Hi can anyone reassure me i am doing the right...

Hi can anyone reassure me i am doing the right thing! I had implants put in 5 years ago under the muscle. I went from a 34 A to a 34 C or in some bra´s a D!!! I only wanted to be one size bigger but i had my op done in Spain and the language was a bit of a problem when i had it done-- really stupid i know. I am 5 ft 4 and weigh 8 stone. I have never really excepted my new boobs-- however my husband has and was VERY happy with the result. I always felt they looked false and am always embarrased on the beach as i feel everyone can see they are false. I now really want them out BUT the more people i tell they are in shock as they all say how fab my body looks. I am so scared at not excepting my tiny boobs again. Did anyone else out there have the same fear? I really want them out but now it is getting nearer to the time i am getting confused. BUT i know i want to feel more natural again but am i ready to except the more natural me? My husband supports me whichever decision i choose.

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Hi Reed

I think all of the girls on this site have had the same fears. I've just come back from holiday and I know what you mean, I thought everyone could spot mine were fake a mile off, and I thought mine were done pretty well! You have to go with your gut feeling, you are the one who has to live with them. Stay strong and stick with your instincts. I didn't want mine out, they had to come out as they had burst but I am happy with the results so far. Keep in touch. X
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This site is great isnt it, i dont think I would have coped all alone. I'm glad to be able to help you :)

Hope you're feeling ok today xx
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Hi andi22 thanks again-- i tried to read your replies to my husband but cried again!!!! he is so pleased i have found this site and i think he understand more now how i am feeling. He really wants to support me on this. I haven´t even told my mum yet!!! I am an emotioanl wreck today--hormones! but i will dust myself down, chin up and stay positive. What a brill idea about wearing scarfs or a cardigan! thanks--have a good day xxx
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Well I am not that good at writing after reading...

Well I am not that good at writing after reading everyone else´s post-- anyway here goes! As all the ladies mention --this site is so helpful. I would definately be lost without it. I just wish my explant date was tomorrow as every day it gets nearer to my date i am getting more scared. I think it is because my explant will be under a local with sedation and i really do not know what to expect. I am trying to stay positive and say to myself that my recovery will be quicker then a general and i will be able to return to work sooner and get on with my life. I am so so aprehensive about how my boobies will look post explant and will i even like them. BUT i do know i hate these false things in me and cant wait to be rid of them and to be able to hug my kids without feeling these implants. To roll over in bed and not be reminded of these false lumps inside me that hardly move when i move! To be able to go swimming and not feel my muscles tense around the implant (mine are under the muscle) and not to feel the same tension when i do any exercise. I just wish i had done it soooner. I will try to remain positive and love the skin i am in whatever the outcome.
I am so confused about the removal as some say the capsular needs to removed and others say it is not neccessary. My surgeon says it is not neccessary BUT thanks to this site i have my pre op check on the 29th and have a load more questions to ask her so hopefully my mind will be more at ease after that. Thanks to all the girlies who have joined this site as my journey is getting easier. I no longer feel alone x

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I'm so glad you found us and are posting on RealSelf! Here's what some doctors say about explantation under local sedation (sounds very doable). I hope this helps. Please keep us updated on how this is going. I know it can be an emotionally fraught time.

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Hi Reed, This member here had hers out under local, and she describes it in the comments: http://www.realself.com/review/north-east-england-breast-implant-removal-silicone-implant-removal-after-18months-wait?utm_source=notification&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=RevUpdd&utm_content=review_url

Glad to hear you have the surgery booked. It's going to go great :) x

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Reed69 I felt just like you :) I felt like no one around me understood and if I told someone I wanted them out they thought I was CRAZY. I was worried what my husband would think of my new breasts, but finally decided its not about everyone else it's about me :) I felt soooo fake and always tried to down size them with smashing sports bras and no reveling clothes. I even cried a lot cause I felt I had no one to talk to. This site has helped soooo much :) best decision I ever made :) I bought a new sorts bra called the "handful bra" it's the best!!!! I am wearing it now and I love it!!! I finally won't have to hide my breasts anymore when I go places :D
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Hello girlies out there. Thank you so much for...

Hello girlies out there. Thank you so much for your replies. Now i am really on my journey. Some days more positive then others. I am so nervous now, so i have contacted my surgeon today and moved my pre op appointment forward one week. I see her next Tuesday, the 22nd August. It cannot come soon enough. She is still trying to convince me to have smaller implants. God I hope she does not brain wash me as i know she has pictures of me before the implants were put in and they are shocking! I will be scared to look. I am holding onto the fact that when i had my implants put in i was the smallest i had ever been. I weighed 46kg (my normal weight was always was around 55kg) but moving to Spain with all the stress and the heat i lost the weight. Now i am around 51kg so hoping my boobies will have grown. Gotta stay strong and positive and remind myself why i am doing this. This site is really really helping me x

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Sooo excited for you :) there is no wrong choice here what ever decision you make isn't wrong :) so implants or no implants its all about what makes you happy :) something that really put me over the top is when I go places I'm always looking at other women and the size of there breasts ( i know it sounds weird but im really not LOL!! ) and all the girls I saw with small breasts wareing small sliming shirts, I wouldn't do that cause I'm to busy trying to hide the size of my breasts. I can't wait to wear a fitted shirt and not feel I have to down size. I also look at a lot of movie stars (Charlze Threron) BEAUTIFUL no boobies :) I just kept telling myself how good it will feel to not have to cover up or wear clothes to size my breasts :) my best friend asked me,"do you keep going back to that Real Self site?) I said all the time LOL!! She said," I think you just answered your own question :)
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Hi ya again!! yeh I am obsessed with peoples tits at the moment! I do look at film stars without tits and they look great. Even though they have all that money they do not go and mutilate their bodies. Look at Keira Knightley-- she is gorgeous. What was i ever thinking?? I have been married for 21 years and my hubby has always loved me without these things in-- i will stay strong and not buckle when i see my consultant-- i will only regret it once again if i have smaller implants-- going to look at that site now about the handful bra--sounds good! take care x
Hi Reed

Glad you decided to start your own story. Great news about your Pre-op. I wasn't told to take a sports bra, I just had tape over my stitches. I've been shopping for a sports bra since and to be honest I had to try them on as I have no idea what size I am or am going to be once the fluid drains. I initially wore a crop top which was really comfy. I would have bought the wrong size of bra if I'd bought one Pre-explant! Ask at your consultation what they would recommend you wear/take with you to the hospital. All the best. Keep us posted. X
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Hello -- well today i cant believe I am actually...

Hello -- well today i cant believe I am actually excited!!! Reading all the posts on this site gives me hope i will be ok. Especially the posts of how people feel post explant.--- about all the swelling, hardness and feeling that you still have implants in. It all helps us pre op girlies waiting in the wings. What i am REALLY REALLY scarred of is having it done by a local not a general --- i dont think it would scare me so much if i was just having a simple explant but i have this blimmin capsular contraction on my right side which is worrying me( I have been told it is a grade II to a III). My PS says she will not do a capsulectomy--- she says it is not neccessary-- there are for´s and against this procedure so i am very confused. Should i just sit back and let her take control and have the confidence in her??? I am so scared that she is going to have problems with my right side and i am going to feel it all. Oh well I dont think there are any answers to this-- i see my PS this Tuesday so i will see what she has to say but i will make it clear that i am confused about this C contraction. Keep you all posted . My PS is the same one who put in my implants and all was ok with them until 3 years later when i developed Cap contraction. She is all above board-- registered etc so no worries there and she does have alot of clients so I think i should be confident in her but i have this niggling feeling that all is not correct--did anyone else have this with their surgeon?

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Not heard the song, YouTube saying unable to download for some reason, any ideas?
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Hi Reed

It's the Genie bra. Check out geniebra.co.uk (think that's what it is) and you will see the type that I mean. I actually got mine at the local market. They are a lot cheaper but still do the same job! I'll be living in mine until I know what bra size I'm gonna end up. My post op nurse said it was perfect to wear. Let me know how you get on. X
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great thanks xxx-- i have looked at so many bras--my head is spinning. Have you seen this song from verdeluz34, shes having a bad time at the moment and posted this lovely song on you tube xx http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFY2Hdh7cvA

Hi all. Well today i had my pre op check I had...

