pregnant when I was flat a week ago ???? Updated on 2 Aug 2018: I only take pain pills at night now. I still ice them a few times during the day, 20 min on and 30 min off. My nurse called me in 800 mg of ibuprofen to help w the pain. My nipples have feeling again but definitely hypersensitive and painful. I am having all round soreness on both breasts. Nothing I can’t handle. Random painful spots but I believe it is just healing. Compression bras actually fee better on than off. I have 3 bras. The one they provided me with, and 2 from Brilliant Contours (AMAZING AND COMFY WITH SOOOOO MANY COLORS! CAN ALSO WEAR AS SPORTA BRA AFTER HEALED!) Still trying not to do anything crazy but have to clean and do laundry and dishes... my normal womanly duties... but I make sure to nap at some point. Not comfortable with washing my hair yet. I can kinda lift my arms but I haven’t had my post op app yet so, trying to take it easy until tomorrow at 9:15am. They’re still sitting high! Just waiting for the progression. Updated on 9 Aug 2018: Nipples are SOOOOO sensitive and swollen... boobs were fine until two days ago, they’re super sore now. Been doing my massages since last Friday. I think I’ve been doing too much around the house lifting and reaching etc... so I’m taking a break. Incisions look good. Still healing. Have my boyfriend check them everyday. Stared scar gel on day 10. Updated on 9 Aug 2018: Photos of incisions; surgeon says they look great. (Dissolvable stitches) They still have dried blood and such... but as surgeon said, only let soapy water run down my chest IN SHOWER, not scrubbing them or putting soap straight on them.
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10 years ago getting a BA would be the last thing I'd ever thought I'd do! My mom got one when I was in college and I could not fathom why she would want to change her God-given body. 10 years and 4 breastfed babies later, I understand now! My pre-pregnancy B's turned into flappy 32As. A picture I didn't except my breast would be in until I was elderly. Plus, when I pregnant I loved my boobs! I felt they were the perfect size for my body. Got up to a full B/C whole pregnant and nursing, sometimes even D. I guess I didn't know what I was missing and now we are doing having children so for the first time in my life I'm contemplating BA and going for multiple consults. I just weaned my last baby so I am going to wait a few more months to see if they change in size. Including pictures below. I've got to 2 consults so far and what's been recommended is 250-300cc round gel implants. My chest is small, I'm thin, one breast has more tissue than the other. I'm 5'3" and 115. So weird because I always thought I was 5'2" until I just got measured. The doctor told me I do have pectus cavernatum so my breasts will never really be close together even with implants. I think I'm ok with that. Right now in searching for a surgeon I can trust and get multiple medical opinions because this is such a huge decision! I'm including pics of me with an unpadded sports bra and then filled with 286 and 300 rice sizers. Also the picture of he boobs I had while pregnant versus post pregnancy/now. I mourn the loss of those curves and want to stop having trouble finding top that don't accentuate my flat chest. I'll try to post go pictures too. Love the more natural looks, I don't want to walk in and have people look at my breasts and say "she has implants." Updated on 7 Jul 2017: Well, it took 3 consults to find a plastic surgeon I'm truly comfortable with and confident in. But I guess third time is a charm! I originally didn't want a male PS so I checked out two female surgeons in my area. One was not thorough at all. She just looked at my breast and said this is what I would do for you. She gave me no information without me asking. The second, Dr. Cooper was sweet and sincere and thorough but I have to be honest- I just did not like her before and after photos! Also she did the vectra on me and not my chest wall is uneven and pokes out a little. She told me she could not do anything to prevent my breasts from pointing out to the sides. She also talked about lowering my mammary fold on one breast. This all made me very nervous. So when I went to Dr. Boudreaux with Northshore plastic surgery, he noted my chest wall issues and he was confident he could work with my anatomy and give me a great look... I was sold! I asked him how much my breasts would point out and apparently he has a good technique because he said not that much. His before and after photos are beautiful! It's amazing how two doctors can use the same implant but give completely separate looks. Also the office/surgery center is gorgeous and surgery is done right there! I'm happy to say I've found my fit. Now it's just waiting the 3 months until my milk is completely dried up from breastfeeding. I stopped nursing my last baby last month. Dr. B reccomended using 300cc round silicone HP under the muscle on me. I was never sure if HP is for me but I trust his judgement. He said he will also size me in the OR to see what works for me and I am very happy he does that. The last lady I went to said whatever we choose now, I will place in the OR. Reminders I'm 5'3" 113 pounds 11-12 bed 32A bra Thin upper body Pectus carinatum with sternum poking out a little (I never knew I had this) And the left side of my rib cage sticks out more than my right. My doctor will use different size implants if he needs to to even things out. Thanks for following!following! Plan is for September/October 2017 Can't wait! Updated on 7 Jul 2017: Updated on 14 Jul 2017: Ladies, I'm not sure if anyone reads this yet. But I feel like I just want to hurry up and get this this done! Originally, my plan was for the fall. Cooler weather to cover the torpedos, big kids in school. Plus I just weaned my last baby in June so I've got to wait at least 3 months anyway but it's killing me! I'm still able to squeeze milk out of the breast he nursed from so I don't want to mess anything up by not waiting. I just want them to hurry up and be ready for surgery. They look flat and deflated but I know I still need to wait. Any tips to pass the time? I'm already wanting to shop even thought it's still 2+ months away. I may end up having to get off real self since looking at pictures of boobs makes me want to hurry up and get mine. Updated on 17 Aug 2017: Well, I set the date. Sept 20th. Sept 1st it'll be 3 months since I stopped breastfeeding. When I went to my consult my left breast was a good bit bigger than my right due to my baby nursing more on that side. And now they've evened up a lot and completely dried up. So now I feel ready to do this! Can't wait. I think I'm going to get a great result. My pre-op is only one week before the surgery. Is that normal? I'm hoping they'll remeasure me and take new pics since I feel my breasts have shrunk a good bit since the first consult. Also I've heard about taking immune boosters and vitamin C prior. Any supplements y'all reccomend? Arnica? Probiotic? Updated on 27 Aug 2017: So in really not nervous about the procedure at all. But I am going crazy obsessing about picking the perfect size. I just need to stop. My pre-op is in 2 weeks only 1 week before surgery and I just want it to all be here so I can stop obsessing. I trust my surgeon. And I'm so happy you he will ultimately be the one trying on sizers in the OR to see what looks best on me. I'll be happy with anything from 275-325cc I think. Ill be showing him these wish pics so he knows the look I'm going for. At home I feel like I'm nesting just like you do at the end of pregnancy, where you want to have everything clean and just right. But you can only prepare so much! I'm thinking about all things I can't do after surgery and since I'm a mom of 4 it seems like a lot. I'll have my mom and husband home helping for 2 weeks, that's the plan. My two oldest are