My BA is scheduled for the 29th!! NINE days!!!! I? have
been dreaming of this since I? was a preteen.. I? so looked forward to having boobs for years. They grew (in size) but they never took shape like I? thought they should. They never looked “normal”.
I? just got married in September and even on my wedding night, I? felt the need to cover my breasts. My husband loves me for me and he never saw an issue with my body but I? can’t stand the sight of them. With lots of discussion, research, and even some (wanted and unwanted) advice from family members, my husband and I? decided this is happening!!!
I? went to a consultation with a surgeon that performed BA for my cousin and best friend. I? fell in love with his work immediately! His staff was amazing and he made me feel comfortable and confident. During that consultation, I? mentioned of course what I? wanted and why. I? told him how much I? hated the shape of my breasts and that I? didn’t feel like a woman. He informed me that I? have tubular breasts and that could be altered with implants and a possible lift.
I? go for my pre-op on Wednesday and surgery is scheduled for the following Wednesday! There are no words for how excited I? am! No nerves yet, just anxious! I? can’t wait to look in the mirror and love the body in it!!! ????
Updated on 21 Nov 2017:
Tomorrow is pre-op!!! I? am beyond excited and I? have a LIST of questions to ask my PS before surgery. At this point, I? am not worried a bit. I? think though I? am anticipating the recovery to be much worse and that has me a bit anxious. But I? took a week off work and have an amazing husband to care for me! Only 8 more days ????
Updated on 1 Dec 2017:
Day 2 has been a little rough. Slept in the recliner last night and
only woke up twice to take to take pain meds and muscle relaxers! Even
though I don’t feel like I necessarily need the pain meds, my dr said it
would be best to stay ahead of the pain rather than get pain and then
try to get it back under control.
My wonderful husband slept on the couch next to my recliner last
night and was there for my every need. He works second shift and
unfortunately had to go back to work this evening. So far things are
good. I can stand up and walk around with little to no pain. Lifting my
arms up isn’t as bad as reaching sideways.
I was able to
get a shower this morning with no help needed! My husband sat on the
bathroom counter the entire time waiting for me to need him but I was
able to wash and even dry my hair on my own! My dr said it was ok to
take my bandages off and shower with just the brown tape on. I meant to
take some nudie pictures after my shower but I completely forgot. I will
definitely take some after tomorrow’s shower!
I was
super emotional this morning. After my shower, I just kept looking at my
new boobies and couldn’t help but think how ugly they were. I went into
my operation with tuberous breasts (see before BA post). I guess I
expected them to be even just a bit round after surgery but they are
gigantic cones!! I hope that changes! The front view isn’t bad but side
view is so triangular. I hope they will round out once they drop and
fluff ????
Anyways ladies, as far as pain is concerned,
it’s not as bad as I expected!!! I am super sore and feel like I did a
HEAVY chest workout. I just hope this emotional rollercoaster would
settle down.
Updated on 1 Dec 2017:
My tuberous deformity seems to just be glorified with my implants :( I’m having a hard time being patient with the drop and fluff process... I was really hoping to see myself differently after surgery but all I can see is the deformity that I am trying to fix! That was my whole purpose for augmentation. I wanted larger breasts, but I would’ve been happy if I could just fix the odd shape of my breasts. NOT amplify it! Ugh... maybe I’m just emotional from anesthesia and surgery and meds.
The pain was minimal today. My husband got up and fixed breakfast this morning while I showered. It wasn’t hard today at all. Slowed movements but I could wash my hair without a problem. TMI but I still have not had a BM since the morning of surgery. I took 2 exlax yesterday and still nothing :/ probably why I am SO bloated. After breakfast, we went to the mall and did some Christmas shopping. That wasn’t so easy. I was exhausted and out of breath the whole time! The mall is about 45 minutes from us and I slept the entire way home.
Updated on 2 Dec 2017:
2 days before BA and 4 days after BA. Not much difference yet. I have 520cc silicone in each breast under the muscle.
Updated on 2 Dec 2017:
Shower was easy this morning!! I have almost all range of motion back in my arms. I am still numb all over but I keep getting bits of tingly sensations and a little itchiness... so I think feeling is trying to come back. Today is the first time I heard my implants make noise!! How weird... it sounded like rubbing two pool floaties together.. I know that is a weird way to describe it but that’s all I could think of ????
I am still cone shaped but I am far less emotional today and I have high hopes that they will soon found out :) I go for another post op appointment on December 7th and maybe my doctor will see a bit of change then? I am incredibly bloated still and have been taking exlax with no luck :/ I think I will try dulcolax today and see if that will help.
I have been eating clean and drinking TONS of water! I have been living off of bananas and tuna for the last two days... idk why but my body is CRAVING tuna!!
Updated on 3 Dec 2017:
Today was hectic! I felt so good when I woke up this morning.. I finally slept in my own bed and not the recliner! I have been so antsy to get out of that thing. Sleeping in it, spending all day watching tv in it! I was over it. Being in my bed was great. I propped myself up with a couple of pillows and even found myself waking up on my side. That was a bit uncomfortable but not hurting. Right now the most difficulty I’m having is with the stupid strap!! My PS wants me to wear it for at least 2 weeks to help keep the swelling down. It itches and feels like everything is compressed and I can’t breath! Oh well.... it has to be worth it. Today the girls are looking better. Still coney but not as bad. When I left my arms, I can see that they are starting to round out a bit. The swelling is at a minimum and I couldn’t be happier with this stage. I have taken the strap off for just a couple hours to relieve some pressure and my goodness it feels wonderful!! My husband finally got a chance to feel them and he is extremely pleased. He thought they were going to be so obviously fake and they aren’t! We’re not excited for the drop and fluff process ?? I am so tired of the sweats and looking grungy so I slipped into my silk nighty and robe. Still keeping the sports bra on but my husband just can’t keep his hands off me! And even if he stops touching, he definitely hasn’t stopped looking! Lol
Updated on 6 Dec 2017:
I went back to work today! I am exactly 1 week post op today. Lots of things are going on right now... I can actually see the difference in my left and right breast. My left had dropped just a bit faster than my right. I have been itching a TON on the tops of my breasts where the implant is still sitting pretty high. For that I am using vitamin E oil at night before bed. That was NOT suggested by my doctor so I am going to run it by him tomorrow just to be safe. I’m pretty sure I will get my steristrips taken off tomorrow.
