In September 2013 I had my 1st BA, 275 MP silicone, sub-pectoral Although I am happy with the overall look and feel of the implants, I want them to be larger (boob-greed). I went from a small 36B to a 36C (Victoria Secret sizing). My goal is a full 36D/DD. I have gone for my initial consult for my revision, and we discussed going 350 MP silicone, unders; however, we will do sizers at my next appointment on 9/22. I "feel" like just going up 75cc's may not give me the fullness that I want. Updated on 13 Sep 2014: Updated on 13 Sep 2014: Here are some wish pic's Updated on 13 Sep 2014: So today I made several rice sizers. I wore the 1 cup sizers out; which, is approx 250 cc's. My current implants are 275, so if I add an add'l 250 that would be 525 total cc's. Am I looking at this right? Anyway, even my mother who doesn't like big boobs, said she felt I could go even bigger than that! I am concerned that my PS only mentioned going up to 350. I want us to be on the same page this time. After all, this is a second surgery, not to mention, he's not doing it for free. Additionally, I had a Benelli lift last time that left one aerola larger than the other. He is talking about doing another lift with a lollipop incision bc he wants to correct the areolas and bring them up a few more centimeters. I am concerned with having yet another lift. The revision is going to be bad enough. Updated on 14 Sep 2014: So I finally told my BFF. I know you are probably wondering why I haven't told her before, but I just respect her opinion so much and I knew that she wouldn't agree with a second surgery. I just prempted the conversation with "I have already made this decision and I know how you feel about it". She was cool and basically just laughed at me and told me she thought I was crazy and that now she would never be able to go out with me and another one of our girlfriends. I thought that was a great response; which is why she is my bestie. As far as my hubby, he as never not been on board, but he now seems enthusiastic about it. As he should be. I mean, its a new set of boobs! Up until now he has been cautious and has made comments like "I love your boobs you have now" and "I love you the way you are". Yada-yada-yada. All those sweet wonderful things they are supposed to say. Anyway, he is now researching with me. He has sent me some ideas, noting that I still am the one that needs to make the decision b/c they are MY boobs. He has also come up with a list of items he feels he needs to have for me to make me more comfortable during my recovery - arm pillow, dial soap, cocoa butter, etc. All of those essentials that us girls normally take the responsibility of getting on our own. He is being so great, not that he is not generally anyway. However, I am glad to see him as excited about it as me. I know that he will be a huge help during my recovery. All I can seem to think about these days is boobs. I am almost constantly on RS. I know that as supportive as my husband is, he is tired of hearing me talk about it all of the time. Plus, he works away 3 weeks at a time and isn't here for me to talk to. Additionally, I don't really have any gf's to talk about it with. I mean, as I just said, I just told my bff, and even though she was cook about it, I know she won't want to really discuss it since she doesn't agree with it. My mother thinks that buying a newer fridge would be a better use of my $ than boobs. She absolutely doesn't get it at all. So, I just have you guys. I'll try not to drive you crazy. :) I am so anxious to go to my sizing appointment and to have my surgery. It's like Christmas! Updated on 14 Sep 2014: Side view of me wearing 250cc rice sizers. Updated on 15 Sep 2014: I replaced rice with couscous once I finally decided on the sizer I thought I wanted. It is a lot softer and much less scratchy than rice to wear. Also, it seems to adhere to your shape a little better. Maybe that's just me. Just wanted to pass that along. Updated on 15 Sep 2014: Another wish pic Updated on 15 Sep 2014: As my surgery date approaches, I'm starting to have a lot of mixed emotions. I could spend this money on something else-after all, I just dropped a wad last year on my first BA. I don't want to be out of the gym-I'm just getting back on a consistent routine. I'm scared I won't pick the right size at my appt next Monday and I don't plan on doing this again. I mean, I haven't even lost down to my goal weight yet, and it doesn't look like it will happen bf next week. I don't have anyone i trust that can go w me. Like I said, my BFF thinks I'm crazy for doing this again. (She thought I was crazy the first time). My husband won't be home until Tuesday. Suddenly, I'm self-conscious about everyone knowing. I didn't care last time, but since I am considering such a large increase, I don't want to be negatively judged. Not sure why I suddenly care what people think. It's out of character for me. Like, I am nervous ab the guys at the gym noticing. My hubby laughed and said that was part of the point. On top of all of it, I am still excited. I just feel like I am going crazy. I don't remember going back n forth this much last time. Updated on 16 Sep 2014: I just keep finding wish pic's, bear with me Updated on 17 Sep 2014: So I