Implant Removal After 6 Months of Implants (Too big for petite woman)- Walnut Creek, CA

Yes, I made a big mistake. I had 330 cc saline...

Yes, I made a big mistake. I had 330 cc saline breast implants put in. It was a rushed decision, I was feeling insecure and I decided to do it. I thought it would be life changing, I thought I would be happy. However, I have never been more depressed or angry with myself. First, I'm 5'2 and 105 lbs. 330 cc's gave me a 32DD that I was busting out of. Don't let any doctor tell you you'll be "a small c" while he pumps you up to a way higher number. Since i hurried this decision, my doctor choice was not the best. He was very expensive and said to be a great doctor of the area, YET, he would always hurry my appointments, made choosing a size seem unclear and ambiguous, and pressured me into a size that I never wanted. I was going to a small c..ended up with 32DD. Not my cup of tea. Long story short, here I lay, in my bed with my breast implants removed 6 months later. For me the decision wasn't hard when getting them out.. I was 100% sure about this one and have never been happier. I woke up from anesthesia with a smile on my face. I feel liberated, free, and back to my old self. The best part is that after only having them in for 6 months, now they look very very close to what they were before. In summary, to those who are like me and found out the hard way that breast implants aren't for them: please don't hate yourself over it. People learn, mistakes happen, and there is a way to revert back to your natural body once again. I don't think implants are always a bad idea, I think it simply takes knowing exactly what size you want and not budging!! Trust your instincts. And for some, like myself, this means going back to implant free living! Something I found very helpful in this long journey is looking at small breasted celebs, who are beautiful, talented, and don't always have big breasts to be feminine. For example: Natalie Portman, Kristen Kreuk, Olivia Wilde. The biggest blessing that I received from this crazy adventure is accepting yourself, knowing what YOU want, and not being afraid to undo something that is very possible! I wish the best for all the other women who received implant removals, it's not as bad as it seems.

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5 days after surgery..couldn't be happier

Reflecting about this experience…it's a roller coaster

Just had my drains yanked out (probably the most painful thing about this whole ordeal!). Feeling extremely grateful I can begin to put this entire experience behind me. However, it is easy to get somewhat depressed about my situation at times. With two sets of scars on my breasts and thousands of dollars down the drain, it wouldn't be hard to say this has been the biggest mistake of my life. But, life goes on right? While I'm taking a moment to throw myself a pity party (woo-hoo) I'm also forcing myself to look on the bright side. Not only did I have the resources and amazing doctor to have this mistake reversed, I had strong support through all of this. Most of all, I have learned a valuable life lesson. While these life lessons can be expensive in more ways than one, at the end of the day they are priceless. I've found a new love and appreciation for my body. I've never felt more "womanly" than with the implants out! I think it's all about making yourself happy, and if that means having implants that is great too. However, for me happiness lays in taking the long way. The long way of having natural breasts to having implants, to now, where I have appreciation for my natural body. Truly, I feel liberated. No longer weighed down by two big bags on my chest, I finally feel like the old me again. This morning I gave my Dad a hug, it almost made me cry. Instead of the awkward hug he'd give me with the implants in, he gave me a great, big bear hug. There was nothing to get in the way this time. I think the best part of this decision to have my implants removed was the fact that I knew I was solely doing it for myself. There would be scars, they could be a bit deformed. However, I didn't care because my happiness resided on the fact that getting them out (no matter how they looked) would make me feel like myself again. While this adventure (as I like to call it) has no doubt been difficult and sad, it has truly come full circle. If this is what I had to do to appreciate the body god gave me, then so be it. On the journey I picked up lessons that will stay with me till the end. And while I can't promise myself I won't have any more pity parties, I'll always know that removing my implants was not a mistake, rather a huge step in the direction of who I want to be :)

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Photos-6 days after surgery

Photos with implants

To show how big I was before, and how well my skin went back!

Pictures that inspired me...

These photos of small breasted celebs really helped me realize that small boobies are beautiful too!! I started a secret pinterest board and collected pictures of small boobed celebs that inspired me. It was very helpful through this entire process and I really recommend it if your going through implant removal.

Pictures for those who asked for scar pics..

This first incision was through my areola, the explant was through the bottom. *Hoping they both fade nicely over time*

More inspiring pics to help through the way..

Inspiring, beautiful breasts doesn't always equal big breasts!

