My Bariatric Life from Fat to Fab in 1-year! Dr. Joseph F. Capella Transformed Me! Body Lift, Arm Lift, Breast Lift, Thigh Lift
I had a tummy tuck and mons lift with Dr. Joseph F...
Have begun my pre-admittance tests, excited and scared
Tomorrow is the mammogram. Then next Wednesday I get my fasting labs and will be examined by my ObGyn to be cleared for surgery.
I am excited for my surgery. I imagine how curious it is going to be to wake up much smaller than when I went to sleep. However I got butterflies in my stomach when I saw a few pix of the OR today. Not sure why but I got scared.
So glad that I will be spending the two weeks prior to surgery in California with my daughter, SIL, and granddaughter for her birthday. I'll be having fun and not worrying about surgery. Once in NJ I have plans with friends to keep me in a positive spirit.
It won't be long now... just about a month out from my transformation.
Cleared for Surgery!
THEY ARE ALL GOOD!
I've got some other issues going on but nothing that will stop me from surgery. I am working with my PCP to rule out Addison's Disease. I've got some symptoms and so we want to check it out. There is a special protocol that needs to be followed for surgery if a patient has Addison's Disease.
I've been so stressed the last few weeks. Now with everything in order, I am going to enjoy this journey that I have waited so long for. I have wanted Dr. Capella to do these surgeries since 2006. It is great to realize a dream.
Have been freaking out
I finally made a conscious decision to let go. I had been spiraling out of control getting carried away with my emotions. It took me an entire day to process the letting go, and I my stomach was in knots the entire day even though I was at the salon for 2-hours getting pampered. Since then I have felt fine.
I am grounded and will go into surgery with a positive attitude. I've waited for this moment for a long, long time.
Saying goodbye to my fat clothes
Most everything will go to charity. A few things here and there fit. Some I may be able to have altered. And there are a few pieces that are so new and expensive like my Tahari and Kasper suits. I plan to sell these on eBay to help finance my new wardrobe. I thought that I would lament getting rid of some of my beautiful suits and such. Instead I feel like I am ceremoniously shaking off the past and saying hello to a whole new future.
I am going to wait at least 3.5 months before I buy anything after my body lift. I made the mistake of buying many size 12 clothes after my TT. Then at 3.5-mos post op I dropped to a size 8 almost overnight. Within two weeks I lost an additional 2" off my waist and those clothes no longer fit.
Goodbye past, hello future... I look forward to the journey!
Down to the wire and I am being screened for rare diseases
To cut to the chase, I asked him to screen me for Addison's Disease. This is a rare disease and not likely that I have it. But he agreed that based on my symptoms we should check it out. The reason this is important is because people with Addison's can go into coma or die from anesthesia unless they are treated with cortisone.
He also may check me for pheochromocytoma, another rare disease, which he suggested owing to my BP spikes continuing even though he put me on lisinopril. My understanding is that people who have this can go into cardiac arrest from anesthesia.
I will learn more on Wednesday during my consult with an endocrinologist. Keep your fingers crossed for me for all to be well. I do not want my surgery cancelled. As I am on a plane headed for Cali on Friday, we are really taking this down to the wire. It has been a real nail biter that last few weeks.
"You have an open balance of $0.30"
Really looking forward to this!
Now I am excited once again for my surgery. I don't even have all of my questions answered at this point but I am not stressing over it. I will have two consults with Dr. Capella before surgery and will get my answers then.
I am off on a plane to Cali on Friday. The next two weeks will be fun! Then after that is my surgery and a two week recovery in NJ. Wish me luck!
Rare diseases ruled out... more or less
I discussed pheochromocytoma with Dr. Capella today and he said more than likely it would have shown up in my last surgery (April) if I had it. That was relieving. I don't want anything to stop my surgery.
The Endo said I absolutely do not have Addison's but mentioned that I have symptoms that might indicate Conn syndrome or aldosteronism. So I told him to test me for that. He is running some blood tests and doing a 24-hr urine collection. I believe all the results will be available next week - some of the labs he requested are unusual and have to be sent to a special lab and thus take longer to process. From what I have read the aldosteronism doesn't seem to be a cause to post pone the surgery. All of these conditions are related to the adrenal glands, so there could be something going on there.
Geez, it just occurred to me that wherever I go today I will have to take the giant urine collection bottle with me. Every drop of urine today must be captured. Lovely... I will be at the aesthetician for 2-hours. Thank goodness it is a private salon and so only she and I will be there.
Well, I am on my flight tomorrow and so very much looking forward to seeing my girls and SIL! I may not be online until after my surgery, so please wish me good health, speedy recovery, and a beautiful body.
I have been trying to get here since 2006
I am so thrilled with my life after my tummy tuck that I’ve decided to follow through with my plan to get “all of me” done. Since 2006 I have dreamed of getting a total body transformation with Dr. Capella. This included a lower body lift (tummy tuck, mons lift, outer thigh lift, and buttock lift), upper body lift (arm lift, breast lift, and flankplasty), breast augmentation, and face and neck lift.
However I decided to start with a tummy tuck rather than get all of those surgeries on my wish list. I decided that I would judge the results of my tummy tuck and weigh this against the potential results, pain, scars, and cost of the additional procedures. From there, I would determine if I would undergo additional body contouring.
I had many consults with Dr. Capella to fully understand what my results and my scars would look like. That was the biggest decision for me – was I willing to trade off some excess skin and cellulite for scars? By this time, I was not too concerned with the pain of recovery or the cost associated with body contouring. Dr. Capella pulled my skin to show me how my body and face would look tightened. He showed me where my incisions would be and pointed to my old gastric bypass scar and told me that my incisions would look like that over time. It was clear to me what I wanted to do.
I cannot wait for October 10th. I am excited and nervous.
This summer I wore a bikini for the first time in decades. And that was just from a tummy tuck. I cannot imagine what I will look like next summer.
Tests showed Cortisol Levels High
High cortisol levels explain why I was freaking out so badly. I quote: "With this ‘haze’ of hormone that is always high and active in your bloodstream (and you won’t know it until you test for it….), it creates a nightmare existence for you. It is an emotional haze, too. It’s not in your head, it’s zeroed in and targets our entire emotional structure. And unless the person is on top of this uncontrollable anxiety emotional state, they live a life in Hell. And so do the people who are associated with this person."
All of my physical and emotional symptoms began in early June. Of all the physicians I've seen recently, my Endocrinologist was the ONLY physician to ask the fundamental question: What changed for you in June? I told him that I suffered a traumatic event. He cared enough to dig deeper and process with me the trauma that I had been through. Of all my trusted doctors, he was the only physician that did not turn a blind eye to me, and this is what I had been looking for all along: to be validated and believed.
Sudden trauma can create the high cortisol levels situation. My upcoming plastic surgery is triggering the cortisol. This is PTSD - it doesn’t have to be in a war zone or in combat–it can be at a house fire, sexual assault, death of a loved one, etc.
1-Week Until Surgery, I've Pumped Up My Work Outs
Right before surgery his office tells me they do not have my medical clearance!
Maybe I am over-reacting?
I spent 2-hrs speaking with Dr. Capella and Scott today
Sick the day before surgery
Surgery day is here!
Being transparent with your surgeon
Walking into the OR
First two days of recovery were hard
The pain was not in the surgery site per se. It felt like something was pulling from the surgery site, though, if that makes sense. The pain was in my upper abdo and if I touched it I would cry out. Then it seemed to grow across my abdo. I cried on and off from 2-6 am that first night after my surgery. The pain was of course worse because I wasn't on any pain killers. Unfortunately by the time my surgeon arrived at 6 am the pain had subsided. I was watching the clock waiting for him to arrive as I wanted to show him what was happening.
On top of this, I was immobilized. My tailbone hurt like heck but I could not move to takeaway the pressure. They placed a donut under me but it did not help. I could not even move my hair from behind my neck and it was sticking to me from all the tears.
To make things worse, At the care center they did not want to clean me and I was menstruating. I was glad that I brought cleansing clothes with me, but I could not reach all the way down between my legs to get all the blood. They actually wanted me to lay here on a pad and bleed for 3 nights and not clean me. What the heck, they change old people's diapers and clean them so what was the big deal?
So there I lay in pain and crying and trying to clean myself as best I could. I managed to get my tampon in even with the cath in the way. The nurse would not help me with that either. It is not easy to change a tampon with a catheter in and your arms all cut and bandaged.
At the shift change one aid asked me why I had been crying. I told her of the pain and of my ordeal. She and a nurse apologized that I had been treated that way and they cleaned me up and put a new tampon in me. Yes, all dignity has now been removed but when I am feeling pain or discomfort I am not embarrassed to let healthcare professionals take care of me in whatever way they need to. I am just so relieved to have their help. It was actually quite funny because the aid who was in her 50s had never used tampons. She watched the nurse while I was bent forward as she inserted my tampon and asked some funny questions. She wanted her to make sure she left the string hanging out so that it did not get lost inside me and wanted to know if that had ever happened to me. The nurse and I did our best to explain why tampons don't crawl up inside your uterus. Anyway, the levity made a somewhat embarrassing situation better.
I asked my surgeon for a non narcotic pain reliever and he prescribed Ultram. It was enough to take the edge off but not effective at deep pain management. So the next night was hard, as well...
Second day of recovery was hard
Later that night some awful pains returned in my sides going all the way up my abdomen. It felt like burning and prickers sticking into me and a pulling sensation. I guess it is the skin stretching or nerves firing off??? I kept moving my binder to try to get it off the areas where I hurt. The pain was bad but at least I was not crying.
I kept watching the clock waiting in pain for my surgeon to arrive. I think that I must have broken down and taken narcotics because when he arrived I was pretty out of it. And of course just like the night before, the pain was gone so I couldn't show him where it was and he could not observe what was happening.
He cut away and removed my bandages and I recall him telling me that I would feel better getting them off as they wee constrictive. At that point all that I could feel was pain. He and the nurse pulled my arms to lift me and remove my robe and the surgical bra and abdo binder. I do not recall there being any pain with the removal of the surgical binder but I do remember crying out and telling my surgeon not to pull my arm so hard. He was as gentle as possible, as was the nurse, but I was in pain.