finally just picked up the phone and called the doctor's office. I mean, that's what a sane person would do, I guess. (I wouldn't know what a sane person would do, as I'm not sane). Anyway, I spoke to the nurse, Natalie about my concerns with the doctor mentioning only increasing from 275 to 350 cc; while I am thinking about something much larger. She told me to not worry about anything and that we would look at all of my sizing options on Monday and come to a decision that was based on what I wanted, but on what was ok for my body as well. She told me to be sure to bring in photos, as I was planning on doing; while reminding me that everyone's body will take implants differently. (I don't have crazy perfectionist expectations. I am a realist). Additionally, she gave me her cell phone number in case I had any further questions, or anxiety. (I really liked that) I feel much better, and actually feel a little silly for calling. I mean, I knew what she was going to say, but I guess just hearing her say it made me feel better. Anyway, the anxiousness has eased a bit; now I am just eagerly awaiting next week. Updated on 17 Sep 2014: Here is a full length before photo. See how my left breast has started to drop slightly even after the Bennelli lift I had during my last BA. Updated on 18 Sep 2014: 3rd attempt to write this....#%#@ computer... This time next week, I will have my new tata's. While I am looking forward to it, I am really hoping that my pain level is less than last time. I couldn't breath and felt like I had an elephant was on my chest for a few days. I "almost" had to get help to wipe. I realize that most people don't have such a bad reaction to a BA-so don't let that scare you if you have not had yours yet. Additionally, a revision is "supposed" to be easier b/c the pocket is already formed. That's what I'm hoping for anyway. We'll see I guess. I am ready for Monday's pre-op appointment so I can get sized and determine which profile I am using. I am ready for Tuesday because I am ready for my husband to come home. He works away/is home 3 weeks at a time. It's hard playing single mom to a 6 and 8 year old for 1/2 the year. Wednesday will be filled with wrapping up work stuff and buying last minute supplies. Then Thursday is "B" day! Children: A funny note: my daughter, 6, found my small rice sizers and automatically knew what to do with them. When I saw her, she had them inside her nightgown and said "look at my boobies". LOL I didn't have to tell my children anything last year b/c they were so young, or my daughter was anyway. Now, she is extremely observant so I know she will notice. How have you handled that conversation with your young children? Updated on 19 Sep 2014: I have lost down to 159! I was trying to lose down to 155 prior to surgery, but it has been a struggle. I still have a few days to lose a few more lbs. I put on 25 lbs in the past year. I have various excuses, mainly lack of commitment. I used to be a gym rat, so being so unfit is unusual for me. My "normal" weight was an athletic 140. (Size 2/4). Hopefully, w clean eating, and continued exercise I will drop a few more; however, I know it is unrealistic to think I will meet my goal by next Thursday morning, and that's ok. My new goal will be to maintain my weight under 160 after the BA, until I can get back to the gym. I know there will be post surgery swelling, so that won't count. Then, I will work on getting back to where I was. I am so excited ab next week! I Updated on 21 Sep 2014: Just 12 hours until my pre- op appointment. So excited! I get to discuss the size and profile I want, and see what he recommends. I'll update when I'm done. I spent the weekend picking up a few things and picking out what I'm going to wear to the hospital. Got my arm pillow thing ($21 with 20% coupon from Bed Bad & Beyond), and a new zipper running top in a larger sizer. I don't want anything other than the surgical bra putting pressure on my new babies. Also, I lucked out and found my surgical bra from last time, so I'll have two. The were so comfortable. I'm decided not to spend money on new sports bras for work till after the surgery bc who knows what size I'll end up. Last time I purchased Champion zip front bras from Academy and really liked them. I plan on doing the same this time, but they are around $50, so I want to get it right. I still need scar cream/sheets, and a few more things. My hubby said he would pick up any last minute items for me on Wednesday. Also, No need to pre-cook meals, bc he'll do it. He comes home from work on Tuesday for 3 weeks and is a great husband/dad, so I'll have plenty of help. Not to mention my mom is coming on Wednesday night too! I am going to be taking full advantage of their help, lol. Last time I tried to do too much after the first 3 horrible days I had. Once I felt better at all, I was up and active. This time, I know better. Anyway, I'll update again after my pre-op! Updated on 22 Sep 2014: I left my PS's feeling deflated. I know that they are the experts, it's just after reading so much and listening to you ladies I am unsure. He recommends only going up to 400cc, but exchanging my moderate profile for a high profile. I guess I had somewhere around 500 on my mind. He feels that that size