Hi all. Well today i had my pre op check I had loads of questions written down-- thanks to all of you lot with all your posts. I really wanted to be sure i was doing the right thing , i mean by going for a local and not a general. I am already so sure i AM doing the right thing by having these bits of silicone out-- i hate them so much I cannot even find a word to describe them!
My PS did ask me once again if i was sure i did not want a smaller implant. I did not even hesitate when i said NO! I cant believe how EASY it was to say no! She really did reassure me though about having a local with sedation. I now feel more confident in her. She said i wont need drains but she will review that when i have the operation. She also told me she will not totally remove the capsule on my right side, she will score it to help with the healing, this all made sense to me after reading about Cap contraction. She said a tight bra will be best post surgery particularly as i have Cap contraction. She said NO running NO weights for at LEAST a month. She said after this cycling will be best and i can do my abs but thats it. I already feel like a blob! And as it is getting closer to the date i am eating like a horse!!! My op is on the 4th sept and have to be there at 0730am. She said i can be first on the list as she knows how nervous i am. She reassured me i will feel no pain. I have to start taking oral antibitics one day before the op. Did anyone else have to do this. Roll on the 4th!!!! thanks to everyone for your support x

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Hello yogamomx5 a huge thanks for your email. Once again i have been reassured everything will be ok. Everyday it is getting closer to the date i am more scared! It is great to know you didn´t have any pain during it-- i have to stay positive that the recovery will be much quicker then a general. AND it was so nice to hear you say about passing a man he doesn´t look at your breasts! I cant wait to get them out for that reason too! The past few weeks i try not to wear low tops as i went to a friends party a few weeks ago and had a nice dress on-- i dont look too bad as i am slim so i am all breast! And this guy i know (he is married) was taking photos of everyone and he came over to me and was taking photos of my breasts and it made me feel physically sick!!! I know he was just joking but it was disgusting. Wish the waiting was over! Big hugs to you. Happy healing xxx I am soooo looking forward to not feeling these things in my body anymore. keep me/ us girlies posted how your doing with your recovery-- its great that you are not in too much discomfort.
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Hey reed, I just had my implants out under local a week ago. I was so nervous as well. Everything went fine. I had no sedation. They put up a sheet and couldn't see what was going on. I felt the first little tinge of a sting when they first put the numbing agent in, after that I felt nothing but a little pressure being applied to push the implant out. I did not have the capsules removed as I was told they will be reabsorbed. I have been taking one pain pill every evening. My chest feels sore and tight if I don't. I was free to run and do any activities as I felt like, except swim. I love the way I look now. I love the smallness. I love that when I pass a man he doesn't look directly at my boobs! If they don't "fluff" out I'll be ok with that as well. Just knowing I don't have to worry about cc or dropping or rupture or my next implant exchange has freed my mind. You're gonna do great. Let me know if you have any questions. Take are.
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Hi again, thanks so so much for this. I have the support from many of the girlies here but hardly any have had a local. You have given me so much more confidence about the whole thing. I will be half asleep, i hope, driving to the doctors. I am leaving home at 530am i think i am first on the list as my PS knows how scared i am. It is reassuring to know you thought the same as me about the scaring and that it would be difficult to explant. I hope i have the same experince as you did. Glad to hear all is well with your scars and you are healing well. My PS is going through the same scar under the nipple-- the thought makes me cringe but i think she knows what she is doing!!!!!! Will keep you posted. Thanks again. BIG HUGS TO YOU-- glad you have missed the hurricane--fingers crossed it is not as bad as the news here says it could be.
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Hi All, well 2 days to go before my op and the...

Hi All, well 2 days to go before my op and the past week i have been so busy with work i have not had much time to think about it! Worked 6 long days and now a day off--bliss! BUT i have my brother in law and his wife coming tonight for 10days from the UK so will be busy house cleaning. I have not even told them yet that they may have a patient to look after!!! I have not told my work colleagues either-- not sure how to tell them. I only have 6 days off work, taken as a holiday, then back to work. I will try to make as many excuses as i can about not lifting or doing over strenuous jobs but it is going to be difficult! I haven´t joined in in any of the chats lately as i am so tired when i get home, i have a lenovo tablet which allows me to go on line but i cant seem to send any messages to this site so have to wait until i am on the main computer. Just to say thanks girlies for all your support and enjoying your posts on other sites--i am still following them. It will be hard for me keep up to date i think after my op for a while as i have family over. I certainly wont be posting any pics post op until the family have gone as the computer is in their bedroom!!! have a happy healing Sunday to you all. xxxxx

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You will do GREAT!! Thinking of you tomorrow!! :)
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will be thinking of you tomorrow , all the best , rest as much as you can after....xoxox
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Hey Reed

Wishing you all the very best for tomorrow. You will do great. Buena suerte! X
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Well i am on the other side now!!! I can finally...

well i am on the other side now!!! I can finally say post op as to pre op!!!! Had them out under a local with sedation. Well they might of given me a general for all i know as the sedation was so blimmin good i didn´t feel a thing or know waht was going on. When i came around i was wrapped in bandages, i have a compression bandage across my chest which i have to leave on for a week. So at the moment i look really really flat!!!! I have some pain but it is more of a stinging pain. And this tight bandage feels as if it is riding down my chest a bit as i have no breast now to hold it up!- Also i was shocked for my surgeon to tell me that the silicone implant in my right had split/ had a tear! This has been sent off to the lab--so really not sure what to make of this. I am just taking paracetamol for pain at the moment--i am hoping this will be enough. I am tired now so off to sleep. Thanks once again for all you wishes of good luck/support. I cannot really say how i feel about it all at the moment-- it is too early and what with this stinging pain it is hard to really say i am really really positive.

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Well done Reed! So glad you're over the worst now. Get plenty of rest and don't go looking after your guests!!! Take care :) xxx
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Hi Reed ,Take it easy now ....xox
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Yeah, well done. Welcome to "the other side". Glad it went smoothly for you. Take it easy and keep us posted of your progress. X
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Hi all well it is day 3 today. (post op)....

Hi all well it is day 3 today. (post op). Yesterday i took one lot of paracetamol and thats it! I took Traumeel tabs (hoemopathic) 3 times and that was enough. The traumeel worked a treat, i really can say i have NO pain. I felt so good yesterday i tried to walk the dogs with my husband in the morning but gave uo half way as i felt a bit weak and a little sore from the movement of this support bandage so i walked slowly home. I have had a problem with the tight bandage around my chest as it slips down but i have solved this by using old bra straps and safety pinning them to this thick wad of bandage, and i am much more comfortable now. I am sure this type of compression is helping with the bruising and swelling. I have no idea what is going on in there, i am quite comfortable BUT this bandage is so tight i look as flat as a pancake! It is so weird when i turn sideways---and my clothes look odd! I have managed to find a strapless bra top thing where i am able to stuff some padding down so i am wearing this over the compression bandage to give me a bit of a bump!!! We even went out for a me with my brother in law and wife last night and played cards til the early morning. I am so relieved and SO POSITIVE now it is all over. I am more determined then ever to accept the new me or should i say the old me. I can honestly say i dont care how they look--- i am just so pleased those bits of silicone are OUT! Roll on next week when the bandage comes off. Post op appointment not until the 13th sept! Thanks for all your support girlies. xxxxxxxx

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Wow, and look at the colour of those implants, i bet they didnt go in that colour...bet your so glad to have them out...i think i too will be facinated to see what they look like when out. Well with the bandages you look good too.....what a waist you have...will go very nice with little pert boobies...xx
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thanks bb i am not sure if they will be pert but anything is better then those terrible lumps of silicone. yeah i am sure they were not that colour when they went in! they are disgusting!
Well done Reed for being so brave. Cant wait to see some photos, bet you look great, i cant imagine that you would have anything other than a great result. xx
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Hi all its day five today. I can honestly say I...

Hi all its day five today. I can honestly say I don't have any real pain, more a discomfort although last night I did have more of a dull ache on my left side. I think I over did it yesterday so I am going to try to take it easy today. Emotionally I feel ok, I think …but it is hard or should I say weird as I am five days post explant but I haven't even seen my breasts yet! I wont get the chance until Thursday when this compression bandage comes off. This really really scares me as I have no idea what to expect. I am a bit down about going out as I do look so flat and eveything I wear shows this bandage sticking through so its really loose tops. My daughter has been laughing at me as over the top of the bandage I wear a stretchy sort of boob tube bra which I have padded out with cotton wool pads --just to give me a bit of a bump! Oh well thats my story so far. I think today is a bit of a wobble day for me.

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You are amazingly optimistic!! I am so thankful for encouraging words in uncertain and emotional times.
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happy healing! XX
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Hi reed69. I was a bit shocked when my binding first came off. They were so flat and had the binding wrap marks all over them. Not a pretty sight! And I only had to wear my binding for 24 hours before I switched to a high-impact sports bra. Just be prepared and know that they will start to look better even within the next couple hours after wrap comes off. Good luck!
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Hi all, well my first day back to work today! I am...