I also recall crying out in pain when he removed the gauze from the incisions in my arms and legs because it had stuck in certain places to the incisions.
He cut my binder into three strips so that I could use one in the shower to hold the drains and one dry one to hold the drains otherwise. Plus one extra. I was glad not to have that big scratchy binder on me any more.
I did not think that I would have any pain from the incisions but I did. I did not have incision pain from my tummy tuck that I had already had done. My surgeon said he thinks that the pain may be so great from the TT muscle plication that patients never notice the pain of the incision. I agree with that.
I remember my surgeon saying something about my boobs being small but looking good because they were now nicely shaped. I think that I was rubbing them and saying how hard they were. But it was funny to hear that my small boobs looked good because I have long been told that my big boobs looked good. I look to be about a B cup.
Later I had the nurse remove the catheter and had an aide give me a shower. I felt like a whole new person and I began walking without the walker. That night was my first pain-free night and I slept like a baby.
Pain free after my 2nd night and on my own after the 4th night
I stayed in the care center a total of 4 nights just to make sure I would be safe on my own in the hotel for the next 10 nights before flying home. I made sure that I could shower and dress myself, walk well enough on my own, and get in and out of a flat bed unassisted.
I felt so good my day of discharge that my friend and I went driving through the Hudson River Valley to see the Fall foliage. We would get out at stops along the way and take in the views. Then we went to dinner.
Once back at my hotel, I asked my friend to set up everything so it was accessible to me. This meant putting out all of my food, setting up my water bottle, and placing my open suitcase up high so I could access the contents.
I am staying in an ADA room at the hotel so that I have a walk in shower with chair, hands rails next to the toilet, etc. it makes it safer and easier for me to take care of myself. I make sure that my cell phone is plugged in on my nightstand as is the hotel phone. Both are within easy reach of my bed should I have an emergency.
I bought some Delsym for the dry hacking cough I've been having for the past few days. I am surprised at how exerted I become just doing the littlest activity. Going to my surgeon's office yesterday and then for a light dinner really knocked me out. I came back to the hotel and slept for hours.
I think that I am going to really push the fluids today to see if that helps. My last blood test showed I was a little dehydrated. That could really make one feel crummy.
A visit from the paramedics
I lay there for a while In bed to see if my breathing would normalize. And I tried to fall back to sleep. Then suddenly I thought what if it is a pulmonary embolism and my SOB increased. So although I did not think anything serious was wrong, I called my surgeon as I had promised. I told him that I did not know if this SOB was serious or just anxiety. So he told me to call the hotel front desk and have them bring the paramedics who could tell the difference.
The paramedics arrived fairly quickly. My BP and pulse were elevated but my lungs were clear and my blood oxegyn was good. So I don't have a PE, which is what I thought all along but both my surgeon and the paramedic said it is best to make sure and always call for help when you have shortness of breath.
First set of drains pulled
I have had a lot of blood leaking from the drains sites. I wasn't hemorhaging (sp) but my pants are ruined with blood stains down the leg, across the groin, and in the front. But I am happy to say that all of my incisions look really good and healthy. They checked over my incisions and thought the same. My surgeon said one or more drains were clogged so the PA stripped the remaining two.
I am walking more erect today so I guess pulling the drains had something to do with that. I am looking forward to next week when they pull the last set so I can finally see my body unobstructed in the full length mirror and see what I look like. I sure hope that I am fully erect by then.
So far I am in love with my thighs and my mons. They look so great!!! It will be nice to stand erect and actually see my boobs and arms together. And I still need to be able to see my arse. I want to see a full head on view from the back.
I am an idiot!
Feeling so good so soon!
I went to see my surgeon and PA to discuss my concerns. I was quite sure they would be able to explain everything and address my concerns. And they did. Still, right now I'd like to fast forward 3-months. I felt the same way after my tummy tuck... I wanted to make time fly.
"Bat Sh*t Crazy"
Throughout this review I have expressed deep gratitude for Dr. Capella. But I also have released deep feelings of fear surrounding my 6-hour surgery by lashing out against his practice. Trivial things have sent me into a panic again and again. Although it was not done with malice, my words when read here on this review hurt those people who were trying to help me.
Terry, Dr. Capella's surgical coordinator, told me today that I went bat sh*t crazy and wrote those posts above. Yes, I sure did. She told me my emotions were out of control. Yes, they surely were. She was extremely hurt and angry, and for that I am very sorry.
Throughout this review I have written about freaking out, being hysterical, trying twice to cancel my surgery, against the backdrop of facing this surgery on my own, emotional trauma, and a battery of tests and doctors' appointments to screen me for rare diseases, and clinical findings that my cortisol levels are high. What was supposed to be an uplifting experience and major life achievement has been a bat sh*t crazy emotional journey that is not yet over.
I've got to get through this recovery. Then I have one more surgery and recovery ahead.
Did I mention that I love my vag?
After my tummy tuck, he made me look normal. No more monster crotch. It was a remarkable transformation.
I asked him to do better at my next surgery. He said sure, I can make you tighter. I know just how I am going to fix you.
So he revised me. And now I cannot believe how freaking sexy my vag looks. And my thighs. And my flat tummy. It is the total package but I can't help but gaze at my vag in the mirror. I cannot believe what a phenomenal job he did.
I asked him to make me look normal. But he made me look spectacular. Wow.
Last set of drains pulled, hurrah!
He said my incisions all look very good and that my healing is going very well after such a big surgery. I agree. I can compare my incisions this time around to my TT incision last April and these incisions just seem to be healing much more beautifully. I attribute it to the supplements I take, especially the glutamine, as well as being in much better physical condition this time around. I weigh less, eat better, and exercise - in fact I pumped up my work outs two weeks prior to surgery to build my body to endure and have a better recovery. A big thanks to my daughter/coach for motivating me and developing the work outs and hikes!
I cannot wait for the next 3-mos to fly by so my body is healed and I can see my results. The waiting is hard! I look crummy without being able to do hair and makeup, wear nice clothes, and being all swollen. My waist is gone! I feel fat. I know it is just temporary but I feel that I look crappy like I did 6-mos ago before my tummy tuck, well maybe not THAT bad, but close.
At least with my next (and final) surgery I will not have this back sliding. That last surgery will be my face/neck lift and implants, as well as any tweaks to my current surgery if needed.
I will post some pre op pix when I get them from my surgeon's office.
I called my surgeon and he said to take some Tylenol and call him in the morning. He said thwt sometimes when they pull the last drains the patient gets a fever although he is not really sure why.
I took the acetaminophen but had a hard night. I kept having chills and sweats from the fever. This morning I feel just lousy and I still have a fever of 101.1. So he is calling in a script for Cipro for me and told me to walk around and do deep breathing to try to knock this thing out. I have to fly home tomorrow and don't want to feel like this when I do.
He asked if any of my incisions looked red or inflamed. Nope. They look as good as ever. I do still have thwt hacking cough that I have had for about a week. I don't know if it is related to anything.
I just ate an Omelet and feel like vomiting. All I want to do is sleep.
— Steve Maraboli
If you're on the fence about weight loss surgery or plastic surgery, what is it that is holding you back from realizing your dreams?
Pre Op Stats - It only gets better from here!
Size 8 jeans
Bust w/o bra and bent over at the waist (so all the back blubber comes forward) 45"
Chest beneath breast 38"
Lower abdo 38"
Knee top 17.5"
Upper arms 14.5"
Arms just above elbow 11.75"
I've tried on my tight-fitting size 8 jeans at 1-week post op and they are loose. Woot woot! I think I will be a size 6 in 3-mos or so. My daughter told me, "Welcome to my world!" I will post stats at 3-mos post op. Stay tuned!
Guilty Pleasures from Body Contouring
My a** look hot in a pair of cheekies
My thighs and crotch look irresistible in a thigh highs
My breasts look delicious in the nude
...and in a wet t-shirt
Have adventurous unbridled sex, often
My friend who is a local artist paint a seductive nude of me (this is his specialty)
My colleague who is a photographer shoot sensual B&Ws of my naked body
Make a video of my transformation from fat to femme fatale
Naughty me for be so daring to share, but we're all ladies here, right? And let's be honest, this surgery is more about sex than anything else... do you feel my vibe?
Finally got a look at my a**
Look at my amazing thighs, and my a** isn't too bad, either, for 2 weeks post op!
Small skin opening - sh*t!
Pre op and post op a** pix
Already thinking about my implants
Prior to my BL, I was a 38D/DD. I want to look sexy and curvy with my boobs, especially since I am pretty straight from the waist to hips. My top is actually larger than my hips, I think this is called an inverted triangle shape. With this body type, I wonder if going to large with my breasts will make me look large (fat). So, I am trying to decide if I should go C, D, DD, DDD.
Most of all I do not want to look matronly (I am 49yo) or like a puta. I certainly would appreciate any advice from those who have been through it.
My surgeon does the nicest breasts I have ever seen.
Going home, finally
Actually, I feel like I am leaving home
Anyway, I feel melancholy to be leaving home and going to where I now live, a beautiful historic home over 6000sq.ft. On the River. That is not a bad place to call home. Maybe I just have to get used to it, like I have to get used to my new body. And if I don't, I always can leave. What I do know is that life is short and I refuse to be unhappy. So I will go where happiness takes me.
Sitting here at Newark airport, I am an feel the familiar rat race of the area. Life is slower in the Midwest, even though I live downtown in the city. I look around and my travel mates look as if they have come off the set of Children of the Corn. I do not mean that pejoratively. It is just that I have never seen so many homogenous fair skinned and blonde haired people in my life. It is all white bread, no marbled rye (like me), no whole wheat, no pumpernickel. I like my people tall, dark, and handsome... They way we serve it up Jersey style.
I suppose someone coming from the Midwest to NJ might have the same impression, that we all look the same. My girlfriends and I all are brunette, the men in my life have always been dark-haired and olive skinned. I also have olive skin, although my summer tan is fading I still am darker than most people in the Midwest. I wonder if they find me as unattractive as I find them?