will give me the look I'm trying to achieve. He is also worried about going higher bc of my body not handling it properly. I really just don't know how I feel, or what to do. I'm at the hospital right now waiting on my pre-op labs. I'll update in a bit. Updated on 22 Sep 2014: I called the nurse and told her I was concerned with only going up 125cc's, even though it was going from MP to HP. I told her that I wasn't sure that I wanted to put my body through a surgery that wasn't going to give me optimum results, or the results I desired. She said there were a lot of factors that would play into the end results: 1) going from MP to HP 2) having a lift 3)I already have implants in. She told me that my body can handle more than the 400cc, it's just that 400 is the doctor's recommendation for optimum long-term results (sagging and such). If I want to go larger than 400, I will have to sign a form. They are going to have sizes from 400-500 available during surgery. Going from Moderate Profile to High Profile will add a good bit of projection, and he is doing a lift so that will help with the look as well. I am glad they are going to bring such a variety of sizes in, and make the decision in the operating room. Now my only concern is the fact that we are actually going with High Profile. That wasn't what I was considering. I was interested in the Mod Plus though. I'm going by tomorrow to look at the difference in the sizes and to try them on. Not that it will give me an accurate idea since I already have 275's in, but just to feel the weight. I feel much better since talking with her again. She understood my concerns, and said the doctor did as well. Additionally, I appreciate my PS looking out for my boobs in the long run. Updated on 23 Sep 2014: I went to see my PS again today and discussed the pro's and con's of different sizes - warranty issues, capsular contracture, bottoming out, sagging, etc. Decision made - I am going with Natrelle style 20, 400-425cc HP silicon unders. He will make the final determination in the OR after using sizers. He assures me this will give me the "umph" I am looking for. I told him it had better b/c I wasn't doing this again unless I have to. He has enough of my $$$. I am now extremely excited and nervous. It's just a little over 36 hours away! I already have my arm pillow purchased, and a coobie bra ordered. (I also bought an imitation one at Wal-Mart for 1/4th the price). Got my going to the hospital outfit picked out. My husband is home so now so I can go get the last few supplies I need - arnica montana, bendy straws, cocoa butter, dulcolax, and canned peaches. Or better yet, maybe I'll send him to get them for me. Am I missing anything? Scripts aren't given to me until the day-of surgery, crazy. Luckily I'll have someone to fill them for me. Now to wrap things up at work and home today and tomorrow.....then just wait patiently. Updated on 24 Sep 2014: Yesterday while at the PS office I saw a photo of my pre-BA boobs. They have come such a long way. It was nice to be reminded of that. I don't have any pic's of my own of me before. I am going to be sure to get a few more this time so that I can remember the journey they have been on, and to remind me to be grateful for what I have. Speaking of grateful, my husband is wonderful. He is spending today picking up my last minute items. He even decided, on his own, that I "needed" a wedge pillow and those breast ice packs you get from the nursing section even though I told him I could do without. (I was just planning on making homemade ice packs). He's washing the sheets and making me a fresh bed. He is cleaning the house to make sure I have a serene place to recover. Sorry ladies, he's taken. My mom is heading up to take the kids to school in the a.m. Otherwise, I would have to drive myself and leave my car at the hospital. Plus, by the time my husband got tot he hospital I would be done with surgery, as I a scheduled for 6:30 a.m. I have to be there at 5:30. Yikes! That is way to early to have to be awake, much less nervously awaiting being cut open. As surgery approaches, I have started to get nervous, even have second thoughts about it. I know that is normal. It's just as I stated above, I was reminded of how grateful I am/should be for the size and fullness I currently have versus where I was at prior to my 1st BA. Also, do I really want to put my body, and mind, through this process again? To undertake the risk? So many mixed emotions. However, in the end, I am reminded that I have not been pleased with my breast size, as grateful as I am, from day 1. So, I will see you guys on the other side tomorrow. Updated on 25 Sep 2014: I am so nervous. I am second guessing my decision to only go with 425 cc's. I hope it is worth it. There is nothing to do now but wait. Updated on 25 Sep 2014: Back in my room and feeling remarkable well! He went 475cc HP, yay!!! I'm so fancy......and feeling fine, so far. Updated on 25 Sep 2014: I've been home for a few hours. So far, I am feeling remarkably well. I was worried bc it was soooo bad last time. My pain is prob a 3 on a scale of 1-10, and the pressure is almost non-existent. I did take some hydrocodone just to be sure that the pain stayed at bay, but I was prob only at a 4/5 