Hi all, well my first day back to work today! I am now home resting on my bed, l think l have over done it a bit …it is hard as I am a nurse and had to visit my clients in the community, at their homes to do dressing changes, sort out medication etc. They obviously have no idea what I have had done so l tried to carry on as normal but the bending over and reaching for equipment was tough. I dont have a choice, my recovery time was my holiday …my work boss has not offered me sick time. I am just trying to be careful and luckily I still have this compression bandage on so I think this helps. I have noticed now I do have a weird stinging pain in both breasts towards the nipples, I think and a dull ache in my left breast. Just hope all is ok in there! It is not painful enough to take pain killers. I am so lucky as so far I have only needed one lot of paracetamol, that's all! I just wanted to say also that despite this discomfort it really is great to be back to work, I feel sort of normal again. No longer a patient, and also not having time to dwell on stuff …I 'm gonna stay positive …But still scared about seeing all ME this Thursday and so so scared of the reaction I may get from my husband. He loves me and he says he doesn't care about how I may look but it still worries me...... oh well after today two more days to go! Then I will have to upload some more pics. X

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Hi Reed

Well done for getting through your first day. Can't believe your work haven't offered you sick leave (do they know you had an op?), especially being a health board. I work for the NHS and my boss was great and organised sufficient time off for me and assured me all would be fine if I needed longer. Be careful, especially if you're a DN and need to lift/move patients. Try to take it easy! Hugs x
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Hi thanks Laineylou, l dont work for the NHS as out in Spain.I work for a private company as a nurse coordinator, like a DN l suppose. l manage 7 staff, two of them know what i have had done as does my boss. She is great, l cant knock her but nope no sick time, tomorrow i will be more careful. are you a nurse too? x
Hi Reed

Nope I'm not a nurse, I work for emergency OOH services so have a lot of dealings with all areas of health service. I thought a private company in Spain would be more compassionate towards their employees. Make sure you take it easy! X

Hi all, well the compression bandage came off.......

Hi all, well the compression bandage came off.... I knew it wasn't good news by the shocked expression by the nurse. Both my nipples have caved in completely …the sutures are just below the nipple. I have alot of scaring which has pulled both of them down. My ps said to massage the scar tissue straight away to loosen it. I really dont feel comfortable to do this. God at the moment I am sooo trying to be strong but the tears are freely flowing. I cant bring myself to post my pictures, I am so embarrassed. I feel like..... well it serves me right, I should not of been so vain in the first place. I feel I have been punished …there is no way I can show my husband. At this moment I just want to curl up in a ball …I will bounce back I suppose. Just having a huge wobble today. I just dont know what to do about the sunken nipples. Any advice out there?

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Hi 4vanity, thanks for the advice--really not sure about the breast pump bit though. Its great to know there are some doctors out there who are positve. Is that even for caved in nipple where there has been cap contraction? I will take a look myself and maybe ask the drs myself. Yes--we will all get through this together xx I know i am not alone.
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Hi Reed, I read on the doctors' advice on this site about getting a breast pump at Babies R Us. Do a search under nipple caved in after explant or something like that. The doctors comments were all positive. And, my scar in the crease held my left breast up like a shelf in a straight line. The scar completely released in a few weeks. It is perfect now. We will all get through this together!
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Hi reed, so sorry you are feeling down. Agree with others that the nurse was very rude...but I guess she is used to seeing over inflated beach balls!

Things ARE definitely definitely going to get better. Remember your breasts have been through something quite traumatic. First, having been stretched out for 5 years and then surgery. They need time to get better.

Are you wearing a tight sports bra? I expect that would help the pulling.
There is a video here on massage but I don't suggest you do it too vigorously as you have recently had surgery (I waited a few weeks) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSv5aF_bIXE Perhaps you could rub an oil, like rosehip on the scars?

They say final results take 6 months - 1 year, so you need to give it some time yet! And please dont compare them to your implants, because that is not how natural breasts are of course! As for the sunken nipples, I had an odd ridge on one breast but now its been 3 months that has almost completely righted itself and my nipples were kind of 'loose' and sunken when I lied down - that is completely gone now.

ALSO, we are our own worst critics, I bet they are not half as bad as you see them. Hugs. xx
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Hi all well here goes i am putting pictures up! I...

Hi all well here goes i am putting pictures up! I think well if it helps others then so be it---i am worried i may put people off explant but not all explants go smoothly, I am also putting these pictures up for support as there maybe more girlies out there who have experienced the same with uneven breasts and caved in nipples! I really thought this was going to be a walk in the park for me as with the compression bandage on i had no pain-- i was comfortable although it was very tight against my chest and i felt hot all the time. But i had not seen my breasts so i was still positive---until Thursday when the bandage came off and my world came crashing down around me. My PS shrugged her shoulders when she saw the horror on my face about my deformed breasts---it was almost like---I told you so! She always was pushing me to go for a smaller implant. I can understand her reasons for this now as i think i was a AA before, i had no breast tissue to begin with then she put in 350CC each side and stretched my skin to the limit---I NEVER ASKED FOR this. I just wanted to be a B cup but instead i was a C/D cup. Now my nipples have caved in, my breasts are distorted and seem to spread across the whole width of my chest. I am desperately trying to stop the nipples from caving in by using mepore tape on my breast and pulling it tight sticking it further up my chest to hoist the nipples up. I am so afraid to take this tape off now as i am sure they will cave in. I now know for the past 5 yrs i have been walking hunched , so to try to hide my breast size. One shoulder is lower then the other so now i am trying to sit more up right and stick my chest out. This also helps to keep the nipple a bit more in line. Emotionally i am a wreck! I cant seem to focus on much other then work--this is helping me to forget, but when i am home i have no enthusiasm for anything. I just keep pulling my top open and staring at my misshaped breasts. I have been tearful on this sight too as I am over whelmed at all your posts. Thank you so so much to everyone. I just pray that every day i get stronger, find more acceptance about what has happened, try to focus on what is really important in my life like my family and friends. It is so hard though to remain focused and positive--having huge huge wobbles at the moment. xxx

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Hey Reed

I agree with the others, you are going to be fine. There's bound to be some initial trauma to your nipples after having implants hauled out through them but they will bounce back. So sorry to hear you're feeling down, you've always been so bubbly and excited. I'm so glad you posted your pics, you look so much better than you described. You're looking great, it's early days but I'm sure you will look fantastic once everything settles down. We girlies just need to learn how to be patient! Now that's the hard part! Take care and be kind to yourself. X
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Reed, wow, you have a great shape- no sag at all!! The issue with the nipple is going to correct itself, just give it time...and honestly, i really don't think it looks bad anyway! just make sure you follow that advice about massaging the scars as sounds like it will help. hugs x
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Now I see your photos I think you'll be fine Reed. Try not to worry - give them time to recover and I'm sure you'll see a big difference xxx
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Hi all well GUTTED today--no change in my breasts....

Hi all well GUTTED today--no change in my breasts. I had a shower and took all the tape off which i had put on myself. The nipples are folding into my breasts. I really dont think, if this is permanent, that i can live with this. If anything today they are worse and so misshapen. I will ask the consultants here for advice. I am so low. I will post pics to show you. I really do believe this is because i had both my surgeries under the nipple so the scar tissue is pulling them in. I would really really urge anyone out there who is thinking of explant to question if your surgeon wants to go under the nipple. I do believe this is the problem.

