Breast Implant Removal: My Triple DDD's Attracted The 'Wrong Kind' of Attention
GreenTemple on 28 Oct 2013 at 9:00am
RealSelf community member GreenTemple is a 48 year-old marathon runner. She had breast implant removal (for the second time) on May 2, 2012. This is her story, in her own words.
I originally got my implants because I wanted my breasts to look better - they were small and I wanted more volume. I had the implants for five years, but then had a miscarriage and developed mastitis [an infection of the breast tissue]. I asked the doctor to take the implants out to give my body a rest.
Two years later, once I got out of the military, I decided to put them back in. After the second surgery, I was happy. But I got pregnant again -- and my breasts went from a D cup to a triple DDD cup. I was very self conscious. I thought when I stopped breastfeeding, they would go back [to their former size], but they never did.
I had to buy new bras and clothing. I didn’t want to wear anything too form fitting, because I didn’t want to draw attention to them. But at the same time, I didn’t want to look like I was overweight. When your breasts are really big, unless you wear something that curves back into your body or has an A-line -- you look overweight. I felt like I always had to accommodate my breasts [when I dressed], and I didn’t like the implants enough to do that.
And, they were so big that they were attracting the wrong type of attention. I thought people were looking at my breasts rather than me as a person.
Before surgery, I was nervous my breasts were going to look strange. My backup plan was to go in again and have them lifted. Now after, my breasts may not be beautiful by someone else’s definition -- but they’re mine. I think they’re cute and I feel confident in my clothes. People actually said, “Oh my gosh, you lost a lot a weight,” and I was like, “Thank you! I’ll take that.”
Another reason I didn’t like the implants was that I strayed away from hugging people. After the surgery this has changed -- one of the things I like best is being able to hug freely without worrying they can feel my implants.
I also started running again -- I just ran my second half marathon in the past four months. I stopped exercising for a couple of reasons -- it wasn't just because of my breast size, but that was a part of it. I couldn’t run with my triple DDD breasts, they were too heavy.
Overall, I feel better about myself. Taking my implants out has gotten me to the point of self-esteem where I can confidently say, “This is me. Like it, love it, leave it -- it’s up to you.”
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