Since as far back as I can remember I have known...

Since as far back as I can remember I have known that my nose is big. When I was a little girl (before I ever knew about plastic surgery) I would pray before I went to bed and ask God to make my nose smaller while I slept. It seems so silly that as a child I was conscious of my nose being disproportionate to my face, but it is and I always knew that. I wasn't bullied,in fact I was pretty popular growing up, but people always made comments. "Dude! Was your plastic surgeon drunk when he did your nose?" or With a nose like that you must be Jewish or Arabic." Even strangers would say to me, "You'd be so pretty if you got your nose done." or" Your nose makes you look like Barbara Streisand." Every time someone pointed out my big nose I would shrivel up on the inside. My nose has made me insecure, and my insecurities have caused me to sit on the sidelines too often in my life. My husband has been very supportive, and we decided together that I would move forward with the surgery when we had zero debt and could pay cash for the procedure. We are now in a position to make this a reality for me. My surgery is booked for May 30th 8:30 am. I am both terrified and excited! I have done my research and am completely confident that I chose the right surgeon for me. I have a ridiculous fear, no more like phobia, of vomiting, and that is my biggest fear. (So silly, I know) I am concerned about the healing process and how tough it could be, and I have some concerns regarding the emotional affect a surgery like this may have on me. I am a busy mom, and I don't know how to rest, so that will be challenging as well. i found this group while researching plastic surgery and I was hesitant to join at first, but as my big day gets closer I realize how much I would love the encouragement of others who have been through this.
I appreciate any positive feedback you have. Thank you!

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A few pics

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trust me hunnie you are going to be fine! think about the positives you are going to feel amazing its the best decision i ever made any questions just ask good luck xxxx
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Thanks for sharing your story with us. I look forward to your updates. I'm sure you'll find lots of support here. Best wishes!
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Thank you!

A few more pics

The next pics I post will be of my new nose!

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In less than 48 hours I will have a new nose. I am absolutely terrified and would love some encouragement! Thanks everyone!
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Thank you for taking the time to start your story on RealSelf! I honestly can't believe how rude people can be! You are seriously gorgeous and I hope you're able to find peace with that once you've had rhinoplasty. I have never once regretted my nose job. It's very liberating! Make sure to keep plenty of cool beverages and lip balm near your recovery station as your mouth will get very dry from breathing through it.

I'll be thinking of you on the 30th!
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Good luck girly!
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Surgery in less then 48 hours

All I can think about these past few days is my nose, the surgery, the pain, recovery and of coarse vomiting. Which, if you read my story, you know I'm terrified of. I'm distracted and forgetful these past few days, and it seems like my to-do list is growing. I want my house to be spotless before I leave for the hospital, and having a three year old boy running amok all day makes that nearly impossible. I have my meds, my neck pillow, bendy straws, cough drops, Chapstick, U shaped pillow,sorbet, tons of kale and pineapple chopped up and frozen ready for my protein shakes during recovery. What am I forgetting?? I know I should be excited and I am, but mostly I'm anxious and I just want to get this over with. We've hit triple digits in Phoenix and the heat is making me wish I would have done this in the winter months so I could at least enjoy a little fresh air while I heal, but none the less I feel so blessed to have this opportunity, and grateful for my families support. If anyone can think of something else I need please do share. Thanks you all!!
Cheers to pretty noses!!

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How did it go?! :D
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I did ok. Recovery has been harder than I thought, and I've been dealing with a lot of emotions. (I think that's normal) it's hard to say that it was worth it right now when I'm stuck in bed for the 3rd day, but I think I'm going to love it once I get passes this hurdle.
Excited for you! My big day is next Wednesday. Wishing it was tomorrow because time is crawling for me now. I wish you an easy recovery, please keep us posted.
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2 days Po

Doing ok. Have had a lot of anxiety since getting home from the hospital, and I think some of that is just coming off of all the meds I was on. Recovery is much harder than I thought it would be, but in my mind I thought I would be mopping floors and making dinner for my family the day I got home. Been in bed almost the entire weekend. Finally today I got up and walked around my house a little. I really can't wait to get back to normal. Laying around is not something I'm good at.

