Very sad about the whole experience :(

I got my approval yesterday. It took 4 weeks to the day for insurance to get back to my surgeon. I have spent the last month educating myself on the procedure, what I can do to help myself, and how to prepare for post-op. My husband is VERY supportive.We have both taken 2 weeks off from work for this. In the 6th grade i was a 32 C. As a freshman in high school I was a 32 DD at 5'8" and 120lbs. My wedding dress was ordered 6 sizes larger to accommodate my chest. They have only gotten bigger. They have been my identity my whole adult life. I am a little nervous about the identity change. Thanks to all the ladies who have posted about your experiences. It has given me encouragement and invaluable information. Updated on 27 Jun 2014: I have started a list of questions for my pre-op. I found compression bras on sale BOGO. I bought a medium size and am keeping the receipt, just in case. In my head they should fit but the rest of me laughs hysterically. A medium?!?! I haven't seen that in 25 years. I am happily anxious about not having the shoulder and neck issues but I am also anxious about the change. Updated on 6 Jul 2014: In 1 week I will be making final preparations for my surgery!!!!! I have my pre-op on Tuesday. I have a listnof questions ready. I have all my supplies in a little wicker basket that can be taken from the bedroom to the living room. My anxiety Iis making me crazy!!!!!!! I had trouble sleeping to begin with and it is even worse now. I can't take Melatonin or have Sleepy Time tea. Suggestions??????