Skin openings in both arm pits and groin
Red and swollen area around incision above right buttock is painful
Home again, home again, jiggity jig
Temps were in the 30s where I landed. I was very glad that I brought a winter jacket with me. It was the first time that I had to use it on my trip. When I began this adventure I was in shorts.
My husband had a home cooked meal waiting for me. I am thankful the airport is not far from home, and soon I was walking into the warmth of my home ready for that hot meal: organic chicken breast and sauteed fresh mushrooms, peppers, and onions.
But first I had to say HI to my three dogs. My big Boxer Blue, who is my sprinting buddy, immediately began hopping and excitedly running towards the door. I was dressed in one of my work out outfits and sneakers and so he thought we were ready to go for our usual run in the park. Max and Circa, my Boston Terriers, jumped at my legs and wanted to be petted. Of all, Blue was most happy to see me. He sat beside me and let me pet him for a long time.
When I had my tummy tuck last April, my husband was very grossed out by the incision. With this surgery he had warned me that he did not want to see my body until it was healed. So I was pleasantly surprised when he began to explore my body with all of its incisions so soon. When I asked my surgeon about sex he said to play it by ear. Being two weeks post op, I decided to follow doctor's orders and see what was possible.
We also saw what was possible the next morning. We took it slow and gentle. But I guess it was too soon and combined with the stress to the body from the hours of travel I was very swollen. I think the travel responsible for the swelling, or maybe I am entering swell hell, or both. But later that night I took a handheld mirror and looked over my body. I saw that my right armpit had opened as did my right groin, which had been troubling me for some time with pain. My right arm also was red around the incision and looked nasty. I do not know if sex had any effect on these incisions opening but I told my husband that I am off limits until further notice.
There also was a red and inflammed area around the incision above the right buttock. And this area was very painful to the touch. I tried to lay in bed and it was not possible. I had to sleep on my left side all night, which wasn't so great for my left arm.
Anyway, I phoned my surgeon because in the paperwork I signed, it states to call the office immediately if excessive pain, increased swelling or redness around the incision sites happen. I sent pix to him and took my temp before calling him; temp was normal 98.6. He asked me to get a CBC done so he can check my WBC. I will have to wait until Monday morning for that.
Today I am taking it extra easy. I am pushing proteins, supplements, and lots of water. I've asked my husband to take me to the international market so I can get some mineral water to help with my healing as well as some ingredients to make an easy soup recipe that my friend made for me while I was in NJ. Homemade soup is always so comforting and healing.
I remain in good spirits. Pre op I thought that I would freak out if my incision opened but I did not. While I certainly prefer it had not happened, it is inconvenient more than anything else.
Have a nice weekend everyone! I've posted pix above of the back and armpits and groin.
Happy about my weight... Wait, did I just say that?
I cannot wait until I can do hair and makeup and put on my nice clothes again. Fly time, fly!
Surgical Incision Dehiscence
The opening on my right arm increased in length overnight. I guess it is about 3 inches in length. In the plus column, it looks like my groin closed up! My surgeon told me that the opening should stabilize in a few days when I reach my 3-week post op mark. He said until then keep gauze on the area and when I asked about Xeroform he said I was welcome to try that. My order will be here in a few days.
Right arm opened more overnight
Real Beauty Sketches
I have lost 30lbs since having my tummy tuck 6-mos ago.
Arm wounds are healing
I am super happy that with this surgery and my last I have not had any major complications. The arms and groin opening during this surgery are not all that surprising to me; I knew there was a pretty good chance that it would happen. They probably look a lot worse in the photos than they feel. They burn and certainly I cannot lift them too high, but it is more of an annoyance than anything else. I also hate the stickiness of the skin to skin contact in the armpit if I do not use gauze. Oh and the smell is gross.
Dr. C said things appear to be moving in the right direction. I think my Xeroform pads arrive today so hopefully that speeds healing along nicely.
ASPS Study Shows Weight Loss after a Tummy Tuck
Now the American Society of Plastic Surgery (ASPS) has announced that a new pilot study published in the February issue of the journal Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery shows that patients who had a tummy tuck reported increased satiety, especially those patients who were overweight or obese. Satiety is the measure of how full you feel after eating a certain amount of food during a meal. Just like me, these patients felt full when eating less after their abdominoplasty.
In addition to feeling full faster after their tummy tuck, the study showed that patients who had more fat removed during their procedures continued to lose weight post-surgery. The removal of fatty tissue, which can contain hormones that drive your appetite up, resulted in less of an appetite. The more fat tissue removed during the procedure the more the patients reported feeling less of an appetite post-surgery. Researchers believe the removal of this tissue is responsible for the decrease in appetite and the increase in satiety.
Pre Op Stats continued
Right Arm Now Opened Even More, Looks Gross
Compare this pic to the one that I posted earlier today of the right arm. Yikes.
Lots of good news
I have some odd values in my CBC and asked him if I was anemic. He said my hemoglobin is lower than what I came in to surgery with but that it is in normal range. The other values that are off he told me to ask my PCP, whom I will see tomorrow.
My core is very swollen and my waist is 4" larger than when I went into surgery. I look likea tree trunk. Dr. Capella told me that I am very swollen. He said I may have 10 lbs of swelling and told me to go weight myself. I told him I did and I weigh 10lbs less than when I came into surgery. I am 166 this morning. Yeah me!
"You're so small," he said. LOL!
I am wearing a pair of sweat pants size M that not so long ago were very tight on me. Today they are saggy and baggy. I love being "so small." LOL
Wound separation in arms, dead skin cells
Clean incisions and perfectly round areolas on the breasts
Film crew is here
Right arm is looking better
How would you deal with disappointment after body contouring plastic surgery?
I am not sure how I would deal with this if it happened to me. I was very specific with Dr. Capella about what I wanted to achieve and he said he could deliver it. So I am not even thinking in those "what if" terms that the woman mentioned to me. I believe I have chosen my surgeon very well.
i loved the results of my tummy tuck and subsequent weight loss. But it took me 3.5 months to see the final outcome. I am only 3.5 weeks now and there are areas of my body that I did not like almost immediately after surgery. They will change over time but I did discuss my concerns with my surgeon. Right away Dr. Capella told me he would revise me if I did not like the way I looked.
He was very calming in explaining how he went about my breast lift and areola reduction so that I understood how much care he took in doing the procedure. I know that he really likes the way that they came out, because he made comments about them several times after surgery to that effect. And I felt very bad having to tell him that I did not like them, but my point is that he was more than willing to revise them even though he though they looked great so that I would be happy with them. He does not charge for revisions but anything done in the OR will incur anesthesia and OR costs. As I have one more surgery coming up with dr. Capella those costs will mostly be absorbed. So, as I mentioned, I am not concerned abut having to deal with disappointment.
But what if your surgeon did not deliver the results you expected? How would you deal with disappointment if you could not afford revisionary or additional plastic surgery? If faced with that situation I do not know what I would do after having spent all my money to get the body I want.
1 Month Post Op Today!
As I reflect back upon that day, my thoughts immediately are of my surgeon's bright and smiling face peeking in at me from the door of my patient room. He gave me the biggest hello of my life, and I thought how could he be so cheerful at 7am? His exuberance was endearing and I wondered if it was that he was THAT happy to be doing my surgery or if he was attempting to put me at ease.
As for me, I was in a half conscious state of mind and numb to the the people and events around me. This was, I think, a defense mechanism of the ego to protect myself from anxiety. I was concerned that I might have a panic attack in the OR. I had been on an emotional roller coaster up until the night before surgery. But that evening a calm overcame me and I slept like a baby.
Last night I looked through all the old photographs that Dr. Capella took of my body before he did my first stage plastic surgery in April. It struck me that already I have forgotten just how awful I looked before I began this journey. Today one of the stylists at my salon told me, "You are a gorgeous woman." It is almost impossible to understand just how transformative plastic surgery can be in such a short period of time. And I am still evolving.
Finally feel like me again
But after surgery I looked and felt like crap. I could not do hair and makeup because I could not raise my arms owing to the lift. And I could not wear my nice clothes owing to all the incisions and swelling. And of course I could not exercise or go about my usual activities. It was hard emotionally. I felt like the person I was before my tummy tuck.
Yesterday I was at my salon and asked the owner to give me a new look. Cindy is so talented. She looked at the new shape of my face and body and gave me a killer cut. Today I went back for color. OMG, I love love love my new look.
What's more, today was the first day that I did a full makeup application and wore my nice clothes. I am looking good! And I am glad to say my size 8 jeans are now too big on me, especially in the he thighs and ass.
I went to the mall and tried on Hudson jeans and the size 27 (a size 6) fit nicely. I am not buying anything yet. I need to wait until about 4 mos post op to see my final results. After my tummy tuck I made the mistake of buying clothes too soon and now they are way too big.
It feels so good to look and feel like myself again. As Anna Nicole sad after her weight loss, "I'm back!"
Finally! I no longer feel big
It took 3.5 months for me to see the results of my tummy tuck. I went from my size 14 jeans being tight pre op to a perfect size 8 jean post op. What was really phenomenal is that up to 3 months post op I was a size 12. In two weeks I lost 2 inches off my waist and dropped to a size 8. I never even wore size 10 clothes, but just went directly to an 8. My total weight loss was 25lbs and I lost about 20 inches off my waist, lower abdo, and hips.
At my 4-mos post op, however, I asked my surgeon why I still felt so big. He told me that maybe I was still getting used to my body. I think that was partly the reason, because there were times that I would catch a glimpse of my reflection in a store window and have to do a double take. Was that beautiful body me?
But I also think that the remaining redundant flesh on my body made me look large especially in revealing clothes. My arms were rounded below the shoulders making me look wide. Certainly my thighs were big. My breasts were DD. My ass had nice projection from the side view.
Now after my second round of plastics, my arms are thin and the roundness gone, which makes me look more narrow. My thighs and ass are smaller and my size 8 jeans that once fit tightly are now especially baggy in the ass and thighs, particularly right under the buttocks. And my DD noobs are now B.