bf that. Here was a play-by-play of my day: I barely slept last night I was so worried about things, size mainly. I showered w dial antibacterial soap. Dressed and went to the hospital. I arrived at the hospital at 6:30 am (they changed my time). I waited in my room for about 45 minutes. During that time they took my vitals and had me wipe my chest w some wipes. They also gave me some Zofran and Pepside. I was then taken into surgery holding. There they started my IV, had me sign my anestiology consent (after talking w her), and the PA came in to mark my chest. We discussed my size again and he knew I was concerned still. He said I would look great and to not worry. The PA's nurse, Natalie, came in and spent a few minutes w me. I told her I definitely preferred the bigger implants unless they made me look bad in some way. I thought they only had the 490 & 425. Right bf I was wheeled into surgery, they gave me my IV "margarita". Surgery Recovery room The next thing I remember is waking up back in my patient room, feeling well, finding out I had 475cc's. I know I couldn't contain my happiness. (I have a surgical bra on, with a wrap all around my chest.)Then, I looked at the clock and saw it was 11:30 already! Luckily, I was able to pee right off, so I got to come home shortly after. So far I have napped and eaten some soup. Peed 3x. Now I'm here updating. I go back to my PA's office at 9:30 am. I think he'll remove the wrap then. Just thought giving a detail may help someone know what to expect. Happy healing to me! Updated on 25 Sep 2014: I thought they were only bringing 400 & 425cc's into the OR. Not 490. Updated on 25 Sep 2014: Pics from day 1, wrapped up. Updated on 26 Sep 2014: I'm still feeling good today. I'm in a little more pain than yesterday, but nothing unbearable. MUCH better than last time! I went in for my post-op doctor appointment. He took the wrap off and the gauze off too. Everything looks so good already. I just know I'm going to be so pleased with the results. I get to take a shower tomorrow night. I go back to see him next week. Here is a pic taken at the doctor's office. Updated on 27 Sep 2014: I've tried to get up and about, but I seem to be extremely tired today. Pain level is still low, but exhaustion level is high. So, I've been sleeping all day. I figure my body knows what it needs to heal and I don't want to push it when I don't have to. I've had PLENTY of BM's. No problem in that department. And I've been peeing like crazy. Of course, I've been consuming tons of water too. I did want to see how much surgery weight it gained so I stepped in the ole demon scale. I'm up 5 lbs. that's with eating light and drinking truckloads of water. Not sad about it bc I knew it was going to happen. Just a little aggravated. I haven't watched or read anything I was planning on. I feel sort of bad holing up in my room alone. I've spent a good deal of the time I have been awake downstairs in the den with everyone. I took another pic of my breast today. They have changed since yesterday. My right one has started to drop. Last night I stared getting depressed about the size not being that different. My husband quickly told me I was crazy and pointed out all of the differences he could already notice. I did look at my old pic, and that helped to cheer me up as well. Updated on 28 Sep 2014: I felt better today. Showered!!! Wasted time watching "Don't be Tardy" and "Orange is the New Black". Have been up most of today unlike yesterday. My spirits are much better too. I still have a little pain/burning at one of the incision sites, and a few other zingers through both breast. All seems well though. Here are a few more pics. I can't wait for the tape to come off. It looks and feels annoying. Updated on 28 Sep 2014: Daughter: Mommy, why did you want to get bigger boobies? Me: I just wanted them a little bigger, that's all. Daughter: But I thought you looked perfect just like you were. Sigh.... Updated on 30 Sep 2014: I can't believe it's already been 5 days since my surgery. Times goes by so fast. I don't want to rush my results bc that would be rushing my life. It's all about the process. I finally got dressed and got out of the house today. My husband is taking my son on a camping trip with the Boy Scouts this weekend so we had to buy a few camping supplies. Then we headed to the dreaded grocery store for a monthly shopping haul. Ugh! I was worn out afterwards. The exercise was much needed, but I may have overdid it bc tonight I was feeling "zings"around my incision site on my left breast. I took some Tylenol and laid down for a bit. Now I feel much better. My friend asked me today when I could go for a dinner and I told her I didn't know. I realize that my doctor didn't tell me anything like that this time. When I can drive, return to work.....lol. I didn't ask either. I see him again on Friday. I had already planned to take a week off work, but feel sort of silly bc I am feeling better. I mean, I have a desk job and it's my down time right now. I could really go back tomorrow I guess. Crap! I just don't want to. On the other hand, I'm not doing anything at all at home but gaining weight.And, as you can tell by my long blog, I am bored at home. On to the boobs. The are both dropping