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A Dream That Has Turned to a Nightmare - Ramat Aviv

My name is Emma,I am 19 years old,from Israel.I am...

My name is Emma,I am 19 years old,from Israel.I am not sure where it all started,I only remember the person who pushed me to this,the person was my mother.She used to comment on how my nose has changed since I was a child.Not in a good way.Then there was a girl at school,who mentioned how horrible my nose is and then,then I started developing inferiority complex.I was 14 when i decided to have a rhinoplasty by the age of 18.Since then,every single day i kept thinking about it,I planed and imagined my life with another nose, seemed to me that it would change everything, people would start loving me, I would start loving myself.Little did I know how stupid I am.That day has arrived,I wasn't reading much about rhinoplasty,I didnt explore the doctors well enough,only had two consiltations and for some reason chose him. He hasnt even done computer modeling,he said he does not believe in.He has promised to make my nose more refined. I trusted him.Should I mention that after the surgery he never came up to me .On the 7 th day, I came by myself to his clinic and had my cast off. After I looked at the mirrow,the first thing I felt,was disbelief. I thought one more moment and i would wake up and the nightmer would end. But it never happend. I looked at the mirrow and i felt hate,no,not to the surgeon,but to myself.

I only then realide how miserable i was and how did crazy was the idea of voluntarily going under the knife. As i said,it was all too late.I knew that noses arent perfect after the cast off because of the swelling,but i could see crystal clear that the nose he gave me has spoiled my face.It looked nothing like we discussed it would look.Now,its been 4 month since the surgery and since then my social life came to the end,I barely go outside to buy necessary stuff,I cry every single day while looking at the mirrow,I had thoughts of suicide,however,i dont have courage to attempt it.I suffer and i understand that even psychiatrist wont help me.I look like an alien,the nose doesnt mathces my face,it messed up my features.Ive been told that i can change it,fix the nose after 1 year is of,however,I dont believe it could get better.I decided to share with you.What i hate most is the way he shortened my nose,the view from the front is horrible.One more thing that makes it even more complicated is that here in Israel,surgeons don't know how to perfom good nosejobs.There is an absolute lack of aesthetic element and piece of work.They only can shave off humps and shorten noses.I have lately realised that,however it's a fact.You can see those people on the streets who did nosejobs and its so obvious and all of the noses look just the same.I cant even go to a clinic and consultate with some surgeon, hear his opinion, since there are no good face surgeons at all.Moreover,the country is very small,you don't have much of a choice.I am in a vicious circle.

I added one more photo so you can see how my...

I added one more photo so you can see how my previous nose looked better.

It's my 5th month,still feel horrible while...

It's my 5th month,still feel horrible while looking at myself,mostly the front view makes me panic.I am hopeless since I know that the tip is changing as time goes on,but the area between eyes and the bridge,the boney part,heals fast and doesn't change with time.Basically the wide bridge will stay the same,that is the only thing that devastates me.I've been to the psychiatrist appointment,he prescribed me antidepressants and thats it.I bought them,but I am not going to take them,there is no way of me ruining my brain cells with this"mental cure".I feel really horrible,went outside to buy some necessary products,the moment i saw myself at the mirrow,i wished to sink into the ground.Nose looks so reliefless from the front.I don't know how i will manage to live with it.I haven;t been to my surgeon office yet,i don't know whether i should go there at all.I know i'll only start crying,but i don't need his comfort at all.

Yesterday couldn't fall asleep,i felt temperature...

Yesterday couldn't fall asleep,i felt temperature rising throughout my body,this horrible feeling of anxiety.The most horrible is that i got nobody to share with.I know this is not just a matter of my appearance change,my nervous system is crushed,which only makes it worst.Tomorrow is importent day.There is a huge problem that i have got to solve,i don't know how i'll cope with it while being in this condition.I hope everything is going to work out for me.

From now on,every month,I'll be posting photo of...

From now on,every month,I'll be posting photo of my nose.That would be the best way to see if there is any progress going on.

I never mentioned in my post that I also had...

