After years of dreaming about cleavage and bathing suit tops that fit, I’ve decided to finally take the plunge and get a BA.
I had a consultation 2 weeks ago with Dr. McCord. We discussed what kind of results I was wanting and decided on Silicone HP implants under the muscle. She recommended silicone because of my “limited breast tissue” (amen!) and high profile based on my narrow breast width measurement. She and her staff were very detailed and attentive which made me feel less nervous about the final results. I’ve had a few consults other places that felt rushed and very assembly line. Glad I found Dr. McCord ????.
I’m not so focused on cup size but I’d like good projection and cleavage that fit my hips so I feel more balanced. After trying on some sizers I really liked the 450cc. I was surprised such a large size still looked very natural on my very narrow shoulders! I scheduled a follow up sizing for next week (bringing the hubby and some shirts for one last look) and I am scheduled for surgery at the end of this month!
Very excited and also nervous about the recovery pain. I’m allergic to most pain meds so my doctor said we would focus on muscle relaxers and Tylenol. I’ve taken 4 days off work and I’m worried it’s not enough (Cafe work). Thankfully my hubby can work from home while I am recovering. I’ve really enjoyed scrolling through this community and looking at other people’s recovery to give me a better idea of what to expect. I think it will especially help when I’m going through the “alien boob” phase and feel like they will never drop lol. Im posting my pre-op pics and a dream boob pic on this post. Let the count down to boobies begin!
Updated on 11 Nov 2017:
I can’t wait to get back in and try on the sizers when my brains not overloaded with medical info. 450cc seemed huge at the time but everything I’ve read about under the muscle placement makes me second guess that....
It’s so hard to imagine my perfect breast size when I’ve always been so flat! Even with the sizers. I’ve been looking up dream boobs so nonstop that my browser history must be very amusing ????. I love all of these but I’m worried I will feel self conscious if we go too big. Hopefully at my next appointment we’ll sort it all out!
Updated on 12 Nov 2017:
Just more examples saved to show my PS.
Updated on 16 Nov 2017:
I went back to my PS to talk about implant size again. I think we are good around the 450cc mark. She will try them in in surgery and make changes as needed. My main concern is large enough to make it worth the pain (eek! Lol) but not so big that they interfere with everyday life. Especially since I’ve always been so small. I tried the 450cc sizers back on but the bra they gave me was way too big so enjoy the picture of my floppy implants boobs lol. The nurse literally held them up in place for us to see. They will be much more compressed since we are doing under the muscle. I can’t believe surgery day is only 2 weeks out now! Still super excited and kind of nervous.
Updated on 30 Nov 2017:
See you guys on the other side of boobieville!
Updated on 1 Dec 2017:
Not going to lie y’all, yesterday was rough! I wish I was one of the lucky ladies on here who came home, ate lunch and passed out into a pain medication snooze fest.
I got in for surgery about 7:45am and everything went smoothly. An hour and a half later I was dressed and wheeled out to the car. My surgeon did tell me that she went with the HP 450cc implants under the muscle like we had discussed which I’m super happy with so far. My boobs hurt really bad but weirdly enough they don’t feel foreign. Maybe because I’ve wanted them for so long?
The fun part started when I got home. This was WAY more than pressure/heaviness. Breathing was excruciating and I couldn’t get comfortable at all. Then about 4 hours later I started getting really nauseous and threw up several times ( which is not fun when your chest is on fire). I’m allergic to a lot of pain meds so we’ve been using an alternative to a narcotic as well as a muscle relaxer and anti nausea meds. My hubby called the office and they recommended adding an ice pack and told me to take Tylenol in between as needed. The ice pack helped a lot. I put it right on my sternum because that’s what hurt the worst. I finally stopped throwing up and managed to keep down some plain water and a saltine cracker and thankfully my muscle relaxer and we got a little sleep. Woke up about 4:30am and needed more meds. I’ve been sleeping sitting up on the couch because I can’t get myself back up if I lay down. This morning I’ve been icing under my arm pits because I can literally feel myself growing side boob lol. Weird and really sore but I’m hoping to feel better soon. I’m posting one pic my hubby took yesterday when I was trying to see them but too sore to look. I can’t wait until they are feelings better :)
Updated on 1 Dec 2017:
Starting to feel a little bit more like myself. I’ve discovered that Tylenol seems to relieve my pain better than my prescribed pain meds so that’s good news! I had a cold last week and I’ve still got a little post nasal drip that’s driving me crazy since I can’t really cough. I Finally took off the compression stockings they had me wear home and I’ve been up walking around as much as I can. I’m already so in love with the girls. I used to call them “itsy and bitsy” so I suppose they will need a new nickname now...