Initially I hated my breasts and ass. I was not at all happy that I lost projection with the lift of my buttocks. But now I really like that my profile view looks thin. I finally no longer feel big.
I plan to get implants next year and I seriously wonder if going big (D, DD) will make me look and feel large again. I do not want to feel fat.
Update on arm/axilla wounds and a first look at my breast lift
Here is a first look at my breast lift. I went from a D/ DD to about a B. Initially I hated my lift but with time I see some improvement. They look great in the sports bra but are not as perky when I am nude. If I do not like them, Dr. Capella already has told me he would revise them. Next year he will do my augmentation. I wonder if I will go C, D, or DD?
My square old ladies ass, pre op
But I noticed there was a mismatch. When I turned around my back looked like the back of a forty-nine year old woman who was once morbidly obese. As did my thighs, my buttocks, my arms, and my breasts. And, to be brutally honest, so did my once pretty face.
I hardly can believe that I am posting this pic all over the Internet. Blech.
My new thighs!
And here is what I looked like before abdominoplasty
To date, and mind you I am only 1-mos post upper and lower body lift (no TT), and inner thigh lift, and 7-mos post tummy tuck, I have lost 30lbs and more than 30in since this photo was taken in April 2013. I was probably a size 16 jeans at the time. I certainly know my 14s were tight on me. Now I am a size 6 jeans. I can even wear juniors. And I am still swollen!
And the way that Dr. Capella is sculpting my gobs of fat into a beautiful tight youthful body is remarkable. I knew that he would work wonders with my body. He is a very gifted surgeon and I am ever so happy to be in his care. Thank you, Dr. Capella!
This journey is much more than losing weight
Before and after - granny panties to thong
My Pre Op Thighs... oh my...
Someone talk me out of my tree
RS is a very positive and supportive community. I get messages both public and private complimenting me on how positive I am even through adversity. And my arm wounds are very minor, inconsequential even, when stood up against the adversities I have faced. Recognizing this, I will proceed to whine anyway.
I am so very frustrated with my arms. They are not healing. I have limited range of motion. I am confused by the conflicting information and directions I am getting from my surgeon. I feel that he does not have his attention to the details of this and neglected to send the nitrate sticks last week. To make the matter worse, he never returned my call today from 2:30pm.
So there is my whine. Now who will talk me out of my tree?
Climbed down from the tree with a little help from my friends
New clothes that fit my slimmer body
I was tempted to buy the size 4 jeans that looked so good, too, but who knows if they'll fit in a few months. I am only approaching 6 weeks post op and when I had my first surgery, a tummy tuck, my body changed drastically at 3.5 months postop and all of the new clothes I bought no longer fit. Such a waste of money! At least the leggings and sweater dress will fit no matter how my figure changes.
A size 4?!?!? I cannot believe it.
Correction: Sweater dress size XS and leggings size S (I transposed the sizes)
The choice is yours...
ISO a Gym Where I Can Get My Mojo On!
The next gym had lots of equipment but it seemed like a lower end version, the atmosphere was more energetic and played music in addition to having TVs, had a couple of cool 15 and 30 min circuits, NO classes, free fitness assessment and setup of a training circuit by a CPT, the members were kind of ghetto and the men were already eyeing me up, the women were more inspired than at the other gym. I hated the way the gym pushed "no judgement zone" and told me that I would be discouraged from wearing only my sports bra and capris to workout in. I also was warned that the male members might be lecherous. I guess I would have been more welcomed there 7-mos ago when I was fat. It was about 15-min from my home and the price was very cheap.
So deciding that neither gym offers all that I am looking for, I am going to checkout a third gym tomorrow. I actually nabbed a 2-week free trial pass to that one and will workout during my visit tomorrow. The place looks good online. It is by far the largest of the three gyms, and offers a ton of classes both in terms of variety and time of day offered. It has whirlpool, steam room, and sauna, indoor track and running lanes, special training events, and lots of equipment. Needless to say it is by far the most expensive of the three gyms. Mama always said you get what you pay for...
I hope there are bodybuilders among the members. I need someone in better shape than me to be inspired by. And I want to wear my nice workout clothes and not be the center of attention... let the male members fix their gazes on the gals who are younger and firmer than me!
Oh, and I hope there is music. I need that for inspiration, too!
Redefine your boundaries...
Found my home gym... I think
I checked out two of the area's crossfit gyms online. This is likely the mind set I am looking for -- people who are really into Paleo/Primal eating clean, heavy nutrition, and bodybuilding. But they are expensive as well as very limited in what they offer. Maybe good for a future home gym but not what will suit me right now, especially since I am not ready to do a lot of weight lifting owing to my healing/recovery from sx.
Arms are doing better
Moment of truth... my D/DD boobs
Here's a sample vid of BodyCombat 57. I highly recommend!
The Great Boob Debate
My transformation progress in photos
The left pic was me in April, just before my tummy tuck. I was a size 14/16. And if you check out my photos on the tummy tuck forum you will see my nude body, which was ugly and with a very deformed pubic area that had shamed me all of my life. I have tears running down my face right now just thinking back.
The center pic is me about 4-months after my tummy tuck. I lost 21 inches and 21 pounds. The right pic is me about 6-weeks after my second-phase surgery (upper and lower body lift and inner thigh lift). The dress from Loft is size XS and the leggings are size S. My pubic mound is so beautiful now. I cannot tell you how much it means to me to no longer be deformed in a part of my body that I so much associated with my sexuality.
Thanksgiving: 30 pounds and 35 inches lost!
Thank you, Dr. Capella, for helping me to change my body, my health, my life.
Black Friday Find: LOFT size 4 jeans, first time ever!
Arms are healing nicely
2-mos post op consult with my surgeon
Discovering my body
In fact in one discussion we were debating what the bone was protruding from the sides of our bodies. The ladies were torn between was it the rib cage or the hip bone? It turned out to be the hip bone. Hilarious.
Another conversation centered around our protruding pelvic bones... I just love mine!
As for my hips and rib cage, they are close together. I can get about two finger widths between them. I am wondering how other women are built. Does anyone care to comment?
Another thing that I learned is that the female external sex organ is called the vulva, not the vagina...
I guess I have not paid much attention to my body for a long time. So glad that I got this done. And I just have to say again, I freaking love my thighs!
GAP size XS, unbelievable
At LOFT today I was checking out a mannequin that looked quite thin. So I grabbed ahold of the jeans it was wearing and saw they were size 4, the very size that I wear at LOFT. I cannot possibly look as thin as that mannequin, can I.
I posted a selfie on Facebook of me in one of my FILA workout outfits size XS leggings and S shirt. An old friend from high school commented, "How the heck are you in a size XS? That is what size we wore in high school!" True, I was thin in high school, thinner than I am now, but even then I was not an XS.
This is still unbelievable to me. It really is. I am so glad that I chose Dr. Capella and I cannot wait for him to complete my body contouring. Not many surgeons could have delivered these results, and when you look at the total package - surgical experience, quality of care, price - then Dr. Capella stands head and shoulders above the rest.
Is this swelling or am I getting curvy?
My ass is 2 inches bigger than it was post op -- I know because I measure myself fairly often. I also can tell by looking at my profile shot here that my ass has much more projection than it did in the earlier pix that I shot.
After surgery I was not happy to have lost projection in my ass. But then I really came to love my leanness. Now I am back to having projection again and I miss my lean little ass. Holy hell, will I ever be happy?!?! LOL
It all began when I started working out recently. So I do not know if this is swelling, which my doctor said it could be, or if it is the loosening up that he told me would happen. I guess in another month or two I will see my final shape. It is kind of cool to see my body changing in unexpected ways. Whether I end up lean or curvy I will be happy either way.
Beware the hidden costs of plastic surgery!!!!!!!!!!
How a surgeon manages a patient after surgery...
As for this surgery, Dr. Capella saw me every morning in the Care Center and even on weekends. He made sure that both he and I were completely sure that I could take care of myself on my own at the hotel before I left the care center. As for aftercare, he insisted on knowing the hotel I was staying at alone in NJ. He wanted a way to get in touch with me super-fast and said he or his office would call me if they had not heard from me for a few days.
My first night in the hotel he asked that I call him at any hour of the night if I were to have a complication. He had me specifically promise to call him if I had shortness of breath and he would have me admitted to a nearby hospital. Well, I did awake from a dream with labored breathing at 4am and called him. I told him I did not know if it was anxiety induced or something serious. He told me to have the front desk send the paramedic and they would be able to tell. Later that day after surgery, Dr. Capella called me to make sure I was OK. I was fine. It was just anxiety.
Other times before I left NJ I had fevers, groin pain, depression, and my axilla opened. He saw me immediately each time and treated me. He called in prescriptions and had them delivered to my hotel. At one point his PA Scott possibly saved my life because I was taking diuretics w/o doctor's orders and depleting my body of water and potassium. I was pretty ill and he picked up on it.
Once I developed the minor arm wound back home, Dr. Capella sent me for a CBC to make sure I did not have an infection. He monitored my healing via photos and emails and phone calls. He phoned me during his lunch time on a number of occasions, as well as answered my emails and calls across the weekend. And my arm wound healed pretty much right on schedule, just as he said it would.
How a surgeon manages a patient after surgery is a true testament to his/her character and dedication. Body contouring surgery is not a singular transaction, wherein once the surgery is completed the interaction can be considered to be done. Your surgeon will need to be responsive to your needs and concerns during the months of recovery that will follow.
I have said it many times, and it bears repeating: You are not buying a procedure. You are buying a plastic surgeon.
Merry Christmas and 35 pounds down!
Merry Christmas everyone
LOFT shopping spree... wee!!!!!!!!!
I got a beautiful black pencil skirt and black sweater and a white blazer - love the outfit and the beautiful silhouette it creates paired with black tights and knee-high boots. I also bought a pretty grey jacket and grey sweater to mix and match with the skirt etc.
I got two more pair of the sexy boot jeans, one in black and one in dark grey, and another great sweater dress -- this one in black. The dress will look great with either of the jackets. And what I need most of all are tops, so I grabbed a few more sweaters.
