Hi! I’m a 38 year old mother of two boys (5 and 7 years old). I had saline implants placed under the muscle 17 years ago. I believe they are 300ish cc’s but I really can’t remember the exact size. For about the last decade I have been waiting and waiting for something to go wrong. Until last December, I had not experienced any problems. In December, I started to have pain in my right breast, mainly when I was lying on my side sleeping. For a couple of weeks, my breasts were also tender. I decided to make an appointment with the plastic surgeon that performed my initial implant procedure. I finally saw him in April (super long wait). He basically said that everything seemed fine. I just had minor tightness in my left breast. No rupture, leakage, etc. He sent me for a mammogram in May and everything came back ‘normal’.
The pain I experienced in December scared me. Although the pain was not severe, it just confirmed the decision I made years ago not to have my implants replaced. I do not want to be a grandmother or 80 year old women with breast implants! I also want to get them out while I can still hide my bad decision from my kids. I really do not want them to know!
So here I am now, a 38 year old mother of two beautiful boys, embarrassed that I did something so foolish. This might sound strange but I am not the type of person that would get implants (now). But I’m stuck with these plastic bags in my chest. None of the people I have met in the last decade or more know I have implants. I am too embarrassed to tell anyone and they really don’t look obvious. I have even had men and women talk poorly about women with implants right to me….they have no idea the secret I’m carrying. I think I would shock a lot of people if they found out, especially some of my girlfriends.
When I went to see Dr. Pugash in April, I had already decided that I wanted the implants out. The pain I experienced in December was coming and going….nothing significant. I had so many questions/concerns at the appointment and I really had not done my research and didn’t know what route I wanted to take (drainage, removal, lift, etc). He tried to answer all my questions but I was still confused when I left his office. I ended up making an appointment to get my implants drained on Oct 8th and to have them removed with a lift on Nov 13th. At the time, I thought I wanted them drained first so I could decide whether I wanted to have a lift after the implants were removed.
Now I’m not sure what I want. I really do not want to another procedure (lift) but I also do not want to feel terrible when I look at my post-explant boobs. Honestly, after looking at pictures of breast lifts on this site, I think the idea of going through another procedure and having significant scars on my breasts would make me feel worse than having empty, saggy breasts. It’s so hard to make a choice when you can’t really see what the end result will be. That is why I thought drainage first would be a good option. Again, it’s another procedure and I’m scared of how my body will react to having 17 year old saline dumped into it. My surgeon also wanted to start me on antibiotics before the deflation. Why would I set myself up for potential problems?
After writing this, I feel like having the implants removed without drainage or a lift is what I would feel best about and is the most ‘me’. I still don’t feel like I’m ready to commit either way though. I can always decide against the deflation and lift and cancel the appointments but it would be hard to get the appointments rebooked if I cancel them and change my mind. I’m just going to leave it as is until I feel 100% about my decision.
Just over two months to go!
I finally decided not to have the implants drained and not to have a lift at the time of removal. I really think it's best for me to wait and see the result before I go through with any more procedures. I can always have a lift later if I am truly unhappy. I cancelled the extra appointments/surgical time and now have my preop on Oct 8. I have lots of questions for the Dr and can't wait to have them answered. He mentioned no drains at the last appt but we didn't even discuss incision sites, capsule removal, bandaging/compression, local vs general, etc. This site has taught me so much and really helped me decide what is best for me. I'm very thankful to everyone that has shared their journey :)
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