6 WEEKS PO- NEW PICS
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Where to begin? I just turned 29, I'm 5'5 1/2", I...
- 13 Sep 2012
- 4 months pre
Where to begin? I just turned 29, I'm 5'5 1/2", I weigh about 120 lbs. I have 3 kids; ages almost 6, 3, and turning 1 next week. I started gaining weight in college and was a little overweight when I got pregnant the first time. I ended up getting gestational diabetes during that pregnancy and went up to 200 lbs. Seeing my weight cause actual health consequences for not only me, but my unborn baby was the turning point for me. I lost all of the weight and then some and got all the way down to 130 lbs. I've kept up the healthy lifestyle and lost more and more weight after each pregnancy, but the damage was already done. I have stretch marks from above my belly button to below my knees! I work out A LOT and it's frustrating to know that I will never see my full results because of this loose skin. I'm pretty small everywhere else on my body, so my stomach really sticks out. And let me tell you, nothing ruins your day more than when someone assumes you're pregnant when you're not! And that has happened to me way too many times in the last 6 months! I'm just tired of thinking about my stomach to be honest. When I get dressed, every time I sit down, when I'm exercising and it's just hanging off my body, when my kids think it's a funny play-thing... I just want it gone so I never have to think about it again!!!
And as far as my breasts go, they are pretty much non-existent. I was an A cup before kids and now after nursing and weight loss I measure at a 32 AA. It's next to impossible to find a bra that size, so I usually just wear a sports bra to help conceal my nipples. There's no breast tissue to support so I really don't even need a bra, but I'd be pretty uncomfortable nipping out all the time. I didn't really mind having small breasts, but now I am so flat that I don't really feel like a grown woman.
I've been struggling with this decision for a MM since my son was born last September. I'm a strong Christian and I've really been praying for God to either change my heart or give me peace about the surgery. My intention behind the surgery is to feel more comfortable in my body, not to gain attention or acceptance from others. I really feel like God knows my heart in this and that I have his blessing. I am a little worried about what friends at church might think if they find out, but at the end of the day, God's approval is the only one that matters to me.
My husband is amazing and supportive and understands how much this means to me and how hard I've worked to take good care of myself and my body. I couldn't ask for a better support system.
So I went to my first consult a couple weeks ago and on Monday I'm driving up to Phoenix for 2 more. I live south of Tucson, so I'd really rather not have to drive that far for surgery, but I will if that's where I'll get the best result. I want to have my surgeon selected and surgery scheduled before the holidays, but I can't have my actual surgery until January. This way my husband will have the max amount of PTO to stay home while I recover. He'll be home for 3 weeks and then I'll have my mom helping me for 1 week after that. I'm hoping I'll be healed enough to handle my 1 year old by then.
So I'm still a ways away, but trying to be as well prepared and researched as I can be. If anyone has any tips on questions to ask when picking a surgeon (beyond the basic/ obvious ones) I'd love to hear them. Thanks!
Oh, What to do, what to do? I just got back from...
- 18 Sep 2012
- 4 months pre
So now I'm questioning how important those little artistic details in the TT are to me. How important is it to me to get a BA? Like I said before, I really don't mind having small breasts, but I would prefer if I had at least a small bust. Right now, there's pretty much nothing there. Would I be happier having a really great tummy but no breasts? Do I go for the gold and make my entire family buckle down financially for the next 18 months to get it paid off? I feel selfish as it is spending the original amount we budgeted.
Aahhh! I have one more consult scheduled here in Tucson, so we'll see. I may end up liking him the most! I have a feeling though that it's going to come down to the two doctors I just talked about. I've got some serious thinking to do!
Well, once we left Dr. Leber's office after our...
- 24 Sep 2012
- 4 months pre
Well, I've been trying my hardest to keep my mind...
- 15 Nov 2012
- 2 months pre
I'm as excited as I am nervous, though. My daughter was snuggling with me last night and she started playing with my belly and said, "Look Mom, I can roll your belly up like a taco!" Not for long, Girl! And as I've been continuing my workouts (I'm on my 2nd round of Insanity right now), I've lost even more of my breast tissue. My size 32AA bra (smallest size I could find) is way too big on me now. I have absolutely NO breasts anymore! Surgery can't come soon enough!
I don't do a lot of commenting on each individual blog, but I really do appreciate everyone's sharing and honesty! It really helps to know what to expect with something this scary. Thanks all!
