So,Id been thinking about getting what I should have been blessed with at birth since,well,puberty really.I think I might have been measured as an a cup in my teens when I got my first bra and I never got any bigger.I’ve always been between size 8/10 and most frustratingly a size 6/8 on top making it difficult to find dresses to fit because I’d have to get a dress in a smaller size that I’d feel like I was squeezing into just so it wasn’t baggy at the bust.Ive struggles with this my whole life and always been conscious of my flat chest,mostly when I was wearing nice dresses I’d cross my arms a lot or slouch/stoop to hide my embarrassment. I don’t remember gaining much when I had my kids,my nursing bras were a b cup but they were full and I had a cleavage.It made me even more determined that one day I’d have boobs.After I’d breast fed and my milk boobs disappeared,so did any little bit of muscle :( I Tried everything I could, I went to the gym and tried every exercise going to even give me pecs. The one thing I know I didn’t want,and that was to go to London to a ‘boob job’/cosmetic/barbie doll surgery.I felt like psychologically it wasn’t a boob job I wanted,not in the barbie doll pin-up sense.Tgats not my personality,I just want to feel like a woman,not have a ‘boob job’ for the sake of it. January this year,a new year ,my 40th party in September! As I scroll through Facebook I saw an advert from a local private hospital (formally bupa) offering a cosmetic procedure evening event.I had to speak to hubby about how he felt about it (I think he didn’t realise at this point I’d already knew it wasn’t just to find out about it). End of February I took my mum,it was a really nice friendly event where I met the surgeons and asked questions.I went home with leaflets ets and spoke again to the husband who still was not quite interested? Maybe? I don’t know maybe it hadn’t quite dawned on him I was serious? So I’m at work the following day and on my lunch break and I’ve booked the appointment for an assessment.The surgeon is really lovely,and I was confident and comfortable around him.An older guy I could tell he’d been doing it a very long time.Hes a surgeon for the nhs,doing the emergency surgeries at the local QA department.He was a surgeon in the army dealing with war zone amputees etc.This was the surgeon I wanted.He took one look at me and he nodded.Im an ideal candidate,he’d only take me a maximum of 2 1/2 cup sizes (270cc).He told me if I wanted Jordan size boobs then I need to go to a cosmetic clinic because it’s not what ‘he does’! No it’s not what I want,I just want a normal in-proportion womanly body. Over the coming weeks I fill and sign paperwork that’s sent to me,I booked my operation (not boob job,I’m still not calling it that) I book 2 weeks off work,I told my boss about the procedure I was having.She was actually really understanding and supportive which was a massive help.It seemed like the wait was forever but that month or so went so quick. I had my pre op assessment with the nurse 2 weeks before,and before I knew it it was op day! Updated on 21 Jun 2019: Hubby is being so supportive,he’s Arranged to work from home to help me out The first week.Hes so good anyway he gets the ready for school,does lunch boxes and the school runs.Its just now he’ll be doing the housework,ironing and everything else that I normally do lol. Surprisingly I slept well,having anxiety and a severe needle phobia I thought I’d be nervous,even thinking about not turning up for my surgery.But no,I shower with the hibiscrub the nurse gave me at my pre op.Shave my necessities because I remember being told not to shave for 2 weeks after the op,something to do with sensitive hair follicles due to the anesthetic? I was thirsty and hungry,I wasn’t allowed to eat/drink from 9pm the night before.My admission time is 7:20am.My mum has come to take me,She also has the week off to nurse me. Exactly on time my surgeon arrived with the nurse,I didn’t have time to be nervous.I had some forms to sign,a pregnancy test to do (standard procedure when being put to sleep) and some pre meds followed by undress and gown up.She rubbed some cream into my hand to numb it ready for the tube to go in for the anaesthetic.I walked up the stairs where I was taken into a massive surgery room with a bed in the middle,just like you see on a tv drama series.My surgeon was already gowned up waiting.I was told to lay on the bed and the nurse chatted to me,I didn’t feel anything whilst I