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Hi! I hope your appointment goes well tomorrow!...and more importantly that you feel supported. The name of the ointment that I have been using is called BioCorneum. I am not sure if it helped more or the massaging...but at this point I don't care, I'll try anything!! I did ask my surgeon about fat transfer....unfortunately the reason I don't have boobs, is that I don't carry much extra fat. So, I don't have enough fat to transfer. I enjoy having smaller boobs again...i think i appreciate them much more post explant...but i would always love a bit more fullness....just to fill an "A" cup completely would be great! I definatly recommend getting rid of all of the old tops that don't fit or you don't feel pretty in....I have done that and it was very therapeutic :) I make sure that I wear tops that I feel more confident in....I'm actually really enjoying just a tank top with my smaller chest, because I felt too exposed as a 32D! I must say...time does help with my acceptance. I, like you...do not regret the explant....my implants didn't have any problems,..but I was so uncomfortable just living with them. But, even though I don't regret it at all...I of course want things to look "normal" again. I feel like my left breast looks mostly normal....and would so love for the right to match!....but patience is hard for me. But I have to remind myself that it took a lot of time for the original implant surgery to heal, so it stands to reason that it will take awhile post explant surgery as well. I did a search too about our nipple situation, and didn't find much. It has to be more common than we know....but you're right...not many people mention it. It doesn't bother me when I'm clothed...and I've found that sometimes I may need to add a little pad below the right breast because if i wear a tighter shirt, i can tell a difference in shape if the bra isn't super padded. Oh, and when you're able to wear a real bra...I defenitely suggest buying one you feel confident in and that is pretty....it helps :) I'll keep checking in...hang in there!...let me know what your surgeon says. Thank goodness for this site....it keeps me sane sometimes!
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Hi Reed69-I just tried to post a reply..but my computer failed! Anyways, I haven't kept up with the site for awhile and wanted to check in on you. I totally understand that waiting on healing is really hard. I am 4 months post explant and still have my right nipple indented like yours. My left side is completely normal looking, but the right I struggle with aesthetically. My surgeon gave a silicone lotion that I have been putting on the scars twice daily...while applying direct but gentle massage to the scar itself. When the nipples pull inward it is because the internal scar is so tight and "tethered" to the muscle. I must say, that the massage seems to be working some...it definately doesn't look as bad as it did 2 months ago, but I am still not pleased with how it looks. I may have a scar revision, but was told I need to wait until at least 6 months post op as the scar needs time to heal and loosen. It is better, but am I happy with it now?--no. So, I will definately consider a revision in a few months if nothing has changed. It's not supposed to be a big deal...quick snip under a local to fix it...but I would prefer to be done with all of this! Hang in there!! Every once in awhile i can still get a little boob envy....but not so much that I wish for them back....I was just so uncomfortable and always aware of them. I feel so much better in my own skin...even if it is a bit deformed :)
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Hi free2bme-- so pleased you posted as there doesn´t seem to be many on this site with the same problem. Can you give me the name of the gel you are using, i will try to get it here. I think i will need a revision but like you i jjust want to get on with my life and forget about these breast. I do have boob envy too sometimes, especially when alot of my clothes dont fit anymore! They look terrible on me. Maybe if i went out and bought new clothes i would feel a bit more content. At the moment acceptance is really hard! Dont get me wrong, i dont regret explant, i hated the size, the hardness and i had CC on my right side. Anyway i am just over 2 weeks now and NO difference in the nipples! I feel soooo ugly--the size I could cope with but the other--- I dont know. I just wish i could wake up from this nightmare. I see my consultant again tomorrow--not looking forward to that as she is not very supportive, its like she is almost saying to me, i told you to have smaller implants! I will glad when tomorrow is over and the stitches are out. Have you heard of fat transfer? Do you have any pics? I have posted a question to the docs here about caved in nipples but so far no one wants to talk to me!!!!!!!!!!! Take care --- we all support each other--this site is my saviour!

Hello girlies, well i had another consultation...

Hello girlies, well i had another consultation yesterday, i felt really negative and nervous after the last reception i had with my PS. Anyway i did not see my PS only the nurse who was lovely. She removed my stitches and i had a little cry telling her how ugly i feltl. She reassured me that it is early days (as ALL of you have told me!) To massage , massage , massage with rosehip oil!!! I have another consult with the boss in 2 weeks. I feel a little better now and i dont feel as if my PS has given up on me just yet.

The massaging is awful though. It makes me feel sick when i massage. I have a large hard lump under my right breast. I hadn´t really massaged that hard before but the nurse told me I have to be a bit firmer so i was shocked when i felt this solid lump. It is like a pebble, the approx size 5cm by 4cm. Has anyone else experienced this? (this was the side that i had my CC on--I did not have a capsulectomy) My PS said it was not necessary as the capsule would be absorbed by my body over time. Well thats it, my breasts i would say are the same. I am starting now to accept them more and i do like the softness of them, despite the hard lump and i do look ok in a padded bra as my nipples. or the indent does not show through. I am now starting to feel more positive, i MUST NOT give up already. I think i may have turned a corner as i am now determined to try to get these nipples sorted--by massaging so religiously every day i will massage for 10 minutes twice a day. Is this enough??? Not sure how often to do it. Thanks to you all for your posts x

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Hi girly :) glad to hear your feeling a bit better :) and yes I have a hard lump to infact I have them in each breast. Massaging HURTS like crazy at first but it will get better over time. Stay strong my sweet friend. We will get through this :) oh!! I couldn't massage hard enough so I used a back pillow massager and held it on my breast. That did help a lot :)
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Reed, I had a lump too. I had to go to a surgeon for a sonogram. It was a cyst. I also had another lump that was where the drain tube was. Both of the lumps are gone now. I was really worried. I think the lumps were gone after about a month. i am 8 weeks now.
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Hi 4vanity, I had an echo/sonograph too in May and nothing showed up---- but it was harder to really see what was going on due to the CC. I really hope this lump in my right breast disappears soon-- now i am massaging i am even more sore now.

I think the massage bit is to break up the scar tissue and stop it adhering to the muscle wall for us girlies who had implants put in under the muscle. Hope i got this correct!!! I dont the massaging is for fluffing--not 100% sure on that though xx

Hi all , well i am still trying to comes to terms...

Hi all , well i am still trying to comes to terms with how i look. I can deal with the breast size as if i feel a little down some days about my size then i can just wear a padded bra. (well i have to wear a padded bra constantly as if not everyone can see the indent of were my nipples should be!). My nipples are still as they were when the bandage came off. No matter how much i massage or put tape up to try to get them in a better position. I am still praying something will happen and they will get better... time will tell. I probably wont be writing on this site for a week as I have to return to the UK, my father in law is seriously ill so the whole family are going back. Take care girls. I might get the chance to check emails of how you are all doing. Hang in there--we stay united. xxxxx

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Excellent review. Thank you.
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Hi Reed, i'm pleased your surgery went well but sorry to hear your disappointment with the outcome. I have to say, my boobs have changed so much since the op, they went from flat to fluid filled with hard lumps which you described, to much softer and smaller so bear this in mind. Your breasts will take time to sort themselves out. Don't be too disheartened, your natural boobs look much lovlier than with the implants. I still have a little lumpiness especially in my left boob which was the harder of the 2 breasts but when I've looked on the net it seems like its a seroma or haematoma which usually go in their own time. 2 months on I'm still sleeping with a sports bra and have only been to the gym twice. Apparently cardio exercise can increase fluid collection so I've been taking it easy. Honestly, what we women put ourselves through eh! We need to be strong and love our natural beauty and accept that real beauty is not perfect and that fake beauty is, well, just fake. I have learned a tough old lesson but now I finally accept myself the way I am. I've never felt more confident. You seem like such a lovely, down to earth person and i'm sure you will recover and be stronger than ever. Take care hun x x x
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Hey Reed

Safe flight. Weather forecast not too good over next few days. Hope your father in law gets better soon. Stay strong. X
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Hello Girlies, I have not been posting for a while...

Hello Girlies, I have not been posting for a while as had to rush off to the UK as my father in law was very sick. Sadly he passed away on Thursday. I am home now. It has really been an emotional time but it has put things into perspective about my breasts. I realise now that they are not the end of the world if they remain a bit deformed.

I am now almost 4 weeks and there is still NO change with the nipples, they almost fold into my breasts and they are both exactly the same. I am convinced it is how the incision is healing. No matter how much i massage or put on tape it makes NO difference. I am thinking is all this stress worth it, massaging twice a day for nothing?? It only makes me have to look at them even more. I can accept the size and i look ok in a padded bra. It is just the intimate bit which is going to be hard. I will not let my husband any where near me. I am so scared i will freak him out. He said he is fine about it and that it really will not bother him. I just have to get over my fear of rejection--but i am sure everything will be ok. I see my surgeon on Thursday -- so will wait to see what she has to say before i post any more pics--but as i have said there is NO change--I actually think the scar is causing them to fold further into my small breasts. I have read some of your posts on other sites so been keeping up to date when i have had the time. Hope everyone is ok xxxx

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Sending you a GREAT big hug :)
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hi again lovely Reed, just wanted to come say hi and send my love. i know it is easy to say right now, but please just make a promise to yourself that you're going to just get on with life for the next 6 months and see how things turn out - do all the massage and stuff you were advised to do. worrying about it everyday is not going to change it (as i said easier and said than done!!) and then if you're still unhappy then you could consider going back to the surgeon and asking for a revision on the nipple. and i'm so sorry about your FIL. hugs xx
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I was looking at your pics again and can I say you have a great stomach and such a pretty belly button :) Mine not so much :( I hope you are feeling better today
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Hi Girlies, well here is my update—i saw my...