So I know that I still have about 6 weeks to go...
- 3 Dec 2012
- 1 month pre
My husband and I were really nervous about telling his parents I was having this surgery (we felt it was necessary to tell them since they recently started paying for one of his student loans- didn't want them to think we were using their money to pay for my surgery.) So to break it to them gently, we presented it as a great time for them to come and visit when I was about 3 weeks PO, because DH would be off of work and they could spend lots of time with the kids. Well they weren't crazy about me having the surgery or the time frame we gave them to visit. So they decided they would come the week before my surgery instead and we could drop them off at the airport in Phoenix on our way to my pre-op appointment- the day before surgery! My house is going to be in complete disarray when we return from my surgery after having 4 guests (his brother and sister are coming too)! We won't even have an afternoon to clean up after they leave! Oh well, I guess it will be my husband's problem- not mine! Lol.
We are also going to have my sister and her BF visiting the week of Christmas, and my other sister and her husband and 2 kids the week after Christmas! (They leave the same day DH's family comes!) Oh my goodness, I'm getting stressed just thinking about it!
Luckily, I shouldn't have that much prep to do. We have already started putting together my recovery nest. We moved our recliner up to our bedroom with a large shelf unit next to it for all of my supplies. TV is all hooked up and ready to go, couple of books/ devotionals lined up, and lots of pillows and blankets in arms reach. I haven't bought any of my actual supplies yet, hopefully I'll get to that next weekend. And I don't have to worry about buying any garments, because the surgeon provides them for me. We just nailed down the particulars for our financing, and DH is working like a mad man to rack up as much OT as possible before Christmas.
Still trying to stay motivated to work out, but it keeps getting harder to squeeze it in. And with all of the running around I've been doing lately, my weight has been going down on it's own. (Weighed in at 117.5 today! Woohoo!) But the idea was to have my muscle built up so I would have an easier time recovering and not be a total bowl of mush by the time I'm able to start exercising again. I'll keep trying to get in at least a few days a week of Insanity and really keep my eating in check over the holidays.
Happy Healing and Holidays everyone!! Even though it can be stressful, I LOVE this time of year!!
Oh goodness! Only a week away from surgery! I paid...
- 2 Jan 2013
- 9 days pre
My family and I are driving up to the Grand Canyon this weekend with my in-laws, so that should be a fun last weekend out and about with my kids before I'm laid up for several weeks. I just hope that my mother-in-law doesn't say anything judgmental about my surgery or try to talk me out of it while she's here.
I hope I have everything that I need for post-op. I followed the list suggested on this website and picked up a couple of extras, too. I ordered a couple of zip front sports bras online, but I don't think either one is going to work. How did you all know what size to order?? I'm currently a 30AA, and I'm getting 375 silicone, modplus implants which will hopefully take me up to a small C. I ordered a 36B and a 34C (34 was the smallest band I could find), and they are both too big for me- with my rice sizers in. Not sure if I should just hang on to them until after surgery, or try ordering something else. What do ya'll think?
Holy Crap, this is really going to happen! I am...
- 9 Jan 2013
- 2 days pre
I still haven't nailed down an implant size yet. Apparently they have a new computer imaging program at my PS office that allows you to put in what type and size of implant you are getting and it will create a projected outcome picture for you based on your pre-op pics. So we will see if that will help me get a better idea of what size to go with. At this point I think I'd be happy with just about anything- as long as it's not too big. I really don't want to be in a D cup range, that just sounds too big to me.
Oh man, I just really hope that I am happy with my results. Sacrificing a lot to have this done, I really hope it pays off. But I think my expectations are reasonable, and I really just want a body I'm more comfortable in- it doesn't need to be perfect.
Good luck to everyone going under this week, and happy healing to all!
I am in a lot of pain! Getting up to use the...
- 12 Jan 2013
- 1 day post
My PS said he wants me to be able to float all 3 balls on the spirometer, but so far I can only get 2. It makes me cough so bad, I don't want to do it
Thanks for all of the support guys! These first...
- 14 Jan 2013
- 3 days post
Again thanks for all your support!
Today I am 1 wk po. I had my first check up where...
- 18 Jan 2013
- 7 days post
Well this is kind of gross, but after one of the...
- 22 Jan 2013
- 11 days post
Well I am 2 weeks (and 1 day) PO, and I just...
- 26 Jan 2013
- 15 days post
Hope you all are healing well, too!
I'm past my 3 wk PO mark, and almost everything is...