was talking to her about how I’d met Gary Barlow before Christmas.I can’t remember how we got onto that conversation but then I woke up! It took me a while to come round,I had a bit of pain but they were really good at monitoring it.It took me a while to remember/realise I’d had an op! I had boobs! My mum stayed with me a while,my dad popped in on his lunch break and hubby visited (my friend did the school run and looked after the kids till he got back,he didn’t want to leave). I made the most of the overnight stay,taking advantage of being child free :) Updated on 21 Jun 2019: Handy tips for recovery ... Macom bra...a little bit expensive but brilliant,even my surgeon was impressed! Sucky sweets and books/magazines...sucky sweets a must! I had to ring hubby to get me some because after I came around my throat was sore and dry from the tube they put down my throat while I was asleep. Housework and ironing...I’m so glad I blitzed the house and changed beds etc the day before my op,it was easier for hubby to keep on top of and for that first week in recovery I didn’t once feel like I had to do anything and I’m ocd! Laxatives...make sure you have some! The first week was horrendous with bloating and constipation due to the anaesthetic and meds. Dry shampoo or book and appointment at the salon to have a back wash because you won’t be able to do it yourself,my mum leant me over her bath and did it for me after 5 days I couldn’t bear it any longer,I felt like my boobs were going to fall off so I wasn’t going to be doing that again in a hurry! Updated on 21 Jun 2019: I saw the nurse yesterday (11/6) for my week check and everything is ok.Its the first time I’ve seen my boobs properly as I did as I was told and didn’t take my bra off for the first week.I took my new replacement bra with me to put on.The stitches are slowly dissolving and the dressing has been removed.I have steristrips now and she told me on Saturday I can have a shower and replace strips,then renew every 3 days for two weeks. Im due back to work on Monday after 2 weeks annual leave but the nurse said I should check with the go first because she thinks it’s too soon due to the nature of my job. The doc has signed me off until the 23/6! Work have been supportive and understanding,I’m so lucky :) they are very tight and high and they seem massive! I hope I get used to them :/ Updated on 21 Jun 2019: Loving my new womanly figure.I wish I’d done this years ago when I really could have appreciated it more.I’m trying to get moving a little more each day,I’ve just started driving again.Im finding by mid afternoon my shoulders and boobs are achy and sore.I suppose were the muscles are being used again.Every day they are feeling softer,I’ve been soothing my tight surrounding skin with bio oil which seems to be helping.They look like they’ve started dropping already! I feel amazing! I’m now 17 days P.O still a little bruised and tender but I love them more every day.I never fully developed and it’s something I always wanted...for clothes to fit properly and to not to feel like a boy in a swimming costume but mostly to have something to put in a bra! I was an AA cup before but found underwire dug in and was so uncomfortable I spent my adulthood wearing crop tops :( chicks fillets and padded bras etc just never looked/sat right it was so depressing I always wore jeans and baggy tops and folded my arms and tried to hide what I didn’t have.If anyone is feeling this way about theirs I totally recommend this.Im taking each day as it comes with any (hopefully none) complication because anything I have is better than what I had :) Updated on 21 Jun 2019: I got measured for a sports bra,early I know but I need one for when I go back to work next week :) considering I’m still a little swollen I’m measuring as a 32c :) I’m really happy with that because I feel humongously bigger than that.My ideal before size was a C cup,a nice natural size for my frame :) Updated on 24 Jun 2019: 3 weeks today already! It’s gone so quick! Last day of rest,back to work tomorrow.I thought I was back today but docs note covers today :) I will be taking it easy.Im still feeling a little tight where my skin has so much stretching to do where I was so tiny.My left boob is still high and cone like and my right boob looks like it’s bottoming out and rounding nicely.The incisions are a little itchy this morning which I suppose is a good sign that everything is healing and healthy :) The only way I can describe the discomfort