Hi Girlies, well here is my update—i saw my consultant yesterday. I have not seen her for 3 and a half weeks as the nurse removed my stitches last time. When i took my bra off she just took one look, her faced dropped and she said ONE word—TERRIBLE! She was really shocked at the state of my nipples. She was really sorry for me, even though she said the word terrible she was caring and she was very open about it. She really wants to help me and wants to see me again in one month. She basically told me the scar is pulling my nipples in. They are worse than before. I can’t send any posts as they are really bad. You can’t even see the bottom part of both the areola as they have gone in so far into my breast. I asked her about a breast pump, she had never heard of it before but she said it could be a good idea and try it. She said massage like hell!! Take pain killers if it is painful but really massage hard on the scars. It is not one breast but both—they are disgusting—i am not exaggerating.
I asked her about a revision in 6 months—she said let’s wait first BUT she did say if i needed a scar revision she would not charge me, only the fees from the hospital. I think she was so shocked and disappointed for me. I really don’t think it is her fault, it is just the way i have healed. So i am going to love you and leave you now and go and lie on my bed and massage---I can’t get away from these breasts and it depresses me every time i have to do it., it hurts and makes me feel sick to the stomach. BUT i have NO choice.
HOWEVER--- i have NO regrets whatsoever about having the implants out. I like the size i am just hate my nipples. I still read alot of your posts and try to keep up to date with everyone but i do find it hard to join in as my problem is so different. Like one of you said thank god i have Elle---my boobie friend xxxx Take care all of you. once again thank you for all your kind words-- i really could not go through this with out you all xxxxx

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Thank you so much for your review! I really hope given enough time you will bounce back and find a happy place with your new breasts. I am considering explant as well. I have CC on left side and have only had my breasts for 5 months. Unlike you, my hubby is not as supportive. =( Please keep us updated about the capsule being left in as I am wondering about that. Hugs to you!
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Hi Reed I am going through the same thing as you .I am only 4 weeks post surgery and both my nipples are caved in, one much worse than the other. I feel like I am not the same person since this happened. I went from being naked and free in front of my family to covering up all the time, I am very sad, and I can't get this feeling of anxiety and regret out of my chest. Regrets not for removing the implants but for getting them in the first place. I hope we get better. Let me know how you are doing? any improvements?
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You may want to look at my profile to. I have the same thing :/ my surgery was August 10. I do have improvement but will probably have to have a scar revision in January. What we've learned is that there's scar tissue and it has attached itself to our chest muscle and then to the skin behind the nipple. Don't feel like your alone cause your not :) I have improved due to massaging a lot but I don't think it's going to completely resolve its self. Are you massaging?

Hi to all of you lovely people out there just to...

Hi to all of you lovely people out there just to up date you---I saw my Doc yesterday-- I took my,breast pump, vibrating massager, pillow massage, my vitamin E tabs, my silicone scar strips!! I think she thought I had gone MAD!!! Anyway I thought lets go for it so I plugged in the devices and showed her--stripped off and got on with it!! I am not sure she knew how to react! After all this I broke down and cried! I told her I felt so ugly and that I wouldn´t let my husband near me.

She was great. She told me to stop obsessing over my nipples, to only massage as if it was a routine like doing your teeth and to get on with my life. She said she was so sorry for me. I could see she really did mean it. She did say looking at my breasts they have improved only very slightly and she does think I will definitely need a scar revision and told me it is a really simple operation. I don't even have to go back to theatre so I felt better about that. She did reassure me that my problem was definitely reversible so even though I cried I did feel better for hearing that. I said to her if you cut the scar inside wont it adhere again but she reassured me and explained to me how she will do it so it will not happen again. She was honest with me and told me it was very likely that I would need this done. She said she really wants me to wait 8-12 months for the revision to get the best results afterwards as there is still so much healing to be done inside naturally. I do trust her and feel much more confident with her now. I will go back in 2 months but she said at any time I can call her and come and see her. So thats it. I really hope my story can help others and dont be down hearted if the same thing happens. I was not one of the girlies on here that loved their breasts straight after explant. It has taken me some time to accept my small size again and now i think i have reached that point of acceptance and can move on. I will post some more pics--i am scared to do this as i am sure there is no improvement. I will only tell myself by looking at more pics. All the pics i had taken i have deleted--these pics are the only ones i have. I have to wait for my lovely daughter to take some pics for me-- not very good doing it
myself. My little 13 yr old shadow has be great for me! So has my husband--but he is afraid to come near me now for fear of more rejection from me--i will have to do something about that too!!! hope you girlies out there are all ok xxxxx

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Hi Reed69. I explanted on the 4th dec. I had my implants put in via the nipple. My PS who removed them stated their is a risk of your nipples folding over if explanted this way. According to my ps this risk is relatively new he advised i had them removed via incision under the breast. Glad i did has have noticed from this site that women explanting via the nipple are having the same problem has you. I do hope your situation rectify's itself, if not, you may have to look at revision surgery if you feel you can't live with the result. Good luck and best wishes!
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Thanks Mcal, still having issues but i suppose i have to be patient. xx Glad you are not having the same problems x
i did, with my right nipple. it was slightly concaved after the op but appears to be filling out a little as time goes by. It's just a shame that these PS are not up to date on these risks. I didn't want to be scarred further but i think my PS was right this time. My breasts are flat and misshapen as it is and i don't think i could have coped with other problems as well. Probably never let another man see me naked again....unless am drunk lol. still glad i got rid of the implants though. good luck and take care x

Hi all well its been quite some weeks since i...

Hi all well its been quite some weeks since i updated. I sometimes write on other girlies experiences but not on mine. There is not much to say! Still nipples not behaving despite massaging, using Bio oil , taking vitamin E and multi vitamins. I really don't like my breasts at the moment. They seem to be misshapen again. I wear bra´s at times but sometimes when i am at home i don't and not in bed either. Still shocked when i am in bed at how small they are. My husband used to roll over to me in bed and cuddle up and grab my boob. I miss that --well there is nothing to grab anymore!!! Love my hubby to bits but hard to feel all woman again with my marbles. Sometimes i am angry with myself that i am so vain. I am healthy, that is all that should matter. I do wish i had more breast though. BUT i would never have implants again. I went through 5 years of not liking them , feeling self conscious--so relieved that these toxic bags are out. Maybe if and when i have a revision then i will feel better, more positive.

I don't massage as much. My breasts appear to have shrunk more and am afraid if i massage too vigorously there will be nothing left!!!! LOL. I only massage now when i have time after a shower. I try not to let my breasts take over my life anyone.
Oh and i want to add that now i am smaller all my bra´s seem to ride up when i lIft my arms up! This never happened before. Has anyone else got this problem. I am forever grabbing my bra´s and pulling them down. I know what some of you may say--go for a smaller bra but i hate anything tight across my chest. Maybe i should drop from a 34 to a 32???

I wish all of the girlies here a FABULOUS IMPLANT FREE Christmas and New Year. AND ALL THE VERY BEST to the girlies waiting in the wings. We are almost there Loubedoo. I remember when i joined this site i read your posts and i remember you writing fast forward to Christmas---well here we are!! WE DID IT!!! I am so proud to be natural again (just wish i was made a bit bigger!!!) Love to all of you and huge huge implant free hugs xxxxx THANKS ONCE AGAIN FOR ALL YOUR WORDS OF SUPPORT AND KINDNESS. X

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Hi Reed, I hope you are doing well. XX
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Hi Ya Beba, i´m ok thanks--starting to accept these little breasts again--its been a long road for me, what with my complications. The nipples are a little better but i will definitely need a revision. I am seeing my PS today. Hope you too are okay xxx
Hi Laineylou, i haven't been on this site much. Been busy with the festivities and in the UK at the moment visiting family and friends. Hope you had a great christmas with your new explanted boobies!!LOL Happy new year to you and all the girlies on this site xxxxxx
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Hi all, still read posts old and new. Just a quick...

