Held my Hand Through the Whole Process - San Diego, CA
Being a small chested woman isn’t one of the...
- 31 Oct 2012
Being a small chested woman isn’t one of the easiest things in life. Although it wasn’t something that completely overtook my life, every so often, I would feel terrible when I couldn’t get that cute dress because my chest didn’t fill it correctly. I would dream of getting implants one day but it was merely that, a dream.
However, one day, while shopping for my nursing bra a couple of weeks before having my baby, I could not find any store that carried my small size bra. Now, not only could I not fill in clothes, but also it made me feel as a failure as a mother. As silly as it might sound, I felt that not having the ability to fit in a nursing bra meant I wouldn’t be able to breastfeed, and in turn, be a bad mother. As I stood there crying in the store, it was my husband who felt so bad for me, that he told me he would get me implants if it would make me feel better.
Well, mommy-hood consumed my life for the next year but the idea never really left my mind and really resurfaced when a good friend got them done. My husband encouraged me to go ahead and begin researching. All he asked was that I go with a reputable doctor.
I looked at several doctors online and actually considered going with a doctor I was familiar with due to the fact that he is also known for taking out wisdom teeth. My husband didn’t really feel comfortable with that idea so he asked me to keep searching. This began my research into safety, which had both good and negative effects. On the positive note, it brought me to a reputable doctor, Dr. Pousti. On the negative side, it caused me to fear the procedure.
I told my husband I no longer wanted the surgery but he told me to go in for a consult just to check things out. He said it would help ease my fear. Going in was real fun, the staff was so friendly and Dr. Pousti was so nice. They answered all my questions and I had many… many questions. I was so excited. Knowing I would overthink it if I didn’t act soon, I scheduled my appointment as soon as possible.
Sure enough, a day later, as woke up and looked into my sons crib, I woke up feeling extremely anxious. What was I doing? I was going into a surgery, an elective surgery, and putting my body at risk. I began to feel that I was wrong in wanting something that had a chance of leaving my son without a mother. I was afraid I would not wake from surgery to see him grow up.
I will admit, I was still extremely anxious over the anesthesia going in, but kept as distracted as I could, again knowing I was in the best of hands. I left for surgery that day kissing my baby telling him I would see him in a few hours.
And thankfully, I woke up. No negative reactions, just a more confident mommy to go back and play with her baby.
I called Dr, Pousti’s office immediately and tried to cancel my appointment. The staff member was so kind with me and said she would cancel it if I wanted but asked me to do her a favor and come in and talk to Dr. Posuti one more time just in case he could clear up any questions for me. Though reluctant, I went in and not only Dr. Pousti, but also the girls all talked to me and tried to calm my nerves. Dr. Pousti took the time to sit me and answer the same questions and never once made me feel dumb for being so terrified. He was not pushy either and actually told me to think about it a little longer. Everyone was being so supportive, including my family that I felt I could do this. After some prayer time, right there in the office, with my grandma, I said, “lets do this!” knowing that God would give me courage and Dr. Pousti and his team would be the best to do the job. Dr. Pousti was so kind during the next week before the surgery. He even had the anesthesiologist call me and answer any questions I had. She was so kind. She called me about 5 times that weekend, her days off, trying to contact me to ease my nerves. Her kindness to do this made me know I was going to be with a team that really cared about their patients. Dr. Pousti also called me to check up on me and continue to encourage me to be brave. I know I must have been so annoying but he never lost his patience and kindness with me. The surgery center staff was also really nice. Every nurse was aware that I was nervous and did all they could to keep me distracted and calm. The scrub nurse was the sweetest, telling me she would hold my hand while I went under. Her and Dr. Pousti smiled at me as I went to sleep. I thank God so much for allowing me to wake up and I thank Him for sending me to the best possible, kindest, most compassionate and intelligent doctor and staff to help mommy feel more feminine and confident in her looks. I highly recommended Dr. Pousti! He held me hand through this whole thing ☺