I came in weighing about 126, im 5'6", i weighed...
16 days and counting. ..November 1st!
Waiting on my results, and a breakthrough
Feeling nervous and fed up
Tomorrow is the day!!
Today is the day. .
GETTING THROUGH IT. DAY 1 AND 2...LONG POST.
HI LADIES. SO IM SURE I WROTE AN UPDATE YESTERDAY AFTERNOON BUT BY THE LOOKS OF IT I MIGHT NOT HAVE PRESSED THE BLUE LITTLE BUTTON. SO BACK TO YESTERDAY, I WAS VERY SCARED TO BE PUT TO SLEEP AND SURPRISINGLY ENOUGH I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE WHEN I WAS PUT OUT, ALL I REMEMBER IS HEARING THE TECH SPEAKING TO MY HUBBY WHICH JUST LOOKED LIKE A BIG BLUR LOL. THE MOST PAINFUL PART AS OF NOW IS OBVIOUSLY RIGHT WHEN I WAS SENT HOME, I WAS SO OUT OF IT I DIDNT QUITE KNOW HOW TO CONTROL OR REACT TO ANY MOVEMENT. I DONT REMEMBER MUCH ABOUT GETTING HOME EXCEPT GOING UP ALL MY STAIRS. ONCE I TOOK MY MEDS AND LAID DOWN FOR AN HOUR OR SO I BECAME MORE AWARE OF MY SURROUNDINGS. I HAVE LEARNED TO BE MORE APPRECIATIVE OF MY MOM SINCE SHE WAS HERE HELPING ME AND MY HUBBY BY COOKING AND CLEANING SO HE CAN FOCUS MORE ON ME AND MY SON. OVERALL YESTERDAY WAS A VERY VERY UNCOMFORTABLE DAY, THE GARMENT IS SO TIGHT AND THICK IT JUST INTERFERES WITH THE FEW THINGS YOU ARE ABLE TO DO. MAYBE TMI BUT THE CROCH PART HAS AN OPENING WHICH REALLY DIGS INTO MY SKIN RIGHT AT THE CREASE OF MY THIGH SO IT KIND OF MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO WALK WITH MY LEGS A LITTLE MORE CLOSED AND ALSO MADE IT A LITTLE HARD WHILE I WAS ASLEEP ON MY STOMACH BECAUSE IT WAS HARDER FOR ME TO MOVE ONCE I WAS SET IN BED. THE GARMENT ALSO HAS ZIPPERS ON BOTH LEFT AND RIGHT AND FROM YOUR RIBS TO ABOUT YOUR KNEES, MY MOM HELPED ME ADJUST IT WHEN WE REALIZED ONE OF MY INCISIONS WAS LEAKING THROUGH MY PANTS. THE GARMENT ALSO MADE ME SOME VERY ITCHY MARKS, THAT ACTUALLY GOT MORE PAINFUL WITH TIME, FROM THE VELCRO ON THE INSIDE WHICH YOU HAVE TO CLOSE TOGETHER BEFORE YOU ZIP IT UP. THE VELCRO MUST HAVE BEEN COMING APART AND AS I WIGGLED AROUND IT WOULD ROLL UP AND SCRATCH AND PINCH MY THIGH AREA, WE FINALLY UNZIPPED AND PUT SOME TOILET PAPER IN THAT AREA AS WELL AS BEHIND ME KNEES WHERE THE GARMENT FINISHES AND ALSO WRINKLES UP. SO RECAP PROBLEM AREAS TO THINK ABOUT: 1. THE LINING OF THE CROCH AREA 2. THE VELCRO UNDERNEATH THE ZIPPER AND 3.THE LINING WHERE THE GARMENT ENDS AT THE KNEES.
SO DURING THE DAY I DIDNT GET MUCH SLEEP, MORE LIKE TINY NAPS WHILE FOUND A COMFORTABLE SPOT. SO EARLIER DURING THE DAY I WAS ABLE TO LEAN OVER MY CHASE LOUNGE AND PRETTY MUCH HOLD MYSELF UP WITH MY KNEES AND HAVE MY CHEST ON THE ARMREST WITH SOME PILLOWS. IT SEEMED TO WORK SO I TRIED IT AT BEDTIME, TOTAL FAIL LOL. YOU SHOULD KNOW MOST LIKELY YOU'LL SLEEP IN PERIODS OF 2-4 HOURS IF YOUR LUCKY. I WAS IN THAT POSITION FOR MAYBE 30MINS BEFORE I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE. WE RECENTLY REMOVED A MEMORY FOAM LAYER FROM OUT BED AND I HAD AN IDEA TO FOLD IT IN HALF WITH PILLOWS IN THE MIDDLE SO I CAN LAY ON TOP OF THAT BECAUSE LAYING FLAT ON MY BED WAS PAINFUL SINCE I WAS SINKING IN. IT WORKED OK EXCEPT THAT AFTER ABOUT 2HRS MY BODY BEGAN TO FEEL SORE AND CRAMP UP, I TOOK ADVANTAGE OF THIS TIME TO GET UP AND PEE, STRETCH AND REPOSITION. I LEARNED TO FOCUS ON MY HEAD/NECK FIRST BECAUSE EVEN IF MY BODY WAS FEELING OK, IF MY PILLOW WASNT RIGHT THEN MY NECK WOULD BEGIN TO HURT. I PROBABLY GOT UP ABOUT THREE TIMES BUT DIDNT REALLY GET MUCH SLEEP EXCEPT FOR 4-8AM AFTER I HAD TAKEN MY MEDS. THIS MORNING I ALSO TRIED THE MOUNTAIN OF PILLOWS AND KNEELED ON A STOOL AT THE END OF MY BED.