in school and so I'll have a 3 year old and 18 m old at home. I'm also wanting to buy sports bras and such but I have no idea what size I'll be. I'm an xs small in most tops now. 32A so I'm thinking M sports bras should be fine right? I probably won't update till my pre-op because I'm trying to not get one here too much. It's addicting! Updated on 13 Sep 2017: Soooo pre-op was today! One week till boob day! I am incredibly excited. Nerves haven't hit me yet. Maybe because I've been obsessing about this for months now. I'm ready. I asked to try on sizers with my husband this time and 300cc just seemed small on me. She didn't have 325cc so she put me in 350cc and it still looked natural. Pic included. For some reason these sizers in the office seem smaller than my rice sizers at home. I gave them the ok to start with 325cc and go up if needed to make me proportionate. I'll let my surgeon decide in the OR with sizers. I don't want to look fake but at the same time I want the boobs I had while pregnant (full C). I felt the 300cc looked more like me as a teenager. For stats I'm 5'3" and 113 pounds. Hopefully next update I'll have boobs! Wish me luck. Updated on 16 Sep 2017: I cannot wait for my surgery. I just want to get it done. Still obsessing over sizes over here even though I'm going to let my surgeon make the final choice. Part of my anxiety is I didn't actually talk to/see my surgeon at the pre-op. It was just the nurses. She told me to bring my wish pics in day of surgery so it will be fresh in his mind the look of want. But part of me feels that shouldn't be a conversation you have right before you get cut on. I guess I'm just nervous a little. Mostly about coming out to big. I'm a modest person and don't want to have to walk around hiding my boobs all the time. Plan is for anywhere from 300-350cc but I'll reiterate I want a natural look. I'm 5'3" and 113 pounds. Small chest. I would probably be ok going smaller. I know he's doing high profile maybe ultra profile? Crazy thing is I've pad and everything but I don't even know what brand I'm getting. My receipt just says silicone gel. So ready to get this over with! Updated on 20 Sep 2017: Well I did it! Had a hard time sleeping I was so excited. I showed my surgeon my wish pics one last time and gave him the go ahead to use what he thought would look natural on me. I ended up with Natrelle Inspiras SRF (smooth round full) and two vary different sizes. 295cc on left and 385cc on right. I had assymtry from my last baby nursing on one side and then my chest wall is martially uneven, my left ribs stick out more than the right. I'm amazed at how well they look. I'm home and letting the anesthesia wears off. Surgery process was so smooth. Felt like I just took a good nap. Got nasueas on the way home and puked, which I expected. That always happens to me after anesthesia. Took a zofran and feeling better. Now pain is kicking in. Its about 5-6 but manageable. Can someone tell me if these implants are considered gummy bear? I didn't know what I was getting before hand so I'm thrilled he chose these as I've heard they have less rippling. Yay! Updated on 21 Sep 2017: Day 1 post op Reminders I'm a petite 5'3" and wanted a natural look after breastfeeding 4 kids too my boobs away. Yesterday I got 295cc left and 380cc right Natrelle Inspira SRF (high profile) highly cohesive implants. I am SO pleased with my surgeons results. I did some research and found thru are in fact gummies. I had nothing but saggy skin and nipples after breastfeeding 4 babies. I can already tell my surgeon worked miracles. Pain is more than I thought and I have birthed naturally. I would say my pain got up to a 7 out of 10 yesterday and definately worse than "engorged." Today is better than surgery day as I was so doped up from anesthesia and all the pains and vomiting constantly. I finally said screw the pain meds I'm switching to Tylenol/Motrin and muscle relaxer and feel so much better this morning. Apparently I don't do well on pain meds. Ladies, find a good surgeon and go for it. I chose mine based on us before/after photos, showed him my wish pics and let him make the judgement on sizers in the OR. I took a shower this morning with hubby's help and switched to a zip up sports bra which feels way better than the compression bra. Still have to drop and fluff but my boobs look fantastic. Updated on 21 Sep 2017: Post op day 1. No more bony flat chest. And the type of implant I got. Which I didn't know till after the fact, but I'm so happy he went with Inspira because I've heard great things! Updated on 22 Sep 2017: Good morning, post op day 2. I apologize for spelling errors as I type from my phone and autocorrect isn't the best. Yesterday was definitely much better than day of surgery. I just don't do well on anesthesia and narcotic pain meds. I got the ok to switch to Motrin, Tylenol, and muscle relaxer and skip the percocet as it literally made me projectile vomited every time I took it. Not fun. I was much more mobile yesterday taking the non-narcotics. Chest muscles are still super sore, I have to move slowly, but can go for walks and fix my lunch and stuff as long as I don't teach over my head. Hubby helped me take shower and washed my hair for me which I was super grateful for. He hasn't given me much feedback about the way my boobs look so I think he's slightly freaked out by the shape, even though he hasn't said so. But for me I've seen so many pictures of dropping and fluffing I think mine will look perfect in a few weeks. Just starting PO day 2 and I feel they are swelling more. Maybe dropping a little. The M sports bra I put on is feeling right now. I also must have air that is trapped beneath my skin right under my rib cage and sides and it feels like I have bruising under my arms even though I can't see any. That's where I'm applying ice packs mostly due to the pain. If I didn't know that crunchy popping sound by my ribs was normal (I'm a nurse...I think the name for it I'd subcutaneous emphysema) I would be freaked out. It's just really weird to feel popping under your skin. I did take one Percocet last night before bed to help me sleep and tolerated it well. For the most part recovery is going well but I did underestimate the pain. If you can tolerate pain meds go for it. For me, I literally couldn't keep anything down taking them so my switch to non narcotics was a better choice for me. I also have my mom and husband helping care for my children. There's is no way I could pick up my toddler right now. Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be feeling a good bit better and slowly regain the ability to do small things around the house. I'm still very impressed with my surgeons work and absolutey LOVE my boobs. I'm so happy I chose Dr. Boudreaux. My bony chest was always a slight insecurity I had and I think these implants are going to look so natural on my frame. I'm including some full boob photos from yesterday. Updated on 23 Sep 2017: I obsessively read reviews on here so I would not what to expect after surgery. Some women seem to bounce back and have little pain, but I'm not that person. I have 4 kids and definitely need help with them. My mom has been with me now and then my husband will be home for another week thankfully. Even though I'm off narcotics I'm still tired and sore and scheduling my initiate/Tylenol around the clock. I can't reach for things higher than my head. I tried going for a walk with my 4 year old holding the puppy on a leash which was a mistake. She tried to run and I had to grab the leash. Ouch. It will be a while before I can do that again. My husband is weirded out by the shape/fake look of my boobs. But I love them because I've seen all the before and after school of drop and fluff. I took my first shower on my own yesterday just needed help getting my bra on. I feel like they started swelling more yesterday and the sports bra I got