I have found that I have to try on everything before I buy. Even in LOFT, my size varies widely. The grey jacket is a 6 and the white jacket is a 10! The jeans are 4s and the skirt is an 8. All of the sweaters are XS as is the sweater dress. But blouses simply do not fit -- a medium is completely busting open in the breast and gigantic in the waist!
Having invested all of this money into my body, I am simply not going to buy clothes that look nothing short of great on me.
Go get those bargains while they last ladies! I grabbed everything for about $360!!!
I am a Matisse piece mold
These sculptures of the perfect female form created by Matisse with the piece mold lines left in full view reminded me of my own body, perfectly sculpted with my incision lines showing how I was created.
Never underestimate your power to transform yourself
What are you waiting for? It's your ass. Move it!
From size 24W to size 14 to size 4
Happy New Year, Happy New Me
As for the shopping spree, I scooped up fabulous sales at LOFT, Gap, Banana Republic, and Lucky Brand. The best deals were at LOFT but I nabbed a pair of $130 jeans at Lucky Brand for $30! It is so much fun to buy all these small sizes AND save a ton of cash. If you haven't read my story, I need to replace my entire wardrobe because everything I owned went to charity. That is because the total body lift that I had this year took me from a size 14/16 to a 4/6.
So the takeaway of my story is about living life to the fullest. Whatever you desire, pursue it with all of your heart. For me, that began with giving up my fears around plastic surgery - the operations in and of themselves - as well as the cost of surgery. I am delighted that I finally did this. If you aren't familiar with my story, I have been waiting since 2006 to have this surgery with Dr. Capella.
Now that I have conquered those fears, there are other areas of my life where I have let fear hold me back. And this year I resolve not to let fear keep me from doing what I desire to do. I hope you will do the same for yourself and your life.
Happy new you, too!
Slender with big boobs. LIKE!
Nowadays jeans don't advertise your size to the world, but I almost wish they did. I still cannot believe I am wearing size 4 jeans. This pair in the pic is from Lucky Brand. BONUS they were marked down to $30 from $130! Woo hoo, double win!!
Also, continuing the topic of the Great Boob Debate, in this pic I am wearing 38 DD bra from Victoria Secret and XS tee from LOFT. I am really liking the way that I look with my DD girls back. If you recall, I went down to about a B after my breast lift. But as the tissues loosened up, they went to C, then D, and now maybe a DD.
The only thing is, my boobs no longer fill out the top of my bra like they did pre op. So I think I will go for a small implant to give me upper pole fullness, as well as to round out my breasts. I want them to look beautiful in the nude.
Almost there... Just one more round to go.
Results at 3-mos post op
Here are my stats at 3-mos post-operative
Bust w/o bra, standing: 41.5
Bust w/o bra and bent over: 44
Chest beneath breast: 36
Lower abdo: 35
Knee top: 16.5
Arms upper: 12
Arms above elbow: 11
Size 4 jeans, size XS and S shirts
The difference between my stage 1 and stage 2 body contouring:
I lost an additional
15 pounds (5lbs and 1 liter of fat were removed during surgery) and
My ultimate results to date from body contouring (stages 1 and 2):
Weight lost: 36 pounds (11lbs and 1 liter of fat removed during surgeries)
Inches lost: 42.5 inches
Sizes lost: down 5 sizes, from size 14 to size 4
36 C after breast lift (from 38 DD)
I went into the dressing room with her and I removed my top and bra (behind a closed door, thank you). So ta dah, my ta tas are 36 C. I have been wondering for some time now just what size I am.
And now I think back to my comment, which was, if Dr. Capella could get me to a 36 C with the breast lift then I would not get implants. But alas I want upper pole fullness and a rounded breast shape, so I will need a small implant. I truly do not want to go large with my breasts and I am thinking that when he raises my nipple/areola that it will make my breast smaller. So I am hoping that a small implant will not take me past a C.
I tried on one of their sample bras that makes the breasts two sizes bigger and I did not like the way it looked at all.
Correction: 36 D after breast lift - no implant - from a 38 DD
?What does it feel like to go from physically unattractive to physically attractive?
I just read another article that discussed why companies should pay beautiful CEOs more money. It is because when a beautiful CEO appears in the media, stock prices go up. The article goes on to discuss the advantages that beautiful people have in business, typically getting paid more and being viewed as more trustworthy.
I concur. I have written several times, on various social media, how plastic surgeons are in the business of selling beauty and thus I would never go to a plastic surgeon who was not very good looking. Both of my plastic surgeons (Dr. Capella who did my body work and Dr. Catherine Winslow who did my face work) are not only highly skilled surgeons in their respective fields, but also they are physically beautiful people. I am fully aware that their looks have no bearing whatsoever on the results they will give me -- but that being said, it makes me somehow feel that they will. My mind logically (or illogically) tells me that an ugly surgeon would not have the same appreciation for beauty and thusly not deliver the best results to me.
As for me, I have been ugly and I have been beautiful and everything in-between throughout different time periods in my life. Ok, maybe ugly is too harsh a term, but I was unattractive at times. Although my personality, talent, and skills have remained constant despite my changing physical appearance, I have experienced the bias of beauty when it comes to being hired for roles in my career. When I am beautiful the better roles come more easily. I am sure that I am more confident presenting myself when I look beautiful, and that certainly translates well for my interviewer, but my looks are no doubt a factor.
Conversely, when I was morbidly obese, I could not get hired in my profession and had to do consulting work for many years. As soon as I lost the weight, I got a very high paying position with a medical advertising agency.
Advertising... Another profession where beauty is of premium importance. You are selling brand image for your high paying clients. And just like me with my bias towards beautiful plastic surgeons, people have a bias towards beautiful ad agency movers and shakers.
I have been in healthcare marketing my entire career. The industry is filled with good looking people. After all, good looking people are considered more healthy, more trustworthy, more everything that is good. So when it comes to health and marketing health, beauty is an important asset. Have you ever seen an ugly pharmaceutical sales rep waiting in your physician's practice? No. Never.
As for my personal life, I really have not experienced a difference in the way that my family, friends, neighbors, or even strangers treat me based on my beauty or lack thereof. My guess is that family, friends, and neighbors see the real me, the person that I am inside, regardless of my exterior. An for strangers, they probably just don't care either way.
Would anyone care to share their thoughts on the topic?
Love my body, dislike my new waist
I am really loving this body of mine. Dr. Capella is a brilliant surgeon in a class all by himself. But I feel that my thick waist makes me look top heavy and boxy. When I spoke on the phone with Dr. Capella last month, he said that I have flesh in the horizontal vector that would almost need a thigh lift approach (to correct my core medially). That would require incisions along both sides of my torso, as he does not do the anchor cut. However, he does not want to incise my sides because he does not find the trade off of scars is worth the result I will achieve.
I am really hoping that when he examines me in person that he finds another approach that he can take to correct this. The flesh is on my sides and back and I do not like that my front is tight as a drum and my back is loose. The reason that I got the LBL conversion from the TT was so that the back would match the front. I am truly hoping that he can excise the fat on my back through the incision above my buttocks.
When I wear a binder to bed at night then next morning my waist is smaller. And if I wear it a few nights in a row it is considerably smaller. However not wearing it, my waist gets bigger again.
I have been working out but my core is not responding as of yet. But why would I be able to exercise this off when none of the other excess flesh could be exercises away?
Don't let labels hold you back
I had some complications after my stage 2 surgery that rendered me useless for a good month. All that time my husband lovingly nursed me to health and took over all of my household responsibilities on top of his own. His love and compassion touched me in a way that I had not anticipated. It meant the world to me.
Then he did it all again when I had my face lift. He is my hero. Sorry ladies, but he is taken.
Answering people who ask, "Why do you look different?"
So I posted to my aunt on facebook that I got new hair color, new cut, new makeup, and I lost 35 pounds and 42 inches. I sometimes post about working out. So I guess they think I lost through diet and exercise, which is sort of true, but it happened because of the plastic surgery mostly.
So as a best practice if you want to avoid having to be in the awkward position of answering prying neighbors and nosy coworkers, then create a diversion with a vastly new look (hair and makeup).
Do You Know Your Real Self?
PISCES – The Partner for Life (February 19 to March 20)
Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to others but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.
Size 2 woo hoo
For those of you interested, I am posting photos of my thigh lift incisions on my thigh lift review.
Back in NJ, everything looks the same except me :-)
I still can't believe this is what I look like. It seems too good to be true, like this is something that happens to some lucky person, but not to me. And I wonder when I will awaken from this wonderful dream, back in my fat saggy body. I recall when I was 4-mos post my first plastic surgery, a tummy tuck, I asked Dr. Capella why I still felt big. He told me that maybe my mind hadn't caught up with my body yet. The changes happen so quickly and are so dramatic. I think to an extent my mind is still catching up to my body. This is an amazing journey and you just cannot understand the magic of it all until you experience it for yourself.
Everywhere I went out and about today in NJ, men were eyeing me. This doesn't happen in the Midwest city that I moved to after my tummy tuck. Men are more gentile there. One man today even mouthed the word "wow" as he looked at me. I don't think he meant for me to see that, and he smiled and said "hi." It was very flattering. Thanks mister!
BTW, it feels good to be home.
I've Lost 46 inches and 37 pounds and 5 sizes!
Mu ultimate results to date from body contouring (stages 1 and 2):
I lost 46 inches and 37 pounds (11lbs and 1 liter of fat removed during surgeries), and 5 sizes, from size 14 to size 4
Here's how that plays out:
4” lost from bust
2.5” lost from chest
8.5” lost from waist
10.5” lost from lower abdo
6” lost from hips (and FUPA)
4” total lost from thighs
2” total lost from knee top
6” total lost from upper arms
2.25” total lost from arms just above the elbow
I am gobsmacked and so stinking happy!!!
As of Today I Have Lost 125 Pounds
I checked my BMI. It is 25.1, still in the over-weight category by .2 (BMI of 24.9 is normal for my height). That just goes to show how ridiculous the BMI chart is. I am thin. I would not want to get too thin. The BMI chart is a load of BS, invented by an insurance company.
