I Wanted Small and Perky, but I Got Big and Saggy
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I grew up with size D breasts from the time I was...
- 24 Feb 2013
I grew up with size D breasts from the time I was 13. I hated them (grass is always greener) and spent my early days wearing two sports bras and smashing them against my chest. As you can imagine, I was ecstatic when after my first baby (22) my breasts shrunk to a small c. I was in heaven wearing shirts I couldn't wear before and feeling so much lighter. I went onto have 2 more babies and have breast fed all 3. After my 3rd, I noticed that my breasts were quite saggy and had lost a lot of tissue. I stopped "feeling sexy" in front of my hubby (though he said he still loved them). After a lot of thought I decided to go in for a consult with a plastic surgeon to see if I could get some perkiness. I met with him and brought in all my photos of what I wanted the outcome to be. I really wanted to be as small as possible but with good upper pole and a "youthful, perky" appearance. Think Leanne Rimes. He told me that I absolutely didn't need a lift and that breast implants would do the trick. I was so excited and with his help chose saline high profile implants 320cc. I went for surgery 8 months ago in June of 2012. At first I really liked my results but after about 4 months my implants dropped and settled into place. I lost all upper pole:( I don't feel youthful and perky at all...more like big and heavy. I am back to my old ways of 2 sports bras and suffocating. I am 29 109 lbs and 5'4. I am measuring at a 30DDD. I wanted to be a perky C. I have met with other PS's and they have advised me to go bigger!! All 4 have told me I don't need a lift which I really don't understand. I do not want to go any bigger. I am so depressed about all of this. I just wish I would have never gotten this done. I am going to meet with a PS tomorrow about maybe just replanting. I am so nervous about what my breasts will look like. I am new to this site and I would do appreciate your support. Thank you.
I meant explant, not replant (above). Well, I went...
- 28 Feb 2013
The last 72 hours have been a whirl wind! I have been on a complete emotional rollercoaster since that first glance in the mirror. I love the feeling of my breasts. I agree with you ladies...they are soft, warm, and magnificent :0) BUT I have to say that I am quickly deflated (pardon the pun) when I take a gander at them. I feel like they are 80 year old breasts on a 29 year old girl.
I have made a decision to explant. I called the office and booked it for next friday (March 8th) I just don't want to take the risk of new implants and still not liking the results. The PS is also repairing an abdominal hernia (bump above belly button in photos) at the same time. I am really nervous about surgery.
I am also not sure what to think about the whole deflation thing. I am grateful to have been able to make a decision based on what I might look like after removal, but it is a weird feeling having these empty shells inside of me. I feel them every second. I think it might be folded up and poking me a little on my left side. I am also confused as to how much activity I should be doing at the moment. The PS just told me to continue everything unless it causes discomfort, but I am confused because my muscles seem to be contracting and are achy. Also, he told me I could wear any bra that was comfortable?? I have been wearing a tight sports bra based on what you ladies have said post explant.
I will post some pictures later. I would really appreciate any support. I am too embarrassed to talk to family or friends about this, so I feel quite lonely. thank you.
I just have to tell you ladies THANK YOU for all...
- 2 Mar 2013
I do have a question that I am hoping some of you can clarify...I have been researching capsulectomy and reading very strong opinions about it. I asked my surgeon if he would do a capsulectomy and he told me No. Said it was way too invasive. I am really not even sure how experienced my surgeon is with implant removal. I am going to him because I also need a hernia fixed and my insurance will cover him and his facility. Is it harmful to leave capsules in? I will have had implants for only 8 months upon removal and no problems with hardness. Please let me know your thoughts or experience with this.
Well I am getting these shells removed in 3...
- 5 Mar 2013
As far as how I feel in appearance....fantastic!! I have embraced these little itty bittys :) Thank you ladies for the sweet compliments!! I feel so light and young...no more heavy feeling. I am just so very grateful that they have shrunk up decently.
I will keep you all posted on what happens tomorrow....
Well today is the day to get these empty bags out...
- 8 Mar 2013
My arm pain/weakness has subsided thankfully! That was really making me nervous. I stopped working out completely and really rested for 2 days and it helped immensely. I am sure I was just overdoing it while my muscles were trying to contract down.
I felt really emotional last night. I still feel really frustrated with the money spent, the results I wanted vs the results I got. I can't help, but still long for that "perky round look" I know that I should just be grateful for these natural boobs, and I am most the time (really!) but there are some tough angles that are hard to see (bending over). I do like the feeling of my natural breasts though, and I think even if I had gotten the exact results I wanted, I am sure that I still would have had the same feelings of heaviness and discomfort. I am again so grateful for all of you gals and your updates. I am confident that time is on my side and it will just get better and better. Thankfully, my husband has been very supportive...probably a little annoyed with my constant need for approval, but very supportive and caring. I am lucky.
Hi ladies! Sorry it has taken me so long to...
- 21 Mar 2013
Also, I had IV sedation instead of general (I just asked for it) which saved me about $600. The surgeon did a great job and made incisions that are only about 1/2 inch under crease. Very happy with him! I had no capsule removed. He said they were tissue thin.