Question for you ladies...

So, I am loving my natural boobies post explant! As crazy as it sounds I like them better now than I did pre implants. They look fuller at the bottom to me and i'm just totally in love with the new shape. My question is if they'll perk up at all or change their shape from here on out? Im only one week past my explant surgery. As funny as it sounds I don't want them to change at all and I'm hoping they stay the same. Any thoughts?

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Being asymmetrical has always bothered me..but it's just something I have to get used to! Still healing and loving my natural boobs

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Boobs under clothes

Here's some pics for you ladies to show what the tatas look with clothes on. Feel pretty darn flat but am absolutely loving it! No more hiding under baggy shirts, I can wear a crew neck tee shirt and feel normal again :)
Walnut Creek Dermatologist

Dr. Ting did my implant removal. She is amazing!!! Please consider her if your in the walnut creek or east bay area..the best.

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5 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
5 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
5 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
5 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
5 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
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Thank you for your story I have had 330 implants 5weeks ago in thailand. I actually had changed my mind to lift and smaller round implants but the doctor came into the surgery room minutes before going under and assured me I do not need lift could have later and that I had to have 330 that smaller would make my gap to wide. How unethical coming in before surgery. I was an idiot to go to thailand I the first place. I had the money to do here but went through SOMINO medical travel they make it sound so easy and that the doctors are so professional. I am 45 and should of known better. They book your consultation on the same day as surgery. I admit I was so unprepared as although been thinking of implants for a while I had only had two previous consults in Aussie. Where I remember I was thinking of 180-200. In thailand you fast and dehydrate overnight and then have to make this life changing descision. There was so much more that went wrong. But after trusting the surgeon I have made the biggest mistake of my life. I hated them from the first minute. Because mt nipples are low the point down. The implants highlight all the faults and feel huge a handful is enough not two per side. I gave cried daily for five weeks. I have had no motivation and can not get of the couch most days. I have since seen surgeons in Aussie and I could of had so many options the small perky just some shape and the nipple moved without full lollipop scar. As inhave no more money I had two choices leave these evil demons that are destroying me mentally and physically or gave them removed. Sorry 3 options, while I was in thailand because I was so unhappy from the first day they were going to remove them 3 days later for smaller implant. This got cancelled as they kept me waiting so long I had to drink wAter ans surgery was postponed for another weeks. I was close to suicidal over there so depressed and I went alone another bad move. In the end I had to pay one thousand dollars to fly out I wasn't mentally strong enough to cope with the surgery again and did not want him to touch me again. They surgeon offers that I he would change them anytime for free I only gave to pay for the new implant plus my airfares an accommodation. As if I would ever consider going back to that unethical dr narupon no thanks. Tonight is the last day of these horrible things inside me. I have found a surgeon on the Gold Coast to remove them. I am so frightened that they will look terrible wit.h all the stretching and so sick of being in bed the thought of another two weeks limited movement. Before this ordeal I was so fit and toned and going to the gym daily I looked great just flat.. Now I am to embarrassed to go out have no confidence and have put on heaps of weight. No one at those medical tourism agencies tell you this could be happen.. You need to be so prepared and know what size and shape and see several surgeons before even considering this. And they feel so awful inside you. Your story and other stories I have found are the only comfort I have had to get through. To know that I am not the only one that feels that they are foreign objects and I also have learnt to be happy with what god gave me.. I pray surgery goes well tomorrow quite frightened of the outcome. Hope I do not need lift at a later date I do not want anymore surgery. Such a wAste of money the regret is terrible. If it have been done properly to stArt with and I had been more informed. Famous lady words if only. This has been the worst experience of my life. Than you again your photos have given me hope. X