I have a new dress from Banana Republic. It is pictured in the photo above. I am thrilled to say that the dress, which is size XS, looks so much better on me than the model. It hugs my curves, unlike the way it hangs on the model's all-too-thin body. How cool is that, to be able to say that I look better than the model. Yeah me!
My 4-mos post op with Dr. Capella
I still cannot believe it sometimes... as though I might wake up from this wonderful dream one day, in my bed in my former puddle of flesh and fat. I have lost 46 inches and 38 pounds.
We planned out my final surgery, and will finalize that when he sees me in person. I am so excited for my sage 3 surgery and the completion of my transformation. I am growing more excited each day in anticipation!
We ended the call with a laugh. I asked him if he remembered backs months ago what I told him that I wanted him to say after my surgery was completed. I had told him that I wanted him to say, "G_d damn, that's my best work ever!" LOL. Dr. Capella told me that I look incredible, fantastic, and he said there weren't enough adjectives to describe it. That was awfully sweet.
Super excited, I booked my travel today!
While I am in NJ, a friend who is a photographer wants me to come to his studio in NYC for a photo shoot. THAT would be terrific fun! Also while I am in NJ I will get to see the ever lovely Jass28, whom I have not seen since she was 1 week post op and I was 2 weeks post op. I cannot wait to see her again!!!
Then I am off to California from NJ to spend a few months with my girls in beautiful Monterrey. I will turn 50 on March 18th and I am so lucky to be able to spend this birthday with them! They were here for my birthday last year and the beginning of my transformation. It is fitting that they will be with me near the completion of my transformation. After a few months in Cali, I fly back to NJ for my final surgery.
Wow, I cannot believe this whirlwind journey is nearing the end. I am going to miss it, somehow, and the friend that I have made in Dr. Capella.
She said, "That jacket looks so much better on you than the model."
I came out of the dressing room wearing a short dress, leggings, and a "vegan leather" moto jacket. I wanted to see myself in the larger mirror and just then another woman was exiting her dressing room. She stopped me and exclaimed, "That jacket looks so much better on you than the model I saw online." I told her, "Thank you so much. That is so great to hear you say that because back in April I weighed 198 pounds!"
It got even better form there because the sales women wanted me to come out and model all the clothes for them that I was trying on. One sales woman said, "C'mon out Cheryl and show us that hot body!" So cute! I told her all about my diet, exercise, and plastic surgery with Dr. Capella and Dr. Winslow. She knew of Dr. Winslow as she is local. As for Dr. Capella, she exclaimed, "WHERE IS HE?!?!"
Here is a selfie of me in the size S dress from Hot Mama and size XS leggings from LOFT that I was wearing when I tried on the moto jacket at Hot Mama. I am wearing a denim jacket in the pic (not the moto jacket), which was taken at Victoria Secret, where I also picked up a terrific bra size 36DD. I love the writing on the mirror.
Woo hoo in size 2 jeans and ready for my final transformation
at about 4.5-mos post op I had so e swelling that reduced and I am in size 2 Lucky Brand jeans now - so excited!!! And my breasts have gotten bigger. I am now in Victoria Secret 36DD. Wow, did I ever hit the jackpot with my surgeries. I am so blessed. It just keeps getting better and better.
In about a week I fly to NJ for a consult with dr. Capella for my last surgery, sizing for my implants, and some in-office procedures. I am a little apprehensive about my last surgery. I have been so extremely fortunate in terms of results and complications so far. Am I pressing my luck by going under another surgery to perfect everything? On the other hand, I want to see this through, and come out with the very best outcome possible.
My Photo Shoot
I had so much fun at the shoot and he got some awesome shots. I felt like a model walking through NYC with my gym bag of clothes slung over my shoulder and my little Boston Terrier (a retired show dog) on a leash in my other hand. When I was a teenager I had wanted to model. Now I feel as though I finally fulfilled that wish.
More from My Photo Shoot
Scheduled my final surgery for May 29th
We planned out my surgery for May 29th. It will take four hours for breast implants and tweaks to the incredible work Dr. Capella has done already to my formerly fat body. Perhaps the biggest surprise to everyone is we are redoing my body lift, including the muscle plication. Dr. Capella said that since I lost so much weight since my tummytuck tuck that he can probably replicate me and make me smaller. He is amazing to do this - I cannot imagine any other surgeon would. Dr. Capella is a very special person and I surely will miss him.
I am excited and anxious at the same time.
Color pix from my 50th birthday photo shoot
Dr. Joseph F. Capella and Dr. Catherine Winslow took me from fat to fab at 50yrs old.
Moving my stage 3 surgery date out
Well, in the plus column, my Summer will not be ruined with another recovery. As well, I was facing 4-5 months without sex if I had surgery on May 29 as planned. That is because I am traveling without my husband for nearly 3-months (so no sex), and then there are the 6-8 weeks of post op recovery during which there is no sex. I am ready to explode as it is and it has only been 1-month. I don't know how I could go 4-5 months.
I am going to do another sizing for my implants. I am very torn on size. Yes, The Great Boob Debate continues. I am defiantly sold on saline moderate profile. What I need to decide is 400cc, 450cc, or 500cc. Obviously I decided to go large. It is now a question of how large.
Inspiration and motivation, words of wisdom
Whatever it is that you a re trying to accomplish for yourself through plastic surgery, I think the following words that I found from Whole9 Life LLC will inspire and motivate you to succeed. They meant something to me and I shall refer back to them the next time I do not want to run, or I want to eat something that is not good for me or my health goals.
"It is not hard. Don't you dare tell us that this is hard. Bearing cancer is hard. Birthing a baby is hard. Losing a parent is hard. Drinking your coffee black IS NOT HARD (I think they wrote that example just for me!). You've done harder things than this and you have no excuse not to complete your program as written (or whatever it is you are trying to do). It's only 30 days, and it's for the most important health cause on Earth -- the only physical body you will ever have in this lifetime."
It is always a choice. Right now, this very minute, make that choice you have been vacillating on. Live a life you love because time is running out while you sit there ruminating on yr choices and not moving forward.
The Great Boob Debate - A Decision Has Been Reached, Sort Of...
Ran my first 3k this morning
Since my transformation I am into breaking through any of my boundaries and living life fully. Dr. Capella planted the seed: During a phone consult this year, when he really saw my transformation for the first time (via photos) he told was very pleased and told me that now I had the confidence to do things I have never done before.
I wonder what's next? Yum...
The Great Boob Debate Revisited...
The thing is, I have been having my doubts if this bra makes me a true DDDD, just as I wonder if the bra in the other pic made me a true DDD. I guess in the end, I will live with each bra for a while to decide what I like. Then I will just ask Dr. Capella to make me look like that.
Any advice and opinions are appreciated!
Dr. Capella says he is convinced my scars will fade to skin color. I sure hope so. My husband has not seen me in months but the other day he saw my nude body via Skype. He told me he had forgotten how cut up I was all over my body. Wow, I had been exploring the idea of Dr. Capella cutting the sides of my torso (vertical torsoplasty) and my husband's comment made me keenly aware of just how many scars Dr. Capella has put on my body already. I firmly decided no more scars.
I absolutely love my belly button. It is hooded like a model's belly button. It also sits lower on my body and I like that. I had thought of getting it pierced but then decided that I did not want to ruin this beautiful work. So I may get another piece of my anatomy pierced :-)
Stocking up on Size 2 and XS after Plastic Surgery
Before my plastic surgery last year I was a size 14/16. After my stage 1 surgery, a tummy tuck, I went down to a size 8 at about 3.5-mos post op. After my stage 2 surgery (the surgery that this review is about) I went down to a size 2 at about 4.5-mos post op. So of course, I had to replace my entire wardrobe. The only things that fit from my former wardrobe are socks and shoes.
I still cannot believe I am wearing size 2 skinny jeans. I think to myself that they must be cut big and that I am really not a size 2. But when I pull them off the rack they look so small. And I have tried jeans at LOFT, Lucky Brand, Nordstrom, and Express and I am consistently wearing a 2 (once in a blue moon I will take a 4).
I am really enjoying this!
My breast lift, "Not Worth It"???
"Appears to be a very, very, conservative lift."
"You need a GOOD breast lift."
Worse, comments have come back from plastic surgeons in the community, and these are the comments that have driven me to tears. I was speechless when I heard the following:
"This is by far the worst breast lift I have seen."
"Her breasts looked better before the lift."
"If I did not see the scars I never would have known she'd had a lift."
Other comments were too crude for me to reprint.
I spoke with my surgeon and he said he thinks they look fine and that he doesn't know how much more he can raise the NAC. And although I have had a long relationship with him, the other plastic surgeons' comments were very compelling. I have never liked my breast lift and so many patients told me it was a beautiful breast lift that I began to mistrust my own observation. But these surgeons are confirming what I have always felt, that this was a failed breast lift. I just don't know who to believe anymore.
I've posted my photos and welcome all opinions and advice.
Clarification on Breast Lift Post
It guess the bottom line is that the surgeons' comments came very unexpectedly. I was speechless and brought to tears. I have been through so much drama with my body contouring and I have a very low tolerance for any more.
It doesn't matter whether my surgeon thinks my lift looks fine and other surgeons think it looks bad. What is important is that the revision and augmentation be executed with a technique that will be successful. To that end, I have asked Dr Capella to stage them because right now every fiber in my body tells me not to do them together.
I am so relived!!!!
Last Friday, Dr. Capella and I spoke on the phone and I told him of my concerns that these surgeons had expressed. He was very nice and gentle and I am grateful that I have the kind of patient-physician relationship with him in which such difficult conversations are able to be had. He is indeed a gentleman and a gentle man.
Here are the surgeons comments if you care to read them: http://www.realself.com/question/2-stage-lift-and-implant-post-mwl-my-lift-failure-good-implants-and-else-in
First bikini beach day in decades
I felt very comfortable walking around in a bikini in public. I have said it before and I will say it again: Plastic surgery is very freeing!