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Yes, take it easy! Rest is a good thing :) Can't wait to see pics how it all turned out! Just curious, but what is the most difficult part of recovery? Is it painful? Or just uncomfortable?
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It's honestly not very painful. I've cut my Vicodin in 1/2 and just taken it at night. Tylenol and frozen pees do the trick during the day. It is very uncomfortable and sleeping is a joke, but last night I slept on my side and did a lot better. My nostrils are like cemented shut with dried blood and I'm hoping my Dr will clean them out when I have the cast removed. I can see the difference in my nose already and I'm so excited!!
Please take it easy these next few days! Time to rest and perhaps a Netflix series or two. Hope you feel back to normal soon. Please keep us updated!
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4 days PO

Things are getting easier. I have very little pain, and there is some air coming up through one nostril. I already love my nose and it's not even the nose I'm going to end up with. I feel very blessed to have had this opportunity! Still laying around and taking it easy as I find I run our of energy very quickly, but the worst is behind me now.
Thank you to everyone that has posted on my page and kept me encouraged through this whole process! It's meant so much to me. The support here is just incredible!

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A few pics. Day 2 and 3 PO

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How exciting. Looking really good!
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Dizzy

Just curious if anyone experienced any dizziness during their recovery? I'm wondering if it's connected to the scolplamine patch? Or if it is that I'm not consuming enough calories. (About 300 a day)

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It sounds like you could have low blood sugar, you definitely need to consume more calories! I know its impossible to eat anything solid right now but maybe something like protein shakes or yogurt?
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I was really dizzy! I got help walking around anywhere for the first few days. Could be a combination of everything: I had patch, was taking pain meds regularly and very few calories. It went away pretty quickly. You look great!
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When does normal happen?

Hi all,
I'm 8 days Po and still feeling yucky. I'm congested of coarse, but emotionally I just don't feel like myself. I've been having a lot of panic attacks (anxiety is something I've always dealt with) and I'm having a hard time getting back into my normal routine. I'm tired and want to just lay in bed. Which makes me feel worse. I want to go back to my normal; taking care of my husband, our 3 year old and our house. I feel very wobbly on my feet and I think that's due to not eating enough, but still the only thing that sounds good to me is applesauce. Just wondering if anyone else had a hard time transitioning back to their lives after surgery or if 8 days Po is still early and some of this is normal? Thanks for your help, advice and encouragement! I sure do need it right now.

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You are not alone! I feel useless having to ask my husband to do so much more than normal for me. I look around the house at all the things I would normally have kept up with, and I start to feel annoyed/depressed/overwhelmed (basically, insert negative feeling here). Last night I started crying out of the blue. I said to my husband almost exactly what you seem to be saying, as far as wishing I could get back into my routine and wondering when things will be "normal" again. It is comforting to hear someone with the same surgery date is feeling a lot like I do. Thank you for sharing! According to the blogs Ive read, you and I will get back into our regular routine in just a few days, so maybe just focus on getting through today, and then do the same thing tomorrow, and before you know it, you will be back to enjoying life ;) PS Have you had your cast off yet? My husband kinda forced me to get out today and go to lunch with him, and it felt weird because my nose is so swollen and there is no way of hiding the stitch marks completely, but once I got out in public and no one pointed and laughed, I realized no one cares about my nose as much as I do. It may have been the sunshine/vit. D, but I started to feel much better. All that to say... I think you should get outside for a bit if you haven't tried that yet. Ill say some prayers for happy thoughts and sunshine to make it your way ;)
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Great advice Laura lee!! No one cares about our noses as much as we do! So true.... I'm before surgery and sometimes I get real antsy if I'm going to work (hair has to be back), like I'm trying to conceal my profile... But no one probably cares haha! I think it's a great idea to get outside too, even if it's just a stroll with your kids around the neighborhood. Baby steps! But you're beautiful before the surgery, so there's nothing to worry about! You'll be beautiful regardless!!
i literally just read that it's typical to go through depression in the 2nd week after surgery. So, sounds like for you, it's anxiety, not classic depression. Just know that it's going to pass - and it's normal. Do you have any benzodyapem (spelling?) something like ativan, klonopin, valuim? I'd say take those now if you're feeling really anxious because as a person who's got a 'panic disorder' i know that it can snowball on itself. You look great - and you will look better in a few weeks. I have a 3 and almost 7 year old and am recovering from revision rhino on June 2nd, and i feel all guilty - but really - what's 2 weeks of recovering and showing your kids that we know how to slow down and heal? It's important not to be hard on yourself. This will all be over with before you know it. For now, imagine you were taking care of you - very gently, lovingly...this is a MAJOR surgery, in the middle of our heads!
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Slowly but surely