I never mentioned in my post that I also had braces on half year ago.My teeth weren't that messy,one tooth was out of the line so I decided to have braces on because of him.Now,when it's been six months after I had them,I started noticing changes in my face.It became longer,skinnier,the lip's shape has changed a bit,my cheeks have faded away.I had no teeth pulled out,why would braces have such an effect on your face?Does anybody had something familiar?I want to pull braces off and stop the treatment,I don't know whether I would have my face back.The orthodontist claims there are no changes like this possible,but you can see even on the first picture I posted that not only my nose has changed,but the face at all,including the shape,the cheeks and the lips

I added a photo to actually show that I am not...

I added a photo to actually show that I am not some paranoic person and prove that there is a reason why i am depressed that much.On the photo you can see that the nose looks crooked due to the broken left side of the bridge

Today,I have finally visited my surgeon.I shoul...

Today,I have finally visited my surgeon.I shoul have stayed and not show up in front of his office again.On my complaint about the fact that my nose became wider,especially at the area of hump reduction,he said that my nose from the beginning was too thin!Can you believe it,he said my nose was too thin!I was shocked,i could not respond to him.It comes that he decided to wider my niose because he assumes wider noses are beautiful.He also said that there is no dent and the assymetry is a normal thing.When i showed him the picture of my dent being noticable very well,he responded by saying that its a sun light that makes one side look crooked and its me who made it look like this.Seriously,I feel worst than ever,i realized that he is going to fool me up.I am so angry on him,he treated me with no respect,on every single question,he replied with an anger as if i am teaching him and actually came to argue.I am devastated.My surgeon turned out to be an enemy for me.

I had my rhinoplasty done at 26-th of february...

I had my rhinoplasty done at 26-th of february 2012.Yesterday is been exactly 1 year since i did it.Whether anything has changed since my last post regarding the appearance of the nose?The answer will be no.Neither has my frustration.Sometimes I would feel more or less happy?I would even forget for a moment about the nightmare I am going through.I would even feel that it was a dream,unreal,my imagination.This only proves how quickly we forget the bad things while experiencing happiness.But than,next day I wake up and everything comes back.I dont know whether its the way my nose can change its shape so radically sometimes,that I would like it more or less,or may be its about my whole face.You know,we all have those days when we wake up and we look good,the skin is glowy,and face overall looks like it had exactly the right amount of sleep.So at those days,which are rare,I feel okay.I even feel like a normal,happy person.Suddenly i feel confident like never before.
However,the overall result,which is definitely the final one,is unacceptable by me.Today i made some pictures and it seems that the nose hasnt changed at all in comparison to a 3 month period.
I am despearte,depressed,the surgery affected all aspects of my life.I cant start studying,since i hate the way i look,it brings me down,it takes away any motivation to live.And when you dont want to live,studying is the last thing that bothers you.I am not giving up though,haven't found the potencial revision surgeon,but Ive been looking.I mostly looked on russian forums,since it seems eathier for me to fly there for a revision.However,Russia is not that developed in plastic surgery field.It doesnt mean however,that there are no professionals over there.In conclusion,I am still empty-handed and devaststed.

January* not February

January* not February

I am looking for real patients of Dr.Cochran from...

I am looking for real patients of Dr.Cochran from Dellas.If anybody seen one or is one of them,please let me know.
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I will not reveal the doctor's name for now,but I would in the nearest future