Measurements and Weight at 7-mos pot op: I continue to transform
Bust w/o bra 41
Lower abdo just below BB 34.5
Thighs R 21.5 L 20.75
Knee top R 16.25 L 16.25
Arms upper R 11 L 11
Arms above elbow R 10 L 10.75
Jeans size 2
Compare this to my results one month ago:
Bust w/o bra 41.5
Lower abdo just below BB 35
Thighs R 22 L 21.5
Knee top R 16 L 16
Arms upper R 11.5 L 11.75
Arms above elbow R 10.5 L 10.5
Jeans size 2
For a real eye opener, compare these stats to my pre-op stats (before my tummy tuck surgery):
Lower abdo 44
Knee top 17.5
Arms upper 14.5
Arms above elbow 11.75
Jeans size 14 tight, barely fit, was probably a 16
Body contouring plastic surgery after massive weight loss can make dramatic and significant physicial improvement!
My Bariatric Life "before" and "after" plastic surgery, 50 inches and 40 pounds gone forever!
A surgery friend told me, "Weight loss surgery saved my life. Plastic surgery saved my soul." That about sums it up!
The Great Boob Debate continues...
Selfies above show me in a range of sizes from 36D to 36DDDD. Here are my assessments. I hope this helps someone when she is deciding on her implants.
1. Several post MWL women and a few PS here on RealSelf have warned me about going large with my implants. One surgeon said I would probably need another breast lift in a year. Patients echoed the same concerns. One said the only thing worse than a rock in a sock is a boulder in a sock. That is quite a visual!
2. I am considering if the use of Alloderm or Strattice used to create a sort of internal bra to support the implants would be the best approach to ensure long term that the breasts do not sag.
3. Larger breasts will make my torso more shapely, especially since I have a thicker waist and narrow hips.
4. Smaller breasts make me look and feel thinner.
5. I do not have any money left for future surgeries (truth be told I cannot even afford my next surgery of $5k). So a future revision to further lift the breast or change out the implant is out of scope. Furthermore, I made a promise that this is my last surgery.
6. My breasts are still ptotic after the lift so a good lift revision is needed. The larger the implant the less my breasts can be lifted.
7. My breasts need to be shaped and the NAC repositioned on the center of the breast mound.
8. The breast tissue of a post massive weight loss woman does not have the elasticity of the breasts of a normal woman, making them prone to sag.
What do I want?
Beautifully shaped breasts that are higher on my chest wall and perky, with more tissue under the NAC than above it. Nice cleavage and upper pole fullness, and Breasts that are sufficiently large to make me feel and look sexy but not so large that they make me look top heavy or feel fat. No need for revisions in the future.
Signed up for my first 5k
I discussed the issue with my daughter and she suggested that I try sports and things of that nature involving my body that I could not or would not do before. She encouraged me to sign up for the Color Me Rad 5k. And yesterday I did just that. On September 6th, I will run my first 5k.
While I was in California for a few months with my daughter and granddaughter, I ran my first 3k. And several times out in public my new found confidence enabled me to dance freely with my granddaughter as if no one were looking. One occasion was on the boardwalk at fisherman's wharf where my granddaughter, daughter, and I danced to the music of a couple of street musicians as onlookers enjoyed the music in the seated position. Another time was at a fair where my granddaughter and I danced in front of a very large crowd, not once, but twice, trying to follow the Latin dancers' moves. It was great fun. A year ago I would not have done this. I would have been inhibited from truly sucking every ounce of joy out of the moment, constrained by my fat body. As it is, I became lost in the moment of my dancing unabashedly with my granddaughter. I am one lucky lady.
WHO THE F*CK DID YOU USE????? YOU LOOK SOOO HOT!
Her email made me giddy. She is gorgeous so that made her compliment extra special. I wonder if she'll be seeing Dr. Capella for a consult soon?
The Great Boob Debate, part deux
Small beautiful breasts
What changed my mind? Well, I appreciate all of the many comments I got from readers on RealSelf both "for" and "against" large breasts. I considered those comments very deeply.
What really was eye opening for me was when I did an experiment on myself wearing 36DDD and 36DDDD padded bras. Initially I really loved the large beautiful breasts. But when I took those bras off at the end of the experiment during which I wore the bras for several weeks, I found that I felt very lean in my 36D bra. That was very eye opening for me.
Keeping it "real"
Allow me to explain something about Social Media: We all have vulnerabilities, histories, ups, downs - and today's media provide ways for us to at once share these vulnerabilities and to expose the world to how we think and feel at a particular moment in time.
When I post, I am ultimately making a statement about myself. If, on occasion, I post something here that's bound-up with complex emotions that may never ever resolve, that is my choice, even if I may later regret being so authentic and transparent about my feelings.
And it would be very nice if on those occasions, this social media site allowed me to edit or delete my post... Just like Facebook does. Readers be aware that whatever you post here is in the public domain forever.
More small beautiful breasts
The Great Boob Debate is Over!
I met with Dr. Capella this past Friday to do another sizing for my breast implants. In the end, I firmly decided not to go large. We selected 325 saline moderate profile filled to 375cc. Dr. Capella said the material adds another 20cc and so we are looking at about 400cc.
We spent a lot of time discussing what I wanted my breasts to look like. This was the area of greatest difficulty for me. I have had trouble understanding the NAC positioning / breast lift revision and the size my breasts would be ultimately. I am glad to say I finally get it.
Although I wear a 36DD bra, when my breasts are nude Dr. C said they look to be about a B cup. With the implants I should be a D. I will be very happy with that. I feel very good about my decision this time around.
I am excited to complete my transformation.
Consult with Dr. Capella
I meant to post this photo with my update above. I will also add that Dr. Capella and I went over everything for my final surgery and I am thrilled that Kimberly, his AMAZING new surgical coordinator, secured the exact date and location I wanted for my surgery. I will be in the 9th floor plastic surgery center on Monday, September 29th.
I am really looking forward to an enjoyable Summer and my final stage surgery in the Fall with Dr. Capella!
Living the Dream
I am seizing the moment, doing things I never would have done with my fat body. Most importantly I am enjoying life to the fullest.
So far I have:
Run a 3k with my daughter and granddaughter
Signed up for a 5k
Got a body piercing
Danced like no one was watching in the middle of the boardwalk with my granddaughter
Did same in front of a huge crowd at the fair
Wore a bikini
Went topless on a nude beach
And right now I am at a beachfront bar all alone and completely comfortable with myself.
The High Emotional Cost of Plastic Surgery that No One Tells You About
Women often tell me how brave I am to go through all of this. But very few people know the full story of what I have been through. It is beyond the pale, egregious, and completely undeserved.
Let me recount it all for you, if I may. There was, in chronological order:
Humiliation of my pre op body being naked for photos and markups, and Betadine wash
Rushing to the ER in the middle of the night for a possible complication (I turned out to be A-OK)
Verbal abuse and harassment by a former medical assistant
Sexual assault during two exams conducted by a plastic surgeon (NOT affiliated with Capella Plastic Surgery)
My doctors refusing to help me when I turned to them after the assault
Being screened for several rare diseases right before my stage 2 surgery and the belief that I would die during surgery
The manifestation of panic attacks, which I had never had previously and which are likely PTSD
Elevated blood pressure due to stress that required medication to control -- and which subsided after stage 2 surgery
Complications from my brachioplasty that resulted in my right arm incision opening up (http://www.realself.com/review/ramsey-nj-arm-lift-flankplasty-breast-lift-body-lift-medial-thigh-lift), webbing in the armpit, and frozen shoulder syndrome
Traveling out of state for surgery and being all alone during weeks of recovery
Being nearly totally dependent on my husband during the first few months of recovery and not being able to live a normal life during months of recovery after each of my three surgeries last year
Dissension within the family
My plastic surgeon canceling my facelift surgery because I ask too many questions and take too much of his time
The PA getting mad at me on the phone and later refusing to do my final plastic surgery
My husband accusing me of being too into my looks and up to no good
I think that captures most if not all of it. And every single time I held my head up high and moved forward, forgiving those who hurt me, and trying to make things right with them. I guess I have been far too nice... or should I say naive?
And what keeps going through my mind right now? That little voice inside my head says, "You don't matter."
Was it worth it -- was the plastic surgery results worth all the money spent and all of the physical and emotional trauma? What choice do I have but to say yes, and hod my head high and move forward? There are no do-overs.
I have to be honest...
To be fair, my husband supported me through this incredulous plastic surgery journey for a very long time. But it took its toll on an already tenuous situation: relocating out of state, starting a new business, and renovating a 6600 sq.ft. house. He did not deserve to be further burdened with the "shit storm" that surrounded my plastic surgery. As I wrote at the beginning of my this post, everyone has their breaking point. My husband got me through most of the bad times. And as I have posted here many times, my surgeon helped me through lots of rough patches. That neither were there for me 100% of the time does not make them bad people. It makes them human. But, that realization does not make me hurt any less "in the moment." It just makes me able to forgive when I can see things more objectively.
We all are imperfect and I must be honest and say that there are things that I have said or done to my husband and to my surgeon, and even to the PA, that I wish I could take back. But as I wrote in my original post, there are no do overs. That someone remains upset with me is not a poor reflection on that person. Rather it means that they are still operating from a place of emotional pain.
I am not one to hold a grudge. My life is too short to be spent nurturing animosity. I have wasted too many precious decades of my life in a negative state of mind. When I forgive someone, I make myself responsible for my own happiness, I create happiness in a place where there was pain. And I would much rather see the good in someone than the bad. It is a truth that some people have no good in them. In the case of the assault, I cannot forgive that surgeon (again he is NOT affiliated with Capella Plastic Surgery) but I can accept what happened and relegate it to the past and finally move forward. It took a long time for me to let go.
I will commend my surgeon. He always has supported me expressing my feelings and giving readers the whole picture of what plastic surgery entails. Patients often go in with rose-colored glasses when they should go into surgery with eyes wide open, fully-informed. Anyone who has followed my journey knows that I tell it like it is: Moments of elation, moments of despair, and all in between.
Generally I am very upbeat - even delighted - with this amazing journey I have been on. These trials and tribulations that I have been through are all part of my journey. I wish things were different but I cannot control what happens to me, only how I respond to it.