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Hi Sonics. I am so sorry to hear that you had such a terrible experience in Thailand and are suffering still. A year and a half ago I went to Thailand through Somnio and had same surgeon as you. I had breast lift and implants and also a nose job. I went on my own as well. I however can only speak on my experience. I cannot fault anything or anyone. I wouldn't go anywhere else. I am feeling very sad that you have not had the experience that you deserved. I wish you all the best with your new surgeon and only hope he gives you exactly what you want. I am going back to Thailand in September for explanation. Not due to any problems but just can't run and exercise the way I want to comfortably with them in. Best of luck xo..
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Had mine removed about six months ago. Love my small natural breasts. Due to the removal it has also driven me to lose weight too. Did want small breast and a big belly below them. So it was a good move for many reasons.
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They look beautiful :) Good for you. I've had mine in for a little over three months and my consultation to discuss having them removed is on Monday! Yours look beautiful so far :) Did you get a lift or was it just a removal?
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just removal! good for you :) I couldn't be happier!
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Hi Janna1, what about your consultation on Monday? Have you decided to remove them? My doctor doesn't want to explant untile December. He says that I'm just a bit shocked and that with the time I'll be happy. But I'm not. I'm so depressed......... What about you?
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I now have horrible scars but worth it. Hard lesson learned.
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!!!!!!!!! Exactly......
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Hi, your story made me cry. I have my 330cc implant since 27days and I keep crying every day. I used to be a joyful person and I've become sad and desperate. It was a big mistake. I feel these heavy bags on my chest and I hate them. Your story gave me hope. I'm happy for you. And I hope for me. Ciao (Pat from Italy!)
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Awww this made me sad! I've had mine for a little over two months and I am feeling the exact same way :( I scheduled my appt to find out about explant. I hope he doesn't charge me a lot for explant as I paid 6600 to get them. I get mad at myself thinking about it.... I literally could have taken a vacation almost anywhere in the world! But maybe if I go through removing them I will learn an expensive lesson in loving myself.
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You give me such hope! Thank you so much for your story.
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Thank you thank you thank you, for sharing your story! Im so glad I found this website. I wonder do you have any pain in your breasts now that you have had them removed? I have had pain ever since I put had surgery I have 371 cc silicone under the muscle. I use to lift weights and run alot before implants. Now I cannot do any upper body weights and running is very diff.
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Totally fit your body!!! Awesome!
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Oh my You could be a run way model!! You may have a new calling( if I was younger. I would do it) and that is to write about your journey so that maybe young or for that matter older women don't get sucked into this Kim K. Thing or just pushing ourselves because of men etc! You write so well and have a great story! If I had read your story 10 years ago I would never have these DD in me, which will be explanted in Sept! Yea:) Anyway you look amazing and write well so go for it and spread the news " Flat Girls Are Awesome":)
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you have a pretty natural slope to your boobs! i think u look great!
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Thank you so much for sharing! It was a long and expensive learning experience about yourself, it sounds like. Sometimes in life that's just how it happens. I think you have beautiful natural breasts and I'm so glad you're back to natural! I'd love it if you'd post a forum post here on RealSelf with some small-breasted celebs to give others inspiration. You can do that here if you have a few minutes.