Updated on 2 Dec 2017:
I took a shower this morning (with a little assistance) and got my first look at things without the surgical bra. Yowza! Lol they seem huge right now.
Still sore and tight and my back hurts all the time because I’m hunching over. What I wouldn’t give for a good shoulder stretch.
Today is my first day alone but I’m able to dress myself, open my pills and the fridge door so I think it will be just fine. And if all else fails, I have 3 dogs to trip over and get kisses from. One of them (my tiny guard dog) keeps sniffing my chest suspiciously lol. He is displeased that he can’t sit on them.
Updated on 3 Dec 2017:
Good morning ladies! After the highs and lows of yesterday(I’ll fill you in later) I decided to cheer myself up by sitting in the fresh air and reading everyone’s reviews to prove that one day, I will feel like a normal human being. With fantastic boobs of course. And it did help knowing everyone goes through this first week with the same “omg this is never ending and wait is that normal? And am I having an actual stroke? Wait that’s normal too....ok”.
And then I decided to take a peek a the ladies (who are feeling a little better this day) and wooooah was I surprised to see how high they are lol. More fullness up top than when I got home. I don’t mind it too much though. I know they will drop and after having zero cleavage it was kind of exciting to see something going on. Please excuse my pictures in the tiny bathroom mirror.
Yesterday, after posting I was feeling pretty good and my hubby offered to come pick me up and grab lunch. After two days of crackers and apple sauce I was craving a beef taco so bad. I managed to get myself dressed and even wash my hair from the side of the tub with the detachable shower head. I took my pain pill and waited, and waited, he got held up and by the time he got home I was so tired and dizzy but I really wanted that taco so I got in the car. Big mistake! Because I was so hungry and my meds I felt like I was on willie wonkas boat and we were going faster and faster. Sitting up was squishing my implants and every pothole felt like a crater and I was completely in tears by the time we got food. He took me back home and I ate and took my muscle relaxer but I couldn’t calm down and my heart ( though I couldn’t find my heart because of the implants and then panicked about that) was racing, I thought maybe I was having a panic attack or a stroke lol. My snotty nose from crying was impossible to clear and I was generally in a bad state of mind. And he had to go back to work and leave me there. Ugh. Not fun. Eventually I calmed down and got through the rest of the day but that was definable the worst I’ve felt since starting all of this. I’ve heard everyone has a sad day from the anesthesia leaving, maybe that was my sad (manic!) day. Good to know that you’re not alone/crazy.
On a lighter note, here are some random things I’ve noticed. I kept smelling soup. Like chicken broth soup and it was making me feel nuts (and not helping my stroke theory!) and then I finally realized it’s me. Yup. I’ve showered, washed my hair, changed clothes, but my skin smells like soup.
Also, my doc mentioned I might lose a little nipple sensitivity with my BA and I was okay with that as I was always reeeeally overly sensitive in that department but I have noticed no such changes thus far and my nipples kind of burn and don’t like the texture of the surgery bra. Which also smells like soup. Go figure.
See y’all later!
Updated on 4 Dec 2017:
Feeling a lot better today. I’m still really tight and taking my muscle relaxer but I’ve only needed Tylenol for the last 2 days. I even managed to take a solo shower and wash and dry my hair (I sat in a chair and my hair is quite short).
I’ve been pretty bloated but I’ve been taking a stool softener and tried a little smooth move tea today and have seen some improvement on that front. Yey! Overall, I’m feeling very like myself, just a little easily tired. And I’m loving the girls! Now that I’m not so distracted by feeling crummy I can’t stop looking at them lol. I’m so happy with my decision.
Updated on 5 Dec 2017:
I went back to work today. It’s cafe work with light to moderate lifting. It wasn’t so bad, anything I couldn’t do I asked a co-worker. I did get tired really early on though and ended up going home early since business was pretty dead.
I’m feeling much better energy wise but I’m worried I may have over done it. The gals feel really tight and seem further apart than when I first came home? I’m not in any pain, they just feel really weird and tired.
My post-op appointment is tomorrow so I will ask if what I’m feeling in normal.