I will be OK in the end. If one thing I have learned about myself through all this is that I am strong.
Another photo shoot
So where are all the real men?
I cannot stomach a man who lies, who will not protect a woman, or who makes weak-willed statements like "I can't" and "I don't know." Many obese women "wake up" and realize they deserve better once they have their weight loss surgery and/or plastic surgery. If this describes you, then be sure to set your standards high and do not compromise them in your next relationship.
If, on the either hand, you are fortunate to have a good man who has stuck with you through thick and thin (as I literally have) then hold onto him with all your heart. There aren't many real men out there, but rather lots of leftovers that no confident women wanted.
I was hospitalized overnight
The pain was so bad that I could barely talk. It shot up into my chest and out my back. I was drenching in sweat when the EMTs arrived and dizzy and nauseous. I had been having diarrhea every morning for a week but yesterday I had 6 bouts or more. In the ambulance they found my BP was extremely low and put me on a nebulizer because I was wheezing.
At the hospital they pulled a ton of blood work and stuck me about 6 different times. I also had a CT Scan and stool culture and pathologies. They found my gut was inflamed, I had blood acidosis, and some of my labs were off. They said I was dehydrated and the cause was an infection, either viral or bacterial. I had a second attack while in the ER, although not as intense as the first.
Even after 3 bags of IV fluids my BP remains very low. But I came home today because I could not bear another night in the hospital. The hospital is brand new and gorgeous. The staff were friendly and attentive. But I was bored out of my mind and with the constant interruptions from staff I could not g any sleep. It was ridiculous.
I will find out tomorrow if this is a bacterial or viral infection. But the pain I felt was the worse pain I have ever felt... Worse than my gastric bypass or any of my plastic surgeries. I hope not to go through that again.
My BP is now good and my WBC is normal -- both good things. However, I am having problems with lightheadedness, nausea, stomach pain, and diarrhea. Net net, they do not know what is wrong with me and are taking a wait and see approach. Boo!
The physician said that sometimes people develop gut problems after an infection, such as lactose intolerance. I don't eat dairy so I doubt that even if I am lactose intolerant that there is a correlation. He is having my colonoscopy and biopsy records sent from NJ so he can review the results and see if anything has changed.
Well, wish me luck. I want to get back to the gym! But right now I don't feel able to exercise. Funny, when I told the doc this he called me an exercise freak (in a polite way). Ha! I told him I used to be a couch potato who weighed 285 pounds and I don't want to get back on that slippery slope! BTW I just saw my pre WLS pix when I was back in NJ (from 11 yrs ago) and I was horrified. I had forgotten just how huge I was. It made me very sad and I shall never know why I did that to myself, as I was thin as a teen.
Out of the frying pan and into the fire...
Hyper urination and diarrhea... You think I'd be skinny by now!
Now when I ask my PCP for antibiotics for a bacterial infection my symptoms clear up. I hate being right all the time, LOL, just kidding, kind of...
I already know I am going to be on the phone with the hospital fighting this bill.
Wow, my posts have been so negative lately... so let's change that!
So here are crude mock-ups of me with breasts that are too small, too big, and just right. Forgive that they are so crude. I actually have excellent photoshop skills but do not feel like spending the time to execute high res mock-ups. What do you think?
Enough with my negative attitude of late. I am done!
First world problems and successes
Even better, my waist has finally gotten smaller! It is now the smallest it has been since getting my tummy tuck. I think the biggest change was to my back. I still have excess there even after my LBL. I honestly hate it. Seriously. Dr. Capella grabbed it with his hand and I think I threw up in my mouth just a little bit when he did that. Blech. The next time I saw him he asked if I had gained weight because the area was tighter. NO!!!! I lost weight. So I guess eliminating dairy melted the fat away from there and brought my waist in. Yeah!
I still have a long way to go before I am satisfied with my waist. BUT progress is being made. Before my tummy tuck my waist was 41 inches. It is now 31.5 inches. My goal is to get to 29.5 inches (any less than that will be a bonus)!
As for my first world problem, I am in physical therapy for my arm lift complication. The range of motion problem has not resolved from the brachioplasty done back in October. Sure, it is a serious complication that I've had with the right arm. But I need to keep in a positive frame of mind: things could be worse. Some people cannot afford plastic surgery. I could. Some people cannot even get insurance approval for Bariatric surgery. I did. Had I not had my RNY gastric bypass and turned my health and my life around, I honestly think I would be dead right now. I truly mean that. That thought sends shivers up and down my spine. It is a very sobering thought that I nearly are myself to death.
I posted a photo that shows the ROM issue, at about the worst this was how far I could reach my right arm behind my back as compared to my left arm. With therapy every day, I have increased the ROM and my right arm now can reach further up my back. And now finally the other day was able to hook/unhook my bra. I cannot reach all the way up to the bra line yet. That is my next goal.
So yeah, if I could defeat my obesity then I can surely conquer this complication.
Reflections on my 1-yr Surgiversary
I had to go to my parents' house in PA to get those photos that predate 2003. I did not keep any in my possession. For a long time they were too hard for me to look at and showed a part of me that I wanted very much to forget. I am able to look at them now, finally, and embrace and love that person who was.
At 50 yrs old I look and feel so much better than I did when I was 22 yrs old, which is when I became an obese person whom I no longer recognized. Why I let myself get that way always will be an unknown. I was thin and pretty in high school; there is one photo of me in the video from high school graduation so you can see for yourself. As for the photos that predate my WLS, they don't even look like the same person in my photos from today.
A patient once told me, "Weight loss surgery saved my life. Plastic surgery saved my soul." That rings true for me. I am on a path to living life fully now, making up for lost time and a life half lived. I am breaking through all of my barriers, the things that have held me back in the past, from being exactly who I want to be and doing what it is I want to do. Sometimes that involves easy decisions that are relatively quick to make. And sometimes the decisions are very, very hard and take time to work through. I am taking the next year to work on such a decision. Do wish me ultimate success in that please. I can use your support right now. I will report back in a year's time, on my 2-yr Surgiversary.
In the meantime, to those embarking upon their transformations, I wish that you find the joy and love of your bodies that I have found. To those whom have completed their journeys, please be sure to write an accurate review - sharing the triumphs and the tribulations as I have done - so as to pave the way for those who will follow in your footsteps.
My Bariatric Life AMAZING Transformation
Too good not to share...
I have not worn these jeans since. But today I found them in my closet and thought I'd slip into them to wear something that was a little more loose. Most of my jeans are size 2 nowadays, a few 4s. I was incredulous how huge the size 6 boyfriend jeans were on me -- I can literally pull them up and down over my hips and buttocks without unbuttoning them.
I have not been amazed in a while... after all, eventually we get used to our new bodies... but this did amaze me and so I wanted to share it with all of you.
Merry Christmas, Peace, Love
19-mos post op
It's nice to wear a bikini with complete comfort and confidence. Yes I have scars down my thighs but they are far better than fat, and largely hidden unless I splay my legs open, which I don't normally do. Scarring is very subjective and your individual results may vary. BTW I did not do any scar treatment or wear compression garments.
My scars still get lighter and darker depending on the day. They are looking pretty good today. I think I will begin laser treatment next month as I am a bit self conscious about these scars, particularly the right arm that opened up.
BTW I did not use scar treatment or compression on arms either. Scars are very individual from what I have seen and there are many factors that come into play. For example tension and blood flow, and my arm scars and tummy tuck scars are dark and thick while my breast lift, butt lift scars are thin and light. My thigh lift scars are a bit thicker than the breast lift but thinner than the tummy tuck, and they are white.
I am working with my naturopathic chiropractic doctor on other issues and he did a treatment to my arm. It hurt like all heck but I've really built up an ability to endure pain after all this surgery, PT, and not to mention a body piercing. After just one treatment I saw vast improvement. However it went away and so I think that after several treatments it will "Stick."
I will post pix of my other scars as I am able.
Lastly, It's really very nice to be able to go out in public without makeup and look nice and feel confident.
More pix of scars at 19-mos post op
Anyway, to clarify, the arm scars are what I want to have laser on, not the thighs. The arms are dark, especially the right one that had the complications. It is the right arm, also, that the naturopathic chiropractic doctor is doing some manipulation to gain more of the range of motion that was lost from the complication. See my arm lift review for details.
I've added pix of the scars from the breast lift, butt lift, and tummy tuck as promised. The TT scar is thick and dark but I felt secure enough about it to go completely nude at the woman's wet area at Eau Spa today. I did not want to miss the opportunity to experience the jacuzzi, sauna, and steam room in the buff -- and it was a fabulous experience.
The breast lift and butt lift scars are very light.
At any given moment in our lives we all manifest our own reality. Speak your truth. Be your real self.
You may read my previous review of Dr. Capella here for my tummy tuck surgery: http://www.realself.com/review/ramsey-nj-my-tummy-tuck-results-more-than-expected As for this surgery - a body lift of my entire upper and lower body and an inner thigh lift - he has been extremely supportive and compassionate beyond what I think any other surgeon would have done. The man is simply remarkable. I have gone through many stresses leading up to the day of my surgery and Dr. Capella was always there when I needed him, whether it was to resolve a problem or spend countless hours consulting me. He has gone above and beyond what any other surgeon would have done. I felt safe under his care both during surgery and in the recovery period that followed when I had some minor complications. There are certain special people who come into our lives that leave their imprint upon us forever. I will never forget how much care he provided to make sure that I went into surgery comfortable emotionally and with all of my questions answered. And I will always have the wonderful body that he to sculpted for me. Dr. Capella is the top plastic surgeon for post-bariatric and massive weight loss patients. He is an innovator and pioneer in the field and has one of the largest experiences in the world having performed more than 10,000 body contouring procedures. He truly excels at sculpting beauty from gobs of fat – not only am I living proof of that but also check the many hundreds of patient photos on his website who are living proof, too! I went from a size 14/16 to a size 2 in just 10-months! I promise you that if anyone can make your body look good, it is Dr. Capella. He seems too good to be true, but he really is THAT good. This I promise you.