was too tight so I went up to a large. Still tight but it'll work. I have this insane desire to go braless but my surgeon wants me in a non-wired bra for 6 weeks. So yeah, I'm a bit surprised by the pain. It's a constant 4-5 even with meds. And that's irritating. I've been able to eat and drink a ton since stopping narcotics and peeing like a race horse, which is good I'm staying hydrated. I have all my meds open on my bathroom counter for easy access. Extra supplements I'm taking are vitamin C, arnica (which is supposed to help with bruising/swelling and I have zero bruising so far), and magnesium CALM supplement with melatonin in it to help me sleep at night. I still wake up a few times at night to put on ice packs which are a must for me. Most of my pain is under my arms/sides and under the breast. Yesterday I also started feeling that freaky bopping/crackling sensation between my rib cage. Feels like fluid/air is trapped beneath the skin. Feels like rice crispies popping up. Medical term for it is subcutaneous emphysema and will go away on its own. It's so strange. I wish I was one of those women that had a super fast easy recovery but I'm willing to take it easy so I heal well. Don't want to mess up these boobs. Yesterday was rough with just being in a constant state of pain...not extremely high...but enough to make me want to stay in bed mostly. I make it a point to go for walks throughout the day. My youngest son (18 months) it's just noticing mommy hasn't been holding recently so he's been crying for me more. My mom put him on my lap a few times and he seemed satisfied. I'm just super paranoid about being kicked or punched in the boob so I don't let my kids too close. They can be quite rambunctious. My older kids I just told them mommy had surgery on my chest and had trouble moving my arms. Thankfully they haven't asked too many questions and dont seem to notice about my bigger boobs. Also my PS was very kind to call me night of surgery and check on me. It was literally 9pm he must have called from home. The next day a nurse called from the office and assured the pain/crackling sounds down my ribs were completely normal. Oh I haven't had a BM yet but I just started to get bloated. It's not as bad as I've heard people say maybe because I only took Percocet one day. I did buy some miralax so I can try to stay on top of it. I'm passing gas so hopefully things are starting to move. Anyway that's all I got for now. Well see what today brings! Thanks for following my journey. I feel I already look soooo much better than I did before. Updated on 24 Sep 2017: First of all, I felt so much better pain wise the rest of day 3. The ibuprofen/Tylenol is really working well for me. I think I'm going to quit the diazapam which is the muscle relaxer the doc gave me as well. I laughed a lot yesterday and laughing hurts but at least I'm feeling well. No boobie blues here. I have however gotten SO bloated. Despite only taking Percocet on surgery day, I still hadn't had a movement in 4 days. So I took a butt load of laxatives. Been taking colace and probiotics since day one, but yesterday I did a double dose of milk of magnesia. My stomach hurt all night and I finally had a BM this morning. Bloating went down a little bit still look pregnant. Pic included below. The bloating is no joke. I'm sure it'll go away eventually. I felt boobs looked small yesterday when I was wearing a baggy shirt but without one they look hot. I never thought my boobs could look this good. So natural. And even. I'm amazed at my surgeons work. Can't wait till my post op to see what he says. Think my right might be dropping a little. Also. Sex. The plan/goal was to wait 2 weeks. This is what I discussed with my husband beforehand based on what I read on real self. My surgeon didn't provide specific instructions regarding sex, nor did we ask. Well, we had a little incident in the shower today. This is the third time my husband has helped me get clean and o guess it was the finally straw! We totally had sexy time without actually touching the boobs or even getting my heart rate up. So ladies, if you feel you "have" to do it standing is probably best, him behind, no access to the boobs, and gentle. Everything went well. Totally wasn't in the plan. But oh well! Updated on 25 Sep 2017: Feel like swelling has gone down a bit and I feel they fit my frame well. Just want feedback on how they look. My right is dropping. My left (I'm left-handed) is high and tight. My surgeon will probably give me the go ahead to massage at my post op. I just don't want them smaller. Curious as to how they look when they drop and fluff. I will always have a gap because my anatomy but I think I'm ok with that. The bra I'm wearing is a 34C so that's encouraging. Updated on 27 Sep 2017: Posting pics for comparison. My left is still constantly sore and painful. Can't wait for my post op tomorrow to see what can be done, and learn to massage it properly. I'm hoping the muscle is just tight and it's nothing more. Really no pain on the right side. I'm also hoping the left drops and fills the loose skin. Updated on 28 Sep 2017: Post op went well. In shirts my breasts look totally natural and even. I bet no one could even tell. Which is what I asked for. I do feel a bit of boob greed, partially wish my bigger natural breast would have got an implant a little bigger to match the bigger implant and to fill loose skin. Maybe 325/385cc instead of 295cc/385cc. But my surgeon is confident once my left drops it will fill the skin and look symetrical. He said when they sat my up in the OR they looked perfect, one just might be tighter than the other. Now I just have to massage them and it's good and bad. Good because of progress, bad because it hurts. It hurt so much when they did it in office particularly when they are pushed to the middle. I get shooting pain all down my sides. But if it helps them soften and drop I'll take it. Feel small today in regular shirts but naked they look perfect, and I really wanted to look good naked too. I can already tell it's boosted my confidence when I'm intimate with my husband. We've continued our little adventures and it's continued to be pain free and just awesome. Can't wait till they are soft and squishy and can go without a bra. I'll try to do weekly updates with pictures from now on to document how they soften and progress. Thanks for all the feedback. Updated on 4 Oct 2017: Ladies after my last post I had some serious boobie blues strike. They looked so huge and fake and uneven to me. And THEN shortly after starting to massage them I felt the bigger one start squeaking. I couldn't stand it. It felt so fake. It's an inaudible, vibrating sensation like rubbing your finger down a water balloon. I read hear on real self it's normal and should go away in a few weeks, but it definitely didn't help the "fake" feeling. I feel as the swelling has gone down unevenness is more obvious to me when I am naked. In clothes and I bras they look fine. Not sure if the left is smaller due to the size of the implant or the tightness of the muscle, but currently I'm feeling he could have used a bigger implant to fill that loose skin. Still have weeks to go to drop and fluff and I'm praying they even out some but if not I think I would still be happy. Overall, they look good for my frame. And in clothes, symetrical. Massaging has gotten slowly less painful. I'm mostly pain free I just get sore at the end of the day of I use my pecs too much. It is definitely harder taking care of my 1 year old still now that my husband has gone to work. I let my older kids do most of the lifting while they are home. My nipples are super sensitive, no loss of sensation there. My steristrips came off and I'm mostly still wearing supportive sports bras even though my surgeon said I could wear any non wired bra. Overall happy that I did this. Most of the blues have passed and my husband