Thank you again for sharing! :)
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I would love to do that! When I attempted it only let me post one picture, is there a way to get around this?
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Hi...glad you are doing ok...I was 7 days yesterday and agree totally with what you say...I am too loving my breasts more now than I ever have I think....still got a long way to go recovery wise and things will change along the way....but happy with shape and size....hopeing they perk up abit but hey if they don't they don't...love the fact that they are warm and soft instead of cold hard lumps ....my implants were 600cc so quite big so have stretched my skin a fair bit but I am surprised at my results so far...you look great Hun...happy healing xxx
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your stats is just like mine. I'm 5'2" 96lbs. got 325cc mod + implants in 5 weeks ago. I feel they're so huge and ugly. I have no space between my cleavage. it's look at least normal. wanting to explant too but ps said to wait for 3 mos. I was totally flat, no fat at all. it's been such a nitemare. can't sleep, can't exercise -gained 8 lbs. in hindsight would u have them ex planted sooner? why did u wait for 6 months?
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So sorry to hear the trouble the implants has caused you, I completely can relate. I think the ps said to wait 3 months so possibly you may just get used to them? Or was there another reason? Anyways, I think once you know, you just know that implants aren't for you. I went through the same thing, couldn't sleep well, didn't exercise, felt depressed a lot of the time. So the reason I waited 6 months was a few factors: I'm a student and didn't want to get too far behind on schoolwork recovering so I had to wait for my spring break to get them explanted, and also I was forcing myself in the beginning 4 months to try and like them. I had saved for so long to get them in the first place, and it was such a struggle for me to even start considering getting them out. But of course, I realized that at the end of the day the money is just money, and having my body and life back was far more important. However, I really knew from day one post op that I had made a mistake. I think it just took me awhile to understand my feelings and cope with the reality of the situation. In hindsight I do wish I had been able to get them out sooner however. My explant doctor said that the sooner they come out, the sooner they will revert back to their original shape. I think in your case, if you know, you know. And there's no sense putting yourself through any more mental and physical hardship with keeping the implants. For me, it was so draining and made me have to deal with some really hard days. I hope your journey through this gets bette, please send any questions if you have them. This site has really aided me in this entire process. It's good to know that I'm not the only silly gal who made a mistake lol, take care!
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Thank you for sharing! For those who explanted, can you let me know how long your recovery took? I have an office job but love to work out and am trying to time an explant to minimize missing work....Also, I'm generally interested in how long it took for your breasts to return to their normal state and any pain, etc. with the procedure. Thank you so much; it's good to hear I am not the only one who had this experience (though I wish none of us had!).
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You seriously look so fantastic!! So beautiful. I'll always wonder how this trend of wanting large breasts got so popular, when I see breasts like yours. I can only hope my explant will turn out so good. Thanks for sharing your story!
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Hi gidgetz! I read your story and am so happy for you. What a great choice your making. Thank you for your comment! Very helpful through this process. I am sure your explant will be great! It's such a truth that society covets big breasts, but in reality small ones can be just as beautiful. I definitely feel more classy and natural with my real ones. Good luck on your adventure! xx
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Hi, you're an inspiration thank you so much. I actually have only had mine in for 2 weeks and knew straight away after surgery I had made a huge mistake, I just about had a breakdown about it and my GP strongly recommended to my surgeon that they be removed asap for my mental wellbeing! I'm scheduled in on the 30th (next week) to have them removed and I'm literally counting the days. I had 270 unders silicone, I was the same size as you naturally and they just look huge. Like you I felt the 30 minute consultation with less than 5 minutes spent on size was crazy, we were winding up the half hour and he was literally rushing me to try on sizes whilst telling me that most women wish they had gone bigger. Anyway, after having these things inside me for 2 weeks I know that implants are not for me big or small! I'm confident that my breasts with bounce back quickly as he said I've got good elasticity and it will only be 3 weeks, but I am concerned about the scar. He'll be cutting in the same place and I do heal well generally with scars. I'm hoping for the thin white line in 12 months so I can put this behind me and move on. How was yours after 6 months? I know it can still look very dark at this point. Also (sorry for so many questions), how mobile have you been since the explant? I keep reading stories about women straight back to work and active after 1 week then other stories about no lifting arms and no exercise for a month! Thank you so much for any advice, I think I just need to feel less nervous about the whole thing, even though I know it's the right thing to do. xx
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Hi, so glad you are being brave enough to know your body and know what you want! It takes courage. Your also very lucky to be getting implants out after only 3 weeks! I wish I had realized this early on. As far as the scar, I got it through my areola for the implants. For the removal I went underneath! I was very worried about damaging any of my nipple sensation since I lost some of the feeling the first time. I'm glad I went underneath for the explant. I'll post pics of my nipple scar above, I don't think it's too bad of a scar but I do heal pretty quickly. My doctor said maderma combined with LOTS of massage at the place of the scar will make it go away very nicely. I plan do this for my areola scar and my scar underneath. Hopefully it won't be too bad, but I am kind of bummed about the scarring I won't deny. But wayyyy better that having fake boobs I don't want! It's beyond nice having them out, I'm sure you'll be as happy seeing you are so sure about this decision. As far as being mobile after surgery.. honestly I would give it as much time as you can. A full week AT LEAST! It's not that the breasts will be in pain, it's more of the drains that caused me pain. Plus, just putting your body through surgery and pain pills, it's really exhausting. I laid in bed for a week, watching movies and relaxing. A week later and I'm still pretty exhausted. Sorry if it's too much info, lol, but a few other things that I dealt with during the explant: I lost 10 lbs in a week because my appetite completely went away!! Plus the boob weight of course ;) Next, I literally woke up smiling once I awoke from anesthesia. Doctors say you may be depressed, but I think in your situation as in mine you will be as happy as me!! And lastly, I did notice that the top of my breasts (natural tissue) sunk downward. This may not happen to you since it's only been so short of time. And for me, I actually like my breasts much better now than before the implants even, because of this. They seem fuller and have more of a womanly shape to me. In summary, I hope everything goes wonderfully for you! If you have any more questions for me please let me know! This site is great for helping, and it really has helped me heal through this entire process. xx
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