Gretchenbleph

My left eyelid bulges and it drives mr crazy 5 weeks out of upper lower bleph it's driving me nuts!

I am 4 weeks 2 days post op. Here is my first concern. My inner corners are imbalanced. So day 11 post op I massaged my right eye inner corner (the Dr did not say to
Ths) and I'm.afraid I.damaged tissues that were supposed to heal differently. The swelling got worse after I massaged. Is it possible that i permanently damaged something? And changed the scuplted nature of the eye that was intended? Or over time will the inner swelling heal and take the shape intended. Also a lower transconjunctuval bleoh...not sure if I needed it. I had Very small.bags that could go.away with weight loss. I was prettier before I think. Have i a ruined myself for life? Very depressed. Could I email pictures to some of you for some opinions? Going through divorce so mentally I'm a little fragile. Thought I could handle this but the results are so extremel I'm not handling it well at all. Thanks for your time. Overall I'm very uncomfortable. Eyes dry and tight especially in left eye.

Have your results gotten better?

Can anyone exchange personal information so we can support each other? I'm so sad!

I have so much regret