I WENT TO GO SEE DR.BRUNO AND HE PRETTY MUCH SAID HE WAS VERY HAPPY WITH MY RESULTS AND THAT I LOOKED PRETTY GOOD. LET ME KNOW I CAN TAKE OFF MY GARMENT AND SHOWER TOMORROW/DAY3 AND PUT IT BACK ON, THATS A RELIEF SINCE I THOUGHT I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO SHOWER ALL WEEK, YUCK. OH YEA I ALSO GOT A LITTLE LIPO ON MY CHIN SO I HAVE TO KEEP THE STRAP ON FOR A WEEK. MARISOL FROM THE DRS OFFICE SAID SHE WAS SURPRISED HOW MUCH HE WAS ABLE TO SUCTION OUT AND PUT BACK IN, SHE SAID 3LITERS. WOW, SOUNDS LIKE ALOT LOL. MY HUBBY KEEPS TELLING ME HOW HUGE MY BUTT LOOKS WHEN IN MY HEAD I HAVENT REALLY CONSIDERED THE RESULTS BECAUSE I KNOW ITS ALL SWOLLEN RIGHT NOW. ONE THING I DID NOTICE WAS INTERNALLY I FEEL SO MUCH CLEANER, IF YOU ATE ALOT AND KNOW THAT GROSS FEELING OF HAVING A DIRTY STOMACH THEN YOU WILL BE ABLE TO NOTICE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE SWELLING AND THAT YUCKY FEELING WHICH NOW FEELS LIGHTER AND CLEANER.OTHER THAN THAT I JUST HAVE TO GO BACK FRIDAY FOR ANOTHER FOLLOW-UP. I WAS ALSO ABLE TO SIT IN THE CARE A LITTLE BETTER WITH ONE OF MY SONS PILLOW PETS AS A CUSHION LOL, I MOVED MY SEAT ALL THE WAY BACK TO I COULD BE A LITTLE MORE STRAIGHT INSTEAD OF AT AN ANGLE, THEN I JUST HELD ON TO THE HANDLE ON THE CEILING AND PULLED MYSELF UP TO KEEP MY MY BUTT OFF THE SEAT. MY HUBBY HAS BEEN VERY HELPFUL IN GETTING ME IN AND OUT OF BED AND BEING A GOOD SUPPORT WHEN HOLDING ME UP OVER THE TOILET LOL, HE SAYS HES NOT LOOKING FWD TO THE TIME I HAVE TO POOP LOL. POOR GUY DIDNT SLEEP LAST NIGHT EITHER AND HES JUST BEEN MOPING AROUND THE HOUSE TRYING TO STAY BUSY, HE DOESNT WANT TO LEAVE BECAUSE HE SAYS GOD FORBID I FALL OR HURT MYSLEF TRYING TO DO SOMETHING MYSELF. I AGREED TO STAY ON MY FEET IF HE WOULD GO OUT AND BUY ME A STARBUCKS AND SOME MORE PINEAPPLE JUICE, SO IM LEANING OVER MY CHAIR AND TYPING OUT THIS UPDATE ON MY TABLE LOL. MY SON HAS ALSO BEEN A LITTLE HELPFUL, I FEEL BAD THAT THE FOCUS IS ON ME AND THAT I SOMETIMES PUSH HIM AWAY BECAUSE IM SCARED HES GOING TO RUN RIGHT INTO MY BEHIND. I TRY TO KEEP HIM CALM BY ASKING HIM TO HELP ME PICK SOMETHING UP OR BRING ME SOMETHING, HE EVEN WALKS ME FROM ROOM TO ROOM AND TELLS ME IM GOING TO BE OK, AWWW MY LITTLE ANGEL. WE SENT HIM TO A BIRTHDAY PARTY WTH MY SIS SO WE COULD RELAX A LITTLE ON OUR OWN, I WAS ABLE TO GET 2 HRS OF SLEEP IN A GOOD POSITION SO MAYBE ILL SLEEP ON THE SOFA TONIGHT. HMMM IM NOT SURE WHAT ELSE I HAVENT MENTIONED BUT IF YOU GUYS HAVE ANY QUESTIONS JUST LET ME KNOW, MY PICTURES ARE ON MY PHONE SO I WILL TRY TO UPLOAD THEM LATER OR TMRW BEFORE AND AFTER I TAKE OFF MY GARMENT. THNX AGAIN FOR ALL THE SUPPORT, LUCK AND PRAYERS.
