5'5, 117 lbs 325hp donut lift- Scottsdale, AZ

I got a donut lift with 325hp. My boobs did swell back up again. right is really high and tight and right back under the collarbone. left is hanging lower-so now they are dofferent sizes and different places : (. The bruising is still prominent all over with colors changing to more deep purples and blacks in some areas and yellows and greens in others. i know this is the normal progression of a bruise. not concerned. incisions around the areola's on both boobs broke open a bit-probably from me changing the steri strips every day. I have bandaged them back up coveing them completely with gauze for now. Go back to ps next week for2 week check up. tried on some of my clothes and all my xs shirts no longer fit : ((. I am wearing loose clothing from my post pregnancy fat years to try to keep the massive swollen boobs less noticable. I am not used to wearing baggy clothing anymore. I normally wear fitted yet comfortable clothing. but my normal tops arent fitting. i actually wore a maternity dress the other day : (. I look in the mirror and see a fat matronly woman. i look pregnant. I look older. I am frustrated with sleeping on my back. I cant believe i didnt think about looking bigger!! I never noticed anyone else looking like they gained weight before I had the surgery. i used to lift my boobs in the mirror and imagine what it would look like and t always seemed to make me look thinner in the waist. but i look in the mirror now and these things are huge and The rest of my body looks like it has also expanded to compensate. I know it is probably water retention. i know my body is healing and it is a slow process but I am frustrated and sorry and sad. i didnt expect to be sad about this!! I thought it would increase my self confidence. roght now I feel way more self conscience!! i am not myself. i dont feel like me. i cant dress like me because my clothes dont fit right and even if they did, i am worried people will know. maybe i shoildnt have done this. I feel like my fake boobs are announcing to the world that I have self image issues and no self esteem. i wanted to feel stronger. But i feel weaker and want to hide further in my shell : (. I told my husband they are too big. He saidthey looked saggy in all the sweat shirts and hoodies i have been wearing. i assure him they werent sagging! took my clothes off and showed him-first time he has seen them (although nipples are still completely covered with gauze). he looked and said they look good but really big. they are warn to the touch and still very swollen today and so tight the skin is white and pulled. he asked if i was going to have another surgery. I said no-but was glad he asked because I sort of feel like he would support me to have them reduced if they dont get much smaller. anyone else feel this way after?? please tell me.

My husband came through for me today??. I have been able to rest and relax for most of the day. my swelling has gone way down!! yeah!!! but I am headed off to bed now so they may be back up in my collarbone again by morning. I can definitely tell looking down at them right now that they have started to shrink and drop. i can tell in the pics from today compared to day one that they are already lower. but again, I bet they are swollen and hard tomorrow morning. we shall see : ). had a little fashion show with myself too while the hubs had the kids out. have a bag of old nighties I NEVER wore because my old boobs just didnt work in them. Actually took the tag off of a wedding lingerie I got for my husband 12 years ago but never wore because after i bought it and tried it on, realized if I wore that with my old boobs on my wedding night, there would be no consummating our marriage-total turn off. But now-things have changed ; ).

glad to see they are shrinking a bit. no boob greed here!! need these girls to relax and sink in a bit more!! No one is supposed to be able to tell. As of now, they are calling out 'we are here! we are here!' ; ).

i slept a total of 3.5 hrs last night. i couldnt get comfortable. my boobs are still so swollen and high and tight. i am sleeping on my back but just couldnt get comfortable last night. had to sleep on couch because my husband out our youngest to bed in my spot : /. I think i am beyond exhausted now and cant sleep. husband didnt help again last night. he isnt going to. He has work meetings today so I am on my own again. i know I sound like a huge whiner but I just sort of thought i shouldnt have been expected to heal in 2 days and return to business as usual-which is he goes to work and comes home and naps and relaxes all night while I stay home and work and work some more and work all night-have surgery and heal in 2 days and get back to work! I guess its true what they say 'moms arent allowed to be sick'. even though i am not sick and I am doing well-I dont think its probably good for my body to push it with barely any down time AND not be sleeping!! i am so frustrated right now!!! exhausted and cranky and sore and swollen and feel like the new boobs make me look fat!! i am officially miserable!!!!!!