nicely. My left one still has a little catching up to do. It's so hard to tell how they are going to look bc they are still covered in surgical tape. It's all getting loose and starting to itch. One piece came off already, but I don't want to pull it off bf the doc gives the ok. Hopefully he'll give me the thumbs up on Friday. My daughter told me she was never having surgery to get boobies. She was just going to keep her real ones. She plans on being either a doctor or a scientist when she grows up. She has been taking really good care of me. She's a great nurturer. She's 6. My son has been playing Minecraft and avoiding all things Boob. He's 8 Updated on 2 Oct 2014: So yesterday I had an entire blog about having the boobie blues. It didn't post for some reason. Whatever. After taking my 1 week post op pics, all I can say is I am even more depressed. Not with my boobs, but with my abs!!!! Eck!!!! Enough about that. I'll be back at the gym soon enough, and they have a lovely crop feature so y'all don't have to endure all of the scenery. I went back yo work for 1/2 a day. It wore me out. My boobs were sore and I have a desk job. I forgot that simple task like writing and typing on the keyboard would use so any pectoral muscles. Not to mention heavy office doors. I held my pee in all morning. No one really seemed to notice or say anything except the people that knew I was having the surgery. They were all complimentary. Even the girl who unfortunately always speaks her mind. I'm seeing my PS again in the am. Maybe I can start peeling some of these itchy steri-strips off soon. And maybe I can get the ok to drive too. Anyway, here are my 1 week post op pics. Updated on 3 Oct 2014: I went to see my PS this am. He took one look at my girls and said "whoah, you're going to have to buy more clothes so they'll fit !" Lol I did get the ok to start driving again, even though I have a 6 speed. Plus, I can resume doing moderate exercise - no upper body yet. Also, I can start pulling these darned steri-strips off!!! At the end of the visit, he told my husband "no activity". My husband pointed at me and said "she'll tell me when". Dr. Das walked out of the room and down the hall laughing. Sigh, men.... I go back to see him in a week. I decided not to go to work today, just because. So, overall, it was a good day. Updated on 4 Oct 2014: So, my husband took my son camping this morning, and my daughter is spending the day with her best friend; thus, I have been alone all day. To pass time, I drove to Target to do a little shopping. While there, I bought a pretty, non-padded, lacy bralette. My first ever. I have always purchased padded bras. Nothing sexy to actually wear. Plus, I completely filled out the 36D. I couldn't resist posting pics. I didn't want to post any breast pics bc they just look yucky right now. They're all crooked, crusted with blood, and 1/2 covered in steri-strips. And it's really hard to take a good one yourself. (I took about 50!-all bad) Pain level is zero. Incision itchiness level is 6. Updated on 4 Oct 2014: I got a few decent shots today and decided to post them for my diary. My left side has a good bit of catching up to do. I am pleased that my areolas are the same size now though. My left one was significantly larger prior to surgery. Updated on 8 Oct 2014: So I am 13 days post op and still have the blues. I am still not happy with the size even after my revision. Some of you gals told me I should go up higher than I did, but my PS assured me that I would be happy with the results. Well, I'm not! Don't get me wrong, I can definitely see a difference, and they are shaping up nicely; however, I still don't have the volume that I wanted. I guess I will just have to come to terms with this as I do NOT plan on having yet another augmentation. I know that my husband is tired of hearing me complain; considering the fact that he is more than happy with the results. However, he does understand that I am unhappy because I didn't get the results that I was longing for. The few male friends I have that know about my BA have been extremely encouraging and have told me that I look great, but again, it's not about that. It's about what I didn't get. I know that some of you out there understand. I am just really more disappointed in myself because I did have doubts going into this revision about my PA and I being on the same page. I am disappointed that I didn't go get a second opinion. I was just so comfortable with my PA, and so happy with his work from my 1st BA, that I didn't want to switch. Either way, what's done is done. Now I just need to learn to love my new breast, and to get over it. I am an adult after all, and old enough to know that you don't always get what you want. (Even if you should after you pay $$$$ for it). I am just having a really hard time not being depressed about it though. All the money. All the pain. All the time off work. All the recovery. Everything! For what? Aside from all of that (being utterly depressed, that is) I am feeling fine. I'm back at work. I'm back at the gym-walking on the treadmill (I gained 5 pounds I didn't need to gain). I go back to see my PS on Friday. I'll post 2 week pic's tomorrow, if I remember. Ta-Ta! Updated on 8 Oct 2014: I needed at least 