I'm closer to my surgery date...I'm so exited to a healthier, fit me...I want so bad not to smoke but it is so hard...anybody go through this...I tell myself that I am now a nonsmoker but I don't want to mess this up but gosh this surgery is more stressful than I thought it would be...someone please tell me I'm not the only one that freaking out like this. I know I'm going to love my results and looking forward to a life changing event! But then sometimes I fall into this stage when I wonder...but I want this so bad...I got to stay positive!!! I'm climbing up walls!!