has talked sense into my on my bad days. He thinks they are amazing, sometimes I can be over critical. I'm hoping as the weeks go on I'll love them more. Thinking of my before knocks some sense into me too. Updated on 6 Oct 2017: I realized I never showed a true before picture. It makes me shudder. Updated on 8 Oct 2017: Hi ladies! Wanted to post a mid week update. I'm 2.5 weeks post BA now. Things are going well. I'm really feeling functional. Most soreness and tenderness is gone however my nipples are SO sensative, and flat out painful some times. Yesterday that sensativity turned into shooting pains. I guess other people call them "zingers." It basically feels like an electrical shock to the boob as the nerves reconnect. The first time it happened I was bending over and it shocked me. It happens mostly when I lean forward or stretch my arm out. And makes me grab my boob in pain. I'm really thankful I have an extra week before going back to work as a nurse. I thought I was over the "pain" stage now these shooting pains start up. Hopefully it won't last long. I've also noticed on the bottom of my bigger boobs certain ligament like tissues that pull when I lift my arm up. Looks like mondors cord, I've seen on others here on real self. That too should go away so I'm not worried. My boobs are getting softer each day that passes as I massage. Can't push them together and don't think I ever will be able to due to my anatomy, but when I am massaging I still try lol! I think they are perfect for my frame. Occasionally, have thoughts about going bigger but then I remind myself natural is what I wanted and what's "in" now. Well see how I feel 10 years from now or later. Boob greed is real. When you start looking at boobs constantly you get obsessed and start comparing. The truth is I got boobs that fit my frame perfectly. Why would I need more? Updated on 8 Oct 2017: Hello boobs! Happy with my 295/385cc inspiras Updated on 9 Oct 2017: My right boon has stopped with that squeaking sensation when I move or massage it! Hooray! Hopefully, it stays that way. I'm feeling much more comfortable with them as they get softer and softer. I couldn't help take this picture today. They are feeling more like me. Only 2.5 weeks PO I'm sure they'll keep looking better and better. Question about incisions. At what point do you start using scar cream? My steristrips have been off for a week. My PS nurse said whenever they look healed and pink. My question is I have one that seems raised a little. Would strips work better than cream to get it to go down? Thanks! Updated on 11 Oct 2017: Hi ladies! I'm 3 weeks post op. Just starting my first period post BA. So extra emotional today, bear with me. It was about 2 days late, as I've heard surgery can sometimes mess with your cycle. Had a "bad boob day" yesterday. Worried about my unevenness and my smaller boob (which used to be the bigger one) looking all wonky. I'm having issues with my left side. The muscles are probably stronger because I'm left handed. That one points to the side (it did before BA) and the nipple hangs lower. I'm wondering if maybe I needed a lift on that side (my surgeon never offered) or a bigger implant to fill it out. The left is the one that got 295cc. The right 385cc looks round and full and nipple sits in the middle. What's wrong with my left? Will it drop? Will it be uneven forever? Are my muscles just tight? And where is this fluffing people speak of? I feel mine have continued to shrink as swelling goes down. I know people won't be able to tell I had a boob job which is what I wanted. But yes, I wish I could have gone bigger. I like my right bigger boob which is 385cc. Is this worth a revision? Should I bring it up to my PS at my check up in 2 weeks? Do I actually want surgery again?? I also have chest wall asymmetry so maybe this is is actually the size I needed to even out my rib cage. You can only tell they are uneven when I am naked. Is it worth it to ask for another surgery? I feel crazy even asking this. I would not want to spend any more money. These are thoughts going through my head. Sooo I went to Victoria secret today to help me feel better about myself. Just hoping I would be a C or D. I got sized as a 32C but D fits better in the pushups. I was spilling out of the pushup it just didn't sit right with my boons so high. Trying on a lot of bras was physically hard for me, especially since I found the 32 band tight and the small sports bras the lady was bringing me were just so tight. I ended up buying sexy lingerie and panty set that looked pretty on me...I can finally fill a little out on top. I just needed a little splurge even though I'm not ready to buy bras yet. Pictures below. Let me know what you think and what you would do? I know I was uneven before I guess I was not excepted the opposite boon to be the bigger one. Updated on 12 Oct 2017: Tried on bikinis I had last night. I fill them out! Last summer was officially my last summer as flat chested mom of 4. Whose babies nursed away the boobs I had. Wow. I can't wait to wear these bikinis ext year. I stocked up when Target had a sale on M and L bikini tops. Looks like they'll fit me. Love the way they look in these. Going to stay patient. Updated on 17 Oct 2017: Boobs still uneven. But still unnoticeable in clothes/bras. I've bumped up my 2nd post op to this week because I just want assurance everything is looking ok. I've mostly stopped thinking about revision for unevenness. I guess if end up with my right boob being a bit bigger than my left it's still much better than what I had before: a saggy left boob and a non existent right one. I mean I couldn't even fill an A cup! So yes, I can use to these. They do point out I guess more than I was expecting. But I'm slowly being able to push them closer together and that makes me happy. Slowly looking more natural and soft. I've started applying the scar cream given to me by my surgeon and it is helping them fade already. I'm able to sleep on my side comfortably and it's so wonderful. I had my first day back at work as a nurse and it went 99% ok. For the most part, I could do everything but it was trial and error. A doctor asked me to push on a moms belly in delivery and it hurt my chest do bad! It happened so quick I didn't get a chance to say I can't do that, but while I was pushing I was about to say I just had surgery...I need someone else to do this. Now I know to be careful with that next time. I've also gone to gym a few times. I'm technically not supposed to be working out but all I do is walk, stair climb or do light legs. It's been too hot to walk outside here so it feels good to get moving. I haven't gained any weight since my surgery but I can tell I lost muscle. Specifically in my booty. Will tone up once I get the clear. How is everyone doing? I'm slightly paranoid about my nude pics on real self because I'm a modest person. Not sure what the chances of someone I I know seeing them but I may end up deleted sometime after my recovery way down the line (I'm talking months). Is anyone else worried about that? Happy BA and reocvery ladies! Updated on 19 Oct 2017: Had my 4 week post op with the nurse! Just needed reassurance things are looking good. Wanted to get a second set of eyes on the unevenness since I had two different implants and she said they look great. She said she thinks the left still needs to drop a little and should with a little more time. You see the nipple points lower on the side and if I stare and obsess over the difference, it starts bothering me. But overall looking good. She said I could massage my scar that's bulging a little but incisions are looking good too. I'm putting scar cream on them twice a day. They look very natural in bras and clothes and good for my body size. But I still get boob greed. I swore it would never happen to me! It is how quickly you forget what it was like to not have boobs and then immediately want more. Maybe when I started working out and wearing tighter clothes I'll feel differently. Speaking of working out she cleared me to exercise and resume normal activities. She told me I could go bra shopping but isn't this a little early? She said swelling is down and this is the size they'll stay. But they may change positions and drop more. So shouldn't I wait a bit? Updated on 19 Oct 2017: I didn't get a lift and my doc didn't reccomend one but it looks like that boob might hang that way because that's how it was before. 