gone down, and my garment is aa little lose now. Yesterday was a good day but today not so much, I just want to cry. I pain and discomfort have gone down but as far as my sleep...my body hurts more when I wake up to pee. My arms are sore from lifting myself of the sofa, my knees are still very swollen and bruised and also hurt when I use them to drag myself on the sofa, I also kneel on the stools when I get tired of standing. I've always had back pain and now that I'm starting to heal I'm starting to feel the pain in my back and neck and shoulders. I haven't been able to sleep since friday. That's not even including how swollen my vagina is, wow. I'm not sure if its all the pressure from the garment or I got a beating but its purple and it was as hard as my butt till I started putting a hot towel, I just emailed my doctor to ask him. Ill try to post pictures today after I take another shower.
If there's one thing I wish I knew is how unhappy I would be during this time. I think you need a good support group and environment. Although my husband and mom have been very very helpful, I live a calm life with not to many friends around not to mention I live across from my in laws and grandparents... who I've hid this from. I have confined myself to the inside of this house for the last nine days. Im driving myself crazy, its very depressing. Everyone's recovery is very different and the way you choose to surround yourself can dictate how you will feel in this difficult time. I have one child and live in a quiet neighborhood where I don't speak or hang out with my neighbors, more of a casual good morning, so pretty much keeping inside. Im sure if I lived in an area with stores in walking distance or had many friends and family coming in and out I could possibly be more cheerful but that's not how it is. Not only have i had a tough week but my mom broke some very serious life and health changing news that just has me feeling like I got hit by a bus one again. It is very difficult to be strong but it is more difficult to complain about something this small when my mothers in a much more difficult and emotional position. We have always had a difficult relationship and this week has just been such a great eye opening experience with her and then to hear bad news just breaks me apart. Had we heard this news a week ago I can assure you I would have never gone through with my surgery. How can you be supportive to someone else when you can't even help yourself, I feel like such a failure to her at this moment. She's been here everyday since my sx except today she's taking a break, I just feel like I need to get out of this house and breath some fresh air and feel alive again. The thought of getting or and back into this small garment is just exhausting. It makes it hard to just go somewhere when you feel so dirty and not showered, eww. I catch myself tearing up out of frustration, I just want to be my normal self again. Like I've said before, this might be a piece of cake for some people but for me, I'm just a person who wants to be honest and explain how I really feel and what my situation wad and is during this time, I've always had back pain and that makes this time very slow and achy. I only let you know what to expect because I would like for others to prepare themselves and have as much support and excitement, you could say I live out in the country while I feel like I should live out in the city, maybe downtown status. Keep yourself busy!!! Anyway I'm going to get up and try to shower and maybe go to the park or mall and just walk. Sorry if I sound so negative but please control your surroundings to make this time more pleasant and quick.
DAY TWO BACK AT WORK, 11 DAYS PO
4 weeks PO
WORK: so im still uncomfortable sitting at work but im ok to get up and move around a little more comfortable and i get up and move around a lot more. I must say that if it wasn't for a particular co-worker that just gives me the creeps I would feel a lot more comfortable about my appearance around the office. i still try to wear long shirts or sweaters around my co-workers. the most uncomfortable park is driving to and from work, i drive at least 45-60mins to and from work. i also still drive with my sons pillow pet on my seat.
BODY: most of the swelling has gone down except for my abdomen. my thighs have gone down but my mid section is still giving me a bit of trouble. I get random little shocks that feels like a needle is piercing through my skin, to my understanding its caused from the anesthesia wearing off, the tingling feeling makes me itch like crazy also. My feet haven't swelled up in a couple of days now but when im up and about all day long i can feel them start hurting. The knots on my back have gone down quite a bit, finally decided to get a lymphatic drainage massage last saturday. This place was fairly close to my neighborhood and had an ok fee (85hr), it had good reviews on yelp and when i called i was able to get more information from the massage therapist who was actually the owner. i explained my procedure to her as i lay on the table and she made me very comfortable physically and as we talked about why i did it and how i felt about the entire thing, she also talked to me bout her personal feelings, etc., she was very nice. The massage was very soft and light on my arms, thighs, legs, abdomen and back and with a little more pressure and my neck, shoulders and lower back. Although my body felt a little overworked, the next day and the following, i could feel the difference in my body as far as some swelling going down, i felt more flexible in my thighs and lower back. i will probable schedule another appointment some time this week. My shape seems to be changing although i havent really acknowledged it really had a chance to take it all in. yes i take pictures and post them but me myself dont really compare my looks or really look back at them after i take them. i do notice things like the dents or dimples or the little flat areas i get but i dont stress over them to much because ive seen them come and go the last couple of weeks, im hoping it will change once i change my garment or start wearing my jeans. my mid section still doesnt have the hourglass look when i take off my garment but thats mostly because im still swollen but im hopeful it will have more curves once the swelling goes down completely.
