I can completely relate. My BR is this coming Tuesday, and one of my biggest concerns is how my body will actually look after recovery. I've always hid (physically and emotionally) behind my large breasts, and I've gained weight because I never could wear tight fitting clothes, anyway. So, now I'm nervous about looking fat because my breasts won't be covering my torso. But, I'm also hoping that this surgery will increase my drive and self-esteem and encourage me to exercise and live a healthier lifestyle now that I have a shot at a smaller-looking body! You're not alone!