Hi all, still read posts old and new. Just a quick up date from me! I saw my surgeon last week. She said i will need a revision regardless of massaging etc. I do agree no matter how hard i massage the nipples or the scar has adhered to the chest wall and will need to be released BUT i have to wait one year from the surgery so have to put up with these breasts until Sept/October. BUT i am now in acceptance with my body. I accept i have a small frame and small breasts are much better for me. I used to have a chronic back ache which has now gone--i am convinced it is since these implants were removed. I still get a bit self conscious when i see people i have not seen for some time with my natural look--i sometimes get paranoid that they know what have i done!! stupid thoughts. Next thing on my list is to go and get a real nice PADDED bikini which will hopefully show that i still do have boobs. I am so happy to be implant free and not to feel labeled false and plastic and vain (no one labeled me like this but that is how i felt with them in). I went on a coach trip recently and sat opposite this lady who was on her own, we got talking and i lent her my magazine --she happened to turn to a page with celebs in Bikinis and she started to go on about false breasts and how terrible they are and harmful to your body. I felt elated that i was no longer tarred with the same brush. I was with my daughter and we just sat and giggled. My journey is almost over--hurrah! (one thing my surgeon said was stop wearing bras --wear very tight boidy tops to the breast is almost squashed so that i can try to keep the breast up and keep pulling the nipple up--i get her point--in bras they do not support the nipple area--just the breast, but the tight tops really make me look flat so i wear a padded bra over the top!!!!!!!!

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hi there my boobie twin :) I swear its been ages since we caught up with each other :) hope all is well :)
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Hi Elle xxx yeh ok here. Still having Wobbles about my size but again as i always say i am sure it is because my nipples go sort of inwards so they make my breasts look ugly and even smaller!!! I have just splashed out on a voda swim bikini---cost me 72€ in the sale!!! I CANT believe i paid that amount of money and on line so no IDEA if it fits ok----i will try anything to accept these blimmin breasts once again!!! keep in touch boobie twin xxx missed ya LOL
Okay now I'm interested in this swim suit!! Can you get it in USA? Let me know how it turns out! :D Were getting close to our year mark :) Aug. 10 for me and hopeful for my revision then :) big hugs to you :D

Hi all well i still read so much about so many of...

Hi all well i still read so much about so many of you. I sit and sometimes talk to the screen! I have my dark moments but today i am having a good moment! I found quite a nice bikini and a bra to lift my spirits! And for once i feel a little more sexy –WITH A NICE BRA on!! My husband and I go away for the weekend next week so i really have tried to find a nice bra and matching knickers!!! Really pleased today! So finally if i go out there and look I can find bras to fit me. I am still coming to terms with my size---really need to get a grip i know! Also ordered the Voda Swim bra that Free2beme recommended (thank you for that xx)—I can’t wait for it to arrive. It cost a fortune but i am sure it will be worth it. The bikini i bought today was very cheap and will probably last 5 mins but at least i have one i feel comfortable in and not completely flat. Slowly but surely i am accepting my little boobies again. Just waiting in the wings for my revision in September. Love to read all your stories. Without you all i know i would NEVER of got through this. Take care all my boobie friends, old and new—keep posting xx

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Reed my love I can definitely see a positive change! I love your new bikini and bra too. I bought some padded bras from M&S last week - so many VERY padded bras in the shops now! xxx
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Thanks louebedoo these padded bras give me more confidence and acceptance of my weeny boobies again xx
You LOOK HOT!!! :D LOVE the bikini and the bra :) I do believe when they cut the scar tissue on our boobies it will give us a bit more breast at the bottom. I've slowly lost my little boobs to tinee tiny boobies LOL!! I dropped 22 pounds and my boobs went with it LOL!!! So I ordered my first A bra today :) LOL!! But I Love it so much more now :) You look AMAZING boobie twin!! :)
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Hi all sorry to bore you but i just got my voda...

Hi all sorry to bore you but i just got my voda swim Bikini and feel great in it and posted two pics. It is soooo comfortable and i feel a million dollars in it!!!!! Thanks free2bme for recommending this company. xx

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hi ya laineylou , im keeping alright thanks almost at my one year mark. revision booked mid Sept and l cant. wait. not much has changed...still hate the pulled in look with my nipples :( how are you? any more allergic reactions? x
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Hey. Not long to go till Sept, really hope you get the results you're looking for. Not having as many reactions, my last one was June so fingers crossed! Not sure if that's silicone related or diet related, either way I'm not complaining! Take care and let me know how your revision goes, I'm sure you will look fantastic. X
Long time no speak. How are you keeping Reed? Hope all is well. Sending hugs your way. X
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Revision surgery to correct nipples 12/09/13!!!

Hi all. Well its been a long time since i have been on this site. I have tried not to eat, breathe ,dream breasts and nipples 24 hours a day. It has been a long year with my breasts. I am still going through acceptance. I so wish i was like so many of you on the other side who are soooo happy with their results. Well i will be honest with you all and say i am still finding it hard. I am so hoping that this acceptance thing is purely down to the problems with my nipples and not my teeny size. I really would love a bit more breast but i have to accept I am not made that way; although I do envy woman with a little bit more then me! I DO NOT envy ANYONE with implants---to me they all look so fake and ridiculous. Anyway it was one year for me post surgery on the 4th September. I am posting this and some pictures as on Thursday the 12th September i will have my revision operation of my nipples. This is to release the scar which has adhered. I am praying this will be the last of it. I have decided to post pictures just before and after- even if this surgery is not successful. I have joined real self and i have followed many stories and i think it is only fair for me to post and up date you all. I have everything crossed for Thursday this operation is a success. Hope all you girlies are ok out there xx

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more pictures, one year post op

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I think you look fabulous. I'm totally happy but I have not ruled out mini lift in future.
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Maybe you have advice for what bra to get. I have a plunge neck line dress and it shows my current bra I need something low enough that still gives me some support wire or no wire. I have not worn a wire since my surgery it's going close to 4 months. I stopped wearing sports bras about 2. 5 months after surgery. Thanks
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Today is the day!!!!!! Nipples behave! :) Take care of yourself.....thank you for the kind words. I should update my post with some new pics....just have to get up the courage again :). I think I waited a week or so to start gently massaging. But it did help...I actually wish I had done that on the "good" side because the nipple scar (although not tethered) is harder than the side that had the revision...with lots of scar massage! I think I am just missing a little bit of fatty skin after the revision which is noticeable on me...but probably wouldn't have been on someone with more natural breast tissue. I am praying for you!! I remember every time I give a hug that I am glad to be rid of those things....they just got in the way!!!!
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revision done!!

Hi all, well i had my revision done yesterday. What an experience that was. It was all done in her consulting room on a medical couch. I had to put on the theatre hat, take off top layer of clothes then I was covered in greens---just like in theatre and then I could see everything that was happening! I so wish i had been screened off or they could of played some music. I laid there for an hour and 20 minutes while they cut and snipped away at my poor breasts. The local was the worst--sharp searing pain but only lasted a few seconds but then i did not feel a thing. Just heard all the snipping at my breast tissue. Pulling and pushing and burning of the blood vessels---ohhh BOY that was the worst! The smell of burning flesh. I still have that smell in my nostrils today. The nurse and consultant did have some problems stopping the bleeding on my left side. After it was all done I am covered once again in a sticky compression bandage and have to leave this for one week. I have no idea how many stitches i have but it seems to be more then last time. I asked her how much she took away--i was soooo scared she had removed most of my breast ! In fact she had removed only a small finger nail full of hard scar tissue. Then i left. I asked her how much-- i asked the nurse and she said nothing!!!! As it was all in Spanish maybe she assumes i will pay next week. I really dont know!!! Anyway after this op i went for a coffee and a cake with my hubby, off to do a big shop for the weekly food, then home where i started to tidy up a bit. Then finally i sat down. Then the pain started! It began like a stinging pain and soon became more of a burning type pain. It was so bad i had to take paracetamol. I checked all the padding for bleeding and blood started to seep through the padding on my left side. This really freaked me out. I went to bed to try and lie still. Then the crying started as i thought about the last 6 yrs --the implants, explant and now this. I felt like i had been butchered. ANDit was all my fault. I was SO ANGRY and disappointed with myself for what i had done. Then the regrets about the revision--what if i am more disfigured. Why didn't i just leave things as they were. Maybe these are all natural thoughts but the memories of the last year came to me yesterday and i was in floods of tears. So i couldn't post yesterday. Today i feel a bit better. The bleeding has stopped. The pain is a sort of smarting pain--like someone has stuck a hot poker in my breasts. This is more painful then the explant--i had NO PAIN on explant so this has come as a shock to me. I am now trying my best to get positive --but negative thoughts keep coming into my head--i am almost convinced this op will make no difference and that i have been scared for life. I wish i wasn't such a blimmin pessimist. Thankfully my hubby is much more positive and snaps me out of my deepest thoughts. Maybe once this pain goes then i will feel more positive. It is harder than my explant as i have bled quite a bit so i am more careful now not to over do it but i would so love to go out and walk my dogs but i think i should take it slow today--really dont want the bleeding to start. Plus my PS is a 90 minute drive away. I promise as soon as these dressings are off i will post pics--good or bad. Thank you once again to you all for reading and listening to me. I am sure you must be fed up with me by now. And some of you must think---REED snap out of it!! I AM TYRING girlies xxxxxx kisses to you all.