25 cc's more in my left breast. Updated on 9 Oct 2014: I actually woke up feeling better today. I think they dropped, a little, overnight. I know it sounds crazy! Thanks for all the support everyone has shown. I really like this pic. Happy 2 weeks to my girls. Updated on 12 Oct 2014: Friday was my 2 week doc appt. They took out the few non-dissolvable stitches I had, and had to remove a monocle (dissolvable stitch) that was making its way out. Natalie, the nurse, told me to get some ScarGuard to put on the incision sites. I have some breaks at the sites that are pretty large. She said the ScarGuard would help bc they will become tender as they start to heal. The ScarGuard is just painted on and leaves a thin protective film behind. He said I have to wait 2 more weeks to start doing any core work. So, I am still limited to moderate cardio, and lower body work. I tried doing some leg presses last week, but used too much of my core so I'm holding off on those for a few more weeks too. I have also realized that when I lose a few pounds ( like 20), my breast are going to look bigger and I'll like them even better. That is my weight loss goal bc that's how much I have put on over the past year. Also, my breast have done a good bit of dropping and fluffing this week which has made me like them a lot more. I am going to try to be positive about them bc they are beautiful and they are mine. Happy healing everyone. Updated on 13 Oct 2014: Today makes 18 days post op and my girls are almost symmetrical. Yay! I knew they were falling more lately. I'm really loving the way they look now. Amazing how a few days can change your attitude. Could be a swing in hormone levels too. So here's a pic of my newly symmetrical girls. (The film you see on the incision site is the ScarGuard I talked about in a previous post. I don't like it bc it flakes everywhere, plus it's not pretty, but I haven't had any pain.) Updated on 13 Oct 2014: Updated on 19 Oct 2014: I have started having some pain over the weekend in my left breast. A monocle (disolveable stitch) is coming out at my incision site on my areola. Not sure if it's just rubbing on my bra and causing irritation, but it was painful enough for me to take 3 Advil Saturday night. Feeling a little better today. Also, on my right breast, where the areola incision meets the lollipop stick part, I have a crusty area. It's yellowish-green-brown. It doesn't hurt at all, and isn't oozing, it's just the color that bothers me. My healing was a lot smoother after my 1st BA. Of course, it wasn't as extensive bc I didn't have the lollipop incision. In addition to that, my right breast has dropped more. The were nice and pretty and symmetrical a week ago. Now they just seem gross again. Which, makes me disappointed, again. Sigh. I've been trying really hard to be happy and to not whine. Updated on 29 Oct 2014: I saw Dr Das today. He said everything is healing fine. He said the scar color will fade over the upcoming months. Additionally I was told that unless I'm vacationing in the South of France, I should keep a bra on to help fight gravity. Lol. I do get to go shopping in the next week or so for a few real bras. I can't believe its almost that time already. I'm definitely anxious to get sized. Crazy the power we place in a number/letter. Speaking of numbers, I should be able to get my scale number to go down now bc he said I can gradually start working my upper body now. I was so excited to get that ok. I did light shoulders, biceps,triceps and back today. It was so refreshing, and much needed. I've really liked the way my breast have started to look lately. I've been on such an emotional roller coaster during this journey. Thanks for all your support.
Before I make any decision I would like to know the condition of your abdominal muscle wall.How good is the Rectus,is there any hernia and so forth.So,I will defer my decision until I have those informations.
At 5 weeks post surgey the inflammation around you belly button is sure a reason for concern.If your plastic surgeon has not seen this yet you need to go and see him immediately.Somehow.the blood supply of your umbilicus is compromised and it is difficult to assess the skin colour inside the depression.Because of having a mesh as a repair material you need to be cautious.
With aggressive periumbilical liposuction the fat problem can be solved.But one other problem you have is relatively high belly button.That is going to be difficult to correct without scar.
You must had a very large btreast and large volume reduction.It looks to me you are having superficial epidermolysis,that is most superficial part of ypur nipple and areola dying but deeper layers are alive.This is not uncommon in free nipple graft.Stay in close contact with your doctor.This will heal but you will have depigmentation that is you will loose the dark color of your nipple.Over a period of time these pigments(Melanin) will come back slowly.
First of all ,one can not comment from the photographs you have presented.Not enough area of surgery exposed and tight pants is also deforming.Moreover,it is still early to appreciate the results.But in any case ,you should go back to your operating surgeon first to express your unhappiness.He may have more insight.
