Stats: Female, 5'7, 125 LB
26 y/o, no kids, no weight fluctuations
Pre augmentation: 32 A (if we're being generous)
Implants: Polytech gummy bear, textured, teardrop 275cc put in under muscle 4.5 years ago, out of the country surgeon
I will be taking them out in a week. Paid in full and pre-op is done so no going back now. I am very nervous about how they will look but am mentally prepared to accept all outcomes.
I got the implants at barely 22, looking back I know it was a result of naiveté and vanity. If I could go back I would never ever subject my body to the trauma. It pains me to say "NO" to every pre-op question asking if I have any health conditions, while knowing the only trauma and potential disease I caused on my body is one I brought upon it on my own accord.
There are a few reasons I have for wanting them out. Firstly, they never truly felt like a part of me. There's women who, once they heal after augmentation, say they may as well have been born with the boobs, they feel like they are meant to be... Yeah no, I never got there. I always felt like these foreign objects are inside of me, they didn't feel or look natural in any way.
Working out and sleeping on the side has always been quite uncomfortable. I feel like I am laying on a wallet if that makes sense. Never got used to that. The implants also blew up my areolas. I used to have cute little nipples and now they are all stretched out and puffy.
I also hate the idea of being forever committed to surgery. Like if they leak or shift, or simply no longer fit my body, I will need to have them replaced. Having $5k+ laying around at all times in case of an emergency with my boobs just seems ridiculous and unnecessary. Not to mention the trauma of cutting into my body and going under multiple times for no other reason than vanity, ugh, why was I so dumb... Anyways, where was I..
Fortunately I have no implant related health issues so far to my knowledge and I am certainly glad to have them out before I develop any. I've seen lots of reports of women developing BII closer to the 5 year mark, which I am rapidly approaching. The peace of mind alone will be enough to justify the procedure.
The procedure as discussed with my surgeon is as follows. Should be quick and easy: general anesthesia, cut 'em open, take the implants out, sew them back up. I would like to not subject my tissue and organs to any additional trauma, so we are not doing lift, fat grafting or even messing with the capsule unless he sees something iffy. He thinks my capsules are soft and thin, so should be okay to leave in undisturbed.
I feel super nervous, as with any invasive surgery. I also am worried about the outcome since I elected not to do any additional cosmetic tampering while he's in there. It's sad to think that even if they bounce back to mostly pre op condition, I will forever have scars to remind me of the ordeal. Play stupid games, win stupid prizes, amiright? Just trying to stay positive and hope for a speedy recovery.
One thing I've been doing to cheer myself up is selling all my big boob tops and dress and using the money to buy some cute little stuff for my new (old?) boobies. Btw, finding clothes for the implants was so hard. When I bought something that fit the rest of my body (size XS or 0/2), I ended up looking like a porn star on top. And vice versa with buying larger stuff to accommodate the boobs that didn't fit anywhere else.
Wish me luck! I'll try to keep this thread as updated as possible.
(Augmented boobs pictures attached).
Updated on 19 Sep 2022:
Uh... Can I keep these forever?
Not sure what happened but my boobs post explant are 3x the size they were before I had implants put in. Maybe that is the reason I suddenly started not to like them and they seemed too big because my own tissue developed? A girl can hope. It is also possible that this is still swelling and fluid retention from the surgery itself.
As you can see there is not much sagging or loose skin/wrinkles and I am only 6 days post op. I hope they firm up a bit, but the natural hang as it is right now is beautiful and I love the results already. They are so soft and move so naturally and beautifully as I walk around. Ugh I could kiss them lol.
The operation went so smooth and all my worries were for nothing. I am going to update the provider info now, but in case it doesn't populate, I got my implants taken out by Dr. Daniel Ness in Gastonia, NC. He's a very confident doctor and answered all my questions without hesitation, you could tell he's been successfully performing these surgeries for many years which helped put me at ease. His team are also highly responsive and helpful.
Af far as recovery goes it's been a breeze. A stark difference between when I had the implants put in (bed ridden for 2 weeks, then sulking around for another 2, not fully recovered for months). And now, 3 days after explant I went to a bachelorette weekend getaway and completely forgot I even had a surgery. 6 days post op, I am fully functional and feel wonderful, aside from following the few obvious post op instructions like no lifting heavy things, etc. Haven't felt the need to take one pain killer. The only unpleasant thing I experienced the entire time was the drains and the removal, it wasn't painful but it surely wasn't pleasant and the drains kind of weirded me out. Only had those for a day though.
One thing I can't stop thinking about and it could be in my head or it could be totally real. I remember when I first woke up from anesthesia after having them put in, I kept saying "I can't breathe" and everyone kept saying you're breathing fine, relax. I think what I meant was, I can't fully inhale.
The first thing I thought when I woke up from anesthesia post explant is "I can finally breathe!". I honestly think I was unable to take a full chest breath in 4 years and it makes me want to cry of stupidity and embarrassment for my own dumb decisions. But all is well that ends well right?
This forum has helped me tremendously through this process, so this is my way of paying it back I guess. I will try to be as active as I can with updates and please don't hesitate to ask me questions, I will do my best to respond promptly.
Updated on 20 Sep 2022:
Dr. Ness is absolutely wonderful. I could not have made a better choice for my procedure. From the day I met him, I could tell he was incredibly experienced in breast surgery. He answered my questions confidently and without hesitation, he was always one step ahead of all of my concerns. The results have also exceeded all of my expectations. I love the outcome already, and it's only been a week since I had the explant. The staff at the Piedmont office are also so responsive and kind. The price was so reasonable too compared to other doctors in the Charlotte region. I feel happy and healthy, Dr. Ness gave me my sense of self back and I will be eternally grateful.
Updated on 16 Oct 2022:
5 weeks post op.
So my concern with the previous update was that I thought my boobs will shrink as the post op swelling goes down. Great news, they did not! If anything, they filled out more on top and look even bigger, although they are not, you can tell from profile view they're still pretty small. I remain mystified by the fact my own boobs grew so much between the age of 21 and 26. Second puberty? I used to be completely flat pre implants, and I mean literally completely flat. There was no volume change between where my ribs ended and my boobs started type of flat. So to discover all this soft perky tissue post explant was incredible.
Physically they are healing up well. I feel pretty much 100% back to normal. The only problem that has appeared so far was the scar on the left boob where it looks kind of flat. My surgeon called it a tethered scar, which he explained means the scar got kind of stuck to the internal tissue. He is certain that will resolve over time and recommended scar massage to help with that process. Visually, this does not bother me at all and I could care less if it remained that way, but if it does resolve, great.
Overall I am over the moon with my results and have not regretted my decision to explant for even 1 second. I wish I would've done it much sooner so I now don't have to look at 4 years of beach photos of coconuts stuck to my chest.
Please don't hesitate to comment if you have any questions!