4 weeks PO. Updated on 22 Oct 2017: I love how they are getting softer daily, but again it feels that the smart implant is getting smaller. It bugs me because I can wear a 34C cup and my right boob fills it perfectly but my left I'd more like a B cup. I was uneven before I didn't want to be uneven after in the opposite boob. True the result in bras and clothes is fine but will I always be bugged looking at the difference naked? Guess I'm left waiting till my 3 month apt when "the final results" will be in. Wondering if he will offer a revision or say that I needed that size difference to even up my chest wall. They project the same and from the top looking down are even. It's just looking at them naked and feeling them you can tell the obvious size difference. I'm wondering what the cost would be to replace one implant. And how much a size difference I'd have to go up. Just my thoughts. It's bugging me. I'm going to try my best not to stare and obsess. Updated on 25 Oct 2017: I know I was pretty down a few days ago. Y'all probably think I'm bipolar but I swear I'm not. That's what this surgery does to you. I slept braless yesterday it was so comfy and i woke up with super soft boobs. Not sure if the two are connected, I just felt the bra I was wearing was digging into the incisions. Feeling better about the way they look naked. The left doesn't look so small and tight as it did 1 week ago. Maybe it's softening and dropping? Maybe the chest muscle had been spasming and holding the implant tight? Fingers crossed I think too that boob is turning a corner. I still flash my husband and ask him daily if he thinks they look good. Haha! The answer is always yes and better put those things away or else I'm going to get jumped. Thanks for all the support ladies! Also where can I find cheap 32 band sized bras? I'm thinking 32C or D? Need something to hold me over till drop and fluff is done. I tried on 34C today at Marshall's and the cup was too small and they did not have 34D. If I can't find anything I'll just keep my one bra that fits and all my sports bras until i can go on my shopping spree at Victoria Secret. Updated on 30 Oct 2017: I have anxiety when I look at them naked. In clothes in ok. This pic is natural light. I just don't feel the smaller implant is going to ever fill my tissue. It's hard waiting for the 3 month mark till Ivan discuss with my surgeon. I'm not sure I would go through a revision if I had to pay for it. I'm just ready to stop feeling self conscious about that boob. Updated on 30 Oct 2017: Updated on 2 Nov 2017: Hi ladies. Once again I was feeling very low a fee days ago. I had no idea the mood swings would accomany my new boobs! What's helped me is to turn off notifications and pictures of my boobs Facebook group. And try my best to stop comparing and trust the process. I won't lie for a while I did NOT trust the process and doubted my surgeons choice of in plant size. But they continue to both get softer and they continue to settle. I feel my left must have still been tight because it is slowly soften and looking less odd shaped. My implants are so soft now I can almost push them together! I've also been massaging my scars and they look like they are going to match my skin tone. Because they are softer I can feel the edge of the implant in the lower outside corners of my boob and feel the ripples but nothing is visible. My skin/muscles feel so thin I'm thankful we went with unders. I'm busting out of 32D bras now and can wear 34D even though it's a little loose. I wonder if 32DD is the size I need? I'm not buying anything for a few months because I think people are right...they will fluff it just takes time. Keep your heads up ladies. It's not an overnight process. I was hoping for a quick fix but this was not it. I'm so not a patient person but all the docs on here say wait 3-6 months before judging results. Updated on 7 Nov 2017: I think in about 7 weeks. Will make two months on the 20th. Not too much is changing other than they are looking a tiny bit bigger and I'm seeing more of my chest bones like I used to as they settle into a natural position. Assymetry is obvious in these pics I just took, but I am noticing less unless I stare. Think they are fluffing a bit because they are generally chilling out bras better. Oh I actually got them to touch once. I'm shocked because they are pretty wide spaced. Updated on 18 Nov 2017: 8 weeks post op. Still waiting for that I love them feeling. The unevenness was getting to be so bad but I feel like it's gotten a little better. I think my left muscle is tighter. But I don't feel like I love them so much it was worth almost $6000. I think it's an emotional thing. How long will it take me to get used to them? They still feel fake, yet I wish they were bigger and closed my gap more. Husband loves them. I am just constantly aware of the difference in size since one crease was lowered and the bigger boob sits lower. Updated on 29 Nov 2017: I'm coming up on my 3 month apt in about 10 days. I haven't had much follow up with my surgeon since my first post op. Gernally my boons look much better but I'm not happy with the assymetry. I think I will tell him and if there is any chance of revision I would go for it at this point. Based on my photos would you be happy? What would you do? I like the way my right looks my left I feel if it were a bigger in plant it would cover my chest more. I didn't think I had self confidence issues before BA but I've really been struggling. And sad that I can't just love my boobs like so many people do. Updated on 29 Nov 2017: This is what I get when I lay down. It makes me sad. :( Updated on 10 Dec 2017: Wearing comfy 34C bra. Still not in love. They've been pretty sore last few days. It's hard to sleep at night sometimes because my boobs get squished and hurt. Since they go to the sides I feel like I'm laying on them when I lay on my side. Still have a bit of boob greed. My husband brings me down and reminds me they are a C/D which is not small. Finally having a post op in 2 days. Updated on 12 Dec 2017: I had my 3 month post op today and I'm officially getting a revision. I was uneven before but on the opposite side, but think my surgeon overcompensated. I got HP unders, 295cc and 385cc on my smaller side. He made decision on sizes in the OR. I was happy originally with them for about a week but after the swelling went down the assymetry has been very noticable to me. I am so happy my surgeon agreed this result is not what I wanted is going to exchange the in plant for free. I was worried maybe it was all in my head and I should appreciate the boobs I have but when I saw their actual photos in bright light I was shocked at the difference myself. All my photos at home have been shaded. He said he would fit me in whenever I wanted. My question is how different the reocvery is for a revision in one breast? How long should I take off work? He said I should be feeling myself within a day. I am just so happy he agreed with me and we can finally work something out to get a result I love. Here is the "after" photo we took today at the office. Plan on getting the revision in January. Thanks for all your support. Updated on 13 Dec 2017: Official before and after office photos. Still waiting to get in touch with the office manager to set a date for revision. Since I'll be going under again I want