Well surgery is in 1 week, if I don't completely lose it by then! I'm so nervous about undergoing the anesthesia! I am also a nurse, I know lots of things could go wrong and I don't like the thought of ever being completely helpless/immobile/unconscious. And to add to that I am diabetic, I have been such a pain to my dr and his nurses about "making sure they check my sugar while I'm out VERY FREQUENTLY." I don't care if my fingers are purple from all the poking when I'm done, just CHECK IT!!!
So on to why I AM doing this. Being diabetic and having a very tall husband, 6'4" and being taller myself, it was inevitable that I would have large babies. My daughter, now 4yrs old, was born at 10.1lbs. I thought my body was so destroyed it couldn't get any worse. Then I had my son, who is now 3 yrs old and weighed in at 11.4lbs. They are only 17months apart and I was a size 3 before they came along. My stomach is now left with hideous stretch marks, very loose saggy skin and my boobs are saggy and looked much nicer while I was preg :) So now at only 27 years old, 5'8" and 150lbs my body is a disaster and I never really got to enjoy it. My husband is awesome and says he couldn't care less what I look like, but it's hard not to realize how much I hate to be seen, or even touched sometimes. I have absolutely 0 confidence in the nude.
In 1 week all of that will change hopefully. Already had my pre op apt for full TT and BA and will now spend this week worry and anticipating the pain, nausea, constipation, worrying about my kids and myself, my house chores, work, ANESTHESIA etc. but my mom and husband and several babysitters will be available to me so I should be fine....right? and need to keep remembering that I am doing this for me, this ONE thing and I'm going to be soooo glad I did.
WIll post pics