Relieved2012

I am tired, and angry. But, Relieved. - Auburn, IL

Thanks for the cheering. I'm patient. I was a nurse too, for years back before paper work and politics. :P . I think I'd be a lot worse off emotionally had I not had those years of experience. I'm just taking life one day at a time because it's all I can handle at the moment. Take good care of you too! xo

I wonder often if I knew then, what I know now, would I still have chosen this time in my life to go through this. I had no idea 5 months later I'd still be feeling as bad as before beginning this journey. One thing I do enjoy at the moment though, I am Real. :) Thanks for your comment. xo

Thanks. I don't feel very brave. :/ Thank you for the good wishes. xo

Hello! I haven't checked in here for so long...! I'm on a mild pain medication again, although the drain has been out from this last surgery for a couple weeks now, I am still draining fluid. It builds up in the cavity of the missing tissue area, which was so large we have to gently drain it without doing more damage to the incision. The incision is still open in the area where the drain was, and my right side, from the 2nd surgery is just barely healed shut now. I'm still sleeping sitting up on the couch and to be honest, I'm an emotional wreck. I made so many poor, uninformed choices in this whole thing... I'm almost certain had I made more informed choices from the beginning, I could have been healed and this whole explant a distant memory by now. I hope you're doing well ! I'll go look over your profile and see. Thanks for checking in with me. xo

Thank Nerja1. It has certainly been a trial. I do try to always find a positive in it though, and the one super big positive I keep having run through my head is thank the good Lord I had this done now. Every year that goes by after I hit 50 I feel I m not as strong at bouncing back from injuries or even colds. I can't even imagine having to have gone through all these surgeries in my 60's or 70's! I am going over to read your update now and see how you are doing. I am 4 months out from initial explant; and 3 months out from first capsulectomy. I could have crocheted a heck of a 'Memory blanket' by now. :) Take good care. I hope you're doing better! xoxo