to make sure he's going to do everything to make them look great. I want to ask him to help bring them together more and get rid of that lateral displacement I have when laying down. Also maybe tighten the pick because from the side I can tell now they are sitting pretty low. He so mentioned possible lift on one side. These are some things he mentioned when I saw him yesterday but nothing is set in stone. I can't wait to get this done. In the meantime Ill be enjoying the holidays. My husband keeps asking me if there is anything else I want done. I think he is hinting at exchanging both and going bigger. I can't imagine going bigger than 385cc, which is my bigger implant, because I already feel they are sliding down my chest and need lifting. But I want more coverage/cleaveage in the middle. What would you do? Updated on 22 Dec 2017: They just don't look right. I want wider. I want them to fill my chest more like my natural boobs did when I was pregnant. Maybe he underestimated how much stretch these boons had since they went from barely As to Ds during 4 pregnancies. I still feel like I used to be bigger while breastfeeding. I also can't stand the line of the implant of the smaller boob that shows up in push up bras. I'm contemplating asking him to exchange both for mod or mod+ because HPs are feeling fake and ball looking. I want natural and bigger if that makes any sense. My most recent pics. Updated on 31 Dec 2017: Revision January 10th. Y'all. This was my worst fear. Ok it could be worse but I was terrified of having to get surgery again. I just want boobs that I love. They look fake. The more I think the more I should have questioned my surgeons recommendations, but I trusted his judgement based on confidence and his beautiful pics on his website. They never gave me the option of going mod profile. The office manager who helped me with sizing said absolutey not it would look to wide on you. Said because of my frame HP was best. So now I feel I have to skinny balls on my chest. I want wider. I'm ok with lower profile since even with high you can't tell I have boobs from the side. Maybe they aren't used to seeing people with my anatomy but at my pre op I'm going to push for a full exchange with either mod or mod+ profile. I'm also not happy with how little I've had contact with my PS. All of my post op apts minus the first one week were with the nurse....even if with my upcoming revision pre-op they scheduled me just with the nurse! I said definitely not my surgeon needs to be there. We have talking to do. I want to make sure my goals are clear and I don't want surgery again for a long time. I want more of a wider natural look. I might be thin up top but I have 37 inch hips. My boobs with implants are currently measuring 33 inches. I think they can fit wider than what they think. Y'all pray for me. This whole thing is stressing me out. I want to be over with this surgery crap. Thanks for listening! Updated on 6 Jan 2018: Going for surgery on Wednesday! I had my pre-op with my surgeon and talked to him about how the implant don't sit right on my chest and he is ok with switching from HP to mod+ and even going with bigger cc. He said I could probably go up to 450cc but over 400 just scares me. I like the width of my bigger implant the 385cc I just feel like I want a more natural slope. Originally he was just going to exchange the smaller 295cc side and tighten the pocket on both sides but he agreed to give me a full exchange. I'm slightly worried about going bigger CC's because I already feel the 385cc hp is sliding down my chest and causing discomfort, but I wonder if that's more a pocket issue. I'll get to talk with him one more time day of surgery as he marks me. I never expected this review to get so long. But I am truly thankful for PS, I know I have a difficult anatomy to work with, they didn't turn out the way I wanted the first time he is giving me a redo for free. And also said reocvery should be much smoother. I pray for no further complications and that I will not have to have surgery again for a long time. One question I have is if the way you sleep affects the pocket and can make them fall out to the sides. I'm a side sleeper and noticed when I started going braless at night after 6 weeks and sleeping in my side that's when i felt they started dropping to low. I just don't want it to happen again. I truly appreciate all the feedback! Updated on 11 Jan 2018: This will probably be quick. I'm in a good bit of pain and not being myself. I had my implant exchange and pocket tightening yesterday morning. I think surgery took longer. Got there was 7:15 and didn't leave till 11am. My surgeon talked about doing 450 mod+ on my when he marked me but when he did sizers in the OR he said 400 looked best. He exchanged my Inspira full profile 295c left 385cc right for 375cc Inspira mod. Which is sort of like mod+ because they are overfilled silicone. I M very happy with the shape and size and can already tell they are more even. He apparently did a lot of pocket work/adjusting so I am in more pain than expected. He stiched up the sides to prevent my lateral displacement. I think he might have had to cut more muscle where my smaller implant was. I think these are going to look great. He come out and showed my husband a picture of my sloped chest he took in the OR and said putting implants on me is like putting implants on a roof. He said he thinks I'm going to love the look but it's imperative that I wear a bra for at least 3 months while the pocket heals. I haven't taken my bra off but plan on showering later today. I was nervous before but so happy it's done. Here are just a few pics. I think I need to update my review title. I had to push a little to get moderate profile but it just goes to show implants aren't a one size fits all. Just because you are small doesn't mean you need high profile. It's ok to ask questions and go to multiple consults. I'm thankful Dr. Boudreaux revised me for free and really took his time to correct any problems I had and work with my anatomy. Updated on 14 Jan 2018: Recovery has been more painful than expected. My surgeon said I would down for a day but I call lies. That was before he got in there and did all that pocket work. I actually had to take pain pills this time. I'm just feeling better on day 4. Once again it's hard because I can't pick up my kids. My husband and mom have been helping. But I love the size! They feel so much more like me. They are wider, don't project as much but they do cover my chest better. I'm posting pics from 1 day post op where I saw this ridge I guess where the muscle is stretching near my sternum. And then today. They look so much more even already! The pic they look a little uneven but it's more from my position I think. Love them! I was constipated/impacted this morning from the pain pills which totally sucked! It was honestly worse than birthing a child and I've had 4. So if you haven't had surgery yet start he laxatives on day 1! I felt a pop in my boob hope I didn't bust a stich. Love them! They look bigger in this pics in real life I wear the same tops and you can't even see them. Updated on 25 Jan 2018: Still love them! But I don't want to junk them! I had my 1 week post op. The only thing that slightly bothers me is the rippling I feel on the sides. It's visible when I bend over but I can't complain. I did mention it to my PS since it basically feels like nothing is covering the implant on the sides. Doesn't even feel like it's under the muscle and the implant feels squishy like a water balloon. It surprised me because o thought inspiras were thicker than what I am feeling. He said it's due to my very thin tissue. He also told me not to massage! We will re-evaluate at one month. I was happy about this because I feel like my implants are settling nicely on their own and I am super paranoid about them dropping too low and to the sides