is like engorgement when your milk comes in,nothing unbearable and totally worth it.Every day they feel more like me.Ive got feeling back around the top and sides but still numb underneath both boobs and my nipples have come back to life although if I pinch them I can’t feel anything lol. Updated on 24 Jun 2019: 3 weeks today already! It’s gone so quick! Last day of rest,back to work tomorrow.I thought I was back today but docs note covers today :) I will be taking it easy.Im still feeling a little tight where my skin has so much stretching to do where I was so tiny.My left boob is still high and cone like and my right boob looks like it’s bottoming out and rounding nicely.The incisions are a little itchy this morning which I suppose is a good sign that everything is healing and healthy :) The only way I can describe the discomfort is like engorgement when your milk comes in,nothing unbearable and totally worth it.Every day they feel more like me.Ive got feeling back around the top and sides but still numb underneath both boobs and my nipples have come back to life although if I pinch them I can’t feel anything lol. Updated on 1 Jul 2019: 4 weeks already! It’s flown by I can’t believe how quick it passed I’m healing so well! I have little aches and pains,mostly when I’m over doing it (over use of my arms I think).I feel amazing,I’m in my dresses,the ones I used to put on then change my mind and hang back up never to see the light of day.They just never felt right/comfy/fit properly.Now I have the most amazing figure,just need to lose a bit of tummy where I’d been inactive for 3 weeks lol They are feeling so soft now,they are starting to wobble rather than stiffly up and down. Updated on 3 Jul 2019: Updated on 3 Jul 2019: Updated on 3 Jul 2019: Updated on 23 Jul 2019: So Mr Scerri seemed pleased with me,I’ve been carefully looking after myself.I have one rippling as to be expected as I have very little to cover the implants.No pain and less frequent twinges and thy are feeling so soft and more natural.I had a wide breast bone to begin with so unfortunately it looks like as my boobs have settled they seemingly be getting further apart.Trying not to be fussy or complain because what I have now is millions times better Han what I had before :) Updated on 23 Apr 2020: hi everyone,its been a while.Ive been so busy since my op.We sold our house and moved July last year.That was difficult because I couldn't move a muscle p.o lol.Not a bad thing! But the house was not habitable so we had a full refurb! Then it was Xmas before we knew it and now all this corona and lockdown,time has flown by! Just over 10 months I can't believe it,I just suddenly thought about it today that I'd better log in and update.Im so glad I did because I've looked back at my pre op photos.Ive been so used to looking at my new boobs that now I'm used to them they seem small,but looking at what I had before I realised actually I'm happy with the size. Every now and then I get twinges but mainly when I'm on my monthlys.I still have numbness in both boobs around the bottom but I remember my surgeon telling me it can take a year for feeling to come back completely.Im loving my shape and dresses actually fit at the bust now.Im having a problem finding bras to fit because my boots are too perfectly round I think.Im wearing bralets for a bit if support fir work otherwise I'm going braless most of the time.Silicoln nipple covers are fab and a must have.Im a 32 back and I'm measuring as a d cup but I've been told because of the fullness of my boos to go for a 34 c or d depending on the make.So as soon as lockdown is over I will be going bra shopping.I can't wait to finally wear matching sets and wear a bikini im so excited! Last summer was pretty naff because most of it was spent in my post op bra so was restricted to what I could wear. Updated on 16 Jun 2021: 2 years has flown by.I just feel completely normal, my boots fell like they are meant to be there.I still have limited feeling around the scar area in my left breast buy the surgeon did say he had a job with a vein it kept getting in the way so that could be why. I'm loving my figure and I'm wearing clothes that were in the back of my wardrobe gathering dust pre-op.I definitely am more confident. Updated on 16 Jun 2021: The old me vs the new me. Recommended 100 percent,if you've been longing to do it then do it before I did.I was 39 1/2 when I finally did after wanting bombs since I was a teenager having never developed.
