Hi everyone, My surgery is scheduled for June 5....
My surgery is scheduled for June 5. I'm so excited and nervous, but I'm looking forward to feeling confident with my body.
I have two little boys, who are 3 and 5 years old. They both weighed 8lbs 5oz, and pregnancy took its toll on my body. I developed preeclampsia, and the excess edema caused stretch marks to form everywhere. Even on my calves. I nursed both of my boys for a combined 34 months. My breasts have always been small and slightly asymmetric, but after pregnancy they began to sag and the asymmetry was magnified. I was also left with a sagging pooch on my stomach. I've done more sit ups, kettlebell swings, and planks than I care to think about... Unfortunately, nothing seems to impact my stomach, and honestly, it keeps me from being more active. I do HIIT training at home, but avoid exercising in public. I feel ashamed to run in public because the excess skin bounces, and nothing fits me right. But, I'm sure we're all in the same boat with that.
I go for my pre-op appointment May 16.
Trying so hard...
Honestly, I'm getting more nervous the closer it gets. I've never had major surgery before, and it scares me. Just needing to be intubated is intimidating. I'm definitely not backing out, though. There's a reason why a MM has a 98% approval rate. I just hope I get over my fears and get excited again. 17 days out.
I've been working really hard to get my body as ready for this as possible. Hopefully my efforts will help with the operation and the recovery. I'm actually a little sad I won't be able to work out for 2 months, because I worked my way into doing 20 real pushups, and I don't want to lose that! That's a big achievement for me. I'm sure I'll be just as determined afterward. :)
I'm rambling... Like a lunatic. Sorry about that. I'm nervous!
See you ladies on the flat side!
Day 1 Post OP
When I was going through the pre op, the nurse took my temp and it was 101. I was really nervous and started to panic thinking they were going to send me home. I didn't feel sick at all, though... So they took the heated blanket off of me for about 20 minutes, rechecked it, and it was 98.9. My PS was completely fine with that, especially since I didn't feel sick at all.
My best friend picked me up to take me home, since my husband had our kids. I didn't want them to see me like that. Pain has been manageable, and I've been sleeping a lot. I'm getting up to walk every 2 hours at least and flexing my calves in between walking. My stomach feels super tight, and I can't stand straight yet. Boobs aren't too bad. I was honestly expecting my pain to be much worse.
I can shower tomorrow, and that's when I'll get a good look at everything.
My husband is my hero.
I wish I would have done this a long time ago.
My stomach is still swollen, but I know that's to be expected. My PS removed the majority of my stretch marks, which I wasn't expecting. The incision line is longer than I anticipated, but I can handle that since so many of my stretch marks are gone. Monokini here I come! My little boys have been great helpers, too. We didn't tell them what I had done, just that my tummy was hurt. My 5 year old has been very attentive; asking if I need anything or if he can help. And my three year old holds my hand when I walk to "help Ma". Yes, he calls me "Ma". Lol
I haven't told many people about the surgery. My husband, obviously, and a few select close friends. I haven't told my parents, and I don't know that I will.
My PS also recommended some homeopathic remedies to speed healing:
Arnica 30 (oral dissolving tabs)
Arnica cream (for bruising)
Zinc (ALWAYS take with food!!)
Grape Seed Abstract
Psyllium (a natural laxative)
He prescribed Percocet, zofran (dissolvable, which is amazing!), Valium, and an antibiotic. I started off taking 2 Percocet every 4 hours, 1 Valium every 8 hours, zofran as needed, and the antibiotic three times a day. I've cut back my Percocet to 1.5 tabs/5 hours with 2 ibuprofen, and 0.5 tab of Valium every 8 hours.
The only strange this so far is that I started my period today... About a week earlier than expected. Has this happened to anyone else? Maybe as a result of the physical stress?
Post Op Appointment
We also discussed my asymmetry. Pre op, he believed there was a 25 gram size difference between the left and right breast, but once in surgery he decided it wasn't a tissue discrepancy, but a skin discrepancy, and that's why he chose to do the 371s bilaterally. The right breast, which was smaller and more constricted, should stretch mildly to become symmetrical with the left. He doesn't believe (once they're settled) the asymmetry will be an issue at all, and it shouldn't warrant a lift. This was fine with me, because I wanted to avoid a lift if at all possible. It also made a lot of sense to me. When I was nursing my babies, my right breast didn't produce near as much as my left, and my left breast became distended. Nursing my babies was extremely important to me, and I'm so glad I did, but I'm also grateful to have my asymmetry corrected without major interventions. My motto with my boobs is that they're sisters, not twins. They don't have to be perfect; they're already much improved. :)
My TT incision line is healing well. I still feel like I look like Frankenstein, so I'm excited to start scar therapy. Still swollen... but I know that'll just take time.
If I could give someone advice before going into a surgery like this, it is definitely to workout, and workout hard. Push yourself to the max, and leave each workout sore; the more your muscles are used to being used and recovering, the faster you will heal. I did Bodyrock.tv (a free website) and worked my way up to the hour long workouts.
I can't believe it's been 5 days. I bought a few new dresses, and I love being able to fill them out! My confidence has improved so much already. So glad I did this.
10 Days PO
I had my second drain removed Friday. My PS said he doesn't usually have to remind his patients to take it easy, but since I'm doing so well he stressed that I have to rest. I've been doing my best... Yesterday morning was the first day I've woken up with virtually no swelling. My stomach is so flat! Almost like what it used to be. I'll post some pictures in a few days.
So my 4 year old saw my TT incision line...
After I got out of the shower, he wouldn't come near me. He told me he didn't want to snuggle me, and that I just needed to sleep and get better. I know he was just scared, but it hurt my feelings so bad. I immediately started crying... After about 20 minutes he came into my room and laid on the floor. I told him he could come sit by me if he wanted, and climbed on the bed. He snuggled up, but only let his head touch my arm.
This was the first time I've questioned whether or not this was the right decision. The way he looked at me just crushed me. :(
Tomorrow makes 2 weeks PO
My little guy isn't acting traumatized from seeing the incision line anymore, thank goodness. :) He just says my tummy has a boo boo, but he's back to hugging me.
I knew I'd chosen a great surgeon when I realized he has privileges at 3 of the biggest hospitals in the city and he was a FACS surgeon. This means he's highly trained in surgery, and he even did his residency in microsurgery, The morning of my operation, I had a temp of 101, which he was very concerned about. However, I didn't feel sick at all, so he took the heating blanket off and rechecked it, and it was close to normal. I told him I was nervous, and he said I shouldn't be at all, because he knew how much thought I'd put into this, and that I'd be very happy with the results. After the operation was complete, he personally called my husband to let him know things went well. My husband said he'd call my friend who was going to be picking me up, and Dr. Lowe insisted on calling her himself. He even gave us his personal cell phone number in case we had any questions over the weekend. When my husband did text him Saturday morning, he responded within 10 minutes. I think most surgeons would have insisted on doing a lift to correct my asymmetry, but Dr. Lowe was very understanding that I didn't want a lift, and I couldn't be more pleased with my results. He did tell me if at any point I felt I needed a lift we could talk about that later on down the road. His staff was incredible and I felt completely safe with them. I truly felt they were concerned about my well being through the entire procedure.