You can see by my profile what I've been thru' in the last year--explantation of old silicones, full anchor lift with new implants, then revision to larger implants 5 months later. I'm not a breast cancer survivor. Although I feel better since the October surgery with the new 800 cc implants, I still feel ugly and deformed. I know I'll never look the same and I know I shouldn't expect to. I'm 49 years old and feeling like my (sex) life is over, that I'm physically unattractive, and I'm having a hard time dealing with that. When I look online to see how other women are dealing with it, I'm finding women with new implants who are all happy and excited, and I find survivors of breast cancer dealing with even bigger issues than mine (makes me feel shallow and insignificant.) But this is how I feel and perspective helps a LITTLE bit, but the reality is, this is how I look and this is how I feel. How do I get it together now? How do you, if you've been thru' something similar, get it together? Sex, intimacy, dating, etc. I don't see that it can get better.