I've already posted my story on here. But basically I've always had a bad self-esteem, especially with my breasts. They've been really uneven since I started to develop. I've always had long hair and worn it draped over my right boob (especially in bathingsuits), since it was the smallest. Then after breastfeeding 3 babies a year each, the asymmetry became worse, a whole cup size difference. My husband has always been sweet to me about it, but since it bothered me so much he told me if we ever got the money, I could get implants, so when we did I made the appointment. But once I realized this was actually going to happen, I decided I only wanted a lift and reduction on the one side, to make them as even as possible. I take vitamins, I love working out, and I didn't want plastic in my body. Unfortunately friends talked me out of it, saying I wouldn't be happy with myself, like I would if I had implants. I'm not blaming them, I know they truly believed that, I just wish I would've listened to my gut feeling. 2 weeks leading up to my surgery, I had anxiety so bad and would just sob!!! I never felt excited at all...but both my husband and I just thought I was just very nervous. But it is what it is and here I am actually very excited for my surgery to have them explanted!!! I am very nervous and afraid of what I'll look like, but the toxic plastic will be out of my body!!! And after my recovery I will be able to run without feeling that sloshy feeling in my boobs, really be able to hug my babies and husband, sleep on my stomach again one day, etc!!! I think I may have some problems starting to, like: brain fog- I can't remember words sometimes, that I want to say...it's the strangest thing! I'm only 35! My cleavage has little bumps all over it, almost like a heat rash. My face is beginning to break out and I've always had nice skin. There's other things to but again I can't remember right now.I got 445cc on my rt. and 435cc on my lt. It sounds like I'm really big, but I'm a full C. I'm 5'9, so I'm really tall. My PS really did a great job, I'm only explanting because I know they are toxic for anyone to have inside their bodies, and I want to be healthy first and foremost. I am nervous about how I'll look. I've been encouraged by pics of other women on here. I'll be about 18 weeks at my explantation surgery and I'm praying that since I didn't have them in that long, the lift I got with the implants will hold up a little?? I hope so.