SLEEP: ive been able to sleep better since the massage, and ive slept in my bed the last for days now that im able to move around more easily, i can lift my legs up to a more comfortable position, my neck doesnt hurt or stiffen up as much and i have my strength back to move around in bed til im happy. my biggest problem now is that ive been itchy for the last couple of days and its driving me CRAZY!! my shoulders, chest, arms, wrist, feet, thighs, specially my my stomach, ugh it hurts so bad.
i have a drs appointment this week and i will let you know what my doc says. let me know if you have any questions, thnx to all you girls for support and nice comments. if anyone knows where i can get a garment in underwear style, like the one i already have, let me know thanx!!
GARMENT: ive been able to tighten my garment to the fourth row this morning. I wore my old garment underwear (which fit me loose now) during thanksgiving for two days to give myself a break from these seems. i went a couple of hours without wearing anything while my garment was washing and i just felt so naked, the lack of support to my abd and my back just made more more vulnerable to light touching and even someone subbing me when they passed by me, i just didnt like it at all. i still cant fit into any of my jeans while wearing my garment, the seems closest to my vagina are very very uncomfortable and even painful, if i sit for too long i almost always have to adjust the garment and pull it out from my skin because it feels like it cuts me. finally my hubby checked my inner thighs and he said i had what looked like little cuts, it could be marks from the garment or it could be scars from the lipo, i really dont remember if my doctor made incisions there. ive been wearing tights over my garment which i will probably continue to do till i can stay out of it.
MOM: well as far as emotionally, im doing better. My mom had her mastectomy last week and my sisters and myself have been busy checking up on her, keeping her company and helping her take care of herself. She will be getting her results this week and we will move on from there, we are keeping our hopes up that her treatment will not be too aggressive. I can barley bend over to far or for too long but now ive been showering and helping her change like she helped me.
5 weeks PO
Well monday was my five week fu appointment and so far everything is great. My doctor said that everything looks good, my shape has turned out nicely and that my swelling from my abdomen should go down in another month or two. Didnt like the news about another month or two for my painful swelling to go away, i feel beat up all of a sudden. ive been cheating and haven't wore my body garment in almost two weeks, i wore my new garment only twice before i chickened out. i bought it in XS for more tightness but i cant do anything with it on. My doctor said i should wear my garment at least another week for more compression and i can take it off after that, im thinking of maybe just snipping the thigh part a little so it doesnt dig into my skin so much and wearing it for a couple more weeks. Once my swelling goes down a little bit more i will start wearing my XS for a couple of hours at a time. as far as the volume of my booty, i has gone down quite a bit but dr said this is most likely the size i will be and now all i have to do is wait on my tummy to shrink to see my results and that will make my booty look bigger. i do sit a long time but mostly on my thighs and on a pillow pet under, at work and in my car. I recently bought a boppy pillow but it was too hard so i took some of the cotton out so make it softer, i use it at home to sit on the sofa or the floor. ive been able to wear my jeans a couple of times 4-5 times maybe but i am way more comfortable in tights and sweats, maybe because i feel guilty as if my jeans as squishing my booty or something. i asked if i could do zumba at least once a week to loosen up my muscles since i still feel sore but he said nothing that will make me sweat, so maybe i will start will squats. i havent changed my diet too much, i just try to eat half of what i used to have, i can eat alot!! its scary when i eat because i just love food soooo much that i look down and tell myself to slow down because im not even wearing a garment. oh yea did i forget to mention i wear a spanks looking muscle shirt that gives you a smooth appearance and i just tuck it in to my pants so i dont start to get a muffin top again.
Emotionally ive been good and taking it day by day with my mom, very hard to give her advice to be strong but when i do, it makes me feel so much stronger, and we must be strong for her to give her the strength to be strong for herself.
Let me know if you have any questions, i forget many things, in case i forgot to mention something. i will try to post more pics..
My consultation with Dr Bruno was very informative. I didnt wait long to see him but while i did, i had time to speak with his receptionist who also had the procedure done a couple of months/weeks before. he made me feel comfortable, answered all my questions and didnt make me feel rushed at all.