like before. I didn't feel comfortable at all pushing these down. The scars are already rising up on the breast like they do once they drop. I'm also a [RS bleep] about wearing a bra at all times. Making sure they are supported. He said I could wear any supportive non-wired bra but I'm sticking mostly to my surgical bra because it had a nice band underneath. He said if I could get a bra that pushes them together that would be great...but I have really found one that supports them and does that so I'm open to reccomendations. I'm trying not to sleep on my side because I just don't want to jinx anything. Pain wise I'm doing good. I get a constant sore feeling over the spot on the side that had the most rippling...not sure if it's normal or not but it's not bad enough to need meds. Love the way they look! Updated on 12 Feb 2018: I love them so much better than my first set! Sorry I haven't updated I haven't felt the need to obsess so much this go around. I guess I just must have known something wasn't right last time. This time I feel very content and at peace. They look beautiful. I'm amazed that 375/400cc mod+ looks so natural on my petite frame and not too big at all. I would have never guessed. I'm still wearing my surgical bra religiously and never sleeping braless in hopes of keeping them in the right spot and not dropping too low. I have moderate rippling on the sides that I can see when I bend over but it doesn't bother me much because the overall result looks so good. I've also started using silicone strips which I did not do last time. I highly recommend them! Not only do thru provide some cushion to the incision area but they really do fade and mature the scar. It speeds the healing process. I'm pretty much back to normal activities but I try to be careful and listen to my body by not lifting to much. I hope the rest of my recovery and the upcoming months continue going well and I have no further complications. The biggest thing is I need to find more supportive type bras that don't have anymore. Something that will hold them up and in? Any suggestions? I'm still wearing my reocvery bra 99% of the time but I'm not sure if I should by another one or something else. My surgeon said it's very important for me to wear a bra that does that for 3-6 months. Even to sleep. But he didn't reccomend a specific bra. Thanks my journey. Updated on 26 May 2018: So I'm getting kind of paranoid again. I'm about 5 months post revision I believe and recovery had been smooth sailing. This week I noticed them becoming a little uneven. I thought oh well I get the left is dropping low again due to my chest shape. But then when massaging I'm realizing the right actually feels a tiny bit firmer and actually seems to be sitting higher. I don't recall having that much breast at the top. I think it looks good but was odd. I did go swimming and thought I might have pulled something but it's not going away. Also when I squeeze them both up that one is somewhat limited in movement. I did some reading and now I'm worried about cc. What should I do? My husband does NOT want me doing surgery again. He thinks it's all in my head. I think I'm going to make an apt anyway to see if I should be doing something. Updated on 2 Jun 2018: Hi ladies, I saw my surgeon. He was impressed that the breast is still soft but said it could be the beginning of capsular contractur so he put me on singular for 3 months. It's off label use for CC. Since this pain started a week ago (I thought I may have pulled a muscle) and then not being able to move that implant well in the pocket my mind went to I immediately want them out. After having two surgeries so close together I can NOT have a third on my breasts so soon unless they are coming out. I was hoping I would have these for at least 10 years. My surgy isn't thinking surgery is necessary but since my appointment the pain had gotten worse. To be honest the pain never went away. At my 3 month check I had noted feeling sensitivity and soreness on the sides where that breast rippled. I have never stopped hurting on that side. At times the pain is really bad and I get shooting pains down my right arm. I find myself constantly massaging my arm pit. I wonder if it's possible the silicone ruptured and I didn't know it. I had routine bloodwork done and saw some of the factors for fighting infection, building scar tissue (granulocytes) were high... Only I havent been sick recently and I do wonder if my body is attacking the implants. That thought makes me sad. One things for sure, I can't live with this chronic pain. If this cc doesn't improve I'm getting them out. Sure they look beautiful, my husband loves them but he doesn't understand the constant pain I've been in and it's only been less than 2 weeks. I also miss being able to do things I could do with smaller breast like lay on my belly. If they so happen to soften and I become pain free I may change my mind. I've been depressed the last few days because I feel cursed. I was the woman who said I would never get implants or plastic surgery. I was so judgemental. Then I got them after breastfeeding deflated me. My first set left me severely uneven. Surgeon replaced for free. Now I have CC. I get jealous when I see so many women loving their implants saying they feel so natural. I am in pain. I think about my implants all day long. It consumes me. It wasn't supposed to be this way. Thank you for listening! Updated on 5 Jun 2018: Now it's a waiting game. I've seen so many doctors due to my pain. My plastic surgeon. A physical therapist. And went to the chiropractor due to my debilitating nerve pain. The chiropractor adjusted my neck and instantly the radiating pain down my arm stopped. Now all I feel is tolerable tenderness and discomfort on my breast. But not nearly the pain I felt before. Even the PT massage my neck and chest muscles and said that side of me is extremely tight. So the consensus from the professionals is they think this is muscular pain. Only time will tell if goes away. It is possible I injured myself playing in the pool before this started. I was catching my 2 year jumping in the pool repeatedly. And then he landed on my head. I didn't draw the connection to my breast because I didn't think they were affiliated. But with the new onset neck pain it definitely could be related. So the question is is the injured myself causing my breast to rise or is it cc? Also the left seems to be hanging out lower. Probably due to my protruding chest on that side but I was hoping it would stay parallel to the other this time. Overall still a great look and I'm not throwing in the towel yet. Feeling better now that I'm not in debilitating pain. Thanks for all the kind messages and words. Photo attached is one month ago on left (pretty even) and then today (right breast is the one causing pain/tightness). Updated on 25 Jun 2018: Almost 6 months post revision, 10 months post original surgery... I am so not happy. It's been over a month since I started noticing pain and swelling on my right breast. I feel if it was muscular it would be gone now. I've been taking the singular and haven't noticed a change. My right breast doesn't really move around on the pocket and when I lay down it stays upright, feels almost as if it's stuck to my rib cage. Sometimes it's hard for me to breath, if I use my chest muscle at there's a lot of pain. I tried lifting 5 pound dumbells and had excruciating pain. I can't live like this. I am a mom of 4 and my body has to function. More so than my lack of breast, my body needs be with out pain. My husband loves the way they look and I know he secretly wants me to do whatever I can to keep them. They feel so fake to me I am constantly aware of them....it's probably amplified due to the amount of pain I am in. If they weren't painful maybe I'd feel differently. I went for an breast ultrasound because I felt I had swelling in my breast. The