As a teenager, I experienced severe bouts of anorexia/bulimia and by the time I recovered was left with 34 AA breasts. I was so depressed and full of self-loathing, and to me it felt like a matter of life or death to have breasts- any breasts at all! I wore see-through shirts sometimes, and still looked like a boy and attracted some really mortifying comments.
At 21 I couldn’t stand it anymore, and had my BA. I honestly just wanted to blend in, and the thought of huge knockers was furthest from my mind. I had 180cc silicone overs, which took me to a 34B, and I have to say they were just beautiful . For the first time I felt “normal”, whatever that means!
Looking back, I can’t believe how insecure and desperate I was. Much as I hated those fake boobs later in life, at the time it seemed like a miracle.
Will tell my explant story soon ????
Updated on 1 Nov 2017:
I lived with these strange objects for 4 decades, and successfully breastfed my four children, the shortest time for 6 months and the longest was for 2 1/2 years (well, he was the baby of the family!). No problems with milk supply, but I did have painful engorgement when the milk came in where my breasts swelled from 34B to 34DD. I had very mild capsular contracture where my breasts felt a little firm, but nothing major. I was one of the lucky ones in that regard. After having kids, my weight increased and I was wearing 36B bras- not too unmanageable!
In 2016, I fell down a flight of stairs and landed full on my left breast on the concrete- the pain was excruciating on both breasts but especially the left. A few weeks later I noticed some firm lumps under that boob- painless but about the size of chestnuts. I was terrified! Of course we think the worst when we feel a breast lump. My doctor sent me for a mammogram and ultrasound- no cancer, yay! But they found extracapsular silicone and that was the beginning of the end for the fake boobies.
I hope this pic turns out ok- this is from the mammogram and you can see the rupture xx
Updated on 1 Nov 2017:
The hospital was 2hrs drive from home, and I arrived at 7am- second on the list for surgery that day. Due to some complications with the lady who went first, I spent 3hrs in the prepping area (starving, haha!) before being transferred to the operating table. Was given the Ahh! Meds and enjoyed the floating sensation for around 10 seconds then was knocked out. Best sleep ever, and in Recovery I just didn’t want to wake up- so restful!
I eventually woke to find drains inserted and a very tight binder- my surgeon recommends tight compression for the first 6 weeks, to enable the tissue to adhere properly and to avoid seroma.
Dr Sandercoe is an amazing surgeon, and although the binder was uncomfortable I’m so glad he insists on patients wearing one.
Updated on 2 Nov 2017:
How annoying are they?!! Finally got them out 6 days po, and that first real shower was heavenly. The drain removal was painless and quick, and only stung when the nurse clipped the stitch on one side.
Unfortunately, the dressing she used afterwards gave me an allergic reaction- blisters, swollen skin, intense itching etc. When I eventually tried to change the dressing all the blisters broke open and the pain was immense- had to wear a sterile pad and antibiotic ointment over the area for 3weeks under the compression garment, which was depressing! All good now, but still have discolouration where the adhesive was.
I was really surprised at how much Breast tissue I actually had- thanks Menopause, you were good for something, haha! I’m still swollen in these pics, so am sure to shrink a bit, but I’m so happy to be real again!
Updated on 4 Nov 2017:
Just looking at the aftermath of implants makes me feel ill- no wonder I’ve been so sick over the years. Debilitating fatigue, Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, arthritis, brain fog, depression... the sad and scary thing is that none of these symptoms have gone away yet, though I’m starting to feel a little more energetic. My fault for keeping these stupid things in for 40 years.
In the 70’s, no one told us that implants have a limited lifespan- they were promoted as permanent devices, completely safe, plonk ‘em in and that was it. Now of course there are caveats on durability, despite supposed improvements in manufacture and technology. It makes you wonder what will be discovered in the future about the effects of implants.
Here’s some pics of my explanted mess. Believe me, nothing is worth doing this to your body.
Updated on 5 Nov 2017:
I’m just wondering how you ladies feel about having extra procedures after/during explant surgery?
My surgeon said I don’t need a lift (amazingly, I thought I’d really be flopping around!) and prefers to wait at least 6 months before attempting further surgery to allow the breasts to settle and weight to stabilise. The thought of liposuction scares the heck out of me, though there’s plenty of fat to choose from, haha!
I have a dent in my lower left breast from the explant surgery- there was a lot of extracapsular silicone to scrape out, so it’s not surprising. Has anyone else experienced this, and what did you do about it, if anything?
I know that fat transfer can lead to problems, and that not all the fat will “take”. I’m really happy with these old boobies in every other respect, so should maybe just leave well enough alone? Any thoughts welcome!
Updated on 8 Nov 2017:
Here’s what my boobs looked like just before surgery. You can see that the left one has distortion and creases from implant rupture (both had extracapsular silicone but it shows more on the left) and there’s some contracture on both sides. This was my “normal”. Amazing what we put up with, and what we put our bodies through!
I’m so thankful for the ruptures though, as they prompted me to make a positive change in my health and self-esteem.
So yay for all of us brave ladies!
Updated on 28 Nov 2017:
Updated on 29 Nov 2017:
Here’s some pics of my poor old lefty at almost 3 months po. Lumpy, dented, much smaller than the right boob. :-(
There was so much damage on the left side that I’m amazed my surgeon did as well as he did, but it makes me sad to look at it. I’d love to have some remedial work done, and despite my doctor’s assertion that I don’t need a lift I’m thinking it might help to even things up and remove the scar tissue. Oh well!
Still no regrets though. I’ll try to post some pictures of how I look in a bra- and it’s actually not so bad.
Updated on 30 Nov 2017:
Hi All,
I’m sorry if I haven’t responded to your wonderful comments, but I’m having trouble accessing notifications and profiles- not sure if it’s a fault on the site or just my phone.
I will try to respond, but in the meantime am sending huge hugs to Maria, Lisa, Dog Mama, Patty and Silicone Sister for your beautiful encouragement and wisdom- I do appreciate it! [RS bleep]
Updated on 1 Dec 2017:
These are a couple I’ve tried over the last month or so.
The grey is a Genie type I think- just over the head, no underwire or fastenings. (KMart, $20 for two)
The black floral bra is a Berlei “Barely There” ( on special at Myer for $22), very comfy but it does have underwire.
The “chicken fillets” were also from Myer, $39:99. The last pic is of the Berlei bra with the fillets- a bit of overkill, I think!
Updated on 2 Dec 2017:
Hi there lovely ones!
I’m wondering if you have any advice as to the best creams or oils to use after explant? I’ve been alternating every couple of weeks between rosehip, coconut and olive oil, plus a cream I made myself with beeswax, argan oil, Shea butter and hemp oil. None of these ingredients have previously caused any problems, but I still have lots of tiny red bumps on my boobs. Even when I use nothing for a week or more the spots still remain. The rest of my body is fine.
I used to get keratosis pilaris but not for a few years now, and only on my arms. The tiny red dots on the boobs aren’t raised or flaky so I’m thinking it’s not that.
Could it be a leftover from the silicone removal? Could there be silicone in the actual breast tissue that is causing inflammation, despite having had a total capsulectomy? Is anyone here experiencing a similar thing?
I posted a question to the doctors on this site but no reply as yet. :-(