- 4 Feb 2013
- 24 days post
That being said, I do have one problem. My right breast is not dropping, at all! At my last PO appt, I told my PS that the bruising on my right breast worried my a little, and that it felt much harder and tighter than the left one. He said I probably had a little pocket of blood under that breast and said, "Let me try something for a minute." He then took his hands and clamped down and squeezed my breast HARD!! He did it one more time, and then said that should help break it up for me. The bruising has gone down quite a bit since then, but the implant is still just as high and tight, and it is starting to look kind of square-ish on the corner where the bruise is. So I am going in for another check up this Thursday to have him look at it again. Does anyone know if capsular contracture is even possible this early in the healing process? I've read that it can take 3-6 months for the breasts to "drop and fluff" but it seems weird to me that the right one hasn't really moved at all.
Anyway, I'll add my 3 wk PO pics as well. Happy healing!
I have been making a conscious effort so far to...
- 5 Feb 2013
- 25 days post
I feel like this swelling came out of nowhere! I am so swollen and bloated, I can't stand it! I know it's part of the process, but the old fat girl inside of me is agonizing over everything that I'm eating and guilting myself for not being able to exercise! I am up 3 lbs today from when I was 2 weeks PO. I HOPE this is swelling, but what if I'm just packing on the pounds from sitting around all day?! I HATE not feeling in control of my body! And I hate wearing spanx around the clock! I even already hate dealing with my scar strips and I just started using them! I just want ownership of my body back! And seeing a glimpse of the nice, tight stomach I had around the 2 week mark returning again would help too.
Don't get me wrong- I am so grateful I was able to have this done, and I'm sure the end result will be great. I'm just realizing what so many of you already know- its a long and emotional road to recovery.
BooHoo, woe is me...the end.
I am feeling much better in week 4 than I did last...
- 13 Feb 2013
- 1 month post
My only area of concern right now is a bulge on my left flank where I know my Dr. did a lot of lipo. It sticks out pretty bad and doesn't seem to get any better with compression, so I'm not so sure it's just swelling. And it is VERY tender there. If a lay on my hip, I get a really painful burning sensation there. The bulge is not hard at all- it feels like the rest of my skin. So I am going back to the Dr. tomorrow to have him check it out. The patient coordinator on the phone said that it sounds like scar tissue! I am praying that's not it because I will not be happy if I am stuck with this bulge on my backside! It sits right on top of my belt line so it looks like a little muffin top on my back! Ugh!
But other than that, I am feeling almost back to normal. My energy level is almost back to normal, but I will occasionally have a day where it just hits me like a truck and I have to sit around for the day.
My scar therapy is going really well. I think the silicone strips are helping a lot! The pics I am posting today are from last Friday- my 4 wk mark. Since then, the little bit of pleating that I have in the picture has almost completely disappeared. The scar is now very flat as well. It is still pretty redish/purple, but I think that is because I am still swollen.
That's all for now. I'll update again after my appt. with my 5wk pics.
So I drove up to Phoenix yesterday to have my Dr....
- 15 Feb 2013
- 1 month post
I just really REALLY hope this bulge goes away! I am very happy with the rest of my results, it would be a shame to have this thorn in my side (or bulge in this case), for the rest of my life. Or at least until we could afford to have a revision done. $$$
I haven't had time to take my 5 wk pics yet today, so I'll have to post those tomorrow.
On a happier note, the DH and I are going on our first date post-op tonight! I went through my usual date night routine of trying on just about everything in my closet; only this time, it was because I couldn't decide which outfit looked the best! Usually it's because I can't find anything to wear that hides my belly or makes me feel sexy with my sad little-boy's-chest! What an awesome feeling! :)
Thanks so much to those of you who have given me encouragement. This is such a hard process and you all make it a little easier!
I am now 6 weeks PO. The bulge on my left side...
- 23 Feb 2013
- 1 month post
I am still swelling pretty badly by the middle of the day, but I have days now where the swelling is minimal and I am able to get an idea of my end result. I've started exercising a little this week. Mostly just walking at an incline on my treadmill, but with a few push-ups here and there. I don't think that I am ready to get back into my Insanity routine quite yet so I will be sticking with the walking for now.
The pics I am posting are 6 wks out. And I was thrilled to see some ab definition peeking through!!!
I found dr leber on realself. He has an absolutely wonderful bedside manner and his pics of his tummy tucks were beautiful!