photog Frankie

Living Through my Project in Process. - Kauai, HI

Oh my God! I feel finally validated now that I know it isn't just me that is experiencing so much pain from these expanders. I had a bilateral mastectomy on Sept. 14, 2011 with expanders put in at that time. I have had two fills, one at 50cc and the second one at 100cc. I decided to rest for a couple of months with my mother in another state. I am in constant pain and have tried so hard to get off hydrocodone, having tried over the counter pain meds but nothing seems to take the edge off. I am not a baby about pain so to hear that I was not the only one with this much pain has been such a comfort for me. I still tire very easily and try to rest as much as possible but feel like I should be doing more than I do. I had radiation on my right breast after a lumpectomy 13 years ago and so that side seems to hurt a little more also. I'm rambling on, I know, but just gratefull to know that I am not the only one experiencing this pain. I feel so blessed and lucky to know that I am cancer free and feel that I should just feel happiness about this so when I have cry days because I'm so tired of pain, I feel guilty. Now I know I have many "sisters" out there that are going through the same journey that I am going through, and that will help me through until I get my implants hopefully in a few months. Thank you all for sharing. God bless all of you.