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Elle told me to look you up. As I have some issues of my own. Wishing you the best of luck. I am so glad to be rid of my implants. I know very many happy woman who are fine with out the big tata's! Right now I would just like half way even ones! Positive energy a must.
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Hi be natural---you are sooo right positive energy is a must but sometimes it is hard to find that energy---LOL i think it is coming back! I will post on your profile too xxx huge hugs to you x
Hi Reed. I am glad to know you had your revision. Be positive because it will only get better from now on. I am looking forward to see your results because I have the same problem you had. It will be 1 year post explanation next month for me and I have to admit things improved but not completely. The scar in the lower part of the areola still caved in a little. I have decided not to do a revision yet. I am going to try to fix it with the Brava system myself and if that doesn't work then I'll think about revision. Or maybe even stay like this because I am terrified about necrosis or making it worse by trying to fix it. I hope your pain gets better soon and your results are what you were hoping for. Take care. Everything will be fine, all those thoughts are normal.
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9 days post revision sugery

Hi all well dressings are off! Here are my pics. Boy there is some swelling--wish my breasts would stay that size.LOL! I have sutures in and congealed blood around the nipple so it is still too early to tell but i think they look a bit better---not sure. Stitches come out next Thursday then the massaging starts---not allowed to massage yet! Hope everyone ok on here. x

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Hello Reed. I just read your entire review and I just want to tell you what an amazing woman you are. You may have regrets over the implants but you have showed a great example to your daughter with your courage and the journey of self acceptance. You have a beautiful body without the implants. I wish I would have had your courage but I let my doctor decide. He would not put implants in unless he thought I would look deformed. Now I realize that his version of deformed may not have been so bad. In hind sight I should have ex planted and then made my decision from there. I'm not comfortable with implants but my husband is and actually liked them bigger. I worried about intimacy and that should NEVER be an issue. I admire your courage and appreciate your honest, raw review. Your story will be life changing and inspiring for other women contemplating explant. I also want to add that I'm not against implants or plastic surgery IF a woman feels more comfortable with it. I don't regret my tummy tuck at all and I don't believe anyone is a lesser person if they have implants. It's all a choice but that being said I'm sure there are other women like me that are torn about what is right for them and have difficulty being completely true to their own feelings. I know my daughters would never consider implants and I'm glad because they will never face regrets down the road. Thank you so much for sharing and all the best to you with your revision. ((Hugs)) beautiful lady.
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Hi reed, looking good! wishing you good healing lovely xxx
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Looking great. Keep positive and hopefully this is the last thing that u will need done xx
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DON'T DO A REVISION!!!

Hi fellow boobie friends! Well its been a long time again since i have been back to this site. Well what a blimmin journey---and its NOWHERE near over! Unfortunately my boobies decided to change shape again. Meaning the nipples have pulled in again. I am right back to square one with the added problem of ribbon scaring! Both breasts have developed a thin tight band that is attached to the beneath of each nipple/ areola area and trails down both sides of my stomach, past my rib cage and beyond. Its incredible what my body is doing. I feel like some kind of alien! When i stretch my arms up all you can see is this attached tight ribbon band from both breasts and down past my rib cage. It feels so tight and it is also sore when i stretch up and reach for something high up out of a cupboard. I am now having acupuncture---50€ each visit. Taking vitamin E and massaging like mad but not much change. I suppose you are wondering how i feel emotionally--well the only word i can say is--NUMB!!--SHOCK--Disbelief. Why me!!!
I am adding this review as i really would not want anyone else to go through what i am going through. I think i was crazy to of had the revision now as when you think about it ---i had adhesion's following explant. Then i had the revision, the surgeon cut into my breast tissue again and once again more adhesion's have formed but this time much worse! My PS has not seen me for over 3 weeks-I was supposed to go last Thursday but she cancelled my appointment--i see her this coming Thursday--she is going to be horrified at my breasts!

I have been surfing the net desperately trying to find anything which will help. I have found drugs to take to help break down the fibrin in scars but very expensive. Have any of you heard of_vitalzym or serrapeptase (from the silk worm). Has anyone out there tried them??
Anyone got any advice of what else i can do---pleassse. Elle1991 on here has been my lifesaver. I hope everyone is OK out there and sorry if i have missed anyone's posts or up dates--i have been a bit detached from this site for a while. I just need a bit of pepping up now--if you know what i mean xx

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You are looking great. I'm almost 2 months post explantation. I still have a bumpy road ahead. I don't know if you have viewed my pictures or not. With lots of work I got some scar tissue to relax. I wish I could go to schools and talk with young girls. Of course if they were like me when I was 23...I probably wouldn't have listened. Even if my left breast drops, they are not the same size. Unless the right is still to shrink. I am praying for a good out come like yours!
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Hi Reed, so sorry to hear about your complications. Let me tell you I took serraptase and Singulair with the purpose of help to break down scar tissue. They didn't really help only time. It's only after a year that things start looking normal. Please don't try to fix it again with surgery there will be more scar tissue after each surgery. Did your doctor warned you about the possibility of the problem reoccurring? Everywhere I read that it reattaches unless you put some type of filler between the tissues like fat. Anyway things will improve for sure. I know is not easy I have the same problem as you. I can send you picture if you want. But I decided not to do a revision. Instead I plan to use the brava system when I can afford it maybe that would help although I know is a commitment but to me that is a lot less risky than surgery. I really wish you the best and try not to stress out so much, you are married and your husband loves you and supports you, and I ask myself the se question too why me? All I know is because I am strong enough to handle it and you are too. Xoxoxo
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Hi Reed could you possibly try the microcurrent therapy?..I had hard lumps at my scar area under the breast and doing the microcurrent therapy really worked. It literally melted the scar tissue. Please try to find an esthetician or someone who has this equipment. It's worth a try. Quite a few women on this forum who have explanted through the nipples have problems with puckering so you are not alone. In a worst case scenario you could probably have the nipples 'repositioned' as in a breast lift when they move them up a little. Don't despair.. You are beautiful and as awful as you are feeling there will be a solution...just hang tight. I really do suggest the microcurrent therapy though as soon as the wound has completely healed and stitches are out. So sorry you are suffering like this. Your shape is beautiful and honestly..smaller breasts are soo much prettier...softer and warm..not to mention healthier..and your husband loves you and is supportive with your decision...don't be hard on yourself... They will get better..Sending big huggzz to you!!
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Up to date photos of my revision

Hi all I thought i would be brave and post you pics so you can see what i mean---look closely at my skin beneath both breasts to see how the scarring ribbon has taking hold and is travelling down to my stomach!
Anyone out there even considering scar revision--DONT DO IT!!!

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I have exactly what you have but on all my lipoed areas flanks, stomach, that band from my sternum down to my belly button. I thought it was only due to lipo but looking at your story worries me as i already had an explant and my nipples look like yours as well. Im so tired of all the scar tissue my body is building up, scar tissue is so hard to break down specially because you have to be aggressive with it and its painful, but doable please tell me if serrapeptase pills work for you, im willing to try anything. I do want to tell you though, remain positive, if you look at your before and after photos, everything looked great at 1 yr, so maybe this revision will take 1 yr as well. Stay strong! You have been through alot and im sure your husband finds you attractive any way. Dont forget that we are here for you, and please be patient :)
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Hi Faithand Hope, thanks for the message x. I am having acupuncture--I have had 4 now and i can notice a difference to the scarring, it is a bit softer now. I am taking collagen tablets (dont ask me why!)--i just saw them in a supermarket and grabbed them as i am waiting for my delivery of vitalzym tabs--I have read alot about these tablets and they contain serrapeptase along with a load of other stuff to help to break up scar tissue. Expensive but i dont care---i will try anything now as i am never going under the knife again! I take vitamin E also and put hot packs on my scarring at night and massaging like hell twice a day. BUT still my nipples are deeply attached :-( but like you say we have to be patient but i am done with being patient. I quickly read your profile--poor you! you are going through it too. All i can say is hang in there----it can only get better!!!! sending you huge hugs xxxxxxx thanks for your post x
Hi how are you. My serrapeptase pills finally arrived, they are medical grade, and they are expensive but I shall see if they are worth it. Let me know how it goes for you. As for the scar tissue along your rib, I also have it but down my belly button and waist, Ive done deep massage and even had 5 sessions with a professional, I can say that Im able to move a lil bit more freely but it is still there :( When I stop massaging it adheres to my skin again, im looking into cupping now, ill let you know how that works. When you started massaging the areola area how soon did you do it after explant? here is a link to cupping http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=477Ycy0dInA