1 out of 5 stars Overall rating
1 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
3 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
1 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
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Hi Emma I just had my cast off today and I couldn't belief how horrible and uneven my nose is swollen and my nostrils were. Compared to my before nose I am tempted to say now it is worse. Again this is my revision rhinoplasty and its just been 7 days since the surgery. I can assure you I have researched a long time till I found what I belived is THE expert for revision rhinoplasty. Only to be so disappointed and devastated. I paid $18,000 for this procedure of which I hoped would correct my wrong gone primary rhino. I am totally depressed and disappointed. Looking at your pictures after nose job I can honestly say it looks great to me and I think it fits the shape of your face really well however as many have said before its how you feel about it. I just like to ask you to give yourself a bit more time till you go for revision. I thought I did everything right: I researched for the EXPERT in revision Rhinoplasty, then waited another year to save the money just to feel so horrible today! You look beautiful to me, go out, meet new people and see how they react to your new nose and face. The best of luck to you!
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Hi Mirja, I have read time and time again that there is a lot of swelling right after surgery. Try to stay positive that all that you see now which you dont like is swelling and it will get better. I am looking for dr's for a possible revision. Would you be able to share your story with me. Which dr's did you see, which one you chose, what you had done etc. any information you can give to help me with my decision is apppreciated. I wish you a quick recovery and the amazing results you want and deserve. Please keep us posted on your progress. All the best, Louis
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Hi Emma, I'm sorry you are having such a tough time with your nose. In all honesty, I think your nose looks great. It really does look good. But, as Mia35 said, it doesn't matter what other people think or say, it's all about how your feel. That being said, if I may suggest, please wait a little longer before a revision. Having a revision is a big decision and it really should be made with a sound mind. Good luck to you.
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Hi Sarah, I have gone through something similar and know how hopeless and depressed one can feel. However in all honesty, I think it looks better now both from the side AND from the front - more soft and feminine. I see he shortened it, however I don't think it looks bad, quite the opposite. I do think you should be aware that you by no means look like an alien or even slightly abnormal!! But I know it doesn't matter what I or anyone else say to you - if you are not happy you are not happy! And thus you should so something about it! There ARE good surgeons out there and I am sure you could achieve something you are happy with - However like some of the others have suggested it might be shock from looking different as well. Some people never get used to their "new face" and some feel like they betrayed who they were "born" as - I even heard of people who felt like they erased some of their heritage. I myself have always hated my natural nose because I felt like I didn't look like I felt on the inside, so the change came natural to me. Maybe you are one of the people who just can't except the change? It sounds like it to me, like you initially didn't want to look different but felt pressured into it. I wish surgeons by law were forced to have their patient consult with a psychologist so these things wouldn't happen! I hope you find peace within yourself and it might not matter, but I think you look fantastic Mia
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I honestly think you look beautiful, but I understand your pain, as I am experiencing something similar. I think your face looks beautiful and natural and noses that are too symmetrical look strange. It does look natural, not done at all, but if you are unhappy you might consider a very conservative revision.
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I think ur nose is pretty , girl
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Sarah i know how you feel and it's a nightmare and agony. I wake up every morning with this thought, about what i did 4 months ago, every morning i want to die and go back to sleep and in a coma until my next surgery, because my life is full of shit right now and dying would be better than living it. WEll i have BDD , i had it before the surgery and that's why i got a nose job. I had a very small bump, that's all that was wrong with my nose,*a bump i had to point at and make people come close to my face to see* otherwise was in perfect harmony with my face .My nose was close to perfect. I didnt dislike it. WELL 4 months ago i did the worst mistake in my life, i had a nose job that ruined my nose, right now it's too short,although i told the surgeon not to shorten it. (believe me sarah your nose is NOT short right now even though you feel it is) my tip is wide and bulbous(almost twice as it was before) the collumella is flat and retracted, the bridge is not as defined, and the nostrils are not symmetric. My surgeon agrees that this is not a good result actually. Other people who have seen my photos also agree it's a bad result. So yes, i am not IMAGINING IT. People with BDD imagine things but this is not imagined, it's very real and horrible. I researched a lot for months before getting this surgery, saw photos from patients of this doctor (considered an experienced rhinoplasty surgeon who performs successful revisions!) and i decided to go with him. Well now, the problem i have now with my nose - believe me Sarah you have no idea what a bad result is ... . I also don't see your nose looking worse than before but i see you are suffering and i am not judging you- i understand you . Even though your problem is not serious to me,because your nose hasn't changed drastically and doesn't look worse (to me) and my nose has, in a HORRIBLE way, i can imagine it's painful and serious to you. I agree your bridge is wider and i think this can be fixed , and i don't think it will be a complicated procedure to turn your nose to where it was and even better. However in my case, i am really suffering from a horrendous result. I am also suicidal (with a reason) and i even think about buying pills/alcohol before my next nose job , so if it doesn't work out fine i can just kill myself right away. The sad part is my mother wrote my surgeon an email before the surgery, explaining i have BDD, but he operated on me anyway and DID botch my nose.