At this point I’m really just taking my muscle relaxer, antibiotic, and Tylenol as needed. I wear my surgery bra 24/7 and my plastic surgeon really stresses wearing a bra as much as possible even after recovery to keep things in shape. She said we won’t do the strap unless she sees that we aren’t getting good results. The perks of having a female surgeon who’s had a BA, she knows how uncomfortable that strap is and saves it as a last resort.
Tata(s) for now!
Updated on 5 Dec 2017:
Day 1 on left/ Day 5 on right
Do they look further apart now or is that just the swelling going down?
Updated on 7 Dec 2017:
It’s been one week since my surgery today. Slowly but surely I’m getting back to normal. I had my post-op appointment yesterday and my PS said everything was looking really good and I should expect to see some serious dropping in the next week. I’ve started doing the massages and stretching my arms and shoulders more to get some mobility back. I’m still on a 10-15 lb lifting limit. I’ve ordered some bras on Amazon that are similar to my surgery bra except cotton. They’re what my PS recommended for daily wear (she wears them too). Hopefully they will be here soon and I’ll share how they fit. My incisions aren’t looking too bad but man are they itchy. I will be glad to have the itchies gone. No tape on the incisions anymore but I do put gauze between them and my bra sometimes so it doesn’t rub.
Updated on 10 Dec 2017:
The bras I ordered from amazon came in. They are the Fruit of the Loom cotton front-close ones my PS recommended. Maybe I should of ordered a bigger size? All the online reviews said they ran a little small so I ordered the 36 instead of my typical 32 (they are only sized by band width). It would close but was painfully right after a few hours and it just felt like the material didn’t cover enough above and below the gals to be comfortable. So today I went out on a mission to find a comfortable (and cheap!) bra to wear until I am ready to be sized.
First stop was the mall, Aero and Victoria’s Secret to be exact. I knew I wasn’t looking for a super formed bra, just something comfortable and not too $. Earlier today I did do my own measurements (I know I know, not final results) and seemed to be a 32DD. At Aero I tried on a cute bralette for only $15 but it was comically too small and not very comfy. I found most of their non-under wire bras to be pretty but offer no support at all.
I hesitated to go to VS at all because I knew it would be pricy but they had a sale on and I was already nearby. I was having a hard time locating non-under wire bras so I asked a sales person for help. She inquired as to why I was avoiding underwire and I told her I had a BA less than 2 weeks ago. She then asked what cc and when I told her 450cc to which she replied that I would probably be a 32DDD eventually but to try a 34 DD (she took no actual measurements)for now in a few styles. They only had one style and color(nude) in that size and I had a feeling it wasn’t going to work but for curiosity’s sake I gave it a go. Now I know that my boobs are shaped weird right now and I didn’t expect much but the fit was just awful, to small cups, lifting off my chest, too loose in the band. I decided to just put it back and look elsewhere.
So off to Target (cue heavenly choir)I went. I selected as many wire free styles I could in size L, probably 10-12 different ones. And I fell in bra love!
With a boring Hanes granny bra lol. But you guys, it’s the softest, most flexible bra I have ever seen. It has no seams at all. Just one big piece with the hook in the back and it’s heavenly after a week of that scratchy surgery bra. Love Love Love. I ended up going down a size to M because the band was big on the L but it so stretchy and flexible I feel like it will grow with me as they change. It does minimize the ladies slightly and it’s very thin so not a lot of coverage if you have prominent nips but It’s so comfortable I don’t even care. Let’s just pretend I’m on a 90’s sitcom and the nips have free reign lol. Oh and it was only $15!
Updated on 11 Dec 2017:
Just a few progress photos. Righty is dropping way faster than lefty but I’ve heard that’s pretty normal. Mostly I’m just enjoying the gals and loving life.
Updated on 13 Dec 2017:
I had to go buy a new bra today because the other one is wearing out too soon. Also I wanted something with a little padding so I can wear t-shirts without looking like torpedo boobs lol. I haven’t been able to wear anything with a cup size yet but I’ve found that the soft bras that come in S/M/L fit okay. I’m a Medium in most brands. Seems kind of small until I realize that I’m actually filling up the cups and my straps don’t immediately fall down like they used to! Yey!
My right side continues to be a little higher and more squished (square looking) but I am right handed so maybe that’s why. They are starting to have just a little squish but it hurts when I squeeze harder during my breast massage. The incisions still look scary but they don’t hurt or itch anymore. I started taking vitamin E as I’ve heard that can help the gals soften up. We shall see.