Almost three months after my revision

Well here l am again with my update! Not much to shout about. I have had five sessions of acupuncture to help with the scaring and hardness which i do believe has helped. I did do lot of massaging to begin with but now i am tired of this. I am done with it all...no more of anything..the final thing l am trying is Vitalzym tablets...supposed to be good for internal scarring. Thanks to everyone for all your posts of advice and support. I hope you are all doing well out there...l hope you all have a great Christmas...l look forward to 2014...I will close some doors to 2013! Onwards and upwards!!!!! I won't be beaten by theses breasts..they are only a small part of me. X

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Thank you for sharing....I will be ecstatic if I have your boobs! Hugs and good vibes. Live life large and don't let the small stuff stop you! You are beautiful!
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Hi tigerousity many thanks for your kind words ...still doing my best to love the skin ur in...its tough x
Hello reed, thanks for your update. What has your ps said about your result? Its strange that you have that ribbon scar, have you asked the ps on here? I do think however that it will def settle down. You have a great figure, your bobs are a great shape and If I remember rightly you rocked that bikini in the summer! It's nearly a year since i had mine removed and I've also got nipple issues. They fold over and I was considering further surgery but given the stress etc that you have been through I very much doubt I will. So a big thank you. Have a great Xmas and I'm sure 2014 will be a great year for you x
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four months after revision

Hi all...just a quickie ..l am still taking the vitalzym meds ..started this in December and l increased the tablets to six a day for a while as stated to break up scar tissue...l really thought the tablets were a gimmick but then when my period should of stopped in December it didn't! I kept bleeding then i noticed more bruising over my body particular over my breasts! I looked up the side effects of this drug and it can cause bleeding and a longer menstrual cycle..so it was doing something! I dropped down to four a day..l still have light bruising over my breasts but nothing more. I do feel my right breast is definately softer and the ribbon scaring is less noticeable..so some positives...my nipples are not great..but that is my judgement. I am ashamed to admit my husband has still not seen my breasts since l explanted almost 16 months ago ...l still struggle with acceptance and sadly low self esteem which in turn makes me angry that i feel this way. It is my problem and l have to deal with this face on but l am still terrified of rejection. Its ridiculous as we have been married for 22 yrs and l know he loves me dearly..we are both worried of hurting each other..one of us needs to get a grip...l know i need to so hopefully soon l will finally accept these battered bodies. Love the skin your in..easier said then done!

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your post op breats look amazing. do you still love them? glad you did it?
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Hey LauraR, thanks for the compliment. I dont think my breasts look great but i am so relieved to get the implants out. I feel so normal again--i felt so false for such a long time. I had problems post explant but they are now much better, i need to up date my pics i know. I certainly do feel much healthier for having them out. Yes i am glad i did it and hate myself for getting them in the first place--but you live and learn i suppose xxx
Hi reed69, I am glad you at least feel much better without them. I know we hated the outcome and how we even thought of implants in the first place. I no longer have that ribbon of scar tissue on my breast but it does seem like my right breast adhered to my muscle on the breast crease. I have finally posted photos and updated my review.

final pics for you all x

Well its been a while again....here are my final pics of how i am up to date. Since the last post i have done nothing but take vitalzym, i haven't even massaged. I hate it all now. I think there is a slight change to the breasts but they are misshapen still. I do not like my size...but this is me--how i was made and i have to accept it. I feel i have been teased by having the implants and what i could of looked liked--although the surgeon went too big, i only wanted a B cup. But for the years they were in I hated the falseness of them. So a AA I am!! Maybe i am one of those people floating around the universe never settling for what you have got! Well i am being honest and no i dont really like my breast size...maybe one day i will love them but i think that is highly unlikely. I just have to focus on my family, my life and that i have good health. Nothing more should matter.
And REAL SELF CHICKS OUT THERE ------YES ! YOU ALL ROCK XXXXXXX thankyou all so so so much for your words of kindness and support xxx I will never forget this site and from time to time i will take a look and see what is going on.

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I think I can see an improvement over time. I'm trying to word this carefully so as not to sound unsympathetic...but how often do we walk around topless? And you look amazing in bras, underwear and bikinis, there's not many people who can say that! You do, you honestly look hot, you have a great body, real shape and curves but slender, athletic and elegant. Breasts are beautiful because of the woman they are on. I think small is beautiful and so is big, yours aren't at all saggy either. Your review will help a lot of ladies in your situation, big thanks for it and good luck!
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Meant to add, your husband clearly loves you very much, and you love him. Trust him and let him get closer to you again, if the situation was reversed and something happened to his appearance that he considered negative, you wouldn't love or want him less would you? Trust in what you have, 22 years is an achievement these days. :) xxxx
Hi Alliegb, thankyou for taking the time to write on my post. I really do appreciate it...l can't believe how much my breasts have taken over my life. It has been tough for me...l have it in my stupid head that my hubby likes big breasted woman all because a a silly comment he made just before I explanted. I have little confidence in my body up until Sunday. ..l am ashamed to admit. .but also relieved that last Sunday I finally showed my husband my breasts! It has taken 20 mths since explant for hubby to see my breasts. ..He was ok. .He is not one for loads of words of encouragement. .He just said..what have you been worried about!? He admitted they were not quite right but it wasno big deal. So this was a huge step. Now i just have to start to love ME and move on. Yes your right 22 yrs is an achievement. .we do love each other very much and now I have to start to behave more like a woman and get that spark back again. ...my poor hubby has been very patient LOL x

FAT TRANSFER--ANY ADVICE!

Hi all well a quick up date, i think i am going to go for a fat transfer--I copied this from the surgeon's website:-What is REGENERATIVE plastic surgery?

Traditionally plastic surgeons "reconstruct" using near or distant tissues with skin flaps and grafts. However, the REGENERATIVE CELLULAR PLASTIC SURGERY with the necessary tissues for a reconstruction can be obtained using the patients’ own cells which can regenerate themselves into the type of tissue necessary.

This is achieved using your "own regenerative cells" which have the potential to differentiate themselves (transform themselves) in many types of cells (muscle, blood vessels, fat, nerves) giving the plastic surgeon another alternative to reconstructive treatment. It really is another DIMENSION.

---It is more than a fat transfer and takes some fat from my stomach cleans it and replaces in my lower breast. (in a nut shell!) There is guarantee of regeneration and growth but NO guarantee of how much but it will make my lower breast and nipples look so much better. I may need 2 treatments, cost per treatment 2000€. Has anyone heard of this before? I am 44yrs old, i look in the mirror every day and hate how my breasts look, i am excited that this surgeon can help me and def knows what he is talking about--now i just have to save up!!! I my be on this planet for quite a few years to come and want to do something to make my nips a bit better--hey i may even go topless one day!!! LOL

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I think you look fine. I know we're all very critical of ourselves. I think the fat transfer would be helpful toward the look you're going for. But, you're NOT ugly, you look fine!
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Thanks you Joeloose skin, i will post another review xx
thanks Joelooseskin, i will up date my review now xx

Two years post explant and trying to move on!

Well i got a reminder from Real self to post another review as it has been 2 years now since my explant. I have just taken some more photos so here goes...... I only have photos of my breasts on here, all files at home have been deleted, i dont want a reminder of my journey! Most days i still look at them and regret what i did. I am in two minds about going for the fat transfer, will it make enough difference to me? Will i always be searching to get my nipples back how they were? Am am throwing money away? (which to be honest i dont have!!!) To be honest I have now finally excepted the size and for some reason i seem to have gone from a AA cup to maybe a small B cup, depending on what shop i buy my bras from! I dont know why they are slightly bigger but i am now ok about the size. THe nipples--well maybe one day i might except them. I am not going to rush into anything at the present moment. I have more important things to spend my money on like saving for a new car! Maybe i am now done with all of it, i am really not sure. At the moment i am doing ok. Life is good, i have a fab husband who loves for for who i am, he is not disgusted by how i look, but he supports me either way if i do go down the route of fat transfer. He has seen the tears i have cried over these breasts, but now i am thinking, HEY! there are so many people out there worse off then me. Whats a couple of weird looking nipples anyway! So thats it, me up to date! Probably no more reviews now unless i do go for the fat transfer. Take care all you ladies , old and new out there xxx

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I think you look great ......
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thank you castillo2014 x
Honestly I do think you look great I wish I was you. Lol :)
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