KatrinaAnn

Decision in the Making - West Covina, CA

I am taking my time, I honestly think that is the problem with some of the stories i've been reading on here. I have learned from some of the stories i've read and made it a habit to NOT to what they did.

Before I even came to this site i did my research and all that mess, the chin implant was brought up out of the blue, my first consultation doctor mentioned that to me so now i have to add that in to my research lol. =] But good... i'm glad to hear you had a good experience with the chin implant, i was getting a little worried on some things. "Facial balance" was what i have been reading and hearing from doctors so i know its not full of crap. I have my 3rd consultation this friday then on monday, then i get to make my decision as far as doctors go...then its scheduling and getting prepared for everything.

Oh i know you're not, it's just being smart about it that I have to pay attention to. I know you guys aren't telling me NOT to do it, even if you were, i wouldn't listen anyways lol (just kidding!)

As far as using CareCredit just something "elective" i mean my mom worked in a cosmetic surgery environment and that's what the doctor used in order to help the patients pay off their procedures. I mean yea there's it's downfalls...but it's no different than anything else in the world...like credit cards. People get the MAX they want and once there's nothing left a certain amount is required monthly. I may not be like some people who have saved an X amount for this procedure, have that good paying job and not have to worry about struggling, or even have that significant other to help me out because I have none of that. I am smart enough to do my research and know what's involved. I did know eventually that I would be pushed up against the wall and have to get a job in order to pay for this. I am grateful that I have this support group to go to when I have doubts or questions about what i am considering doing, i appreciate EVERYTHING you guys tell me, i take every bit of advice seriously and into consideration when I approach this so don't think that I take what you guys say with a grain of salt and ignore it. I have learned what to do and what not to do DUE to being on this site whether it's from advice that's been given or things i've observed on my own.

I have different scenarios in my head on what I can do regardless if I get a job or not. It kind of all depends on how much money i am getting. The student loans I would be getting regardless if I was getting this procedure done or not because honestly, as sad as it seems, the money that I get no matter the amount, goes to my family. We are struggling and going through a lot of BS. Nose job was actually 2nd on my list when i knew i was able to get a student loan, my family comes first. I need to do some serious thinking about what is going to happen. I know i need a job whether i go through with this procedure or not, that's a given. I don't want to be in debt either because I wasn't thinking about EVERYTHING. I will work something out, i will make things work but at the same time be smart about it.

There will always be morons no matter where you go in life lol, there's always some a-hole trying to get more money out of you (don't ya love it?!) But again... i will not let anything get in my way. I am determined!!! =] I realize now that I may not get this done when i wanted to get it done, i might be pissed now or even when its staring me in the face, but i know it'll be for a reason. I know there is no rush to this, in a way i feel like i'm rushing...but maybe it's just because i'm anxious and excited; needing a desperate change. At least i'm considering the pros and cons to this; not acting out on a idiot move and just doing it because i want it and not caring about the consequences later. Doing research is what i do when it comes to something i am passionate about, i never jump in without knowing what i'm getting myself into.

I can't thank you guys enough for all you have given me =]

@ Lilly, yea I know...the person I'm dealing with for University of Phoenix told me that the interest would go up after July 1st, and unfortunately I start July 17th so i get what you're saying there. I see what my mom and other people go through as far as loans and my family is in a tough spot the only person working is my sister (she's 23), my mom lost her job last december. Her and I nor my sister has had any luck finding a job so it really sucks. We have been living off of my moms student loans and whatever my sister brings in (which isn't a lot ... $200ish every week) doesn't mean crap when you have a lot to dish out. I've been living off of financial aid for as long as i can remember and i HATE it with a passion. I've run into 2 "jobs" that have F'ed me over (both saying or implied that i had the job when i really didn't and f'ing around with me as far as what's going on and just not communicating with me. School has ALWAYS been a run-down when it comes to me looking for a job. I always had to give myself a short period of time to get into a job before registration and if I didn't then i was stuck with just school because all that I was looking was either office jobs and I could only work up to a certain time due to doing homework and waking up early for class. NOW that i am going into an online program, hopefully my doors with open as far as getting a job. I can be more flexible. But yea with the economy the way it is.....EHHHH! i'm stressing balls here.

@ Strawberry, it's not making me feel bad at all, it's good advice. I mean it discourages me A LOT but it's reality. I am going to keep saying it, I am not going to let anyone or anything get in the way of what I want to do, and i'm sticking to it! It is what it is... I don't want to put myself in a spot with all this and I know i need to get a job, it could make things a lot easier when making the payments. The whole interest free loan...not gona happen though. I am the only one with good credit so that one would go out the window, it's alllll up to me. I could ask if they are hiring, I never thought about that, I will have to ask (thank you!!! =] )

All of what you guys are saying does bring a sense of discouragement to me, BUT it does help a lot. I wasn't going to literally jump into this but it has brought me to a whole different perspective and i thank you guys for that. I am just really anxious to get this done, I want to feel good about myself... and i knew once i was passionate about something there would always be something there to hold me back. This time i am going to kick it in the ass and work harder to get it done because I AM going to get it done. I put in about.... maybe 10 resumes yesterday to craigslist and I have a couple resumes to bring in IN person so I have to make time for that, maybe even do it tomorrow after my 2nd consultation.

Again... thank you.
Truth hurts but hey.... =] it's gotta be said

Yea I know and I don't want to put myself in that position either. It's just how this economy is today, I don't know when i'll be able to get a job. I've been unemployed for a couple years and I have had nothing come up. I don't really want to wait (not that I'm rushing it because I'm not), but there's ALWAYS something that has to get in the way of something i am completely passionate about and it's quite annoying. I hate being held back from things I want to do. =/ I've lived my whole life with this nose, I just don't want to wait too long and realize there isn't a point to it anymore. I just don't know what to do.

I know i should look for a job, but what if I don't find one? I've been unemployed for years and nothing has come up; but I don't want to be in debt either. @ Lilly... i'm too broke to go out now... lol there wouldn't be much of a difference there for me. I can hardly go out do the things I want to do so really it wouldn't make difference. But yea I know what you're saying and i agree totally.

I start an online program July 17th and I am going to receive loans/financial aid...so depending on what the amount I get is...(hopefully it's more rather than less) i can put a certain amount aside and put it in my savings and keep that ONLY for the payments but again that only depends on how much I get. I if I put a certain amount away, let's say $1000, that will last me enough payments then when I receive financial aid/loans again, put in another whatever...who knows if that'll work. I'm good at budgeting but considering what I'm getting myself into, I'm kind of leiry.

I keep bringing this up to my mom, and she keeps telling me to go one step at a time with all this, it's good that I'm thinking of all of this but i don't even know how much i'm getting and how often i'm getting it. SO ... i guess i have to wait until I start this online program, see how much i'm getting and when and I can go from there. I just don't want to wait another 10 years, i've waited long enough ya know?! =/ GRRRR..... =[

This is laaammmeeeee......

Which doctor performed your surgery the first time?