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It really doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about your appearance. If you are not happy with your nose, you should have it redone. Maybe some minor refinements of the center of the nose, including the tip, will put your face in the same harmony as it was before, which, I agree, was very nice. Your face looks nice now too, but maybe it changed your appearance too much. Now that it has been a year, you can have revision surgery. Maybe your new nose is too upturned compared to how you were before. You really need to analyze what you do not like about your nose so the new surgery will be successful.
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please take me off of these updates for this thread. Thanks in advance.
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i assume you are able to do it yourself and if not than why dont you send personal message to administrator,but post on my wall
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Exactly - what is she talking about?
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Your profile looks great! Cute and very natural. I don't want to be rude of uncaring, but I think you should definitely continue to see a therapist to talk about your depsression and insecurities. Perhaps you have been blaming it all on your nose when there are underlying issues to address.
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I love the profile myself and there are no complaints about it at all,however,my frontal side got worst than it was before and this bothers me more than bothered me my natural nose in the past.I definitely agree with those who say that I have issues which are psychological,since if I hadnt,i would never go under the knife(considering that i had no expressive deformations before,despite my hump).Again,the insecurity about the way i look presisted before,but now they got worstened and not without a reason.If there really was no visual problems with esthetic of my nose(i am only talking about the front)than you could've bravely blame BDD,but please,admit that the front does not compliment my face features at all,in comparison to what i had before the surgery. I realise that the risk is enormous,but i want ti feel good about myself,i need this harmony in my life so badly and only God knows how awful i feel with the nose i have now.
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Here's the link to all of the reviews written by realself users about surgeries performed by Dr. Cochran: http://www.realself.com/find/Texas/Dallas/Facial-Plastic-Surgeon/spencer-cochran#reviews You can check those out, then send private messages to any of the users who you would like to speak to and ask questions.
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you are stupid you dont like your nose.your nose before was awfull
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Wow, that was unbelievably rude. This is not what this site is for - criticizing and name-calling are reserved for elementary schools. Please act your age and, if you refuse to show the people on here some form of SUPPORT, I'm sure myself and other users will be more than happy to get the site to remove you and your profile.
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OMG who the hell are you to be so rude to anyone on this site? Please let me never run into you. Why in the world would you write something like this? You must be one miserable person. SarahTel Aviv, don't pay attention to ignorant self observed people like IZNOGUD. It is obvious he/she has something wrong with him/her that is why you are being attacked. I am just appalled with this rude poster.
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this is just my opinion.if you want remove me no prob...but honestly i think the problem is on your mind...not on your nose..you cant stand any critisism?
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I definitely can stand criticism,but only the "healthy"criticism and not unbased,senceless comments that bring nothing but stupidness and rudeness.Who on earth gave you the right to call me stupid,piece of unintelligent creature like you.Give me a favor and save your personal opinions to yourself. Dont even bother yourself to respond.
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There is a HUGE difference between telling her that you think that perhaps the problem might exist primarily in her mind, because you don't personally think that her new nose looks as bad as she is saying. That, while still expressing your opinion, is still CONSTRUCTIVE criticism. But to call her stupid, and say that her nose before was "awful" is just rude. That kind of rudeness is not tolerated here - and no, it's not because she "can't stand criticism", it's because you're inconsiderate and posted something outright offensive. This isn't that kind of forum; either accept that or get off of it.
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If there are people who went through rhinoplasty experience with Dr.Cohran,or are about to do it with him,please let me know. No need to post links of his website,since I've already seen all of the pictures posted there.I need to talk to a real patients of his.
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use the link to find out who his patients are and send them a PM
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You look much better after, I think nose jobs can be very damaging to the mind short term especially when they alter our appearance dramatically even when this is for the better. I hope you come to accept your new nose as it's a good one!
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Hi there! I really love your new nose. I think it looks natural and makes u look like a very cute girl. I can't tell any indentations from the pics you posted... We are our own worst critics so I can understand why you're upset. I hope things get better for you. :)
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In all honesty i love short cute noses which is something my surgeons have never been able to give me. We rarely get what we picture in our minds after surgery and that happened to me 3 times and it can be very devastating but at the end of the day lets try to be grateful because there are so many ppl here that have had worse experiences where their noses have collapsed or become completely crooked and it must be so hard to mentally go through that. Im just saying it might not be what you want but it doesnt look bad on you at all. Take one step at a time because you still might not be happy with a revision so do extensive research and just understand that sometimes we have to be careful cause ive been disappointed 3 times n sometimes wish i could go back to my 1st nose but then in comparison to my original they were all an improvement. All the best.
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