I Wanted to Shave of a Tiny Bump off my Nose... oversharing... dont do it

I have always been a pretty confident girl. I never had any problems with my looks but I always had 1 insecurity which was this tiny bump on my nose which noone but just me saw. I liked the shape and size of my nose so it was only shaving off of the bump which had the size of a pimple that small... But I thought well I'm doing this just to get rid of it and if the before and after are the same and noone notices .. no problem i'll me mentally happy! my goal before I got in was not to become prettier which is weird? I just wanted to be mentally free of 1 insecurity at 21 years old!

So then I went in and I felt amazing during my recovery week with the bandage on. I only needed a small bandage because it was a small shave off... No bruising nothing... everything went great!
But when the bandage came off my nose was so swollen that it almost gave me heartattack. My nose was straight but really swollen. So smart me decided to go to school with no make up with the swelling because the plastic surgeon said no one would notice... They did... causing my entire class to ask me what wat going on with my nose:) this was also a lesson of 4 hours in which I sat there in agony.. and since my education is about skin care we began to watch a movie about how people who get a lot plastic surgery were fake and it was stupid. So this was when the depression started... I got a knot in my stomach and felt reaaaally bad... You really do not need to be watching stuff and hearing stuff like that during recovery because you will question the decision you were 100% sure about... I JUST HATED THAT I WENT TO SCHOOL ON THAT DAY... and I blamed myself...
So I just told the class I filled in my nose with fillers to get rid of the bump instead of surgery... But in my head I had so many emotions... I really thought that my nose had made me something I was not... prettier ? I was allready pretty but this made me beautiful in my eyes... and I felt fake because I was pretty but this beautiful? What are you complaining about you might ask? But I will tell you it's a real psychological mindfuck to feel beautiful after getting a tiny bump removed.. maybe I wa smore insecure than I thought? So before I was pretty... Tiny bump shaved off... After I was beautiful ... and for everyone around me the same but for me in my head... A HUGE CHANGE and like it was not meee
So the entire 2 weeks I was complaining and crying and telling everyone I felt fake ... to my class and my family and they all reassured me that there was no difference...
Then the day came after two weeks that the swelling was going down and after a month post-op it was completely my old nose but without the little bump...
So the endresult is after a month everything I wanted... my nose which was straight but not perfect as in the swelling period.. but now I regret the past month so much...
I told everyone that I felt fake... and now when I look good I always think they are thinking 'she looks good but shes fake'... 'she looks good but her nose is not hers' she looks good but I would never want to be in her shoes because she had a nosejob' I will never get plastic surgery because it can cause that drama'
Like even with the BEST RESULT ... I'm the posterchild for why not to get plastic surgery???

So basically what I'm trying to say... I feel like I love my nosejob and the fact that the bump is gone...
But I also feel very depressed because noone thaught I was fake untill I said it 10000 times... Now when they see me they probably think she;s pretty but its not her real face or something... my class my family..
not because they think it.. but because I put it in their heads during a crazy post-op mental state!

I definitly do not feel fake anymore and hate the fact that I told my class and my family that.. and this is causing my depression.. everytime when I look good I feel like I can't show it or feel good about it because its not really me for them... not after what I said.. I wish I just never told anyone... now sometimes they even make jokes ... you're fake and it hurtsss me sooo much because I caused these jokes to happen!!! by my class and by my family.... and people can say all they want about: If you feel pretty and not fake anymore... show it then they will think it too... but I just don;t seem to believe that they will ever forget.. Its a real mindfuck and I hate feeling this way... I regret the nosejob just because of this feeeling so imagine how crazy and depressed it feels... while everyone seems happy around you
and youre results couldnt get any better sooo... you feel also stupid because you feel this way

So with this I will tell everyone wanting to get a nosejob... DON'T TELL ANYONE... and if you tell just youre family make sure you open youre mouth about the results after a month if its negative!!! Noone will forget what you say... and never feel listen to any other opinions about plastic surgery...

I see so many girls with a straight perfect nose who are ugly as hell... its the way my nose without a bump looks on ME... kim kardashian who shaved of her bump doesnt look like ashlee simpson who shaved off her bump... youre still unique because no one looks the same with any amount of plastic surgery! It's really enhancing youre unique feauture on youre unique look!
just like a make up look will look great on someone and terrible on someone else!
I wishhh I thought of this before:):P

I you get a nosejob... GO FOR IT but really keep it to yourself because noone will notice and you will have no regretsss because no one knows but you and you...