To answer your question, she is only removing a part of her tattoo because she doesn't want to remove it all. It was bigger than she was thinking it would be and want to make it smaller.
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Hi Eva, I have just seen for the first time "Seven years in Tibet" and it was such a great movie with a Buddhist message. I especially liked the part where they go through the struggle to get to the Dalai Lama saying that "the longest and the hardest is the road the greater is the reward" :)
I am from a lovely small town in France of about 50 thousands people and what brought me to China, Shanghai to be more specific, is that first I needed adventure and second wanted to find myself, but no specific plan. I have been here now for about 4 years. It is a huge city with a big H. their is even more than 50 thousands French people in Shanghai. A lot of foreigners from the whole world. Well..to me this experience has been quite extreme so far. As soon as I arrived I realized that it wasn't like I expected it to be. So big, so tall, so modern, lights everywhere, people everywhere. The "Asian New York". I immediately had opportunities in the Fashion industry has model, something I was only seeing only in my mom's magazines. Can't tell you how proud she was when she saw me on the catwalk in "ELLE". I am evolving in a world that was so distant from where I from. Scary and fascinating at the same time. On one hand, It has done so much good to be here for me. My confidence got high, been dating women I could have pin on my wall in my teenage room, and most of all I found a passion, I am now studying to be a fashion designer :) .On the other hand, it reveled my worst demons. I have done a lot of drugs on a regular base, partying way to much, drinking wayy too much, and had wayyy too many girlfriends. I was euphoric, thought I had everything. Felt I was on top of the world. So foolish. As you know, most recently, It also took me to hell, depression, melancholia. Facing my worst fears and to places of darkness as i could never imagine i had inside me. honestly i was scared. I have took my head above water and now I am very relax. I am looking at this 4 years behind me and through the good like the bad I don't regret anything. I'm making the balance of it. learning from my mistakes, focusing on the good, approaching things patiently and more spiritually. Such a breath of fresh air. Sorry to spill my story like that, i know it's weird. But I had to take this out of my chest and you seem like a wonderful person :) .So like I said It has been a bit extreme in my case, but only because I was young, by myself (meaning with no family) and easily influenced. But yes I do love being here and most people do :)
Dear Eva,
Thank you for your message And for the time you took to describe me your introduction into Buddhism. I have though about it since I have visited countries such as Thailand and Cambodia. Now I live in China which is a bit different. Your development on it makes me want to make now a step towards it.
I have seen your post and I am very happy about you and your brother getting back in touch. helping you in this difficult moment of yours will also help himself.
I have too an older brother about your age than is been going through issues for quite a time now, leading him into depression that somehow took us apart since I couldn't understand him. Now I realize how he could have feel and we are getting closer.
Also after seeing your tattoo i wouldn't get so discourage after only 4 sessions. Following is the links of a French blog dedicated to tattoo removal. I choose to send you this one because it is similar to yours.
She started the removal 1 mouth after getting the tattoo (immediate regret),
and has you can see some part are totally gone without marks. where you see the complete removal it has been 16th session, and where it is less removed it has been 9 sessions.
She precise that for this kind of tattoo the amount of ink was quit heavy:
(http://adieutatoo.canalblog.com/archives/p10-10.html)
(http://adieutatoo.canalblog.com/archives/2012/05/31/24382107.html)
In your case, I know colors can be harder to remove but it will just take a few more sessions and that will be it.
So soon you will be back to a empty back, felling good inside and out with a fresh mind :)
How did it go for your 5th session?
Sincerly,David.
Dear Eva,
Thank your for your message. I also very like the way your approach the inconvenience.
I also was very attached to my physical appearance..certainly too much and took advantage of it. I have also been quite judging on the one of others, what a shame. Well, going through laser removal, now my freelance model carrier will have an undetermined break haha. But on the other side I feel some kind of liberation. Surrounded by so much superficiality I could not see the beauty of simple things and simple people. How blind.
To me it seems like the tattoo just pulled all the bad I have inside me out on the surface. And like I said I feel glad and very lucky it came out, probably even saved me from a life I would have despite later on.
Even I am not considering myself as such a bad person, the first step was to accept their were problems deeper than the ink under my skin and deeply i was in conflict with the road I was taking.
Then I had to forgive myself in order to move on and be willing to work on rebuilding someone greater.
I know it is what is irritating about it but in my case I'm kind of glad that the ink removal will not be easy otherwise it would have been "too easy" and I would probably miss the great opportunity behind it. So I embrace this unwanted tattoo. And if scares their is i will wear them proudly reminding me of a fight I have came through.
After all this ink doesn't stop our bodies to function perfectly well and that is most important :)
Eva, It seems like your are really gifted and blessed with a priceless family that you and your husband built. I'm sure that with their understanding and support you will see the end of it.
I am curious how did you start learning of Buddhism? And how much it is helping you?
I also have a couple other tattoos that i love and suit me perfectly. But same here, the one bothering me is originally a cover up and the meaning and design of it is not who I am or who i want to be. Are you sure about an other cover up ? after all isn't it what took you in this "mess" in the first place ?
Even if every case in different I can understand your struggle. But don't get discourage at the beginning of the road. It might take up to 20 sessions to get a complete removal but it will be worth it..what do you think?
"Suffering, when it can't be avoid, is here to bring me toward glory" :)
Sincerly,
David.
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