Hi all,
I'm 9 days Po and it's been challenging. I'm not in a lot of pain at all, but still very uncomfortable breathing through my mouth. I'm still very tired and spending almost all day in bed. Would love to go for a walk, but temps in phoenix are reaching 111 degrees. :-( I've felt so unsteady on my feet and have yet to take a shower standing up for fear that I may pass out. I'm struggling to eat, not because I'm not hungry but because nothing tastes right. I'm sure if I can increase my calories a bit the shakiness will subside and hopefully the panic attacks too. My husband almost took me to the hospital the other night because I was in such a crazy panic attack. Has anyone else experienced this? In think the trauma of the surgery, the meds and lack of calories are taking it's tole on me. However, I do love my beautiful nose and I don't want to sound like I'm complaining, this is an amazing gift. Just wondering when y'all felt well enough to get back to normal life again or if anyone has experienced some of the things I've been going through. Thank you all so much!! This group is such a blessing!!
Jaime

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Firstly, your nose is already gorgeous! Can't wait to see pics of it completely healed. I never had a nose job, but I did have breast implants put in over a decade ago. I also waited a long time (years) to make the decision to finally do it. When I was ready, I did all my homework and interviewed three "top docs" in my city (I actually loathe that phrase now as the "top docs" are rarely who you think they are). I booked with a great doctor who had worked on several of my friends. The results were flawless, everything I had hoped they would be. Nonetheless, I started having panic attacks almost immediately. I was not prone to panic attacks; I had never experienced one before the surgery. Nobody warned me that this happens. I couldn't look down in the shower for almost three months. At one point, I wanted to cut them out of my body b/c they felt so foreign to me. It turned out that most of my friends had experienced similar reactions but never mentioned it. I don't know why more people don't talk about this. Based on my admittedly unscientific research, this is not an uncommon reaction. Be patient. Take care of yourself. Eat something! 300 calories a day is not enough. :-) You need calories and nutrients to heal. You also don't want to pass out from hunger and land on your face and ruin your beautiful new nose. ;-) Hope this information helps. I think you will hear from a lot of people that they panic after surgery. It does get better. Good luck with the rest of your healing process.
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Thank you so much for sharing your story with me!!! It's a tremendous help to know I'm not alone!!!
Ohhh I love your new nose! It hardly looks swollen compared to mine, and you can already see a beautiful shape to it. How great for you!! PS Im laughing at myself for saying I would pray that happy thoughts and sunshine come your way. I did not realize you live in AZ. You dont need sunshine haha you would probably like some clouds and cooler temps!
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Turning a corner (I think)

I gave my little boy a bath tonight and that felt like victory to me. I also finally was hungry enough to eat something substantial. I've lost 10 lbs in 10 days. Feeling less dizzy and no panic attacks tonight. Ahhhh, I'm hopeful I'm getting to the other side of this. Thank you to all my real self buddies for being such great sources of support for me. What a journey we are all on!

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Post more pictures! I'm loveing the new nose
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Awe!! Thank you!! I will post more soon. I want to post pics with my hair and makeup done, I just haven't had the energy for that yet.
Your nose is absolutely beautiful. I live in Phoenix and have been looking for a doctor to do my nose. Your doctor did such a great job! Can't wait to see more pictures.
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Tomorrow will be better

I haven't posted any new pics lately because my nose has really gotten swollen in the past few days, especially between my eyes where my nose meets my forehead. I've been getting headaches daily too. (Anyone else dealing with this) the congestion and swelling internally are not much better either. It seems patience is the key here. I made an appointment with. Doctor to talk about the unrelenting panic attacks I've had since the surgery, coupled with bouts of sobbing. (Which isn't helping with the congestion) I still haven't left the house, and can't seem to get a grip on the anxiety. In addition I physically don't feel great. I'm tired easily and feel so rundown. Is there anyone in this community that can shed some light on what's going on. It seems like most blogs I read people are out and about excited to show off their new noses and I'm just feeling victorious if I take a shower and do a load of laundry. Gosh, this post sounds so negative and I'm not a negative person at all, but these past 2 weeks have been such a struggle emotionally for me. I would love some feedback from anyone that had a difficult time with anxiety and healing after their procedure. Thank you all so very much. I appreciate each one of you that responds to my updates, and I love the support found here.

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I agree, your nose is looking great! I think you're definitely right to see your doctor about the panic. I think I've been going through a lot of what you're experiencing - but not so much of the panic this time. However, I think I know where you are with that as well. I experienced post partum depression that was horrendous! I was panicked, immobilized, uncontrollable sobbing, suicidal thoughts, etc.. Completely unexpected and inexplicable. I was not able to look at my situation from the outside and reason with myself or apply logic to get myself through it. That's the time when you need somebody else to guide you out. I hope your situation isn't that dire, but, whatever the severity, I think you'll feel better knowing that somebody else is on the job (doctor, friends, support) and it's not just you looking out for your well-being when you're in a weakened state. I think having young children can contribute to a more vulnerable mental state as well. I had 4 little ones at one time but I felt more overwhelmed when it was just one, rather than 4). I hope I'm not sounding too preachy. I'm not a professional in this area. I'm just a mom with a little hindsight. I feel like we're both in a "state of mind" process that has a beginning, middle and end. It sounds like you're through the beginning, well into the middle and the end, in a positive sense :-), is on the way. I know this post is getting long! Last thing: I'm about 2 weeks ahead of you post op. This is the first week I started easing back into work at my office. It's not automatic but I'm gettin there little by little. I know you will as well. Take care!
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Swelling is for the birds

