After long consideration in regards to my mental health since this surgery, I want to write this review to inform you — so that you can make an honest choice when selecting a plastic surgeon for your specific wants and needs. I am ready to share my body and my story, at least the big picture. Because it’s a heavy one and it would take pages and pages.In March 2024, I had a revision surgery with Dr. Xander Bakker in the Netherlands. At my last attempt to get some acknowledgement, his assistant Louisa told me that he was moving to Spain and wouldn’t be in the Netherlands that often so time was “limited” for my chances etc. She told me he was slowly phasing out his practice in the Netherlands. You can google him for yourself, I won’t be getting into this part, I learned more later on. I did not get acknowledgement for what happened to me in any way shape or form just to make that clear.I went to him for a consultation because I was unhappy with the results from my first surgeon (that story is separate and I won’t discuss it here). During my consultation, I told Dr. Bakker that I wanted to feel confident in a bikini again. He told me that a certain treatment was “inevitable” to achieve what I wanted. I trusted his professional judgment as a cosmetic certified plastic surgeon and agreed to go forward. After all, I am not a medical professional myself.I expressed my concerns various times, but was reassured that the procedure would involve “minimal liposuction and scarring”, and that my shape would be good and flowy again so I can be confident in my body (to wear a bikini as example). I believed him.I have many things I could say, but to keep this readable — and because there are details I can’t discuss publicly — I’ll simply say that being “unhappy” is an understatement. I am completely devastated by the outcome, this has change my life, and any hope for a future forever.He is a very confident surgeon and very proud of his work and vision. I say that because this is the result he stands behind and is proud of. You can see the results for yourself in the photos. I’ve also included a “before” (after my first surgery) to show where things started when I put my trust in him. And a before any surgery photo, to show my natural body shape (at least at the state of losing 20kg with cardio and calorie counting). Note that I only have pictures before any surgeries after I lost 20kg on my own and have lost a lot of muscle mass. I did not take phots when I was fat, you can understand why. This is what made me insecure in the first place. I did not realize at the time this was the reason I was “deflated”, losing muscle mass, not excess skin as Dr. Xander Bakker told me. And yes I told my weight loss journey to every surgeon I have spoken to during consultations, also to Dr. Xander Bakker. I was very happy with my natural shape, only very insecure about being deflated.Since then, I’ve had another revision abroad. I am only partially pleased, much of the damage is permanent since this surgery. So options are limited because of already existing damage from previous (this) surgery. The lower part of my butt/ham-tie in, my skin there is compromised forever (all skin though, also legs) and the fat I am missing in my ham-tie/inner thighs is forever lost, there remains a gap there. Which adds to the leg/butt not having separation and pulling down. The skin is compromised as to not be able to adhere to the underlying tissue and support shape. My life has changed completely — I can no longer wear jeans at all. But the pictures make this pretty obvious already, only oversized sweatpants to cover my shape as much as possible. Especially the lower butt ham-tie part which makes a butt to begin with, even little butts, this separation is crucial. I cannot go swimming, wear a bikini, or share my body with anyone. I barely look at myself in the mirror. Aside from the results. I have constant heavy legs since this surgery, I sleep with my legs up to be able to get some rest during those nights. It’s been 2 years already, and this is still a problem. And the fibrosis, the hard knots, that’s another issue on top of the loss of my quality and enjoyment of life altogether.To be clear, the reason I waited so long to post this, is not because I was threatened — I actually was, and I have that in writing. The reason I still waited is because my mental health and my life fell apart after this experience. It has taken everything in me to hold on and finally share this. I have trouble keeping my job. I started working less to avoid breaking down completely. I work from home as much as possible. I am completely isolated apart from my work and daughter. I am waiting to leave this world to be honest, there’s nothing here. But the thought of leaving my daughter in this cruel cold world to fend for herself i cannot bear. Where I used to go out with my daughter, concerts, swimming, vacation, shopping and enjoying life. She has to do without me now. It hurts that I cannot be the mother she wants, needs and used to have. I am surviving as is at home by myself. I am holding on by a thread as long as i can and that’s why I waited to post this. I struggled to get to this point where i can talk about it openly after almost 2 years, at least online, so I felt it was time to share the truth and show my body. I am still not able to talk about it physically without bursting out in tears and retreating. Even now I am writing this with tears in my eyes and a rock in my throat.I’ve lost my savings which all had to go to revisions due to the first one and the second one which left me worse off then I came in, my confidence, and the ability to enjoy the life I once had. I have lost everything. And even if there was a solution, I wouldn’t have the funds to fix this even if I wanted to because I was robbed of everything I owned including my body. I have plenty more photos and angles if anyone was to be interested, but this will show you everything you need to know. And I hope that by sharing this, others can make the most informed choice possible before deciding on their own procedures and their chosen surgeons. This all is just scratching the surface of what happened and my experience.I also want to state one thing about the first surgery, the first surgeon did things I did not consent to, that’s also documented. I woke up from anaesthesia in a full blown meltdown because of the deformity. Hearing he did things that he stated as a “favour”, his words. And no, as they all love to say “it’s the swelling” swelling does not show a deformity this severe. And swelling doesn’t do practices on body parts you did not consent to. Hence why I was in this desperate position to get my old body back as good as was possible. This was not what I was “sold”, nobody in their right mind would choose this.