39 Yr. Old, Single Mom of Two Desperately in Need of Some Boobs!! - Tampa, FL

Im 25 days PO, I kno I have a long ways to go but I really don't see my breast ever looking the same or even pretty for that matter. Before surgery, my breast did not have this much of a difference, yes they were 2 cups smaller,the left was a little smaller than the right but not noticeable like they are now. This has definitely not helped with my self esteem any at all, if anything I'm way worse. I try so hard to be positive. I try on different things that I couldn't fill out before without a padded, push-up and they look pretty good, some things I have to actually lift them to help give me a fuller upper pole, which is one thing I really wanted out of this BA along with fullness and projection. But, then there's that back to being naked and I see all the flaws. This is definitely a time I'm glad I'm single so I don't have to worry about a man making me feel worse than I already do. I feel like such a negative person and I'm really not, I guess i am only towards myself. Ive always been that "one" everyone goes to for advise, a shoulder to cry on, help others to stay positive and give reassurance, tell secrets to, etc and here I am being the negative person that I don't like. I really have to sit down this week and do some research and find a couple good PS to get a consult with. Im just so worried about the money I've wasted so far and what it's going to cost and how in the world will I ever come up with this money ever again?

I went on today for my 3 weeks po. Im am still very concerned about my left breast, I kno from reading everyone's posts and updates that our breasts will drop and fluff at different times/rates. My left one on the other hand, has caused problems from day 1, I continues to stay hard, high and hurts bad. I don't want to keep taking my pain pills because I fear of becoming dependant so I try to deal with the pain or take otc Tylenol wish doesn't do it. I made sure when I called the doctors office to let them kno I wanted to see the Dr, so I show up today,explain once again to the MA that I'm still dealing with the same issues and I'm really not happy with my breasts at all. He didn't go with the size I wanted, he said I didn't need a lift so he chose to go with a smaller implant that's only moderate, which I feel he should have used a mid range to help with the long look on my chest and went above the muscle, which was not discussed with me prior. So the MA continues to try and tell me it's my "anatomy" OK, well that's where the Dr is suppose to make my breast big, full and beautiful, make the change so they don't look like they did before surgery just a little larger. So she completely ignores my concern about my breast, which she told me on my first follow up that it looked like a hematoma and that I should use warm compresses 2-3 times a day for 20 mins, which I've done and haven't helped. Today she had no concern for it, just to argue about my "anatomy"! Then tells me she would schedule for me to see the Dr in 2 weeks! Ok, once again,NO DOCTOR?! I tell her I want to see him today, she leaves, comes back and says he has a Dr appointment and can't see me. Im am furious, I have not seen this Dr but git consultation and 2 seconds before surgery and he can't even check his patients for atleast the first follow up, now it's my second time going in with the same issue!! Im really lost and don't kno what else to do. I feel this is neglect and very unprofessional!! I don't even kno my rights with this?

I kno I read a lot on here about women dealing with boobies blues and I'm definitely one of them. I actually feel bipolar, one day I like them tge next I hate them. Im obviously still dealing with my left not dropping and fluffing like tge right. Im not happy about the size, I still look like before with my VS bombshell with clothes on. Without a shirt or bra on, my breast look just like they did before BA just somewhat bigger. Which I guess is a good thing to look natural but they sag, there's no filling on top unless I push and squeeze them. Im a waitress and I've actually had some of my close customers tell me they can't even tell I had a BA!! Really?! That's depressing. To make me feel a little better, I tell them I was wearing a padded bra the whole time. The whole point in getting this done was to feel better about myself, atleast a little. Ive always had a low self esteem, I can thank my ex for that in my adult life. I was hoping to have much bigger breast. I still don't understand how my Surgeon only put in 421cc, I was a dd after having my daughter, so I kno my breast could've held a larger implant. Then dealing with not knowing if I have a hematoma or beginning of a CC in my left breast. It stays so tender all the time, it constantly contracts so tight that I just try and massage it lightly or just hold it. Im trying not to take a pain pill ever time but last night I had to break down and only took 1/2. I missed my 2nd week po appt. last week, so I'm going in this coming week and hoping to be able to actually see my surgeon considering Ive only seen him twice (consult and day of surgery) i would really prefer to get an exam from the surgeon and get his medical opinion on my breast vs his MA. Nothing against her by any means, but I feel it's in his profession to give me his advise and opinions. I will definitely be asking about going bigger if I have to go in for another surgery. I just pray everything can start looking up, I really am trying to be positive and patient considering I'm only 2 1/2 weeks po. Guess it's just the female in me that worries, stresses and want the best. This is the first ive ever done something big for myself.