My tummy is FINALLY getting back to normal. I guess it was all the antibiotics I took after surgery. I’m looking forward to being more active and losing a couple of lbs now that my stomach isn’t so bloated all the time. I can’t do anything strenuous but my doc okay’d me to lift what’s comfortable after tomorrow and I can walk or do some other low impact stuff. I’ve definitely cheated this week and picked up my dog or the laundry before realizing how heavy they are. My muscles tell me right away they aren’t ready! Oops. I was definitely sore afterwards. But other than a little morning boob I’ve been in no pain at all. I still can’t sleep on my side. It doesn’t “hurt” it’s just uncomfortable and weird. I can sleep on my back fine but I do find myself trying to roll over and I feel like a turtle on his back lol. Oh well :p
Updated on 15 Dec 2017:
Okay so I’m a little late on my 2 week update but here it is all the same. The girls are getting a little softer but still very firm and sill sore when I squish them. Still too high for a regular bra but the soft kind fits great. I’m wearing a bra all the time unless I’m showering. I haven’t needed any Tylenol or meds for a while now. Yesterday I did manage to lay on my side for a few min. It’s not painful, I just can’t relax like that. Work had been fine. My PS told me to just use my judgement after 2 weeks. Basically if it feels to heavy, put it down lol. I can lift about 15-20lbs comfortably but then I’ve never been a super strong upper body person.
Righty is definitely going to be my “problem child”. Still just high and square. And because it’s dropped less my nips are really uneven lol. But you can’t tell under clothes or even in a bra really. I was in a bit of a funk because I haven’t seen much change lately but then I looked back and did a photo comparison I can see that righty has d&f just a little bit over the last 4 days so yey for that! The incisions are healing fine but they have been kind of tight and dry/flaky feeling lately. I don’t think having a bra on all the time helps with any irritation. My PS told me to place some gauze between my skin and bra if it’s uncomfortable. Last night I wore a super soft cami UNDER my bra to sleep and that really helped the chafing feelings.
I’m very happy with the size. I wanted something that balanced my pear shape figure and looked noticeably fuller but not so big that they take center stage in my figure. I was worried about them being too small but so far 450cc is absolutely perfect. My PS did a fantastic job sizing them!
Speaking of sizing, I was so small before that now most of my shirts either don’t close or the necklines are weird. I actually don’t love shopping so I’ve made due with a few things until I am ready to do a full wardrobe overhaul. At least the few things I’ve tried on have looked pretty darn good. We are going on a beach vacation for Christmas so I had to order a few summery things online (including a sexy red one piece with a low cut neckline hehe) so hopefully they fit! I’m excited to try on the once dreaded swimsuit and feel confident and sexy instead of flat and messy.
Updated on 15 Dec 2017:
I love this one! So happy with the difference.
Updated on 19 Dec 2017:
Righty is finally putting in the work and dropping into place! Still a little high but huge improvement overall. We’ve even got a little “squish” going on. Merry Christmas to my ladies and also to you.
Updated on 1 Jan 2018:
A little late but everything is going great! Still of D&F to go but they are comfortable, natural feeling, and getting more squishy every day. My next appt is in 2 days. I’m hoping to get a professional fitting and an underwire bra then. Right now I’m measuring myself as a 34 DDD but I know every brand is different. Loving the new shape and how they fill out all my clothes. I don’t even mind the few holiday lbs I’ve gained as I’m waaaay less self conscience about my tummy (since it’s not the only thing sticking out!).
Updated on 3 Jan 2018:
I finally had enough of my cheap starter bra and decided to go get sized for something more supportive. Finding the right sales person and the right bra was no easy feat. I’ve dealt with VS before and haven’t found anything that fits so I just decided to try a larger department store for help. It took a few tries and measurements (since I’m still dropping it’s hard to get an exact size from traditional measuring) we figured out I can wear a 34 DDD in most brands they carried. I found a few wired bras that fit okay but weren’t very comfy so I decided to stick with the wireless for now. She’s not as sexy as I would of liked but very supportive and comfortable for work.
Updated on 14 Jan 2018:
Definitely noticing more of all of the above! They don’t hurt anymore to lay on, no morning boob either. My incisions are healing nicely but still feel like hard rope inside when I touch them. My PS wants me to massage them with petroleum jelly once a day to help them soften up. The only problem I’ve had is a little acne on my chest I think due to all the bra wearing and the winter weather. Hope to clear that up soon.
Ta-ta’s for now!