Ok, so now at almost 3 weeks Po I notice my cheeks are really puffy, and my eyes are still a little swollen. Also, my skin is so bad right now. What's up with that? I haven't worn make up in 3 weeks, you'd think my skin would be glowing. Anyone else still dealing with a swollen face and eyes 3 weeks out? Thanks for your feedback everyone. Y'all have been my lifeline through this!!

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More pics

My nose is subtly changing every day. The congestion gets worse at night and my saline spray is still my best friend. Anxiety is ever so slightly improving, and I'm hopeful I'll be feeling more like myself soon.

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Ohhh I love that last pic you posted. It looks so little!! I like that your nose tip isn't too piggy like. I sure hope my tip drops a little soon. I think the angle yours is at would be perfect.
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Thanks laura_lee!! It's still really swollen inside and outside. There's now a bump at the top, but I'm not too worried about it. If it didn't change from this point on it is still worlds better than before. I'll just be happy when the congestion is gone and my energy is back. I miss the gym so much!
I miss the gym too! Yesterday my doc said I can start working out/swimming again, but Im scared to bump it and ruin it! I think Ill wait an extra week...

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So, a few days ago I noticed a weird odor in my nose. I ignores it for a day or two but then decided i should call my surgeon. He said that is NOT normal. He asked me if it smelled like a dirty old gym sick, and I said YES! He said it's a staph infection. So, now I'm on an antibiotic ointment and oral antibiotics. Grrrrrr!! Has anyone else experienced this?

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I hope you feel better!
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I started smelling something on day 4 of after surgery. I thought it was the tape because it smelt like old wet bandaid. I can still smell it faintly every now and then without the cast on so i was thinking its just dry blood or whatever is left up there. I'll be calling and checking if this is normal now ! Hope you get well soon :)
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Thanks! I would call and check just to be safe. Mine is only in my right nostril, and it's pretty stinky. :-( I'm glad I caught it early enough though.

Is it changing at all?

I really can't tell if the swelling is going down or not. I can still feel it in my forehead and right eye, which is weird because I only bruised on the right side and have the most congestion in the right nostril. Tip is still numb and I don't fully have my smile back. Some pain in my cheeks and on the bridge still, but Friday will be my one month mark, and I'm sure things will continue to get better.

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I'm loving it even more now! I can really see the swelling decrease.
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There's definitely improvement!
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Seriously looks SO good!!! And it will only get better, gorgeous!
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I like my nose today.

Today is a decent nose day. I even went to a boutique in phoenix that sells my favorite lotion. (That's huge for me right now) little baby steps, but I'll take 'Em.

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Oops.

Forgot to post a before pic of me from the front. Huge difference! It's crazy!

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PS your eyebrows are amazing! Such arch! I'm jealous. I have naturally blonde hair, so I have to color what little bit of hair I have. Paired with your tiny nose, your eyes look big and beautiful!
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Thank you laura_lee! It's so funny that you say that! I have such issues with my eyebrows! I hate them! I'm trying to not pluck them right now, let them grow in and have a professional so them. Believe me, mine are penciled in a lot. They are so uneven.
I love your new nose! I would enjoy it now even tho it's swollen. Cause it looks adorable!
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Almost 2 months Po

I haven't had the smoothest recovery, but for the first time in my life I took a pic of myself and didn't hate it! :-) I'll never be one to post selfies all over social media (I think that's narcissistic and weird) but I will post pics here. I feel like I've been through a lot with this surgery and I'm excited to finally be excited about what this decision has done for me. Changing my nose has set me free from so many insecurities, and I know I'll never grace the cover of any magazine, but to be able to look at a picture of myself and not cringe is so liberating. I'm looking forward to seeing the final result, but in the mean time I'm beyond thrilled to leave my old nose behind and move on with my life.

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Looking really good. I think you're going to be even happier as time reduces even more swelling. You really look great...congrats!
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Thank you faith 2012! It's surprising to me that at 10 weeks Po there is still a noticeable amount of swelling both internally and externally. I really can't wait for everything to be healed and feel normal again.
You look great..looking forward to the 3 month update..
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