Caitlin in Florida

Thank you for being so sweet! I am so happy that I found this site, and was able to talk to all of you. You all offered such wonderful advice, so much better then I could have hoped for! Thank you very much for the compliment! Often of times, I feel so hideous. I'm not sure why, but I know I blame it on the nose throwing everything off. However, the statement that touched me the most, and always has is the 'It's not that bad at ALL' statement. I look into the mirror, and it's more so the profile view that gets to me. I just find it WAY too long for my face. Yet when I question friends, they say that it is a bit longer then the average nose, but not awful, and that it doesn't look too out of place on my nose. Is that true? If so, I'm just at a loss of words, because I see it and think, "Holy hell, that's huge!" but I'm starting to think I see it as bigger then it really is? I'm not sure.
One of the things that got me most worked up is that I'm always the girl in the backround. Yes, I've had a couple boyfriends, and have had people call me pretty, or even beautiful...but I'm used to everyone just staring at the flaw on my face. However...though it hurts very much, I think I'm doing a good thing by waiting. Especially in terms of BOYS. Say I show up to the college campus, and I have my eyes on a certain guy, but he doesn't like my nose and ignores me. Say after first semester, I come back from Christmas break with a slight alteration (If I choose to do so) and that same guy then likes me-it's almost a great test. To see what guys like me for ME, which greatly includes personality, and what guys are only after the looks:)

Thank you guys for the comments! It's almost as though you were both following my mind the past couple of days! Though I hate it, and I'm upset and feel awful when I look in the mirror, getting it done RIGHT NOW is just not realistic. I don't have the time, as I'm so busy, and highly doubt I could book an appointment before June. My parents always haven't warmed up to the idea, because I sprung it on them so suddenly. So I decided that I will wait some. I'm going to get through my first semester of college, save up some more money, etc. If I still have this huge insecurity, this huge hate for my nose, then I will get it done/try to get it done during winter break. I'll have some more money, as well as more recovery time and preperation. I'm going to see if going to college, and being surrounded by people I haven't grow up with changes things. To make myself feel better, though, I shall go on a huge shopping spree for new college clothes;)

It hasn't really progressed:( I approached him, and while he understood where I was coming from and why I wanted it, we don't know what to do about money. I told him I do not expect him to chip in anything at all. I would cover half now, and take out a loan for the rest. Then I realized, a bit too late, that I need a co signer for it, and my dad doesn't want to, in case I miss a payment. I know there is a chance I'll miss one, however, if they were to pay it, they could keep track and charge me interest. I'm losing hope with the whole thing, because If I want this surgery at the end of the month, I need to make a consultation NOW...I just don't know what to do. I was crying to my power, and she was mocking me and even laughed and said, 'Cover your face, it will help'

Thank you so very much! I decided (Maybe this isn't the best) just now that I will get this done, either way. I need to make a choice for myself. While it may seem like a 'money hole' I realized that the precedure wouldn't even cost me as much as a full year of tuition...so I'm willing to do this to be happy with myself, and my life. I will confront them, asking that they please support me, and listen to what they have to say:)

Thank you SO much for your kind comment! It has helped me so much. I decided that, while confronting my father tonight, I'm not going to walk in with a "Can I do this?" attitude. I will instead walk in with a, "I AM doing this, and I am asking for your help or blessing, depending on if you would like to help." I keep going over it in my mind-I will be in college, not making much of anything...do I really want to put myself into such a money hole so young? Then I realized-first, m tuition for all my years of college is covered (A scholarship I recieved) secondly, I'd rather be owing money and happy, then unhappy with money on the side. I need this for myself, to make my future better. I will tell my father, "It's not a matter of IF I'll get this done-it's only a matter of WHEN, and the time is now."