So I am completely numb from my areola and down. But today I noticed some soreness to my nipples and maybe even a little tingling? I want to say the feeling is trying to come back. I’ll also be talking with my PS about that in the morning.
As of today, I have full mobility with my arms. Work was not as bad as I expected today... I was able to reach shelves above my head just fine. The only difficulty I had was bending straight down. The weight of the implant was too much for my chest muscles right now.
Before my BA I had tuberous breasts.. to my knowledge, my PS did not do anything corrective like a life or scoring of my lower pole. He predicts that the implant alone will round out the lower pole of my breast because I had a very mild case. At 7 days PO, I am still very cone shaped without a bra on. WITH my sports bra, I am nice and round and perky! So hopefully that will change with time. If not, the fullness alone is enough to be thankful for in the moment. If need be, I will discuss revision options with my PS.
Also!!!! MAJOR boob greed........ I have 520cc high profile. I am really hoping that my D&F process will add a little bit of fullness.
Updated on 9 Dec 2017:
So I realize I’ve been off a tad bit on my days... TODAY I am 10 days PO and I am not sure how I feel at the moment...... for starters, I am feeling extremely depressed about my shape. Before my BA I went to a consultation with my PS and addressed my tuberous breasts. He told me they were minor so they would not require any corrective surgery.... ok! So at that point I was feeling confident that it would resolve itself with implants. We opted for 520cc because that’s just what he recommended. (Stupid me for not showing wish pics and begging to go bigger) I look AMAZING in a sports bra! Nice and round and pushed up and together. But then I take that off and.... my boobs fall apart to practically no cleavage and two gigantic pointy poke your eye out cones! Looking at the front profile in the mirror you can not tell. But when I look down at them, or from a side profile, they look not different then before surgery. Some days I feel positive and hopeful that the drop and fluff process will do the trick! But other days I feel so down in the dumps and that they will never change. I’ve been told before that implants will only create a larger version of what I already had. So WHY on earth would my PS not opt to correct my issue????? I am so bummed. I know it is so early in the process but I see a revision in my future :( of which I have no time or money for.... I had taken out a loan for the full amount of this surgery! I was so pumped and confident. (I have no problems paying for the initial loan btw.. that isn’t the issue) maybe I am just getting myself worked up over nothing but the main reason I wanted a BA was to have nice round full boobs!! As of right now, I have pointy oddly shaped not even big enough boobs... ugh. I hate feeling this way.
Updated on 13 Dec 2017:
Ok!! So today is exactly 2 weeks post breast augmentation! I am loving my girls ???? I have struggled lately with the idea that they aren’t perfect yet....LOL. Of course! I have a long journey ahead of me and so much change to look forward to. I have just decided to love myself in every stage of my healing process.
The only issues I have been having this past week is my skin. I feel as if my skin is totally raw! Which is so weird because I am also numb from my nipples down. But somehow I still feel burning... I’m sure it is from the stretching of the skin.
My left implant is still sitting relatively high but I’m sure it’ll catch up soon enough. I have noticed mor rounding out around my arm pit. Again, I have tuberous breasts so I am still very pointy and triangular shaped. Especially looking at them from the side. But looking at my breasts from the front, I can see (especially my right) the implant is setting more to the side. Which I am completely fine with. I ?? side boob!!!!
I go for my next post op appointment on January 11th which would be a month and 1 week post op. At my last post p appointment (1wkpo) my PS told me I could stop using the compression strap which he originally wanted me to wear for 2 weeks but I stopped after 1 because he said I was progressing quickly. He also gave me the green light to begin massaging.... now that, I am so lost on. I don’t feel like I am able to massage them the way he did.. so we’ll see I guess. At my 1 week PO dr Swank also gave me my scar treatment serum. I am to begin use tomorrow morning after my shower. This serum will be used two times daily (morning and night) for at least 3 months or until healed. He gave that to me for free and he said that if I continue to need it after I finish that tube, he will send me another!
Dropping and fluffing is literally like watching paint dry............. I am so impatient!!! Some days I tells myself that I’m not even gonna look at them and other days I can’t stop staring and comparing. Side note, my XL sports bra that zips in the front busted open in my sleep and broke the zipper LOL. Sooooo that may be a sign that I need to size up... ???? that’s a-ok with me!!!
Updated on 18 Dec 2017:
Feeling GREAT! They are dropping beautifully.. my left is slacking a little but not majorly. I’m still a little coney but it doesn’t bother me nearly as much as before. I can see just a LITTLE rounding out on the bottom of the right breast.
My skin is still a little raw still but not as bad as before. I am starting to get some feeling back under the breast as well. But I am still have a bit of boob greed :( 520cc is a large implant but it doesn’t seem very large on my frame... I mean I AM 200lbs... I was really hoping for huge breasts.. like extremely noticeable!! Hopefully I will become satisfied with them once they’ve dropped lol
Overall, I’m feeling great and I am so happy with Dr. Swank’s work!
Updated on 20 Dec 2017:
Shopping is so much more fun now ??????
Updated on 22 Dec 2017: