Hi gals - So amazing to join this team of amazing women who bring so much comfort, education, and support to this very emotional process. I'm having a moment of insecurity tonight (along with probably too may champagnes tonight celebrating summer's final arrival) and decided to join Realself finally.
I have read many stories so far and feel very encouraged by all the details shared - with great laughs, comraderie, and intamcy! Thank you for being here! I HAD to join because of what you have given me so far!
I am 43 yo and 34G (per Nordstrom but still can't wear it comfortably - spill out and they are put on a platform for all to see - so I actually squeeze into a Bali 34DD (hate underwires) to minimize). 5'6" and about 180 lbs (no kids) and have tried for 12 years to lose 40+ lbs with very concerted effort and I believe the metabolism is now dead! I have had 2 half marathon goals and got to the 5 mile point of training and failed due to chafing boobies and life. I desperately want to run without having to hold my boobs in place with the whole neighborhood watching. Not to mention the clothes, bras, neck/shoulder pain, and overall selfconsciousness we all feel. These puppies just grew from my 20s onward and I don't see an end in sight.
I had my first consult with a PS about 3 weeks ago. She was very nice and encouranging, and the office was spa like (kinda prefer the clincal feel myself), but I didn't feel a connection and after the consult I perused her before/after photos and was not convinced that she was going to give me what I expected. Only 2 out of about 100 outcomes would I have been pleased with. Mainly the areolas were in an odd spot (facing far out) and overall everything seemed too wide. This is definitely an art as well as a science (I know cosmetics is not the main priority when going through this - the elimination of pain and embarassment with clothes is utmost for me - but I want to feel good about myself naked in the mirror for the first time in years).
So I decided to schedule a second consult - both my gyn and an acquaintance have recommend this next PS with 25 yrs experience and an educator - I am hopeful. My appointment is this Tuesday, Aug 7th. Was trying to lose 5 lbs before the appointment but somehow gained that much - must be psychological sabotage - not deserving of this gift since I cannot lose weight.
My fears tonight...my belly! All I can see right now when I look down are the boobies. But when I hold them up/push them into normal position, my belly is big. What if this is a mistake and afterwards all my focus will be on the belly. I am so hopeful that after this looooong desired surgery, I will get all this new energy to start my running goals again along with planks to get this flab gone. But what if I I can't? I know I'll never be Jennifer Aniston or even the 116 lb bride that I was, but a reasonable 40+yo weight is all that I wish...and of course to walk around the house without a bra and without the shirts tucked inderneath, and without the huge grooves in my shoulders.
So...this process is just beginning for me and I am very anixous at this point but also comforted by the support I know I will get here - nobody else knows the feelings you share with me - not even supporting husband, family. I am hoping insurance will cover this and am still waiting for the first consult to be submitted and acknowledged by insurance. Their non-insurance/cosmetic quote total was approximately $6800 with anesthesiologist/hospital, etc.
More to come after my consult. Thanks again for this sisterhood!! You are the BEST. Hope everyone is healing well - I think of you and check in often and wonder how it must be....
(PS - the bulldog thing - we love English bulldogs - joy of joys)