ultrasound at the hospital was a joke. They essentially just looked at my native breast tissue and didn't even mention the implant beneath my chest muscle even though it was clearly obvious. The ultrasound found a beneign mass that I can actually feel in my breast tissue, I didn't notice that prior to implants. I did give my surgeon a copy of the CD and he didn't note anything abnormal. I just have this feeling that something is wrong. I've never had so much anxiety in my life. I guess pain will do that to you. My surgeon gave me 3 options. Wait and give the meds more time to work. Go in for scare capsule release or have the implants completely removed. He said he could do that under local anesthesia. I don't know what to do. My gut wants them out. I'd be willing to give the capsule release a try if I knew CC wouldn't come back but from what I hear it has a high recurrence rate. I really don't know. I feel depressed now because the pain I'm in but I wonder if I'll be drepressed after because I'll miss having breasts. I just looked so anorexic and thin up top prior to implants I'm just not sure how I'd adjust to that. Y'all pray for me! Updated on 25 Jun 2018: Left is pre BA. Picture. I was about 3 months post breastfeeding my 4th baby and pretty lopsided. Upper right was 3 months PO my first BA. I was a cup size bigger in the opposite breast so I got a free revision. Bottom right is 3 months post revision. Looking more even but now 3 months later the slightly bigger breast is riding up and painful. I would tell anyone considering this surgery be aware that you may need multiple revisions. If I knew that I would we end up getting two surgeries, maybe 3, within the year I would have never signed up for this. I knew there were risks of complications but I never thought it would happen to me. I wanted my implants to last for 10 years. Updated on 25 Jun 2018: A picture of the swollen boob I've been dealing with all summer Updated on 22 Aug 2018: Hi ladies, I forgot to update but praise the Lord sometime around 8-10 weeks of having that constant pain in my breast it completely disappeared and I am able to use that muscle without pain. I am so happy it went away! I'm assuming it truly was a pulled muscle that caused my breast to look swollen and be painful and not acrually capsular contractur. I also got a second opinion from another PS while I was still in pain and he said it wasn't CC because my breast still felt fairly soft and said it was likely muscular pain. Shortly after it went away! So I am not longer thinking about taking them out. They look very good one me, they are evening out now the muscle is no longer tight. I still partially regret getting them done somewhat impulsively and not being able to love my post mom body the way it was, but for now I'm happy with them. I'm coming up on a year since my first surgery And it's honestly taken me THIS long to get used to them mentally. They are finally feeling a little more natural to me. It still feels extremely awkward and they move when I do chest exercises. But asthestically they look great. He's some incredible before and after. Thanks ladies for your support! Updated on 26 Sep 2018: Hey ladies. I'm happy to report no pain, they look fine in clothes but they are just feeling so huge to me. Naked they look like balls on my chest. I'm regretting my decision. My boobs are something I think about every day. They feel heavy and fake. They look ok. But I am having trouble accepting myself this way. Getting a boon job was something I was always adamantly against until I had my 4th child and my breasts we're very lopsided. I feel like I made a rash decision during my postpartum period. I had just weaned my last baby and felt like I deserved a medal. Maybe I should have waited a year to let those hormones settle and see if my breast would even out. I hate feeling fake and not like me. When I work out they go to my armpits. My husband thinks I'm crazy for not liking them. Because they "look great." I don't deny that. I just have to live with the way they feel, and right now that's the bigger deal for me. I'm a very petite thin person and I have almost 800cc of extra weight on my chest. I miss how flexible I used to be, how boobs didn't use to get in the way, how I can lay on my stomach, not have chest muscle distortion, etc. I've been thinking of taking them out but after two surgeries in one year I can't afford it right now. And i feel like I need to keep them for a while to get my monies worth. Plus I don't want to make another rash decision and waste everything I invested into getting boobs and then have regret again. I look at my before pics and realize that wasn't so bad. I was athletic, I was thin, small boobs was "who I was." I never expected my mind would have such a hard time accepting the bigger boobs. I'm pretty sure I made the decision when it's time to have surgery again I will not replace them. I looked into fat transfer but it's so expensive. I'm going to do myself to except my self in it's most natural state. Until then I hope I can learn to live with these and maybe even love them while I have them. Please send prayers. Updated on 6 Dec 2018: Hi ladies! Unfortunately my health both physically and mentally has severely declined since I got my implants. I have literally gone to more doctors this past year than I have in my whole life. Fatigue, anxiety, depression, random aches and pains, shortness of breath, abdominal pain, finger pain. My doctor finally ordered autoimmune labs on my because my symptoms are always changing and I never got a diagnosis of what is wrong. I viewed the results and it looks like my labs are abnormal and pointing towards some type of lupus disorder. I go on Monday to see what my doctor has to say if that's my official diagnosis. Sure I have had problems mentally accepting the implants and yes they don't feel like part of my body...but I never made the connection that on the inside my body may be having trouble processing them as well. If I have autoimmune disorder (wheras I was completely healthy before them) I think that's the last straw and they should come out. My husband has no idea. I feel like he thinks I am making all these symptoms up. It has put such a strain on our marriage. Unfortunately I feel like I have to fight for my health so I can be a functional wife and mom again. I can't even workout anymore with getting short of breath. Please pray for me the next few days. We are also building a house so we don't exactly have extra funds and I don't want to keep having surgery. I just want to well. Nothing looks as good as healthy feels. Updated on 20 Dec 2018: I've really come to terms with going back to the way I looked before. I do hope I'll be a little more even the smallness and flatness is no price to pay compared to the pain my breast/chest muscles cause me. Looking at these pics I acknowledge Cosmo my surgeon gave me a great outcome but no one told me how these would "feel" like a foreign body swished beneath the pec muscle. I just hope not too much damage has been done and my muscles and body is able to function like it once was. I also hope I don't have too much stretching since I haven't had them that long. I'm hoping my surgeon can do local anesthesia because I don't want to go under general again right now. Updated on 22 Jan 2019: Y'all I have been having so much pain for almost 2 months now. My primary doctor doesn't know what to do. She's referred me to rhematologist for possible autoimmune issues. But over Christmas I developed a massive knot in my back that would not release for weeks. My right shoulder, kneck and chest are killing me. I get radiating pain down my breast, ribcage and arm. My plastic surgeon wanted me to do PT to help deal with what he calls "post mastectomy pain syndrome" basically nerve pain. I've tried PT for two weeks but I can't deal. Pain is worse. I found a painful lump in